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Chapters: 6/? Fandom: Naruto Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Rock Lee/Reader, Rock Lee/Original Character(s), Hatake Kakashi & Reader, Hatake Kakashi & Original Character(s), Hatake Kakashi & Kakashi’s Ninken Characters: Reader, Original Non-Binary Character, Rock Lee, Hatake Kakashi, Hatake Kakashi’s Ninken, Maito Gai | Might Guy, Pakkun (Naruto) Additional Tags: Autistic Reader, Reader with OSDD, Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, Slice of Life, touch starvation, Reader is a past sex slave, Reader is a Child, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Yeah the topics are kinda heavy, Mostly mentions and innuendos, Nothing explicit, No Smut, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Suggested sequestration, only at the beginning, Triggering subjects will mostly be just mentions and some sex talk, Trans Hatake Kakashi, He’s casually trans, Genderfluid character in future chapters, Some characters have darker skin than in canon, Black kids wanna be ninjas too Series: Part 1 of Cameleon / Color wheel Summary:

“Daddy!”

Oh boy. When it started like that, Kakashi was ready for everything. From ‘My tentacles tickled me!’ to ‘My ankles are going bald!’, he didn’t look up from his book or even move from his comfortable spot on the couch. “Hm?”

“I need cuddles!” the excited kid almost yelled, their eyes flowing between different colors.

He opened his arms and let the kid cuddle up on him, a dog or two also coming in the embrace.

He was safe. They were safe. And they both were happy.

-Slice of life about an ex sex slave getting better and growing up. -Trigger warnings at begining of every chapter with tldr at the end.

Also posted on Wattpad where you get Studio Ghibli GIFs with each chapter.

1. How switching feels… It depends for how much control and time. One of the things that happens more often feels like you’re barely aware if we switch fully, or in a sort of state where you’d be mostly asleep but just aware enough to get an understanding that you moved and some of what went on, but there will be a time discrepancy, it doesn’t feel like that time entirely actually passed. Another option is that we do go completely or mostly unaware sometimes. This one often happens when someone needs a break as dictated by the brain or isn’t too concerned about what’s happening at the moment. They’ll remember some things through others memory but nothing from themself but a few sounds. This one feels more that the time passed didnt at all, while the first more feels like when you zone out doing something and it doesn’t feel like as much time passed than it actually did but you were still somewhat aware of it. It isn’t bad, actually pretty useful for a break, but it tends to happen less with the host and more with the others. The prior happens more with the host, as there’s more of a concern of not leaving the body and people thinking somethings wrong, we’re going to be trying to have more time where someone else can take over fully perhaps, finding a place where people won’t find us as much but not too far

2. As said it depends for what happens with awareness and memory. The “dissapearing” part sort of like a deep sleep sort of makes us completely or mostly unaware unless we look through someone else’s memory, but the first type of switching makes it easy to recall memory from that time even if not entirely aware. Memory that’s our own

3. Lost memories to any degree feel like a gap. That gap can be either like a dug hole, or the middle of burnt cardboard. Mostly cutoff at one point or going on for a while and suddenly the one not fronting isn’t aware or isn’t as aware as much. Not an unsettling gap, we often know what’s happened or trust that another used the time well, a less deep hole- but it’s weird. Just something we have to expect. May change in the future but sometimes those gaps help when someone needs a break

4. Maybe there is stuff that we don’t want each other to do, but more in the realm of light teasing or getting upset with people that someone else may have more tolerance for. It’s never anything too bad, but makes for some interesting scenarios. Once during an inner world session, Kay stole Altheo’s hat and flew off with it knowing vei wouldn’t get mad. It was fun

5. Nobody really ignores each other, but communication fluctuates. Usually, we’re able to communicate super well and vividly, like hearing an almost on voice but just that bit corporeal where you know it’s coming from your head… but sometimes the brain likes to play a trick where the host or someone will be frontstuck ( usually the host ) and nobody will be able to respond for a while. It’s usually resolved someone quick but has caused it’s fair share of concern and worry

6. Only the inner world can we see each other, but sometimes we have flashes of others in our position, like a 2nd or 3rd person type thing and can imagine each other doing things from the past or that they’d do like when you think “oh my friend would totally do this it just seems like them lol”. However we have a really vivid picture of things, so when we see each other in the inner world we can really see each other

7. Daydreams feel fake, with characters or situations we know are fake and scenarios we can control. There’s no overlap, as conversations and inner world things feel real, genuine and like having a conversation with real people that just isn’t like blorbo playing a prank on their friends

8. While our system isn’t entirely connected to any condition, our autism and adhd affects how others act a lot as well as the effects it has for us specifically. It can affect fronting and how well people are, some people can’t help but stim when excited and at least three of us are sensitive and two or one are hyperempathetic

9. Always less alone. They help out more than ever expected from each other, and provide different perspectives that another wouldn’t have dreamed of

questions for systems

I’m wanting to understand other people’s plurality better so here are some questions! Everyone is allowed to participate, regardless of how you identify your plurality or origins. Hopefully these questions will help us all appreciate the differences and similarities in each other!

