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I Got You

warning attempted rape

Faith with her siblings talked amongst themselves as they waited for their father to show, “What you think he called us in here for?” Faith asked her brother, Jordan.

“No idea, but I heard he been in a mood lately. ” He said inhaling the cigarette, Reina waved the smoke away from her as she sat in the leather seat between Jordan and William, “I thought the whole point of you working with daddy was to watch over him, all this time you been around him. You have no idea what going on?” She asked.

“Yeah, well it’s hard to make sure his okay if he always sending me off to do something else. And when I do try to follow him I always end up losing him, that man really knows how to throw people of his trail....” Reina rolled his eyes at her brother excuses.

“Maybe it’s good news this time?...” Will said fixing his glasses, Reina gave her brother annoyed look, “There’s never good news, when your a Shelby.”

“I wouldn’t say that....” Jordan put out the cigarette as him and his siblings stood up as their father stood by the door with a lady by his side, Tommy walked to his seat behind the desk with Grace by next to him. He waved his children to seat as he linked his hands together in front of him, he watch as they slowly took their seat.

Faith elbowed Reina as she was giving Grace the third degree, “How have you been, daddy? It feels like we haven’t seen you in days. ” Tommy smiled.

“It been a busy few months. But I’m fine, sweetheart.” Before faith could ask her father something else, Reina cut her off, “Daddy, who is this?” She stared the women up and down with distaste.

“This is Grace. Grace these are my children, my oldest Jordan and Faith...” Jordan tipped his cap towards Grace with a smile, as Faith smiled.

“Hello...” Grace shook both of their hands, Tommy looked towards Reina and Will, “These are my youngest Will...” Grace watches as Will stood up on crutches, making her stare at his legs. Will shuffle in his spot as he felt her staring at his bad leg making Grace look up apologetic.

“I-I’m sorry-.” Will shook his head as he shook Grace’s hand as he balance on his crutches, “Don’t be people always stare at it, I’m use to it...” He chuckled fixing his glasses, Grace smiled apologetic again as she turned to the girl, “...And Reina, she baby of the family.” Reina brows snapped together the way her father called her “the baby of the family”.

“Now that we all meet and got acquainted, I have great news. ” Thomas laced fingers through Grace’s making her lean in to him, “Me and Grace are getting married. She gonna be your step-mom.” He looked at her fondly as she does the same, Faith and her brothers looked shocked at the couple well Reina looked disgusted.

“I’m sorry, what?” Reina said, making her father and his fiancé turn toward her, “ I thought I heard you say you gonna a marry her.” Faith looked nervously between her father and sister.

“I did, me and Grace are getting married.” Faith spoke up before her sister could say anything stupid, “Don’t you think you moving too fast, dad. I mean we barely know her.” Jordan nodded in agreement, Thomas sighed.

“You all are still young, it’s complicated..” Will glanced towards his sister as she  glared daggers both at their father and Grace, “...But It would mean the world to us to have you all be part of the wedding.” Grace quickly says, Reina tried not to roll her eyes at Grace trying to play perfect wife.

“ Is this really what you want, daddy?” Faith said, Thomas asked himself the same question since his wife died, “Yes..” Faith knows her father like the back of her hand and even through his answer wasn’t convicting, she care too much about her father ‘s happiness to call him out on it, “ If you’re happy, we’re happy. Right?” She look at Reina with a hard stare, making her roll her eyes, “Right..” Faith gave her that look that only mothers can conjure up.

“Happy wife, happy life.” she said sarcastically, Faith rolled her eyes.

“Close enough..” She smiled towards Grace, “Welcome to the family, Grace.” Grace happily pulled Faith into a hug catching her off guard, Faith looked over Grace’s shoulder to her dad smiling at them.

A knock came from the other side of the door making them break apart, “Come in..” one of the maids walked in telling them the food was almost finished and the rest of Shelby’s have arrive, he nodded telling her they be out, making her leave. He held out his arm to Grace as they made their way out the door with his childern following behind. 

William lean against the door frame of his father office making his family stop and look worried at him, “You go without me, I’ll catch up with you all soon, I just need to rest for a bit..” 

