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Survival Of The Fittest
For those who are affected by Scorpio/8th house/12th house: scorpio rising/moon in scorpio/venus in scorpio/moon in 8th house/venus in 8th house/pluto in 1st house/pluto in 8th house/pluto in 12th house/12th lord in 8th house/7th lord in 8th house/8th lord in 7th house/inner planets in 8th house/Saturn in 8th house/Sun in 12th house
The phrase 'Survival Of the Fittest' was coined by Herbert Spencer after he was inspired by Charles Darwin's On the Origin of Species. Spencer drew parallels between his own economic theories and Darwin's biological theories and said "This survival of the fittest, which I have here sought to express in mechanical terms, is that which Mr. Darwin has called 'natural selection', or the preservation of favoured races in the struggle for life." We, in astro community, can draw a similar parallel to the astrological theories that indicate a difficult emotional, psychological, mental, physical, fated and spiritual life. Even Carl Jung associated collective unconscious to the genetic memory that exists in all of humanity universally.
Survival of the fittest means that organisms that are better adapted to their environment are best suited to survive and successfully reproduce. It also explains how evolution occurs in species by means of natural selection of those traits that are better adapted to a given set of environmental conditions. We read all this in school textbooks and forget it all when we walk into the real world.
Having difficult 8th house/12th house placements is like the Sisyphean task when he was condemned to roll a boulder up a hill, only to have it fall near the top, forcing him to start over and over again. This is what it feels like to be battling the unknown, unseen, intangible psychic forces of the 8th and 12th houses that emerge in the awareness from time to time endlessly. You are stuck in a situation that you cannot explain in words so you seek answers in symbolism, esoteric, dreams, psychology, magic and otherworldly pursuits because your problems are simply not visible to the naked eyes.
4. The paradox of life is that even though we are born with difficult life stories, the world does not have space for the weak, dependent, miserable. On one hand, this creates isolation, victim mentality, bitterness, "nobody understands me", "society is so insensitive to mental health issues". But on the other hand, we realize that we are just animals, some really smart animals that can think, write, civilize, earn money, reproduce, make laws, run the system, yet we are just animals in the hands of natural laws. The law of nature, therefore, is survival of the fittest, to become strong, adapt, improvise, improve, evolve, grow.
5. The point of this post is not laziness but exhaustion/victim mindset/bitterness/feeling left behind tendencies in native who had to spend a lot of times in healing, battling their psychological issues that appear invisible to the physical eyes and living with a sense of "what is wrong with me?"
6. To them, I just want to say that do not let the exhaustion tear you down. The environments of 8th and 12th houses are such emergency provoking, life threatening, dark, hidden, unknown, distant from physical life, invisible to naked eyes, emotionally draining and psychically charged. How you learn to accept your fate and live along with it is in your hands. I too had to come to terms with the constant ups and downs of my story, the sudden detours and catastrophe of my story, sometimes the sadistic undertones and stagnancy of my story, but in the end I realized that I was the saviour to my own fallen angel. Whether it is my past life karma, intergenerational karma or random allotment of fates, I would not live in bitterness and envy of those who have it easier, better and colourful. Learning to adapt to the environments of 8th and 12th houses is a real challenge, a very difficult one, not written in books but usually comes to knowedge intuitively and that is why it is so hard to understand and codify in language.
7. Finally, I do not have any advice or rulebook for 8th/12th housers, for each person has their own unique solution. I would just like to say that time is running out, you have already seen the theme of your life until now, be brave, pull yourself up and make peace with your traumatic memories. And maybe, find attract people who are also in a similar attitude as you. People who understand when you say "No I don't want to watch a movie right now, I want to journal some of my thoughts and emotions."
The Value of Loneliness
Sometimes it happens that you find yourself lonely in life. Amongst billions of people on this earth, you are alone in life. And you may go to internet and watch people, read their words, have a semblance of companionship but you are still alone in life. You wake up, go through life meeting people and exchanging words but in your memories they do not register as significant. Your heart is yearning for someone who understands you just how you understand yourself, you may search for that person in every face but nobody is that person who resembles your inner image. It is not just specific looks that you desire or specific material success but someone who is a complete package with all those particular personality traits that fit just right in your own puzzle. Sometimes we know what we want but most of the times it is just a vague description. To know what you want in another person, you have to first know yourself.
It especially happens during rock bottom, usually there is no rescue. Life leaves you alone for contemplation. You almost feel like you are back in the womb and are destined for rebirth. And this time, you will be someone else. Somehow you survived. But you have lost everything in the rock bottom, especially your memories. They were too heavy for your shoulders so you drop them one by one until you reach the surface and remember nothing anymore.
You are shaped by the people who surround you. Your parents, siblings, friends, relatives, the people you see in media and magazines, the people you see in streets and even the people you see in your imagination. Some of who you are is in your genes and some of it is learned as you live life. But who will shape you if you are lonely? Loneliness itself will shape you. Loneliness is not nothing, it has energy, identity, existence. It talks to you, if only you listen to it.
The value of loneliness is that unlike people it is empty, consistent, stable, silent, natural and original. Loneliness does not pretend or change shapes, loneliness does not hurt you with words or otherwise, loneliness does not judge you or pressurize you. Loneliness does not have an intention or agenda, it is not selfish nor self-centered. Loneliness does not take anything from you, it only accompanies.
But you run from it every chance you get. If not around people, you drown yourself in gadget and social media. You are so afraid of loneliness though you claim otherwise.
Death
Death belongs to the realm of faith.
You are right to believe you will die.
It sustains you.
If you didn't believe it, could you bear the life you have?
If we could not totally rely on the certainty that it will end, how could you bear all this?
Nevertheless, it is only a matter of faith.
And the worst thing about it is that you are not sure.
