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i bought j-hope’s entire album, Hope World, this morning. i don’t regret a single second and neither do my ears.
let's ride horses at midnight
The alarm sound at the end of Daydream triggers my fight of flight
Daydream
Pencil drawing
Calbayog City 2024
From my morning drawing. I tried posting this on Instagram and I got an immediate full screen message telling me to delete it or else!
Community guidelines..
Kind of funny.
Day. Dream. Clouds by Cormac Powers via meinzsara
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This chapter tackles subjects that can be sensitive to some readers, please do not interact if you are uncomfortable.
⚠️ Warning : depiction of depressive behavior and obsessive thoughts.
Read at your own risk. - Beaucoup d’amour, Poppy.
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❀ Pansy n°5 = Reality ? No, thanks…
When life feels too bland, one’s mind can do wonders to escape it.
It may seem unreal or fake to some people, but for some minds the easiest way to cope with a negative or stressful emotional state is to dive into one’s subconscious and imagination. The reason why is pretty simple. You are free to control everything and everyone in your own head. You are able to picture and make up every landscape, every environment with anyone you would want to be with.
You are free to give yourself a dream life while escaping the difficult truth of reality.
This “ability” can be considered a skill available to anyone willing to expand and develop their imagination. Personally, I have always considered myself to be quite creative and full of imagination, so being able to increase my capability of imagining things has been awfully thrilling through the years. My mind has always been triggered by music. Easily imagining or making up epic battles on action like songs, dance routines on classical music or simply fake scenarios on chill lofi beats.
I have so many different fake lives, it’s concerning… :/
But it is such a cathartic experience to insert yourself in your favorite universes, with your favorite characters. What’s even better is when you are so into your mind that you can feel things. With time, it happens to me more and more.
Sometimes the smell of freshly baked bread, but mostly the feeling of a warm embrace or lips softly brushing against one another…
That might be why I often have lucid dreams or why I believe in shifting. But those are pansies for another time.
Nevertheless, this dream-like ability can become dangerous to a certain extent. In fact, when the fake scenarios become an obsession, when day-dreaming becomes a daily occurrence, all in all, when all of it becomes too important… Then it becomes a problem. Then it is unhealthy.
Why does this amazing experience have to be so toxic ?
It is a way to cope, to feel good, to relieve stress - for once without the use of anything illegal 👀- but sadly it also disinterests you from reality. Some people can end up resenting even more their real life.
Come to think of it, that’s how addictions work, no ?
I am no one to tell you what to do if you relate to what I’m writing, neither am I judging anyone. Too often do I feel detached from reality because of my will to live in fantasies. It is something I want to work on - most of my pansies are about myself, my thoughts and based on my will to evolve.
So once again, I am no one to judge.
I am someone so obsessed with daydreaming that, when I am feeling down, it literally plagues my days. I only think about when I’ll have alone time to listen to music and continue the scenario where I left off. Or when I’ll be able to read self-insert fanfictions to drown even more in this shameful obsession of the unreal.
All of it fueled by the fear of reality and the tiredness of living.
Too often do I think I would like to eternally dream.
And that’s because I am conscious it has become this unhealthy obsession that I want to work on. I know that on the one hand, I like to make up scenarios because I would like to experience other environments/universes with other people. But on the other hand, I realized it is also because I can be whoever I want to be.
So lately - being in a good mindset - I am on a quest to better myself, to let myself discover who I am, who I want to be and most importantly to let myself take time to heal.
I know this won't be easy, that I won’t drastically stop to escape reality. But now I also know that to make this creative ability healthy, I have to try and find or even make a dream out of reality.
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🔺Original work please do not steal or copy, Thanks.🔺
Just sat down, opened my laptop, put on some lovely fantasy music in the background, got ready to write down something - anything - for my fantasy novel project as I've been feeling motivated and inspired to pick it back up lately... YET I CAN'T WRITE A THING.
UGH I hate writer's block... I hate my overthinking mind which tells me I haven't prepared enough to be able to write or wanting to ONLY start by the begining and not just make some sort of advancement...
I'll just close my laptop again and go back to daydreaming about my story - cause that's the only thing I'm able to do with it apparently lmao
Maladaptive daydreaming
Today I learned that my addiction with daydreaming and my habit of constantly daydreaming in order to fall asleep is a psychology disorder called maladaptive daydreaming. It is said to be caused by trauma. It usually serves as an escape from reality when things get too hard for me to manage and in doing so, I cultivated a hobby of writing stories and daydreaming on a daily basic. I also need to create these scenarios for me to actually fall asleep. If I clear these things out from my head and my head is clear, I won’t be able to fall asleep or get insomnia. I didn’t know that it was related to childhood trauma. Since I was young, this had been my way of coping with the reality. I escaped into this dream-like realm that I created in my head and immerse myself into it until I lose sense of reality and what is happening around me. I thought I was just too addicted to daydreaming.