“Is your leg bothering you again?” Thomas asked walking towards his son, Will  nodded with pain written all over his face making his father rub his hair, “Why don’t you stay in my office for a bit and we call you when the food ready.” Will nodded.

“I’ll stay with him..” Reina offered moving towards her brother, “Are you sure, I can watch over him...” Reina waved her sister in dismissal.

“Yeah, its fine. Consider it a sorry for earlier.” she said to her sister, making Faith look at her suspicious, “...and I kind of don’t want to be anywhere near Aunt Pol, when she finds out dad’s getting married.” Faith grimaced at the idea of her great aunt might cause a scene at the news, Thomas kissed the top of Will’s head before moving to kiss Reina temple as he walked back to his soon to be wife as they walked down the corridor with Jordan and Faith in toe.

Reina helped Will inside their father office, closing the door behind them. Will sat down in the leather seat as Reina went behind her father desk, “ Hurry up! I don’t want anyone coming back and finding us snooping through dad’s stuff.” Reina looked at the paper on his desk before moving to opening his draws.

“Who knew you were such a good liar, you could be the next Chaplin. “ Will ignored his sister was he looked through folders that his sister passed to him, he never liked lying to his dad expectably about his condition.

“Damn it...” Reina slammed the draw closed, making Will glare at her, “Try slamming it a little harder, I think everyone didn’t hear you.” He hissed.

“There’s nothing, here.” Reina said putting everything back, “Well, we tried..” Will shrugged.

“Maybe it’s at the betting shop.” William shook his head as he saw the wheels turning in his sister head, “Nia, no!”

“Why not, I’m telling you that women rubs me the wrong way. I don’t trust her.”

“You don’t trust anyone that isn’t part of this family.” Reina folded her arms in defeat.

“I’m telling you, Will. Something just ain’t right with her.” Will could tell this new of their father getting married isn’t taking a good troll on Reina.

“Nia, I love you. I really do but, you have to get over it. Dad is going to marry Grace and she gonna be our step mom, that is that. All we can do is be their for dad.” Reina played with the necklace her mother gave her, she hated when her brother was right. She sighed and nodded.

“Your right...”

“I know I am.” He smirk

She rolled her eyes as she helped William up as the bell ring signaling the food is ready, they closed the door behind them before walking to the dinning room. Everyone was there waiting on them, “Hope we didn’t keep you all waiting.” Will said as he sat next to Arthur, he laid his crutches against the table.

“Nope, you actually on time.” Thomas said as he watch his brother mess about with son, Reina took at seat between Faith and Finn.

“Did I miss anything.” She asked watching Faith take a sip of her wine, “Only Aunt Pol ripping Tommy a new one.” Fine said digging in, she gathered as much as Polly glared daggers at Grace.

“At least I’m not the only one who hates her.” She whispered turning to her food.

“So Tommy, when is the wedding?” Ads asked taking a sip of her wine, Thomas cleared his throat.

“In three days...” Polly slammed her glass down on the table making everyone freeze, “Why so soon?” She asked.

“You know with the business growing fast, why not do it sooner rather than later.” Polly scoffed before going back to her food, sending glares at Grace and Tommy every now and then.

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“There’s no way in hell, I’m wearing this..” I looked at myself in the mirror, trying to adjust the dress.

“What’s wrong with it?” Polly asked. I walked out of the bathroom and stood in front of my aunts and Faith. I watched my sister cover her mouth, “Everything...” I groan as I walk the crystals poke me.

“It poking the shit out of me, and I look like a goddamn chandelier.” A giggle escape from Ada and Faith making me glared at them.

“Well...” Polly walked around me, before glancing at me, “It’s not too bad, we may have to close the church windows. We don’t want you blinding the guest, now do we.” The women bust out laughing as I glared angrily at Polly.

We glanced towards the door as my father walked in with his suit, I couldn’t tell if he was surprise or happy. When he saw me in the dress his wife picked out for me.

“You look-umm shining.” He joke making Faith and Ada giggle behind me, I grab the nearby pillow on the couch and threw it across the room at them making them giggle even more, “Daddy, I can’t wear this it doesn’t fit and it keeps poking me.” He walked up to me and examined the dress. 

