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People on Tik Tok love saying they're 'delulu' for literally everything.

Delusions aren't quirky.

I have an eating disorder and my recovery was massively set back because I was convinced my food was poisoned by my grandmother.

I spent over a year controlling every thought that came into my head because adamant that anything I touched absorbed my thoughts and repeated them to my abuser.

I have lost friends, time, health and progress to delusions.

They're terrifying. They aren't a trend.

Remember: I don't know your world. I barely know your characters. If this advice doesn't apply, think on it but don't force it.

There is a LOT to cover in this small post so i'm going to skip over the big fucking autistic elephant for just this moment!

From most problematic to least :D

A) Villainizing DID

You are definitely villainizing DID. Certainly. Like this is one of the most clear-cut examples of villainzing DID that I have ever heard.

Seriously:

A "secret" criminal alter

DID meant to not demonstrate people with DID but to scare non-plurals

Murder Mystery Genre

DID as a shocking plot twist

Please, for the love that is holy, don't write THAT aspect of his character. The majority of the DID community doesn't have criminal alters and by writing that specific part of your character you're introducing ableistic bullshit into you writing where mental illness is not meant to be sympathized with but to horrified off.

This is especially bad-looking when you understand that DID (aka dissociative identity disorder) is caused by extensive trauma in their early childhood. I'm talking about the worst kinds of things one can suffer. Not just name-calling. Not just something you can pull out of the Murder Mystery HAT! F#CK!!

B) Delusions

This can work.

It can.

But should it?

From a purely writer perspective, if you already have a character who doesn't see the murder in "murder mystery" as wrong then why do you need DID to throw into the mix for a half-handed messy plot twist that doesn't need to be there?

If you wanted to make Liam Clark a villain while still being an unreliable narrator, just have them be murdering people and then cut those parts out.

HECK! Why do you need delusion in the first place?! Just have Liam Clark be a normal autistic guy who sometimes murders people! Then the theme can be "murderers are humans, not monsters"!

It just screams "demonizing mental illness" and that is not good at all.

C) Autism

At this point, the focus should be on the fact that these autistic traits are going to be seen as evidence that "displays how this guy was always mentally screwed up".

When your audience sympathetizes for the loner bullied guy who gets called weird by his classmates, they are going to feel like they should have been calling this guy weird the whole time!

They are going to re-read the book and see all of these autistic traits and say to themselves "oh how didn't I see this murderer sooner?"

So many times movies and shows use autistic traits to communicate to the audience that something spiritually or morally wrong with that individual.

I'm not saying that autistic characters can't be villains. I'm just saying that it's a delicate topic.

Here are some tips:

The only way this is going to work out for you is if you add a sympathetic good person autistic person. You need to convince your audience that autistic people are not the villain. Only Liam Clark is.

Try to add sympathetic reasoning behind why Liam Clark acts like this. Use diction to properly show why he would find this texture disgusting

Honesty: Yes, autistic people can sound rude when they are trying to be candidly helpful. If Liam Clark is trying to be helpful to these people and he comes of as rude, that is not an issue. If Liam Clark is just saying hurtful shit because he wants to then that's not autism, that's being an asshole.

Really? Your villain is a guy obsessed with horror movies? And is autistic? how groundbreaking...

WAKE UP!!! Scream did it first! And every single f*cking Scream copy-cat did it after you!

This is just pure cliche and is definitely going to be seen as you villainizing autistic traits like hyperfixation.

CONCLUSION:

Is Liam Clark a poor example of autism representation? Kinda. It could swing to good and bad depending on how you play with his traits.

Is Liam Clark a poor example of DID representation? Yes. Definitely.

Is Liam Clark a poor example of delusion representation? Almost certainly.

Liam Clark is a fucking ableist character who feels wholly unsympathetic, kinda disgusting, and pretty ableist all things considered.

Is Liam Clark un-fixable? Obviously not.

You could have Liam Clark as the autistic DID guy who isn't the villain. That's an actual twist.

You could have Liam Clark be the autistic villain who battles against actual hero, autistic somebody!

But never put people with delusions and/or DID in the fucking villain role

I Need help creating a new Character

HI, so I have a new character, but I am worried I would write him wrongly.

My new character is called Liam Clark. But the thing is, he is the villain in his own story.

Sort of like Norman Bates but the thing is,he is austistic.

Yeah, I am so worried. I have opened like ten tabs on Autism in teens and kids and boys. I read a book Lady Midnight by Cassandra Clare. Great book by the way. Where Ty , has autism or has the traits ,show don't tell but done amazedly well.I think.

My other worry is that he is a villain, anti-hero. Who commits crimes without his knowledge.

I even wrote a draft, if anyone who is Autistic, please tell me if I am writing wrongly. So I can improve it.

I even want to consult one of my friends, but I feel like I am overstepping a boundary by asking him to help me.

I would ask him tho.

