Just Venting - Tumblr Posts

For me it’s kinda similar to yours. It’s especially hard because I have all of these characters and I have to make sure they all have their own unique perspectives/way of viewing the world. I think my issue comes from the fact that I started off with fanfic, so I’ve never really had OC’s before (not for an entire novel). So I’ve never had to worry about personal characterization and development.

so, writeblr, humor me:

we see a ton of writing advice here in this corner of tumblr, and i know we do take them with a grain of salt, but what advice do you wish you can follow but particularly have difficulty doing so?

let me start!

For me, I like the advice of "using your own voice into your writing". This was one of the first few pieces of advice I came across when I first started to write seriously, and I know it's more applicable when writing personal essays, but I feel like it's harder to apply on short stories or novels. It requires getting into your character's head and writing it down in a way that makes the voice theirs but also still yours. More so if you've decided to use third-person.

I for one particularly enjoy written works that have distinct voices and personalities, which is probably why I also want to emulate it in my writing.

The problem is that I think my personality itself is too boring (affectionately) to have its own voice. This dilemma is one of the many reasons why I often get stuck in chapters, because "the words aren't coming out right" or what-not.

So, if you have time, what's yours? Feel free to tell me in the replies / asks / reblogs!

I usually don’t really vent on here but I’m feeling so defeated right now. I’ve been hit with like a million different diagnoses last year and started getting treatment for a chronic illness, and all of that did improve things, but still change isn’t linear, and I’m sat here right now in pain, feeling like I won’t ever be able to have normal social interactions with more than a handful of people ever again, having anxiety about all the things I still gotta get done, wondering if I’ll even be able to take on the challenges I got coming for me this year - challenges that I was still excited for two days ago when I wasn’t realising I was yet again over taxing myself. Everything hurts and I wanna crawl out of my own skin, I gotta get up in 5 and a half hours, and even though I know things are getting better it doesn’t feel like it 😭 I don’t even have the energy to hang out on this website most of the time 😤

But can we reverse this thinking and let it be Okay for people like me, who work very hard but don't truly have any skills and have yet to achieve anything despite their hard work, to exist?

People will say a very skilled person is gifted or talented instead of attributing it to hard work and practice so they can feel better about themselves instead of blaming their lack of skills on their lack of interest and laziness.

not that I am complaining or anything but why the f most of the gojo fanfics here (also on ao3) are just smuts? Like where's the plot? Th angst? The fluff? The complexity?

It's getting too repetitive and boring reading the same thing over and over again..

I'm kinda tired of not being gorgeous enough for men who are actually great guys ya know??? Like they always go to the girl who could have who ever she wants. I'm really not trying to say anything bad I know they want something worth their while idk does that make sense I'm just insecure idk and I don't mean f boys cause usually they go for that women too but like why not me??? Sorry for being lame everyone I hope I didn't bother anyone.

I have a lot of thoughts in my head today.... one of those days I can't just freeze my brain 🧠 I just gotta smile don't cry don't have a panic attack just don't... you don't need to be a burden to others.... everyone's going through something... ugh I just don't get it sometimes... I just wonder what I could've been. I think I'm doing better than who I was. Now I'm just left with a million questions about my past like I don't remember anything before 14 I get glimpses but it's all just gone and I honestly also think that's for the best just forget just forget....

I am leaving my old job. Because its been awful. And I had a job interview today at a pet store.

And like what I really want to do is work at a book store and read tarot.

I applied to the only bookstore close by, but didn't get it. And I feel so nervous because I just don't want to do this. But I need the money. Even though I'm taking a price cut and getting less hours, but it will be better for my mental health because if I stay at my old job any longer I will have an absolute mental breakdown.

I wish I could just have a month or two to really think about everything, but I can't put that stress on my boyfriend and I can't afford it.

And I feel a little bad because the manager that interviewed me was so nice, and I just not sure if this is what I want.

For a long time now, every meeting with another human being has been a collision. I feel too much, I sense too much, am exhausted by the reverberations after even the simplest conversation.

May Sarton

when weve been so conditioned to believe every minor inconvenience will cause who we love to unalive themself so when someone has a real crisis were stuck in a state of overwhelming panic with no way yo soothe it because even all the "im okay"s or "its fine"s were lies that was told to us, and by us for years. there is no feelings safety or trust left in this pathetic shell of a being :3

- Mania 💫💔

I'm done

Hey guys, this just me venting so yeah please don't get the wrong idea that I'm trying to cry out for help or looking for attention. I'm not really, I just feel like I need to to vent a bit is all. Thanks, you don't have to read this or like this, or reblog this....read it if you want or not.

I'm done with myself. I'm tired of my failers, of my mistakes, my saddness, my anger. I'm having a bad day and I have no one but myself to blame. And really that what I've been doing, when ever I fuck up my grades, or do something wrong, or even say something wrong. I have no one to blame but myself. I don't hate my family, or my friends. Or even the life I've been giving. But that it, given.... everything been given to me and I hate myself for that. I haven't gotten anything on my own. I don't have a job. Or my own place. I'm in college sure. I live with my family of course, I gave my driver license. But no car, no money for no job. No actually I do is...what do I even do, I'm failing to classes in college. My parents are gonna have to pay for me to re take it. I feel like I'm just FUCKING Everybody over. Everybody, my family, my friends, my little siblings. My life, my body, my soul....I just feel so done with myself at times.

I hate myself because that all I can do. I have no one to blame but myself...I'm stressed, tired, a bit under the weather, just...I'm so done with myself. I'm done trying to care about myself. If I could I would walk out of my house and never come back. Maybe then my parents can finally leave each other so they can finally be happy for once. So my siblings won't have to see their big sister cry and break down like some little kid. 19 years old and my little sister 14 has to calm me down. Tell me that I'm okay when I'm not, my little brother of 8 years old asking me if I'm gonna cry then hug me.

I'm the older sibling yet...yet I'm the one getting ready to break down. And I hate that most about myself. I don't even know what I'm gonna do with my life besides going to college again, or find a damn job or go in the army maybe. I don't care anymore. I really don't, I live for my siblings, for my parents, for my friends. But I'm done caring about myself.

I really am. I'm sorry if this making you feel sorry for me, make you feel worried about me. Upsetting you in any way but that how I'm feeling right now. I'm having a bad day and this what normals happens for a bad day with me. I just stop caring for how I feel anymore. Sure I'll try live for everyone else but I'm just done trying to live for myself. At least I'll be able to take responsibility for others feels about my life. But I just can't for myself anymore. Not anymore..

Mean

When someone complains that my main character in "The Road Not Trekked" is mean, and I just want to reach through the monitor and scream right in their stupid face, "I KNOW she's mean, you fucking waste of chromosomes; I wrote her that way for a specific reason!! I don't need you to list the mean things she does, because I put a lot more thought into them than YOU did!!!" but I can't because they're anonymous...

This took me way too long to reply to, but thank you for the tag @helen-the-bear

I did do an obligatory wishful thinking one where my style isn't quite so plain and my hair is approximately a month in the future, but this one will do

Tagging: @pagesofcursive @wannabeauthorzofija (neither of you are obligated, and anyone who follows me is also gently encouraged to join in)

Picrew Tag

Thanks for tagging me, @talesofsorrowandofruin ^_^

Rules: make yourself with this Picrew.

For some reason this looks kinda like Hermione, but okay.

Tagging: @regan-wickworre @baguettethebooklover and @teasenpaiwrites + open tag

Sometimes I think about the fact that if I finally did killed myself all of my friends would be shocked that I was struggling in the first place. I've always been told I'm a great performer, I'm afraid that's going to be my downfall.