What does switching feel like for you? How much control do you have over switches?

What happens to you when you switch out? Are you still aware of the external world or do you disappear?

Do you ever lose memories because of your system? If so, describe what that’s like for you.

Do your system members ever do anything that you don’t want them to do?

Are you able to communicate easily with your system? Do they ever ignore you?

Can you see your system members? Do you see them in the external world (like standing in front of you) or do you see them internally (like in an inner world)? Can you do this whenever you want or does it happen on its own?

How do you tell the difference between daydreams and system members? Or is there an overlap for you?

Is your system connected to any disorder or mental health condition? If not, how can you tell?

Does having a system make you feel less alone or more alone?

Systemcore

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Are your cookies running around in the brain with no one to talk to? Well now they can stop running and talk to other cookies in  Our cookie run introject server! made for a system with cookies for other systems with cookies (because they are lonely /hj) But before you join here are a few rules! 1.Please do not send hate for this, but no Endos, please. We want to keep syscourse out of this server, and this is the best way.  2. No singlets / Non-systems!  3. please only join if you have cookie run introjects.  ok uh those are all the rules here theres more posted in the server plz come join we are lonely-  https://discord.gg/6Va9MNyx

Endogenic Systems and Experiences in the Neurodivergent Community

We tend to stay mostly on the fringes of syscourse nowadays without directly interacting with it too often but I'm going to post this more broadly and less focused on our specific instance of this because community-wise I think it's important to talk about.

Endogenic and other non-traumagenic systems are so commonly excluded from so many neurodivergent-safe spaces where they would otherwise be able to gain knowledge about the disorders they might have, share experiences and coping strategies with peers, or at least have a sense of community that is so commonly valuable to disabled and/or neurodivergent people. In a lot of cases, even people who only support non-traumagenic systems get shoved out.

[Continued under the readmore as it's long.]

This obviously harms non-traumagenic systems, but I have to point out that when people sit there and say "we care about REAL disabled people!", I have to say.... Do you? Because if you did care about those with mental illness, physical disability or neurodivergence, you in my mind wouldn't exclude them based on something unrelated to the topic itself which might even be something as small as holding an opinion that other people get to be the judge of their own experiences. You can say that you care about "real" disabled people, but what about when a traumagenic DID system also has a tulpa that they consider just as valid and real as their alters? What about when a system labels themselves as quoigenic because in reality, you owe no one the knowledge that you are vulnerable and traumatised? What about when a system starts out as endogenic but gains so much trauma later on that they develop dissociative symptoms?

We're quoigenic because while yes we are diagnosed with DID:

DID does not have trauma in the diagnostic criteria so our diagnosis doesn't mean anything by way of origin. Nontraumagenic is not the same as nondisordered the same way that traumagenic isn't the same as disordered.

We cannot remember a time before we were plural so we cannot say with accuracy what our actual origin was.

We have headmates we consider to be from both traumagenic and endogenic origins and it feels unfair to pick one.

We don't owe anyone a quick little "hey, we have trauma!" flag on our pinned post which can easily paint us as a target. This is the exact reason we don't share our triggers online--it's not safe.

You don't owe anyone personal medical information including your diagnostic history, your trauma history or lack thereof, your current medications or how many times you've been in a hospital. That is your business and yours alone to decide who you share it with. It's downright dangerous to share some of it, especially so publically. So who is anyone online that clearly isn't your specific medical practitioner to decide whether your experiences are real enough to allow you into spaces meant for a usually completely unrelated thing? Why would someone holding the opinion that endogenic systems get to decide what labels they use be denied access to spaces just because they support people with differing beliefs and/or experiences?

If we as a system with multiple disabilities want to go into a space for people who are schizoaffective because we need others who won't immediately jump on the ableism train when discussing something we're diagnosed with that has so much stigma, should we be denied that just because we don't label our origin with a clear-cut "we are traumatized!!" label? Should we be denied access to spaces because we don't want to sit around and smile while parts of our system and other members of our community are called fake and evil and whatever else they come up with? It's so common in spaces for people with disabilities to be exclusive to traumagenic systems and people with an anti-endogenic mindset that people don't realise they're not only hurting the endogenic community, but literal chunks of their own community itself.

I can't even begin to understand the reason why.

Endogenic systems by just existing do not cause harm. They're not like a transphobe you would not be safe around by default of having a label. Not every nontraumagenic system is a saint but if you took any communtiy and called everyone in it the equivalent of an unproblematic holy angel, you'd be lying. People are bad in every community, some worse than others, but the nontraumagenic system community literally just wants to exist--and yes, sometimes a nontraumagenic system (or supporter of such) does have dissociative symptoms, or maybe they have autism, or maybe they're physically disabled. Should they be not allowed access just because of the way they chose to label their system, or their opinion of people picking their own labels for their personal identity?

