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a little late, but March 2nd is global shutdown day for Palestine (info here). So if you wanna spend it reading and educating yourself here are free zines and books:

Publishers for Palestine

Zines, Books, and More: Free Reads for a Free Palestine

While 2023’s #ReadPalestine week wrapped up on December 5, a number of the books remain free, and more free books and zines for and from Pal

and more literature here:

Decolonize Palestine

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Welcome to the Decolonize Palestine reading list. We have carefully put together this list so that you can expand your knowledge on all thin

Verbal Shutdown

I know some autistic ppl don't like using "nonverbal (episode)" to refer to briefly being unable to speak, understandably. I think the correct term is "verbal shutdown?"

Anyway, this is hardly the first time I've had a verbal shutdown. That's not what's weird to me. No, the weird thing is, I'm not in emotional distress (that I'm aware of). It just came out of nowhere.

Maybe it's just that I'm super drained and not ready to be around ppl right now?

Me: I'm not that obviously disabled by my autism Also me: Has a meltdown shutdown cycle for three weeks and although I've escaped it I'm still spiraling with anger issues out of the stress of a new transition beginning this fall

Me: I'm not that obviously disabled by my autism Also me: Has a meltdown shutdown cycle for three weeks and although I've escaped it I'm still spiraling with anger issues out of the stress of a new transition beginning this fall

Zombie Trump protesters on the loose.

Thx for all who attending my virtual portrait drawing event. Stayed tuned for the next one.

I just got Twitter only to find out the top things in trending are that it's shutting down and everyone's moving to tumblr 💀

Shut down practice dance video // reblog if you save/use ♥

JUST SO WE'RE 10000% CLEAR, THE NATIONAL AERONAUTICS AND SPACE ADMINISTRATION BASICALLY DOES NOT EXIST ONLINE RIGHT NOW BECAUSE THE HOUSE OF REPRESENTATIVES CANNOT STOMACH THE IDEA OF FUNDING A FUCKING LAW THAT HAS ALREADY BEEN MADE.

I know federal employees are dealing with much more serious and personal consequences of this shutdown but FOR REAL OKAY NASA IS GONE AND I REALLY NEED IT BACK.

Miss Atsuha (mind if i call you that?), have you and your boyfriend ever argued? You don't need to answer if it's a private thing, but to have such an agreement as the one you stated, I can't help but to feel some tension happened between you two...

Huh, quite an elaborate ask.

𝔸 𝕓𝕚𝕥 𝕟𝕠𝕤𝕖𝕪 𝕚𝕗 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕒𝕤𝕜 𝕞𝕖. 𝕋𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕒𝕘𝕒𝕚𝕟, 𝕚𝕥 𝕕𝕚𝕕 𝕤𝕒𝕪 𝕪𝕠𝕦 𝕕𝕠𝕟'𝕥 𝕙𝕒𝕧𝕖 𝕥𝕠 𝕒𝕟𝕤𝕨𝕖𝕣.

Well, there IS a story though. Get comfy.

During the first months Kiyo-kun and I dated, Junpei and I took a mission, and the curse we faced... ended up being a grade higher than expected.

I'm glad we both made it out, but I'm not really proud of what happened next.

A few days later, Kiyo-kun and I went on a date. He was visibly concerned about me, but I assured him multiple times I was okay.

I THOUGHT I was okay afterwards, I didn't felt tense, worried or anything. Just had some minor injuries on my left arm. Then again, I'm not THAT reliable when it comes to seeing how deep things cut me. And I guess he thought I was mostly ignoring how dangerous most situations were, as if underestimating jujutsu sorcery as a job.

The straw that broke the camel's back... the moment that nagging weight finally came down on me... on us...

We were walking back to his car, and he talked about other roles in jujutsu society, like windows.

Somehow I assumed he was telling me to quit. I felt outraged, sad, and somehow our voices kept getting louder until he grabbed my injured arm and we stopped; I fell on my back and he just stared at me.

