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4 am me had some interesting thoughts I decided to send to the group chat

HORNY GOAT WEED CAPSULES???

Why

Maybe in another world I could be someone I've always wanted to be.

Everything reminds me of you, everything but, you

I wonder if one day I'll see you for you and not think about how I'll tell you about it one day

sometimes I wish I was a pirate

the ocean ahead washing over me

cleansing me of my worst fears, of myself

drowning out my cries of suffering

life

it's just a cycle

feel pain

feed off of it

never make yourself feel better

never comfort yourself

never feel like you are anything

bottle up your feelings all throughout the day

cry in your pillow at night

because nothing is okay

nothing ever will be

bad stuff will happen

so will good stuff

but the bad stuff that happened will always stay with you

there's always going to be a voice at the back of your head

that makes the bad stuff happen

even if no bad stuff actually happened

and then you feel pain

and feed off of it

and the cycle repeats

again again and again

until the day you die.

Odd dream about a moth/ man. Matthew 6:19-20

I had a dream that a man mugged a woman, knocking her down in a hallway (of what looked like a school hallway) and ran out of a door which entered into a garage, oddly, and knocked down product stands that were operating in that garage, sort of like a street vendor type of setting. The man, after running through the stand as I ran behind him, grew wings of a moth, flew away from out of the garage, shrank down to the size of a small moth and landed in a puddle of water where items were floating but I couldn't reach him although I could see him.

I sought scripture to see what it said about moths

Matthew 6:19-20 says

19 “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20 But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal.

So that leads me to say, leave things such as knowledge/ knowledge of God and mental wealth to the ones you love. Give them warning of mental/ spiritual traps that do occur, teach them the way of a God loving life and why its important; in attempt to help them avoid failure or entrapment of satans deceitful devices. A man can leave his son his inherited physical belongings, but if the son doesn't know how to care for it, it will not last. So don't focus too much on material things of the world, as nothing physical will last. But knowledge of righteous ways of living and how Jesus lived lasts forever; through our loved ones, relatives and children. I don't know if what I've said made sense, but I believe and hope its something that someone needed to hear, something I believe God put on my heart to say at 4am. I hope it reaches people well

God bless

it's around half 4 in the morning, and i just spent a good 10 minutes sitting in the living room in almost pitch blackness, keeping my cat company while he ate his early morning meal before he hopped up onto the back of the sofa and curled up to sleep - he likes people to be around while he eats if it's late or early, i don't know why, but it's sort of sweet

i think the simple quietness of the moment might have gotten to me, something about listening to this little animal chomp down his food before making himself at home in some spot he enjoys being in, and i sort of found myself with enough time to just think about how much this weird little animal actually means to me

i mean, i doubt he even thinks about me most of the time, other than when i feed him or he comes to lay down on my lap or hop up into bed alongside me, but he's just another one of those special little parts of life that become both routine and irreplaceable

Humans lie only when they care about someone ... and in most cases ... it's themselves.

~animalina

True Loneliness

True loneliness is when you have friends but you can no longer tell them things from your life because they never followed you into this next phase of your life. True loneliness pt.2 is when you look back at how far you've come and you see a long trail of friends come and gone and you just know that's gonna be the rest of your life.

OR; true loneliness is realising friends are sushi on a conveyor belt, except this conveyor belt is infinite and never doubles back 😂😂😂

Maybe we are all crazy, that’s why we search for love in places it can never be found.

4 a.m. thoughts

And then, just like that, we became strangers to each other.

4 a.m. thoughts, words better left unsaid