Me Casually Overdoing It On A Low Symptoms Day And Then Wondering The Next Day Why I Feel Bad

me casually overdoing it on a low symptoms day and then wondering the next day why i feel bad

(will i ever learn? probably not)

asking for accomodations shouldn't be this emberassing and shouldn't be a big deal and i shouldn't feel this guilty for needing them

doctors will give me a test and go “well obviously we hope it’s not that” and I’m sitting there like bitch I have been through so many tests so many doctors so many specialist I have been in the ER more times than I can count I almost do hope it is that because then at least I know what’s fucking wrong with me instead of walking into the ER with my issues and being told it’s anxiety even though I know it’s not

"just listen to your body"

hate to break it to you, but if i would do that i wouldn't even get out of bed

being chronically ill it's so difficult to not dismiss healthy people struggleing with a short time illness

like "i'm sorry you got a cough, i have to make big adjustments to my everyday life to not regularly faint" is not the answer i wanna give others

saying "oh you're tired cause you stayed up on tiktok for too long? i didn't sleep at all cause of how much pain i was in" isn't empathetic

it's just hard not to compare my suffering to others seemingly minor issues

i always need to remind myself that this isn't minor to them, no matter how i might feel about it... i refuse to loose my empathy in addition to everything else i have to limit

rain is annoying because i don't have the strength to use both a cane and an umbrella...

love leaving the house thinking it's just a few drops of rain and then basically taking a literal shower