“The wedding starts in a few hours, maybe you can wear the other dress she brought you.” I looked towards Faith.

“I thought you said she only brought the one.” Faith shrugged.

“ I thought so too, I guess she had a back-up. Just in case...” I look back at my father.

“I take it...” my dad left calling for the maid to bring the dress, “It can’t surely be worse than this one, right?” The ladies in the room wrinkled their nose at the chances of the dress being even worse than the one I got on.

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I clenched my jaw as we rode in the car to the church, I pulled at my dress for tenth time since i walked out of the house. My head feel against the window as a familiar song came on making me close my eyes and remember a memory with my mother.

I remember walking into the kitchen to find her cutting up potatoes and carrots for supper, she was swaying in her blue dress as the music from the radio plays.

Goodness knows what the end will be

Oh I don't know where I'm at

It looks as if we two will never be one

Something must be done:

She swirl around the kitchen like a princess, singing along to the tune.

You say either and I say either,

You say neither and I say neither

Either, either neither, neither

Let's call the whole thing off

I adore her beauty from where I stood, her dark skin shining from the sun coming through the window. Her beautiful black curls bouncing as she dance, sometimes when you stand very still it’s feels like time stops.

You like potato and I like potahto

You like tomato and I like tomahto

Potato, potahto, tomato, tomahto.

Let's call the whole thing off

I giggled as she use the wooden spoon as a microphone, she stopped and looked at me. She covered her face in embarrassment and laughed as she got caught, she waved me over making me run into her arms. She picks me up and swirl me around, I remember giggling as I held ion to her tightly. She sat me back on my feet as our favorite part came on making me sway to the music like her.

You like vanilla and I like vanella

You saspiralla, and I saspirella

Vanilla vanella chocolate strawberry

Let's call the whole thing off

We sang together as she held my hands in hers as she swirl me around and dip me, all in the while my father walks in on us. He watches us in amazement as we try to hit the note like Ella, as I continue dancing I didn’t realize my mother stopped and notice my father. Her smiled lured him into her hold, he danced slowly with her.

I smiled as I saw the love in their eyes, the unbreakable bond between my father and mother. I stood off to the side as they had their moment together, trying to spend as much time as they can before my father would be pulled away for work.

For now we know we need each other so,

Let's call the whole thing off.

The car door slammed closed jumping me from my dream, I looked out the window to see the church. I sighed before getting out of the car before the man could open it and shutting it, I walked up the steps of the church with my heels clicking with every step I took. The moment I walked in I felt all eyes were on me, men in uniforms with their wife’s stared at me, walking further in I saw Grace talking to one of the men in uniform.

I guess Grace’s side of the family, they looked at me shock and with distaste probably thinking I was the help that walked through the wrong door. Only if those fool’s knew.

Ignoring them I continued my walked to my seat with my family, Faith held Esme’s baby in her lap as Esme dealt with one of john’s youngest. Finn handed me s pile of paper asking me to pass it down, I looked at the other side of the room to Grace’s family as they look annoyed at us. All things considering we were the loudest in the church, I looked at my father as he looked agitated at us which only made me try not to smirk.

As the Organ starts playing we all got up with the help of Ada we got William up so he can see. We all watch as Grace walked down the aisle with her father, we sat down as the minister starts to talk after about what felt like hour my father kissed Grace making her his wife. I clapped as everyone around me got out of their seats and cheered happily, they walked down the aisle to the church doors. After congratulation were said for both side, we gathered around and took a picture.

Faith stood next to me as we got our picture taken with my dad and Grace, after pictures were taken. Everyone got in their cars and went to the ceremony, dad wanted me and William to ride with him and Grace since we were the youngest. The whole car ride there was spent with silence, Grace would try start a conversation with me but I would reply with short answer making it quiet again.

The ceremony like the wedding was the bore, the only entertainment was hearing Arthur and John tell stories of dad in his baby years or teen years. Luckily the ceremony ended early so the real fun can start, this time dad wanted to ride with William and Jordan as he wanted to talk them. So i was riding with Faith.

“How was the car ride with dad and Grace?”

“Awkward. She kept trying to start a conversation with me, but I wasn’t in a mood. ”Faith side eye me as she sighed.

