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YESSSSSSSSSS CONGRATULATIONS YOU TWO 🩷❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜
So six weeks ago this happened (I cannot for the life of me remember context):
And now - after six weeks of constant messaging, video chats so long our phones gave up before we did, and the most inept, ridiculous, blustering attempts at flirting known to humankind - I am so freaking proud and happy and excited and awed and amazed to say that neither of us belong in that club anymore.
@pannotbread was very brave and asked me to be her girlfriend and, after I'd finished blushing and stammering, I said yes 🥰
I am grateful to @maaikeatthefullmoon for recommending UTSS, because as soon as I read it I knew I had to talk to the person behind it: they wrote about love, loneliness and longing in the exact same way I did, it felt almost like reading my own heart in fragments. And then as soon as we started talking, we were writing essays, punctuated with "omg me too!" and "Yes, you get it!" - within days I knew I was, as my Crowley would say, utterly fucked.
Six weeks from being sure I was dying alone, to suddenly and completely unexpectedly feeling seen, understood, and cared for in ways that scrape me to the bone.
I adore this human with my whole heart and although we don't have an easy or conventional road ahead of us, I am just so freaking grateful for her, for her huge heart and bravery, her glorious bastard streak and delicious sense of humour, and a smile that never fails to knock me for six. It's more than I could ever have dared to hope for.
And, in related news, we might be working on a top secret project together, too... (also grateful for helping me find my joy in writing again)
For us at least, the nightingales are singing.
To our world 🥂
❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜
MORE CONGRATULATION
So six weeks ago this happened (I cannot for the life of me remember context):
And now - after six weeks of constant messaging, video chats so long our phones gave up before we did, and the most inept, ridiculous, blustering attempts at flirting known to humankind - I am so freaking proud and happy and excited and awed and amazed to say that neither of us belong in that club anymore.
@pannotbread was very brave and asked me to be her girlfriend and, after I'd finished blushing and stammering, I said yes 🥰
I am grateful to @maaikeatthefullmoon for recommending UTSS, because as soon as I read it I knew I had to talk to the person behind it: they wrote about love, loneliness and longing in the exact same way I did, it felt almost like reading my own heart in fragments. And then as soon as we started talking, we were writing essays, punctuated with "omg me too!" and "Yes, you get it!" - within days I knew I was, as my Crowley would say, utterly fucked.
Six weeks from being sure I was dying alone, to suddenly and completely unexpectedly feeling seen, understood, and cared for in ways that scrape me to the bone.
I adore this human with my whole heart and although we don't have an easy or conventional road ahead of us, I am just so freaking grateful for her, for her huge heart and bravery, her glorious bastard streak and delicious sense of humour, and a smile that never fails to knock me for six. It's more than I could ever have dared to hope for.
And, in related news, we might be working on a top secret project together, too... (also grateful for helping me find my joy in writing again)
For us at least, the nightingales are singing.
To our world 🥂
❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜
Phoenix & Pan's Good Omens Meetup
Saturday 5th October 2024
Greetings, beloved ineffable fandom!
On Saturday 5th October, @pannotbread and I will be in London (having seen Michael in White Rabbit, Red Rabbit the night before) and would love to host a Good Omens meet up!
Provisional plan thus far is to meet up in St James Park around midday, bring a light picnic if weather is good, take photos and be generally insane near The Bench, then head over to Sky Garden (the setting for Heaven and full of plants to yell at) for more photos ops and drinks at the bar overlooking London. In the evening, we were thinking of heading into Soho for sushi dinner and then we were going to hire a karaoke room for singing and cocktails!
Obviously because of the nature of the day we'd need to book (and pay for) stuff in advance, so right now I'm just trying to get an idea of levels of interest - so let me know if you'd be interested in coming, to some or all of it!
Please give us a wave in the comments if you are able to come so we know who to make arrangements with!
Pan and I promise to be on our best behaviour and keep the heart-eyes to a minimum (at least until the cocktails, then I cannot be held responsible for what my face does around them, lol). We are both so excited and hope that some of you lovely folks can make it!
❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜🩷❤️🧡💛💚🩵💙💜🩷
[pleeeease reblog so we can reach as many ineffables as possible!]
just want to let you know that you and phoenix are making me feel lonely rn,
how do I get my own phoenix?
I initially wanted to blow off this question with a "lol i wrote porn" answer, and while that's true, I'd like to give you something far more sincere.
I took a terrifying leap of faith.
I entered a fandom I was SO FUCKING SCARED of interacting with instead of lurking on the sidelines. I chose to branch out from my itty bitty corner of the internet and post a story that I almost deleted in a moment of panic. In this story, I bore my soul. UTSS might just be a silly Good Omens AU to most, but the majority of its heart is my history, my hurt, my experience. I put myself out there, not looking for anyone or anything more than community, and by some fucking miracle, she took notice in me. And I'm forever grateful.
I think all of this is to say: do what you're afraid of. It was and is terrifying, even still, make no mistake. You have to be vulnerable to allow anyone in. So put even a small sliver of your beautiful self into the world. Even if you only see every part of you as jagged or boring or unworthy. Someone will notice. someone will think it's the most awe-inspiring soul that ever existed and will want to handle it with care. Also, be prepared to act the fool. You have to be okay with going out on a limb, even if the result isn't great (citing examples: @phoen1xr0se leaving a very thorough comment that I was too dumb to recognize for what it was; or me needing to blatantly tell her I had a Big Gay Crush™ on her for her to realize). You also have to throw a lot of caution to the wind, if I'm honest. How else could two people from opposite sides of the world find their way to one another?
It may not happen tomorrow, or even next month, and it might not work every time, but when I thought someone couldn't look at me with anything more than derision or disdain, I was proven so fucking wrong. Don't lose hope.