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OMG! IT’S ACTUALLY VENUS! :: A MINI SERIES!
CHLOE JOO.
a series in which i make how i see the venus members via artbreeder and bring them to life !
pov: ur the big three of venus
pov: you’re found sisters </3
— Title :: the hopeless.
— Characters :: chloe zhao-joo & jacob joo & jung haneul.
— Warnings :: depression. toxic sibling dynamics. mentions of self harm. crying. it’s sad, it’s a chloe piece.
— Word Count :: 1.23k
— Summary :: Chloe no longer fears being helpless. She fears being hopeless.
“Did you go to your appointment yesterday?”
Jacob doesn’t look up from his bowl of cereal, his spoon clacking against the ceramic bowl, making Chloe internally cringe every time she hears it. She doesn’t let any of his discomfort show. Just puts a pleasant smile on her face for her brother.
Jacob shakes his head.
“No,” Jacob answers after a few beats of silence. Chloe blinks, trying not to let the disappointment show on her face, but it shines through in her eyes. She clears her throat, looking down at her untouched bowl of fruit.
“Why not?” She asks quietly. Jacob shrugs.
“It doesn’t help.”
“You’ve only been once,” Chloe simply replies, looking up at her brother who sighs through his nose. “It won’t get better if you–”
“If I don’t what? Try? Do you think I’m not trying?” That’s an easy question to answer. No, he’s not trying. He’s sinking further and further into his depression every time Chloe comes to see him. She remembers how Jacob used to look. Skin clear, eyes bright, dark hair healthy and put together. Now, it seems like every visit he just gets more and more unkempt. Dark circles under his eyes, his skin dull, and hair never combed or washed.
She’s started texting Noah to check if her brother has showered that day or not. It’s usually a no and an offer for him to help Jacob out. Chloe always accepts it. Without Noah’s help, she’s pretty sure Jacob would’ve stopped showering weeks ago.
Jacob isn’t trying. Jacob’s complicit in his own suffering. It’s taking everything in Chloe to not just say that to him.
“Not hard enough,” Chloe simply says, watching Jacob’s reaction. He says nothing, he doesn’t even look hurt, just annoyed. He pushes himself away from the table, standing and pointing at the bowl of milk.
“I ate my breakfast. You can stop playing babysitter now until lunch.”
“Jacob–”
“I didn’t ask for you to do this, Chloe,” Jacob snaps at her, walking over to her side of the table, pointing his finger in her face. She shuts her eyes, turning her head away from him. “I didn’t ask for you to constantly breathe down my neck because I’m a little depressed. You–”
“You’ve been cutting your–”
“That’s not your problem,” Jacob sharply interrupts, causing her to shake her head, looking away from him completely. “It was never your problem until you made it your problem. It was my business–”
“Okay, Jacob.” Chloe says quietly, waving her white flag before he can go on his ‘this isn’t your problem’ tirade again. She can’t sit through it a tenth time. She just lets him have this one. Chloe stands picking up her bowl of fruit, still untouched, and his bowl of milk. “You’re right. I’m sorry.” She says like she’s reading from a script. He knows she doesn’t mean it but neither of them pushes further on it.
“Don’t forget to brush your teeth,” Is all Chloe says before walking into the kitchen, putting her brother’s soiled bowl in the sink. There’s a small pile of dishes in there already, her hands move before she even thinks, turning the water on hot. Silently, she moves each dish under the hot water, rising it before putting the blue dish soap over it and scrubbing with a sponge, then putting it back under. She does this for what feels like hours, the water getting more hot with every passing second and her eyes getting wetter with each plate she cleans.
When she gets to the last plate, a small one, her hands shake and a quiet sob leaves her lips. It’s been weeks and it feels like she’s gotten nowhere, that Jacob has gotten nowhere, nothing has changed and it feels like it will never change.
Her hands start to burn from how hot the water is but she doesn’t move her hands, just keeps them under it, crying quietly.
“Are you okay?” A voice rings through the kitchen, making Chloe jump and turn the sink off, shaking her red hands off quickly. Water drops fly in every which direction as she blinks hard a few times, trying to get the rest of her tears to disappear before she turns towards the voice.