“Nia, I know you don’t like her. You made that clearly on several occasions but she’s-.”

“It’s not that...” I played with my necklace, “It’s not that I don’t like her, it’s the fact that it feels like he trying to replace mom with her.” I looked down at my hands.

“I had another dream about her, y’know. This time she was dancing around the kitchen with that blue dress she loved so much, and dad walked in on us. As a child I never knew how much two people can love each other until I watched them danced slowly in kitchen. ” I looked up towards Faith hearing her sniffle she had tears falling down her cheek.

Her smile didn’t reach her as she looked at me, “Mind handing me a tissue.” She chuckled as I pulled out a couple from her purse, giving it to her. She thanked me as she dab tissue under her eyes so she didn’t mess up her make up.

“I remember that you know, you ran into my room like the house was on fire. You pulling me from my room with my camera and having me take a picture, but you wouldn’t believe how many similar pictures of them is in my room until this day. ” i was surprised to hear that she still have pictures of mom and dad, I thought e she hide them away in a dusty room like dad.

“You don’t have to worry about forgetting her, whenever you need a reminder of her love just come to me and I tell you stories you haven’t heard it. If you need a reminder of her beauty like I said my door is always open and I show thousand among thousands from pictures of her with us.” I moved closer to Faith laying my head on her shoulder, she rest her head on mines as she drove to the party.

We finally pulled up to the reception, the moment we walked in Faith was swish away by Grace to meet some of the women in her family. Leaving me to roam the place until one of my father’s man told me he wanted to talk to me and  lead me to the kitchen, couple of men stood around talking as they waited.

 I leaned against the shelf away from the entrance, I watch Isaiah walk towards me .“I don’t think I ever seen you in a dress before Nia, it looks good.” Isaiah said getting all in my personal space, “But it looks so much better on the floor of my room.” He whispered close to my ear and smiled, I move my hand up his chest before giving lopsided grin and muttering.

 “Or mines...” I winked before moving away from him as my family came into the area, I stood next to Michael. My dad started going on a rant about how everyone have to be on their best behavior since Grace’s family are here.

“ I can’t stretch this enough. No fighting...” I rolled my eyes as he told everyone of his men and brothers what they can’t do or say. He turned to me and pointed, “And no back talk, their gonna be part of this family. So you treat them with the same respect you give me and your uncles, you hear me?”

 “Got it...” he walked close to me making Michael move out the away, “I mean it, Reina. I want you and your attitude in check, today is important to Grace....and me.” 

“I said I got it.” He stared down at me as if I was a child, he huffed in frustration before finally telling everyone not fuck this up for him. I glared at my dad as he pushed waiter on the floor leaving the man to pick up the broken the glass. After the last man got out of the kitchen, I helped the server up and apologized for my father action trying to help him with the mess. “It’s alright, you should go enjoy the party.” I apologized once again before leaving out of the kitchen.

I walked into the main room towards the mini bar, I tapped on the counter catching the bartender attention, “ Whiskey,” He nodded putting a glass in front of me and pouring my drink, I thanked him and down it without a thought. I gave him a tenner for the whole bottle which gladly oblige, not too long I was joined by Jordon, Finn, Isaiah, and Michael.

We spent hour and half taking shots and laughing at the bar at one point I’m pretty sure I was dare to drink from the bottle but I can’t remember, soon we ended up almost drinking the whole bottle. We kind of had to cut things short since Finn couldn't hold his liquor for shit, me and Jordan watched in disgrace as Finn was carried away by Isa and Michael to the car.

“And he call himself a Shelby.” We chuckled as we turned forward again taking another shot, before can take a second William limped behind us, “Have any of you seen, Faith.” 

‘“Not since she was dragged away by Grace.”

“Why? You ready to go?” Jordan asked taking a shot before getting off the stool, we looked at each as we saw the worried all over William’s face as he looks around the room for Faith. 

“She was suppose to take me home, but she had to go fetch her purse. That was thirty minutes ago.” I got off the stool and stood next to Jordan, “She’s probably just got lost, come on we look for her.”

