Im Trying This Thing Called Life - Tumblr Posts
Watch "Trust Nobody- Tupac" on YouTube
I hate this...but I agree because this is what's happened to me and how I feel. I feel alone I have NO friends. I trust no one because everyone's betrayed me. I guess it's a major human flaw like many other human flaws. It's a fair and real but terrible truth, that humans are not perfect. To be perfect and human just doesn't exist. To have to hold perfection would be a heavy burden. Even, whether you believe it or not, some of Jesus's closest friends (disciples) turned on him. We as a collective, us as humans, have been/can/ hopefully not but probably will/ be betrayed. Like I said this betrayal has been done to me by coworkers, friends from elementary and family (we don't forget the way people treat us). It's hard to recover from it. ESPECIALLY when you finally decide to open your heart again and it happens AGAIN. I forgive, but I cannot forget and that hurts even MORE. Not the forgiving, but it's the feeling of remembering and knowing I may not be able to open my heart up fully ever again is what hurts.
I'm trying this climb. It's a mountain. Kilimanjaro like. It's called life though. Been climbing for a long time. I'm not giving in to the self hate. All the forces working against me in this realm and the unseen, fuck off. I hate cursing, but fuck off for real.