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Ello Peeps! How’s everyone doing?
So I have a dilemma (sorta). . .
I have a crush that a desperately want to get over
BUTT I don’t really know how AND I don’t want to ask anyone I personally know for help (i.e. friends and family)
So tumblr my best bet right now!
Thank you for the help in advice!!
EXACTLY! I see them both as aroace but they haven’t realized it yet, so they’re just like “oh is this what a crush feels like” but it’s not a crush they just want to be friends.
Can I be honest?
I don't see the chemistry between Willow and Hunter. I just don't see it. Sure they got cute moments, but there's nothing there. If anything I see them as really good friends.
The moments that they have together don't have any romantic chemistry when I watch them. Like I see the blushing and get confused. I want to feel the chemistry and the love between, but there's just none. It feels forced.
Dana did have the series cut short, which no doubt sucks. But if you don't have time to develop a believable relationship...don't do it.
It's not even that. They could have have a whole 'nother season to develop this relationship and I would still not believe it. It just doesn't have substance, sustenance, umph, etc. No spark of any kind.
My fictional crushes over the years
I have no idea who needs to see this, just thought it might be fun and a trip down memory lane for me 😅 please don’t judge too much
1. Age 6-7sih
Kisshu-Tokyo Mew Mew
Just look at him! He was sexy and cute! I’ll never understand Ichigo...
2. Age 7ish
Leon Oswald-Kaleido Star
The episode where he climbed up to bring Sora to the stage...I’m not the same since then...
4. Age 8
Koji- Digimons 3
He’s just like some other characters on the list, maybe just a bit more sweet
4.Age 8-9
Hiei- Yuyu Hakusho
He stole the show for me, and every time he wasn’t in the scene I got mad, so sexy...and that voice! ( but frankly didn’t know he could be shipped with Botan)
5. Age 10
Uchiha Sasuke-Naruto
Well...after Hiei, it shouldn’t be surprising...
Sasuke was cool and sexy as hell for a 10 year old, but man, when I saw this:
It was another sexual awakening...
6. Age 12
Haku-Spirited away
Yeah, he was a strong contender then, how I wished to be Chihiro...
7.Age 14
Rem-Death Note
I saw the movie first, before the anime, and also I watched in dub in my native language, where they essentially gave him the same sounding voice actor as for Haku and Sasuke...So...until like I was 20, I thought she was a he...still sexy though
8. Age 16
Ulquiorra Shiffer- Bleach
Pretty much watched Bleach only for him...and I’m still having a hard time accepting that he’s dead
9. Age 17
Sanji-One Piece
Man, I was in love with this man...to the point that my walls were covered in images of him
10. Age 17-18ish
Jem Cartsairs-Mortal Instruments
First non anime character on the list...I didn’t and since then still don’t understand the hype about Will when there was Jem...
11.Age 23
I took a small brake from fandoms, but as it goes, people always go back
Gaara-Naruto
He’s like everything...and I’m so glad the Gaasaku ship and fandom is so great, in cannon he was so great and in fannon even greater :D
And we caught up...No more crushes since the beginning of this year, since I also have to maintain these :D
I’d like to see other’s take on this!
Day 175: Band
For a prompt specifically about a music band.
“You’ve got to be fucking kidding me,” Draco said as he stared at the man who’d just walked through the door. Ralph had promised that he knew a solid guitar player who could sub in for a couple performances. And Draco had trusted him.
Well, lesson learned. He’d never trust Ralph again because there in the doorway stood Harry fucking Potter. Stupid, messy hair pulled back into a bun; tidy beard framing what appeared to be a strong jaw; tattoos peeking out from the collar of his shirt and along his arms; eyebrow piercing; and six feet of gorgeous muscle. In short, something straight out of one of Draco’s wet dreams.
“Well, well,” Potter murmured, voice low and smooth like molasses. “Who’d have imagined this?”
“You two know each other?” Pete asked from where he was perched behind his drum set.
Draco blew out a breath, “We went to school together.”
Potter chuckled softly, eyes glinting at him.
“Conservatory?” Ralph asked as he picked up his electric bass and slung the strap over his neck.
The other man raised an eyebrow and the ring glinted in the stage lights, “Conservatory, huh? Always imagined you going into something…” he trailed off, “pharmaceutical.”
He rolled his eyes, “My godfather certainly wanted that. Too bad he died.” Potter’s eyebrow ticked up but Draco continued, “I always expected you’d go into law enforcement.” Draco hadn’t ever really considered a world where Harry Potter hasn’t become an auror.
Potter huffed and rolled his eyes, “I got sick of peoples’ expectations.”