“Shouldn’t we tell dad first just in case.” I looked around the room to find my dad talking with some of Grace’s family with her by his side, “No, we don’t want to worry him on his special day.” I walked to the stairs with William and Jordan in toe as we looked around, we looked through every room upstairs and didn’t find her.

“There’s like a hundred rooms in here, there’s no way we be able to find with only three of us.” Before we can go and tell our dad we heard a crush from down the hallway, we ran and down the hall and took a right before we heard sounds coming from a room.

“Get off of me!” Without thinking Jordan kicked the door down and making the man and Faith look towards the doorway giving her a chance to knee the bastard in his nuts. She pushed him off her making him fall to the ground, Faith got off the bed and went towards into my arms. 

Jordan ended up tackling the man to the ground making him drop his gun, we watched as they brawl around over the floor. I looked in fear as the man got on top of Jordan beating repeated in the face, scared I couldn’t stop William in time as he swung his crutch at the man knocking him off Jordan. William kept repeatedly hitting the man, until he got kicked in the stomach knocking the air out of him. Faith held us behind her was the man started walking told us.

“Don’t you fucking touch them..” He grits out clenching onto the man pants leg making the man kick Jordan in the face causing him to spit out blood, the man grabbed Jordan by the collar and started hitting him again. 

I quickly grabbed the looked at the gun under the bed, I clocked the gun and pulled the trigger without a second thought. I dropped the gun in shocked. Jordan holster the gun and kicked the body to see if he was still alive, he moved to the bed and took the putting sheet over the dead body. 

“We have to wrapped the body up.” he said before grabbing a another white sheet from a chair.

“We need to get dad.” William said as Faith help him up, “ He know what to do.” 

“With uniforms downstairs, no way. They arrest us before we can even get a word out.”

“You don’t know that..” Jordan threw down the sheet and looked towards us, “ You right I don’t but what I do know is there are four black kids and a dead white man on the floor. You do the math.” He went back to pushing the person onto the sheet.

“Not if we leave and pretend that none of this ever happened.” Jordan rolled his eyes.

“Yeah how are we suppose to do that when my face is busted up, Reina has blood all over her clothes. And Faith arm is bleeding.” I looked at Faith and now noticed her arm, she looked down.

“Oh shit...” he said just before he helps her sit on the bed, William took his tie off and wrapped it around faith to stop the bleeding, “I didn’t even feel it.” He looked at her.

“You were in shock.” He was he stopped the bleeding, by the looks of the wound it wasn’t deep cut. She got luckily. Somewhat.

“We need to be quick before they come, there’s no doubt someone heard that gunshot. “ he finished wrapping up the body, “Nia...” I look at him.

“I need your help with carrying him down.” I nodded, he turned to Faith and William, “Faye I need you bring the car around the back near the alley, alright.” She nodded as he handed her the keys, “Wait...” Jordan stopped her at the door putting his jacket around her making sure not to touch her arm and wiped the stained tears away.

“Be careful.” She gave him a weak smiled as he kissed her cheek, Jordan turned looked at Will.

“I need you to be our look out make sure the uniforms or any of our people, don’t suspect us.” Will nodded as he grabbed his crutch and limped towards the door looking down both hall ways, Jordan have me nodded and we left the heavy bastard. We walked out to the hall and we went for the stairs, luckily we didn’t run into anyone and got out of there unnoticed.

“Wait, hold on.” Jordan and Will stopped as I dropped the body, I took off my heels and gave them to Will. We walked out to the alley towards the car, we threw him in the back of trunk Jordan went to the driver seat. We hoped in the back seat and pulled off, I looked Faith as her head leaned against the window.

“Where are going to dump the body?” Will asked.

“I know a place.” I sat back as I replay what happened in the room, my heart beats fast as I remember the gun going off. I couldn’t help the tears fall as the image of his blood splatter all over the room, I can’t even imagine how Faith feels right now. I dig my nails into my palms to stop of myself from imagining what would have happened if we didn’t get there on time.

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The car came to the stopped as Reina looked out the window finding their were at the canal. They all got out of the car, she looked around at the stables and mill. Her and Jordan started to put rocks into the sheets and pockets of the man, after Jordan keep it was enough her and others pushed him into the waters.

