How Could I Hate You For Making Me Feel What I've Always Wanted. Even If It Was Not Permanent And I Now

How could I hate you for making me feel what I've always wanted. Even if it was not permanent and I now only consist of shards.

I don't know what you took from me when you disappeared from my life for no reason.

Since then, I feel an emptiness in me that gets bigger with every day and every breath.

When there was a We, you made me complete, I have never felt so strong and happy. And now I only consist of a pile full of rubble and ash that can no longer be repaired..

Whenever you reach for me, I will do everything I can to further distance myself from you.

i feel like the only option i have left is to give up..

Will I ever be happy again?

Or will this emptiness tear me apart?

You healed me, you showed me how beautiful this cruel world can be. You made me wake up every day with a smile and a warmth I had never felt before.

And then you let me fall, because of you every day what little is left in me dies.

I just feel empty, hurt and lonely.

Every breath is agony and tears me apart piece by piece.

I wish every day that you would come back to me. Even though I know that will never happen.

And even if you did, I would look you in the eye and feel the loneliness and the pain you have caused me.

And even though you took everything in my life, I still love you for all my life. 💔