“Right,” Ralph interrupted. “This is all well and good but maybe you two could save the reunion chat for after rehearsal. We're not all independently wealthy wankers, some of us actually have day jobs to get to.”
“You’re staying?” Draco asked him incredulously.
Potter shrugged, “I’m in between gigs, it’s your call.”
He narrowed his eyes at the other man, "fine. But if you can't keep up you're out of here."
Those green eyes brightened with the thrill of challenge and pleasure zipped up Draco's spine. It had been a long time since he'd experienced this particular thrill and it went straight to his head.
"You're on," Potter said, opening his guitar case as Draco sat down at the keyboard.
Pete counted them off and Draco gave himself over to the joy of making music.
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Potter was surprisingly good.
He played well, had a good ear, and his voice was surprisingly pleasant. Draco was grudgingly impressed.
"Want to get some lunch?" Potter asked him at the end of rehearsal as Draco was guzzling half a bottle of water to sooth his parched throat.
He promptly choked on his drink, "Excuse me?" he managed when he finally had his coughing under control.
Potter quirked an irritatingly attractive crooked grin at him, "You heard me perfectly."
"Why would you want to have lunch with me?"
The other man shrugged, "That's much easier to answer than if you'd asked why you'd want to have lunch with me," he replied. "I would like to have dinner with you," he continued before Draco had had proper time to process that statement, "because I want to get to know you better. I like the way you interact with the people around you, Ralph had nothing but good things to say about you and he's a pretty good judge of character. And," he said, leaning forward conspiratorially and lowering his voice, "I think you're attractive."
He stared at him, feeling like he must have fallen through some sort of temporal shift. There was no way that Harry Potter had just said that to him. Maybe he was dreaming.
"I'm not the boy you knew at school," he added.
He clicked his jaw shut and he straightened up, "Alright fine."
Potter grinned at him again and it was sharp, and bright, and just a little dangerous and Draco couldn't help but think that maybe he was getting in a little over his head.
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Lunch had been surprisingly pleasant.
Potter had taken him to a fish and chip place, a little hole in the wall, and Draco wanted to die with how perfect the greasy, hot, salty chips tasted in the malt vinegar. And then Potter had proceeded to ask him questions and let Draco talk about himself for nearly two hours.
"Circe," he said eventually, leaning back in his chair, "You need to tell me to stop talking."
Potter's eyes crinkled in the corners with his smile, "Why would I ever want to do that?"
"Because I've been rambling for the better part of two hours, surely you don't care about the piano teacher that I had when I was a child."
"I want to listen to whatever you want to say," he said and he said it so genuinely that Draco couldn't help but wonder if he actually meant it.
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Three weeks in and Draco had to pretty much constantly resist the urge to slam Harry into walls and make out with him. And sometimes the other man would look at him with the same desire reflected in his eyes, but just as soon as Draco would spot it, the other man would blink and it would be gone.
It was safe to say that he found Harry very attractive and he enjoyed his personality but it wasn't until he heard him play acoustic and sing that Draco really fell completely.
Ralph had invited him to come to the bar where he'd first heard Harry sing, apparently Harry had a standing Thursday night gig there, and Draco had said yes. They sat toward the back and Draco had expected to enjoy the performance, but he hadn't expected the other man to completely steal his heart from within his chest.
When Harry sang, it was like his entire heart and soul were bared before you. And the way he played his guitar, like it was an extension of himself, strumming and plucking the strings as though it came easier to him than breathing.
He was enraptured.
Draco wasn't ready for it to be over, wasn't ready to face Harry, to come to terms with all that he was feeling. But Ralph stood up at the end of Harry's set as he was making his way off the stage and waved him over and it was too late to run and hide.
"Hey!" Harry said, collapsing into one of the chairs at the table. "I didn't know you were going to be here," he said, nudging Draco's shin with his toes.
I think I'm in love with you. He cleared his throat and carefully organized his thoughts before opening his mouth, "Ralph invited me," he said.
"It's always nice to hear you on acoustic," Ralph added.
"Thanks," Harry replied with an easy grin, "It's a nice change, you know?"
Ralph talked a little bit, yammered about who knows what, that Draco was thinking to loudly to hear.
When Ralph got up (to use the loo? get a drink? move to Hong Kong? Draco didn't know) he turned to Harry and stared at him.
"You're quiet," Harry commented as he drank the remaining water in his bottle.
"Who are you?" he asked.
Harry blinked, head tilting uncertainly, "Err-"
"I mean, honestly. Who gave you the right to be this fucking talented? On top of everything else you have going for you? What the fuck?"
The other man huffed a laugh, "Thanks," he said, obviously preparing to downplay it.
"It's fucking annoying."