Though... not with anger. Among my own tears, I guess I saw how scared he looked. But at that moment, all that weight and sadness was just too much and before he could say anything, I was running away, and when far enough, I called Suki and left on my own to Jujutsu High.

He knew I was going back there, and followed me even way behind. Junpei even told me Kiyo-kun was nearly breathless when he arrived, as if he ran all the way.

I was crying so much in the Hidden Room, clutching myself right in front of the closed door. Then, as the loud sobbing stops, I hear footsteps.

"You don't have to open the door. But I do want to talk." His voice, on the other side, and some breathing before that. He asked if I wanted him to go away; I couldn't say it properly, but the answer was no, of course I wanted him there.

I felt awful about what happened. Gladly there weren't people watching or anything, but still... I feared that so much. That we'd fight sometime... and that was it. It was over.

I'm glad he didn't left after all. He sat in front of the door, on the stairs, and talked more. I don't remember some stuff, but he did say 'we were alike in a way' and asked me 'if I felt it was fair to carry so much on my own'. When I finally calmed down, he was still talking. and when I finally opened the door... he stood up, looking down, and hugged me. Crying.

He was crying, saying he wanted to do the same for me; he wanted to care for me just as much as I did for him, and that he'd never want me to give up on something I worked so hard to achieve. I never saw him cry like that; maybe tear up a bit now and then, but that was something new. A side of him that I never saw... but that I felt happy to meet.

Though I still struggle to find my words... I did manage to say 'I would not give up on anything, on anyone, on him.'

Last thing I knew, we were kissing... and we-

𝕆𝕜𝕒𝕪, 𝕀 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕜 𝕥𝕙𝕒𝕥'𝕤 𝕖𝕟𝕠𝕦𝕘𝕙.

Yeah, I guess. It was a long story... and also you might already guess what happened next.

𝕋𝕠𝕠 𝕝𝕒𝕥𝕖.

Sorry, Junpei. You know this is inevitable with mind bonding. I'll make more paper shikigamis.

ℕ𝕖𝕧𝕖𝕣𝕞𝕚𝕟𝕕… 𝕘𝕠 𝕠𝕟. 𝕀'𝕧𝕖 𝕤𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕤𝕥 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘𝕤.

Hmph. Anyway, after that, we talked about it, and despite me seeing it as a fight, he said it was more like a miscommunication. I was relieved that it wasn't the end of it all; since then, we've worked on communicating more openly, trying to understand each other better. And I'm glad to say, things have been a lot better since then.

𝕀 𝕒𝕕𝕞𝕚𝕥 𝕀 𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕕𝕒 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕕 𝕙𝕚𝕞. 𝕊𝕥𝕒𝕪𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕚𝕟 𝕗𝕣𝕠𝕟𝕥 𝕠𝕗 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕁𝕦𝕛𝕦𝕥𝕤𝕦 ℍ𝕚𝕘𝕙 𝕤𝕥𝕒𝕚𝕣𝕔𝕒𝕤𝕖 𝕣𝕚𝕘𝕙𝕥 𝕨𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕙𝕖 𝕨𝕒𝕤 𝕒𝕗𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝔸𝕥𝕤𝕦𝕙𝕒, 𝕘𝕝𝕒𝕣𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕒𝕥 𝕙𝕚𝕞, 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕟 𝕡𝕠𝕚𝕟𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕙𝕚𝕞 𝕥𝕠 𝕙𝕖𝕣 𝕣𝕠𝕠𝕞'𝕤 𝕕𝕚𝕣𝕖𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟…

And in the end, the next day, you merely flicked his forehead, while he expected worse.

𝔼𝕙𝕖𝕙.

i was getting supr overstimulated today, and i was dumb and went to the source of what was causing it (an echoey room w a buncha ppl in it) and tried to get them to stop but tht made it worse obv -_-

it just kinda was grating my ears and seeping into my brain and it just wouldn’t stop. i narrowly avoided shutdown w help from my friend tho :>