So, I have created his well personality, kind off. I want to make him a guy who happens to be autistic not an autistic guy and that's it.I am somewhere, not quite.

So, Liam Clark, is a seventeen-year high School student from southern California.

Liam is a smart dude, gets all A and Bs and stuff. At his High School, people bully him for being "werid" because he likes staring at stuff that are posters. Liam is obsessed with posters and Horror films. The book takes place in 2019 so is very progressive. He HATES loud music and HATES being stared at and it pisses him off.He hates the texture of yogurt because it reminds him of something NSFW, but he is into it.He still eats it because he can and taste like wet cement. He is very picky with his food and stuff and avoids the texture. He is very honest, very rude if you don't know him and points out the obvious to people which pisses them off. He doesn't like socializing much Tho, His classmates are little shits and call him Aussie just to piss him off. And in the first chapter, he calls them out. He really wants to punch those kids but he is worried that he would get in trouble for it, so he insults them in his mind. He divides his lunch and certain foods that look like plastic.

Plus, he is bisexual. Attracted to men most but attracted to women. Since he doesn't get social cues, he would tell the guy to his face about his assets and even girls to which makes them shocked.

Not the best guy right.

I am scared to write him because I feel like I am villainizing Autistic people and making him a villain.

Please I need help.

Worst of all is that he suffers from a big delusional disorder so he doesn't really see what he did was wrong even if it stared at him in the face. And DID, which he isn't aware of his criminal version of himself which does crime from petty to straight up evil. He doesn't get it, he becomes ignorant. He is unreliable narrator.

The story is indded a Murder Mystery which is told in first person and not chronologically.

He is a white guy who is lanky and skinny and stuff.

So yeah.

I need criticism need to improve him, or I would lock him away. And never write him.

I am stretching my hands towards the Autistic community asking for help and advice. Thank you.

Heres a link to the draft. Thanks if anyone reads it and gives their viewpoint.It is also kind of Satire.

I Am Not A Murderer I Swear ( Book 1 #I Am Not Series ) - Google Docs

Thank you so much for the positive response! As someone who has a intense interest in mental illness and media, I can get exceedingly annoyed when I see the same reductive portrayal of these conditions, I can often forget the well-meaning person behind the creation.

For that, I apologize.

If you still want to write a story where Liam Clark is unaware of the murdering, you could use the supression or repression of memories.

It would be an interesting way to still keep Liam Clark in the dark about the murders while not outright villainizing any specific disorder.

Although, if you are going this route, I recommend that some traces of the memories "bubble" up from time to time. It can be a misplaced phobia that doesn't really make sense, an avoidance of certain actions that his brain may associate with the murders, and other stuff like that.

If you want to send in a more "formal" writing advice request, my inbox is always open :)

I Need help creating a new Character

HI, so I have a new character, but I am worried I would write him wrongly.

My new character is called Liam Clark. But the thing is, he is the villain in his own story.

Sort of like Norman Bates but the thing is,he is austistic.

Yeah, I am so worried. I have opened like ten tabs on Autism in teens and kids and boys. I read a book Lady Midnight by Cassandra Clare. Great book by the way. Where Ty , has autism or has the traits ,show don't tell but done amazedly well.I think.

My other worry is that he is a villain, anti-hero. Who commits crimes without his knowledge.

I even wrote a draft, if anyone who is Autistic, please tell me if I am writing wrongly. So I can improve it.

I even want to consult one of my friends, but I feel like I am overstepping a boundary by asking him to help me.

I would ask him tho.

So, I have created his well personality, kind off. I want to make him a guy who happens to be autistic not an autistic guy and that's it.I am somewhere, not quite.

So, Liam Clark, is a seventeen-year high School student from southern California.

Liam is a smart dude, gets all A and Bs and stuff. At his High School, people bully him for being "werid" because he likes staring at stuff that are posters. Liam is obsessed with posters and Horror films. The book takes place in 2019 so is very progressive. He HATES loud music and HATES being stared at and it pisses him off.He hates the texture of yogurt because it reminds him of something NSFW, but he is into it.He still eats it because he can and taste like wet cement. He is very picky with his food and stuff and avoids the texture. He is very honest, very rude if you don't know him and points out the obvious to people which pisses them off. He doesn't like socializing much Tho, His classmates are little shits and call him Aussie just to piss him off. And in the first chapter, he calls them out. He really wants to punch those kids but he is worried that he would get in trouble for it, so he insults them in his mind. He divides his lunch and certain foods that look like plastic.

Plus, he is bisexual. Attracted to men most but attracted to women. Since he doesn't get social cues, he would tell the guy to his face about his assets and even girls to which makes them shocked.

Not the best guy right.

I am scared to write him because I feel like I am villainizing Autistic people and making him a villain.

Please I need help.

Worst of all is that he suffers from a big delusional disorder so he doesn't really see what he did was wrong even if it stared at him in the face. And DID, which he isn't aware of his criminal version of himself which does crime from petty to straight up evil. He doesn't get it, he becomes ignorant. He is unreliable narrator.