He blinked, "Okaay."
Draco threw a hand up in the air, "I mean, how are you still single? You are everything tha-"
"Date me," he said, grinning brightly and perking up.
"How can I?!" he exclaimed. "Knowing that I could literally never measure up? Knowing that you deserve some much better-"
"Draco," he said, covering Draco's hand with his. "You are so far out of my league."
"Pfft. You're not fool-"
Harry leaned over the corner of the table and kissed him. "I like you," he said when he pulled back. "A lot. I like so many things about you. And I think that my opinion of you and your opinion of me matter more than our opinions of ourselves. Don't you think?"
"Kiss me again."
He grinned and leaned over the corner of the table, kissing Draco softly, fingers threading through his hair. "Is that a yes?" he asked when he pulled back.
"That's a keep bloody kissing me," he said, grabbing Harry by the front of the tshirt and dragging him in once more.
Harry kissed him back, lips and tongue moving sensuously against Draco's until Draco lost track of everything except Harry's body and mouth.
"About time," Ralph grunted and they broke apart. "Oh, please," he said as he grabbed his coat off the back of his chair, "Don't stop on my account. Save everyone the agony of watching you two staring at the other when you think no one is looking. We all see it-"
"Yes, thank you," Draco interrupted, rolling his eyes, "Such dramatics, as though I didn't literally walk in on you and your girlfriend having sex on my piano bench."
Harry let out a surprised laugh and he couldn't help the smile that bloomed in response.
"Don't laugh," he said, shoving him, "It was traumatic. I had to see," he shuddered dramatically, "lady bits."
"Do you want to get out of here?" Harry asked.
He nodded, "I'd like nothing better."
"Well, since the two of you have already forgotten that I exist, I'll just be off, too," Ralph teased.
He rolled his eyes, "Good night, Ralph."
Harry waved at him before turning his gaze back on Draco. "Want to come over to mine and watch a movie?"
"Is that code for snog like teenagers on the sofa?" Draco asked, raising an eyebrow and running his finger up Harry's forearm.
"It's code for whatever you want it to be," Harry said, "As long as it's with me."
"There's no one else I'd rather it be."
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Day 174: Star-Crossed Lovers | Day 176: Doppleganger
Does Ando ever get a spouse in the main AU?
At the moment there are no marriage plans for Ando, but I might consider it…
Although what I can confirm is that he will have a small "crush" with someone from the cult (owo)
having a crush is so embarrassing!!! because instead of me making up scenarios in my head about a fictional character— i’m making them up about this person who actually knows who i am and doesn’t like me back
F.F.C
Current
Imagine your first fictional crush fighting your current fictional crush
(Idea taken from tiktok)
First fictional crush:
Current fictional crush:
"They say you still love me. They say you broke up with her just for me. They say you've never smiled as much as you do when you see me. They say I make your life better. They say he didn't forget me. They say that I just need to wait. They say we were meant to be. They say that we'll end up together. They tell me to not give up hope. To not move one yet. Little did they know, I can never move on, not from you, but it seems like you already moved on from me and I don't know what to do anymore. Should I wait for you? Or should I find another? If I do wait for you, give me a reason why. If I move on from you... will we still be friends? They tell me to hold on to us because there's still hope, but I don't think I can hold on for any longer. But if what they say is true... I want to hear it from you. So tell me, tell me so all of this can be over —do you still love me?"
— My thoughts 24/7
Oof crushes on friends are super duper👌🏾
Me when celebrity men 3x my age
adding Thomas Shelby to the list of 'he could make me worse' individuals
i could not make him better and I don't want to
when people i follow like my posts i blush<3
He travels while I sit and ponder on him
I had a special someone on my mind. he had been running around my thoughts lately, shutting up wouldn't have worked so I texted him. ''hey how have you been? how's life?'' FYI we haven't quite talked in some time, the prime age of being a teen was the last of our first kiss together. As I suspected he had been livin' his way and it makes me so happy for him, and gosh the way he has grown. makes me yearn for more time to pass to see full growth. he'd always inspire me in some way I cannot say. I hope to see him again...
ahh ranting here bc i need to get it out of my head and into the universe
just. dang, having crushes as an ace person is jsut SO wildly different than what i've heard from allo people lol. like my friends are all like 'is there anyone cute you know?' and i'm sitting here now like 'well idk he's kinda cute but it was more bc he's sweet and funny and smart and yada yada yada'
there was a while where i was like 'wait am i just mistaking crushes for social anxiety around people who are leaders (like my drum major when i was in hs and a group leader about a year back and yada yada)' as part of my wondering if i was arospec this summer.