They stood there as the sun was slowly raising, Reina looked at Faith as she started to sob before her legs can give out Jordan caught her slowly being her to the ground. The moments from before started took a troll on her, she cried in her brother chest as the horrid memories flooded back.

“I got you, it’s okay I got you. His gone, okay. His gone.” He repeated, she rocked her as she held on tightly to him. Reina and Will join them on the ground as they wrapped their arms around each other.

“It’s alright we got you.” Reina whispered.

What We Once Were

(Y/N) sips on her alcohol as she waits for Tommy to arrive at the Garrison, since it was early in the morning she was only person there beside Harry and the new barmaid, Grace.

Her knuckles hit the wood softly catching Grace attention, “Do you have the time?” Grace looked down at her watch before looking up.

“9:54, ma’am.” (Y/N) huffed, she couldn’t believe she had to get up at the break of dawn, and drive two hours all the way here only to be kept waiting, “Waiting for someone, ma’am?” She glanced at Grace.

“Yes..”

“Do you mind me asking, who, ma’am?” (Y/N) didn’t really pay to much attention to the girl when she replied, “Tommy Shelby.” Grace looked (Y/N) up and down wondering who she was and what business she had to her target, before she can question (y/n) more Tommy walked in through the doors.

“(Y/N), sorry to keep you waiting.” He took off his cap walking towards her, he threw a quick glance at Grace before kissing (y/n). Grace looked away going back to work making Tommy draw back, (y/n) looked questionable at her business partner and secret lover. He didn’t say anything just snaking his arm around her waist and moving them to the back room.

After Tommy closed the door he put his finger over his mouth telling (y/n) to stay silent, he heard talking and than a door opening than closing. He opened the window and saw Harry there but no Grace, “ Harry, where has Grace’s gone?” Harry shrugged.

“She said she was feeling bit ill, so I sent her home.” Tommy grunted before asking him to bring a bottle of Irish whiskey, and closed the window.

“I really hope you didn’t call me all the way down here to make some girl jealous.” Tommy turned smiling at her.

“Never.” She narrowed her eyes at him playfully, “Uhuh...” she took a seat at the table as Thomas brought the whiskey and two glasses over.

“If you didn’t call me to make the new barmaid jealous, than why am I here?” She asked seductively as she held her glass towards Thomas as he pour her drink.

“Business ...” he started setting the bottle on the table and taking a seat next to (y/n).

“Business?” She asked a bit annoyed that she came all the way down here for business that could have been taken care of in her factory.

“Yeah...” Tommy lit a cigarette, “I have more product coming soon and I need somewhere to hide it.” (Y/N) shook her head.

“There’s no way I’m letting you store illegal weapons in my very much legitimate business, again.” She said setting down her glass.

“The last thing I need is coppers breaking down my door and asking questions.” She sighed.

“No coppers are gonna be knocking on your door, okay? Because it won’t be there for long. Just for two days at least and we move it to our new location. ” he gave (Y/N) a pleading look making her nod, she could never resist his stares it always made her inside warm.

“Fine. But you owe me, Shelby. ” she leaned towards Tommy, they both turned towards the window hearing a sound, “Harry..?” Thomas said, no one answer he looked at (y/n) as she looked back at him.

“Maybe a rat?” He opened the window looking around seeing a knocked over cup, “Maybe...” he mumbled sticking his head back inside and continue his ‘business’ with (y/n).

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“Ma’am, there’s a Mr. Campbell here to see you.” (Y/N) looked up and told her assistant to send him in. (Y/N) put her files away and leaned back in her chair, “Miss (y/l/n)...” he grabs her hand shaking it.

“Inspector, what brings you to my fine establishment?”

“My have sources that says you have been working with Thomas Shelby...” (Y/N) smiled before stopping him.

“And your here to ask why a gunsmith like myself is working with a Bookie from Small Health. Am I right?” The Inspector shook his head.

“No, I’m here to tell you that one of my moles that I had assigned to Mr. Shelby overheard you two talking. From what I heard it wasn’t about your legal businesses.” (Y/N) smiled dissolved from her face as she clenched her jaw.

“Is this the part we’re I’m suppose to be asking for a deal?” She said unbothered.

