Spn 15x18 - Tumblr Posts
The confession literally made me get tumblr, I was never interested on spending even a minute on this site but then I started watching spn for the first time ever all throughout 2020 and when the confession happened I could literally not handle all those feels in the real world so I came here and somehow never truly left again…
What does this show do to us?
I was reading the fucking. tumblr year in review, the destiel section and this bit got me:
every goddamn member of the original fandom activated like fucking sleeper agents to go absolutely feral after the confession lmfao
Going insane over Jensen saying that this scene doesn’t have to be seen as romantic, that this is Dean losing someone he sees as a brother.
When has Dean EVER looked as destroyed as he does here? Not when he lost Sam, not when he lost Bobby, not EVER!
Maybe I’m delulu but Mr. Jacting Joices you cannot tell me that you just suddenly decided to play Dean losing someone in a completely different way than the 10 billion times before and it’s not because it’s a different situation cause Dean lost the love of his life, you simply cannot say this is anything else than someone losing the man he loves!
That moment when one character realizes too late that they've been in a love story this whole time.
Oh. OH.
misha collins first instinct when coming on spn literally being "i'm gonna make it gay" [x]
Hunter husbands
The price was my life. When I experienced a moment of true happiness, The Empty would be summoned, and it would take me forever.
Tonight's episode actually shattered my heart. I haven't cried this hard since Endgame....
SPOILERS
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Dean saying that "Jack isn't family".... Boi do we need to have a fucking talk????
Jack's "I understand" and "You're welcome"
I was traumatized within ten minutes of this cursed episode...
Cas' immediate response when he thought Sam would kill himself... Angel you deserve the world 💙💙💙
The hallway scene
THE FUCKING HALLWAY SCENE
DEAN WHY WOULD YOU PULL A GUN ON SAM????
I was sobbing on the floor
SAM'S SPEECH TO DEAN I---
I knew it was coming but still wasn't prepared
Fucking Chuck
(but also,,,,, Amara deserved so much better)
BUT FUCKING CHUCK THO
Chuck telling TFW that their Cas was the only version in the whole multiverse who didn't follow orders. Their Cas stuck with Dean, CHOSE DEAN over Heaven, and was the only version to do so. How dare CW say that isn't love.... That's love beyond anything.
and how DARE they end the episode on my baby boi dying in TFW'S arms... tHE AUDACITY
BUT THEN!
the dam teaser for 15x18
First off Bobby's back which great whatever
Billie! We stan! But plz don't hurt my bois!
THE DESTIEL DUNGEON SCENE
I KNEW IT WAS COMING BUT SEEING THE CONFIRMATION IS NOT WHAT I NEEDED
anD THE BLOODY HANDPRINT IS GONNA KILL ME
ALSO! I feel low-key like Chuck saying what he did will probably entice Cas to finally tell Dean how he feels. I might be having wishful thinking but all the signs are there, all the dots are making the picture, and I will not accept Cas' death even if Destiel happens but!
If Destiel DOES happen but Cas gets sent to the Empty, I would much rather have that and whether it's canon or not believe that Dean follows him to get his angel back
TLDR; I'm still clowning, but not without merit
It actually f*cking happened.
Guys I'm in absolute shock and disbelief right now. I never in my wildest dreams thought they'd actually do it.
"the one thing I want, I can't have"
"I love you"
"goodbye Dean"
I never thought we'd see it and I'm still shaking. I can't believe Destiel's love pierced through the veil and killed Death. I can't believe we can say that Destiel is canon. We've got confirmation.
We won but we still lost.
I can't believe they actually did it. After a decade of queerbaiting we finally got what we knew all along.
And Dean didn't even say it back. He didn't even get the chance.
This is a mood beyond anything I've seen rn. I hate yet I love last night's episode and I hope they don't just throw Cas to the curb after this trauma.
I can handle loving and hating the confirmation. I can't handle watching Dean move on with his life like Cas didn't just admit his undying love.
I am glad I have reached a point in my simultanuous love and hatred for Supernatural that I will defend that destiel scene to the death while at the same time reblogging memes about how stupid it is because they're hilarious and absolutely true
Tumblr: Supernatural is officially dead, it's time to move on
"Y yo a ti, cas": Hola
Tumblr:
actually so scared to get to season 15 for this exact reason (I’m on season two💀)
i am NOT okay right now
Destiel 15x18 = queerbaiting y / n?
No... not to me. It hit me as tragedy. Proper, capital-T, heroic tragedy.
It's just as much queer love if it's lacking the happily-ever-after. Or if it's unresolved, whether Dean reciprocates or not, and if it's agony to watch it unfold because they're good people who deserve happiness and all the love and never catch a break. It's unfair. It's hard to watch. It hurts because I feel their pain.
I thought it was a beautiful scene, very real, and totally in keeping for stubborn-ass-there's-no-other-way-Cas to quietly save it all up for the worst possible moment to say 'I love you' to a man ill-equipped to hear it - and use that opportunity, his last precious moments with the man he loves, his last moments of a life he's come to cherish, to completely reshape how Dean sees himself by tearfully telling him why he's beautiful. That his imperfect example and loving spirit redeemed an angel.
I live for drama/acting that can hurt me this badly.
(Crying now.)
I know The Confession is the big takeaway from this episode/scene, but I'm captivated by everything that happens after Dean and Cas split from Sam and Jack. The whole thing.