then boom. band camp. this dude is literally just another sophomore like me, not section leader or squad leader or anything. just stood next to me in the drill and talked about a mutual friend we have and ate dinner with a group of friend once and then my brain was like 'hey guess what realization you just had'
like, i'm thankful for the (at least slight) clarification of where i sit on the romantic spectrum but jeez i did not expect it to happen this way
Not me wondering about where I sit on the arospectrum this entire summer just to go to school and get a crush after a week of band camp
Ok so, which crashbox character did ya'll have (or still have, maybe even just now have) a crush on? I'll go first, Eddie Bull, he is absolutely adorable (ignore the vore tho 👁👄👁)
I was with this girl all day and??? like??? I miss her??? Like literally all day and now I just want to hug her???? This sucks??? I hate feelings???
I’ve never thought I was weird for being aromantic. Even when I didn’t know that I was, before I even knew the term, I thought everyone else was just weird for liking their crushes too much. Having that label is very comforting to me because now I’m like, “It’s okay, they’re still people. They just feel something differently.” Which I guess is what people who come to accept aros think, but I just find it funny that I think it in the opposite direction.
Another evidence to add to my list of evidences that I am, in fact, aro:
When I was younger, I thought I had a crush on a guy in my school, and one day he saw me sitting with another guy at lunch. Before our next class started, he came up to ask who the other guy was. I had wondered if he was feeling jealous, but I just said, “Oh that was my friend. Why do you ask?”
“It’s just that big brother instinct kicking in.”
And I was like “oh Okay” and it was the most hilarious thing to me that I had just gotten family-zoned. I was laughing about it all afternoon, but when I told my friends, they were all “oh no I’m so sorry!” and I was like it literally doesn’t matter?? why are you pitying me??????
❀ Pansy n°8 = Who are my / our Husbandos ?
*sigh*
You know how therapists say - at least tiktok ones :/ - that to be ready for a relationship you have to break off your imaginary ones first ? Well for me - and many people I’m sure - it is complicated to say goodbye to thousand that much fictive lives and lovers… Especially when it’s the only way I get to fall asleep, making up fake scenarios.
I dream so much about love, I’ve got to have it in some way, no ? Be it with fictional characters, celebrities, voice actors or even made up characters, I have to dream about a significant other loving up on me. Am I exposing myself too much ? Yes, yes I am … :/ But, f*ck it.
It is really easy to imagine a life with a celebrity as they are public personalities and we know so much about their lives. Too much… Moreover, your brain - and heart - does not make the difference between real people and fictional ones. That’s why you can feel truly heartbroken when a character you’ve grown attached to is sad or dies. Real or not, it makes no difference when emotions are thrown into the mix…
→ The way I realized this was true is pretty embarrassing but I’ll tell you anyway… I was young - around 17 - and in a big as well as deep spiderman / Tom Holland period. So much that it was concerning… :/ Then, pictures of Zendaya and Tom kissing came out and their relationship was outed. And… *sigh* My first reaction was crying. I felt heartbroken but mostly pathetic and embarrassed to be affected so much by it. I was disgusted by myself, because I was crying over something - someone - that had nothing to do with me. Yet it was a true awakening. After that I stopped - or at least I think I did :/ - to get THIS attached to my dumb celebrity crushes.
It also made me realize something really important.
We don’t know who our celebrity crushes are, not really. What we see of them is only through media, dramas, speculations… Their images are controlled and a source of income for many - *cough cough* paparazzis :/. Sadly, they don’t have the chance to live freely, away from camera lenses…
And we, their fandom, play a part in their objectification. It’s important to know that the person we have a crush on, write fictions about and obsess over is a made up version of them. It’s only how we picture them, how we’d like them to be. Not how they are, because we don’t know. We can’t know. And we shouldn’t, because they have a right to privacy.
We don’t know them, exactly how they don’t know each one of us.
So now, I see it more like having a crush on a fictional character. Because that’s what they become. They have made up lives and personalities. It’s fake, it’s fictional. And it’s okay. I think it’s better than knowing every detail and overstepping boundaries in their busy and stressful lives. It might be okay to admire and be attracted to them, but it definitely isn’t if we don’t respect that they stay humans and that in their place we wouldn’t want our lives to be invaded by strangers.
Nevertheless, drawing this conclusion makes me feel even more lonely. Plus, all these imagination filled scenarios definitely don’t help to have a realistic idea of love. I feel bound to be disappointed by life and love - especially by men :/. That’s the problem with overthinking, dreaming and projecting too much… You always end up falling from the high cloud you set yourself on.
Maybe one day I’ll find “the one” - whoever it may be or if they even exist. Only time will tell, for now I’ll try and deal with the loneliness.
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