The story is indded a Murder Mystery which is told in first person and not chronologically.

He is a white guy who is lanky and skinny and stuff.

So yeah.

I need criticism need to improve him, or I would lock him away. And never write him.

I am stretching my hands towards the Autistic community asking for help and advice. Thank you.

Heres a link to the draft. Thanks if anyone reads it and gives their viewpoint.It is also kind of Satire.

I Am Not A Murderer I Swear ( Book 1 #I Am Not Series ) - Google Docs

Hmm... is it?

Hello is my first time here, if possible you could do Yandere headcanons! Neige LeBlanche? please.

Hello there!! It's always nice to see new people here, glad to have you!!! 😊 Hope you enjoy your stay here ^^

tw yandere, delusions, obsessive behavior

General Yandere! Neige headcanons

You two would most likely meet at the VDC when he first arrives there

It's during the final rehearsal that he fully takes notice of you. While Vil and the rest are practicing, you are standing a bit further away, silently cheering them on with a gentle smile

Neige can't help but stare at you, enchanted by the way your face lit up in joy while watching your friends. And then he felt his heart nearly stopped when you noticed his gaze on you and turned around to greet him with the same blinding smile

He knows he's in love right that second. At Royal Sword Academy his fellow classmates always talked about the moment they found their love, the moment they knew they were destined to be with each other and live happily ever after. Neige had always fantasized about the day he would finally meet his soulmate, the one he would love with all his heart and the one that would stay with him forever

He dreamed about how his knight in shining armor would come to save him and then wrap their arms around him protectively. And when their eyes met they would both madly fall in love with each other, swearing that they will never part

Hahh how he longed for it so very dearly and now it was finally coming to pass! You were the one kind face in this otherwise very hostile school, you spoke with him so earnestly and the more time he spent with you, the more he was elated at the fact that he had finally met his knight

From that moment onward, I believe Neige would be very clingy and practically live off of your compliments and attention, not wanting to part with you for even a second. He would generally be very nice to you as well, even to a bit of an unhealthy amount. You swore it was impossible for Neige not to look like an excited puppy whenever he saw you

He would think every sliver of physical contact is a sign of your love and devotion towards him, no matter what you do, he will always assume that there is romantic intent behind it and he is so very ecstatic about it. His face flushes red when you take his hand so he doesn't get lost in the crowd. His love is touching him, has he ascended to heaven? Truly he acts no different than a school girl with a crush and it would be cute if he wasn't so damn obsessed with you

In his mind, it's already been decided that you two are a healthy, loving couple, no matter what anyone else might say. They just don't know what it feels like to be truly in love with someone! They don't understand how deeply your souls are connected!

What do you mean, you two don't know each other that well yet? You have more than enough time to get to know each other once you two are married, don't you worry about that! He already loves you so much, he fantasizes about your wedding every night

Yes, for Neige this is only the most natural next step in your relationship. In all the love stories he had been told about princesses and princes falling in love, they had always fallen for each other at first sight and due to their overwhelming love for each other, they would soon marry and live happily ever after

So it's only natural for him to think like that, right? It's what he's been taught and the thought is just so wonderful to him! He wants nothing more than for you to take his hand and gently kiss it as you slide a ring onto his finger, the same one that adorns your own ring finger

Oh how lovely it is, wouldn't you agree? He's completely delusional in that sense, he knows you two are meant to be so why hesitate? There's no time to waste at all so he has already sent his parents a letter with the declaration that he wants to marry you as soon as possible

He's usually not aggressive at all to your friends, preferring to just hang onto your arm to direct your attention to him again when he feels like you don't pay him enough of it. But he won't stand for anyone trying to separate him from his love, what do they mean he's way too clingy?! Why are they trying to convince you that he shouldn't go along with marrying him? Why do you look so shocked and afraid?

There is no need to worry, everything is going to be as it should be. Maybe he should consider the possibility of making an unfavorable post on his magicame account about all of your little friends? These villains aren't a good influence either way so he's doing you a favor! They shouldn't underestimate the power Neige Leblanche hold, they wouldn't want to deal with an angry mob of his fans overrunning Night Raven College, right?

So they should just let up and let you join him when he goes back to Royal Sword Academy, where you can start a new life right by his side

It's not uncommon for a princess or prince to have to fight against evil villains for the sake of their love , so this is all completely normal, right?

In delusions we trust

In delusions we trust

In delusions we trust

actually hate delusions so much?!?

⚠️ tw: spiders (+eggs) and teeth!! ⚠️

like i was just... sitting there.. and then my brain goes oh shit theres spiders in your gums theyve laid eggs in your gums get them out. and so im sitting there trying to pull my teeth out and it hurts so badly now but i was genuinely convinced that there were spiders there and it was so bad.

like actually wtf can my brain just.. not for a second??