“Yeah,” Chloe assures Haneul with a smile, looking the boy up and down before drying her hands on her jeans. “Yeah, I’m fine.”
Haneul looks her up and down, face unbelieving as they stand together in the kitchen. He sighs through his nose.
“It’s Jacob, isn’t it?”
Chloe sniffles, looking away. The last thing she wants is some boy she barely knows seeing her cry, but she can feel herself cracking as she bites the inside of her cheek.
“I’m sorry, Chloe.” Is all Haneul says because that’s all he can say. They both know how Jacob is and how he’s doing. He’s never going to get better, not like this. Chloe just can’t swallow that pill. It makes her choke up, resting her head on the tips of her fingers.
“It just isn’t getting better and I don’t know how else to help him,” Chloe whispers, sniffling as hot tears run down her cheeks. Silently, Haneul takes Chloe into his arms, engulfing her in a hug she didn’t know she needed until now.
Chloe wraps her arms around the man’s torso, letting her head fall against his chest, sobbing quietly as he rubs her back softly.
“He just needs to realize you’re helping not hurting,” Haneul explains, holding her a bit tighter as she presses her face deeper into his chest. “It takes a while. Even then, some days are harder than others,” He sounds like he’s speaking from experience, she wonders who in his life was like Jacob.
Chloe takes a deep breath, resting her cheek against his chest.
“He deserves to be happy,” Chloe whispers, slowly detaching herself from Haneul as his arms slide off her. When she’s back in front of him, he reaches over and wipes her wet cheeks with his thumb, catching any tears that still slip from her glassy eyes.
Chloe shakes her head, looking down.
“I just want him to be happy,” Chloe says with a swallow, causing Haneul to take her cheek into his palm lifting her head gently. He wipes her tears with his thumb before his hands go to her scalp, soothing down her hair in smooth downward motion that brings Chloe an odd feeling of comfort. Chloe closes her eyes, feeling more heat run down her cheeks.
“He needs help, Chlo. Not from you or any of us,” Haneul says gently, “Professional help from people who can actually help him.”
“He won’t go,” Chloe tells him, shaking her head. “I want him to but…He just won’t try. We can’t do anything if he doesn’t try,” Chloe whimpers, head falling back down as she begins crying again. Haneul sighs, running his hands through her dark hair gently before pulling her to his chest once again. Chloe doesn’t wrap her arms around him for a second, believing it will only mean shes succumbing to helplessness.
She’s not helpless. She’ll never be helpless again.
But she can’t feel anything else besides hopelessness for her brother.
He doesn’t want to get better. He’ll just let himself suffer until he evetually dies.
Chloe no longer fears being helpless.
She fears being hopeless.
POSTED ON FEB. 1ST 2022
tw // mentions of suicide !
Soon after the news of Jacob’s hiatus, Chloe Joo, his little sister, announced she would also be taking a hiatus.
“I have to focus on my brother and taking care of him. My brother is hurting and I cannot work knowing he’s in pain and I’m doing nothing to help.” Chloe says in a heartbreaking post on the VENUS’ official SNS accounts.
“He took care of me when I was hurt. Now, it’s my turn to take care of him. His recovery is my top priority.” She tells VENUS’ fans, constellations, towards the end of her letter. She also tells constellations to support the other girls and their projects while she’s gone.
Many fans were more than understanding of Chloe’s decision, trending “#OurAngelChloe” on Twitter for her which she later thanked them for on her Instagram story.
It’s unclear how long Chloe’s hiatus will last but she will be sitting out on any future Venus projects until further notice.
˙ ˖ ✶ THE FACES OF VENUS
CHLOE LEE, professionally known as CHLOE, labeled as "Korea's Pretty Face" since she stepped on the scene, is said to be one of the most memorable faces in K-pop. Originally gagging audiences in 2016 when she appeared on the survival show Produce 101 with her big brown eyes and infectious smile, Chloe would go on to be one of the most talked about idols in the modern day. Being described as "innocent yet mature" looking, Chloe has a versatile look that matches her equally dynamic personality.
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