Cas gamely follows Dean into the most suicidal plan imaginable, pulling 'I hate this but I'm with you, dear moron' faces behind his back along the way. Then when it goes south and Dean's spiralling into self-hating despair about the bigger picture, Cas... fixes it. During his literal heroic-sacrifice death scene he turns around, assesses the Dean issue, and fixes it. The no-win situation and Dean's self-perception. Not a word or gesture wasted because there's no time. That's badass-warrior!Cas dovetailing with doe-eyed-lover!Cas, and it's beautiful.
Kiss, hug, full-frontal sexytimes... whatever, lovely. Irrelevant. This is true love in action. This is knowing another person the way you know yourself. Better. This is Castiel's absolute devotion and commitment to Dean, if 'proof' of his love be needed (it's not needed, it's right there).
Dying is easy, any hero can make the sacrifice play and Cas has already made it - for Jack, without hesitation - but reaching out to touch someone in the exact way they need it at the exact moment they need it most... Being selfless when time's run out. Opening your heart like you're opening a vein to pour out the right medicine for the other person's damaged soul... when did Cas even learn that? He came so far.
15.18 Despair
Putting together S15 and The Winchesters--- was Dean aware of his feelings towards Cas and vice versa or did the confession scene shock him? What is your take on why Dean didn't reply to Cas?
I reckon Dean's usually aware of his own feelings, even accepting of them, but he's also very good at compartmentalising emotional confusion - shutting a lid on it to let him get through each day with as clear a head as possible. He prioritises ruthlessly and pushes 'crap I have no idea how to deal with' right to the bottom of the heap. Aspects of his relationship with Cas have always been on that heap.
That's why it's so devastating whenever he does let go and say the things he's been bottling up: why he brews it up until he explodes or breaks down, and says things that do more harm than good. It's not self-deception or self-censorship with Dean when he represses emotional issues. It's a practical defence mechanism sitting between all that self-doubt and self-loathing and Dean's functional, day to day existence. It's not a great defence - the drinking speaks to that - but it's one he understands and relies on. Letting it go, becoming vulnerable, is what scares him. What Cas tells him - what Cas gives Dean before he goes - is part of the key to unlocking himself.
Dean's definitely in shock there, aghast, but I don't think it's from hearing, "I love you." He must be startled that Cas would out and say it after so long just wearing it on his sleeve, but Dean's reaction screams, 'Not like this, not now, not another goodbye when I'm already drowning and can't handle one more thing, let alone face this without you'.
Dean did reply, and I think his, "Don't do this," was exactly what he meant. It's grief because he sees what's coming and he can't bear it. 'Don't drop this bombshell on me and then go. Don't leave me with this open wound. Don't leave me alone here. Don't leave. Don't die, Cas, please, don't die'.
If they'd both survived the scene, everything would've been fine between them (however they chose to proceed) - I'm absolutely sure of that. They got the rest of the mess out of their systems in the first half of season fifteen. They're solid.
As for The Winchesters, and the Supernatural finale come to that... I'm still processing. Heaven!Dean is not happy - he's not at peace. He's not acting like a man given paradise, but like he's taken up another, new burden in place of the ones he left behind. Like it's crushing him, come The Winchesters finale. It's heartbreaking, but it bodes darned well for the feels value of any sequel.
just. the contrast between cas first communicating with dean in such a deafening, piercing way and. the complete and utter silence that lingers after he speaks his last words to him.
all I know is pain.
I do not want to.
oh, Jack :(((
she sent him to the Empty????
wait a minute. so the intro has been Jack's death this whole time????
how is Jack still alive from that?
Charlie :(((
she's getting her happy ending!!
but of course it's not actually gonna happen.
I think we're all scared, Jack
do we have to watch everybody die again? cause I don't think I can handle that
they're splitting up now. why do I get the feeling this is the last time Sam and Cas see each other??? Sam deserves to say goodbye to him, he needs to be able to
hi, Donna <333
will Kaia be okay? she went to another world and came back
hi, Bobby
wait, is it the Empty? or just Chuck?
what was the point in killing Donna??? why her???
Billie, can you please calm down for like 5 minutes? please
Cas, what are you doing?
Cas......
he left a handprint again :(((((((
that shit fucking hurted.
Jack knows, doesn't he?
that shit fucking hurted. can't believe they confirmed Destiel and then just. killed Cas. also why did everybody disappearing lowkey feel like infinity war? I don't even have the words now, but ouchie. that shit hurt. and what was the point in killing Donna???? she did nothing. she never went to another world
Dean definitely knew Cas liked him before the confession scene
So I rewatched the confession scene as one does and something Dean said stuck with me. Basically, I think Dean already knew how Cas felt before the confession scene just based on the look in his eyes and the fact that he said "don't do this cas".
I think that maybe he didn't think it was serious. Like maybe he thought it was just a small crush or feelings he used to have but doesn't anymore. Regardless he knew Cas had gay feelings for him but he didn't think anything could ever come of it bc his and Cas's relationship in general wasn't at its best at the time bc of the fight they had and the fact that there was just so much going on in their lives. BUT if you look closely at his face during the scene when cas talking he just looks confused but then he realizes what's happening. "the empty will be summoned when I'm at my happiest" "happiness isn't in having it's in saying it out loud" "I love you" you can see him start to realize that Cas is confessing the feelings he already knew about SPECIFICALLY to summon the empty. And that's why he says "don't do this cas" after he says "I love you"