So Sleepy - Tumblr Posts
I made fun a thing, yippee
That was a task for uni, and I totally burned out after that mutch work. Even though it doesn't look like it. I'm so sleepy, help
Here's the concept art
I'm I lil' bit sad, cuz I had no time to animate proper tail, so I had to cut it short. I would've done it if I had time, but I did not
tinybro, you always know what I want u3u
Really wish I could fall asleep in a position that isn’t the splits. 😡 *glares at my left hip joint*
Freshly cleaned sheets.. Whole body moisturized.. Marshmallow candle lit.. Humidifier running.. Stuffed animals ready to be cuddled..
I'm just a girl who's excited to get into bed 🎀
Okay um- where do I begin?
Why does there seem to be a small collective of people who seem to believe that Aziraphale needs to be like...slapped across the face to realize Heaven is Bad or that he made the "wrong" ""choice"".
Like- hmmmm...
No hate to any of them I guess but it's verryyuuhh..eeeek..
I think what some people need to realize is that:
Point A. People don't HAVE to go through a super huge "glitch in the matrix" mental crumble to realize things and even if they do it doesn't guarantee a change.
Point B. Aziraphale isn't stupid in the slightest
Point C. He KNOWS this already??
Point D. We know that this doesn't guarantee growth (in G.O., idk about irl)
Point E. He didn't go back for Heaven?? (Or at least how it is)
Allow me to elaborate(Prepare to read) :
It feels like whenever people think he needs to have a big crash and burn realizaion or a very "in your face" thing that proves to him heaven is bad or something or the other...uuh...it reads off as "I've given up hope in him figuring this out on his own and nothing else will make him realize this except his own suffering.." (Not saying this is DEFINITELY think but it's what it feeeells like). Which...isn't true
(Point A)
Firstly lets say it DID happen. that won't necessarily make him LEAVE let alone REBELL. When I had my own personal kinda religious breakdowns (of sorts) I didn't just get up and leave the religion. It took me...many many years. I feel like I still haven't left it. I still look up to the heavens and say "sorry" if I feel as though I've said something too blasphemous. Personally it makes him even MORE vulnerable and MORE malleable in the hands of heaven and his god. Experiencing that kind of doubt and mental conflict is HARD. It is so difficult. One side of you is SCREAMING run and the other side is looking for ANY ounce of hope to cling on to to think "maybe it's not so bad".
(Point B and C)
But you know what's so great? Aziraphale doesn't need to experience that! HOORAAYYY! YIPEE! He's already been having his own personal thought's and conflicts about heaven for YEARS! It's been slowly chipping away for 6000 years dude! 6000 YEARS!
The Gravediggers in Edinburgh to Noahs Arc to Job. There's also, idk, him working for almost 11 years to try and redirect the child who he thought was the ANTICHRIST in order to stop the one thing Heaven and Hell longed for for years? He's been thinking and mulling things over and we have SEEN it. MULTIPLE TIMES. Aziraphale is INCREDIBLY intelligent so I promise you he already knows and there's no need for any suffering.
(Point D)
Next: We've already seen the "kill the angel you once were" thing with Crowley and that didn't make Crowley...groww per say??? Or even feel better-
We've SEEN him struggle with accepting his fall. We see he still gets emotional about it (Him in his flat looking up to Heaven and lamenting. Him getting drunk and talking about it). We know they cause him an incredible amount of stress to the point where he was willing o dump the ARCHANGEL (fucking) GABRIEL in the middle of nowhere in order to preserve his safe space.
He's called the existence on earth that they've carved out for themselves precious, peaceful, and fragile. Meaning it brings him comfort but he also feels like it could break in his hands or get destroyed for him at any moment.
All this to say: Killing off who Aziraphale is now doesn't guarantee his betterment or anything.
(Point E)
Final Point:
He did not go back for Heaven. He went back to make a difference. To change things and improve things. For the hopes he can do something to help the side of the "good guys" to start acting like fucking good guys! So yknow...theres no more need for him to try and rebel or have any breakdowns.
I hope all this makes sense. I'm like half asleep typing all of this lmao.
Time for a nap!
Luwa out!
The creepiest take I've ever seen.
You're "giddily excited" to watch a character experience a shattering psychological breakdown? That is deeply concerning.
Worse - you think it's necessary for him to go through something like that for his personal growth? What a dark world that would be, if that were the case.
(Btw he already went through a "rebelling against heaven psychological breakdown moment" in Uz. But that's a bit of a side issue here. After all, the main takeaway from that scene is how utterly f*cked-up it is that he, and Crowley, had to experience something like that at all.)
Friends, if anyone ever tells you you need to "experience a death of self" to grow as a person - RUN.
This is giving the same energy as the "we must die to ourselves in order to give ourselves fully to God" crap that the worst fundamentalists I encountered growing up tried to stuff down people's throats. It's deeply disturbing to me to find variations of that attitude outside of toxic religious communities. I was hoping it was confined there, but apparently not.
People who don't have the qualifications need to stick FAAAAAAR away from this kind of "psychological" analysis. "Kill the angel he once was in order to let the individual shine" is pseudoscientific BS. (Let's not forget Crowley is by no means happy to be a demon, and was just as happy, happier in fact, before he fell.)
This kind of attitude is genuinely dangerous.