What exactly is the reason they're so excluded everywhere? I'd try to assume that this level of exclusion (to the point of endos being on DNIs next to transphobes and racists) would mean there's some real harm being done on a community-wide scale, but even when looking for it there isn't any explanation we've been able to find. "They're fake" is all we seem to see which has no actual backing whatsoever. "They're harmful" is another but.. How? We might be looking in the wrong places, but we have never seen an actual explanation for how nontraumagenic systems cause harm as a community just by being themselves.

At this point, I have to wonder how many people who say "we care about real disabled people!" are just covering up their "we care about socially acceptable disabled people who I understand and/or do not find cringey" sentiment instead. Being neurodivergent should never be about fitting into tight little boxes--it's part of the whole point of having a community like this. You're not the majority, and that's okay. So why are we dividing the disabled community into boxes too?

Of course, this doesn't only apply to ND spaces. LGBT+ spaces are similar and even more divided from the concept of being a system that it makes even less sense to block nontraumagenic systems from entering the space. How does their system origin relate to their LGBT+ identity? Sometimes it can, but should a trans person be excluded from a trans space because they have a friend who is an endogenic system and they support them fully?

Overall, the main point is that it makes no sense whatsoever to be anti-endo in general, let alone so violently anti-endogenic system to the point where you hurt members of your own community due to it. Sometimes from something as simple as them supporting endogenics alone. Your safe spaces aren't actually safe if you exclude a nonharmful group who also belong in that space due to having a personal identity or opinion different to yours. If you want somewhere to be a safe, inclusive space, it should include everyone as long as letting those people in won't cause harm. People who are seeking to cause harm (racists, transphobes, etc) obviously do not belong in a safe space because they seek to harm others, thus making the space unsafe. But people who just want to be themselves without harming anyone should be included in your space if they fall under whatever it may be topic-wise. Even the "cringey" ones. Even the ones who don't quite make sense to you or have "contradicting" labels. Even the ones who use labels completely differently to the way you do. And even the ones who are uninformed or misinformed but trying their best to learn. Your safe space is not safe if it excludes those who do not follow your every single mindset and thought without any deviation.

by the way happy trans day of visibility to all the trans systems out there :)

whether you’re a trans headmate or your whole system collectively identifies as trans, we’re out here, we’re beautiful, and we make both the trans community and the plural community more vibrant just by existing in these spaces.

keep moving and shaking things up. keep reaching for your goals and accepting yourselves unconditionally. keep creating and trying new things. keep unabashedly being yourselves. keep your chin up when things get tough. keep shining!

we know it’s not always easy, but we see you, we care about you, and we are so very proud of you. also, we believe in you and know that there are great things in store for you.

trans lives are magic. trans joy is eternal. we hope you can take some time to revel in your own majesty today. we love you. 💙💗🤍💗💙

Here’s some positivity for those with imagination-based plurality!

Even within different kinds of plurality, individual experiences can be amazingly diverse! Those with imagination-based plurality deserve to be celebrated and understood within the plural community. This post is for every system with imagination-based plurality, and to those whose plurality played a role in their system’s or headmate’s creations!

☁️ Shoutout to systems who use imagenic or imaginagenic labels for their system, or who identify their headmates as imaginatives, imagians, or imaginary friends!

🍀 Shoutout to systems whose imaginary friends from childhood later developed into headmates, or whose imaginary friends always caused them to feel plural!

☀️ Shoutout to mixed origins systems, who may have traumagenic origins or some other origins for their headmates alongside their imagination playing a role!

🌷 Shoutout to systems and headmates who formed via paracosms!

🌙 Shoutout to disordered systems whose plurality was caused or influenced by maladaptive daydreaming, a harmfully overactive imagination, or some other maladaptive, imagination-based coping skill!

🌿 Shoutout to willogenic systems, parogenic systems, paromancers, and thoughtform creators whose imagination played a big role in bringing their headmates to live!

⭐️ Shoutout to gateway systems with walk-ins from imaginary worlds!

🌺 Shoutout to imagination-based systems who worry they won’t be accepted in plural spaces due to being nontraumagenic!

✨ Shoutout to those who have difficulties understanding whether or not their imaginary friends are headmates!

🍃 Shoutout to those with poor or weak imaginations who still strive towards creating an imagination-based system!

🌻 Shoutout to those whose imagined headmates have positively impacted them, saves their life, or helped them change for the better!

Imaginations can play a vital role in a system’s functioning, and this is especially true for those whose plurality was formed through their imaginations! The imagination can be a powerful tool that can aid in or even guide the process of creating systems and headmates.

Imagination-based systems have always been and will always be a crucial and cherished part of the plural community! Your bright and beautiful creative spirit shines brilliantly throughout your system - please don’t ever be ashamed of this fact! Know that there will always be a place for you and your system here, just the way you are! Thanks so much for reading, and have a wonderful day!

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