“No, (Y/N). This is the part where I give you two days to clear out your warehouses. “ (Y/N) looked confused.

“What?”

“My man will storm your warehouse in two days and by than I hope you move your products and his. ” she stared at him thinking if he was setting a trap or not.

“Why are you telling me this....”

“I have my reasons. ” Her hand tugged at the bracelet she wore nervously, she nodded as he stood up. She follow suit walking him to her door.

“Mr. Campbell...?” She stopped him as he stood outside her office, “What is stopping me from not telling Mr. Shelby about this?” He shrugged.

“Nothing.” He simply says walking away, the workers in the room watches him leave and some looking back at there boss. (Y/N) didn’t pay no mind to them as she walked back in her office, she sat there for a well before throwing her paperweight against the wall making a dent. She covered her face with her hands annoyed and frustrated with this whole ordeal.

Tommy pulled up to (Y/N)’s gun factory after she called him. He exits the car and walks through the empty halls to her office, he knocks a couple of time before entering. He saw her with a cigarette between her lips as she put away her paperwork, “When did you start smoking?” She rolled her eyes at him.

“I always smoke, you just never seen me in the act.” She blew the nicotine in the air, she motion with her hand to take a seat.

“If you mind I rather stand.” (Y/N) eye Tommy before talking, “Fine..” she put out her cig and folded her hands and front of her.

“Mr. Campbell came to see me today...” Thomas unbothered by the mention of the inspector look at the pictures scattered all over the wall, “and he told me you have a mole..” Thomas looked towards her again not bothered my the information.

He chuckled, “And you believe him?”

“How else would he have known about my warehouse? Or where it was in that matter.” She said

Tommy didn’t say anything as he pulled out a cigarette and lit it, (Y/N) slowly watched him growing aggravated at his sudden silent.

“So?” She asked, he looked at her and shrugged.

“So...” she threw her hands up getting out of her seat and standing in front of him, “What is this? Did you take up a vow of silence utter of a sudden.” She hissed.

“I wouldn’t be talking if I did.” (Y/N) nose twitch as her patient was weary thin.

“This isn’t the time for jokes, Tommy. ”

“Am I laughing?” He said annoyed going to her mini bar table in the corner of the room, “Listen I look into it, alright?” He down his drink turning towards a still pissed (Y/N), he grabs her and pulled her close kissing her. (Y/N) anger toward Tommy slowly melted away as his hands roam her body, she hooked her arms around his neck deepen the kiss.

(Y/N) pulled at the roots of his hair making him moan in her mouth, she leaned on her desk wrapping her legs around his waist. One of (Y/N) hands slowly slide down to Tommy’s member making him pull away unexpectedly.

“What’s wrong?” She said he shook his head.

“Nothing, you caught me surprise that’s all.” (Y/N) looked at him suspicious as he start kissing her neck. (Y/N) slowly fell back into the moment when Tommy suck on her sweet spot. He lifted her on the desk, as his hand went under her skirt rubbing her. With one hand she unbuckled his trousers releasing his hard cock, Thomas groan as he felt her warm hand gently rub it.

(Y/N) pushed him back making Tommy look confused, she smiled at his red face and swollen lips without a word she got on her knees. His eyes rolled in the back of his head feeling her mouth suck on his tip, “Fuck...” he grunts gasping the back of her head, Tommy pulled her hair making her moan. (Y/N) move closer to him till his shaft is three quarters in your mouth.

She gag on him, which makes her moan. This causes him to jerk his hips forward, pushing himself further in her. She quickly bob her head and twist her tongue all around his cock, she starts moving her head faster wanting to feel Tommy inside her.

Tommy jerk his hips into her wanting to cum in her warm mouth, as he got closer he held (Y/N) still, “Oh, Grace...” he whispered catching (Y/N) off guard making her choke as she felt him twitch in your mouth. Not a second later she feel his warm cum hit the back of your throat and sliding down. He grunts as his cock is still in her mouth after he empty himself inside her, he pulls out with trail of cum on her lips and chin giving (Y/N) a chance to breathe.

She used her desk to stable herself as she gets up, Tommy faced away from (Y/N) as he fixed his trousers not wanting to look her in the eye after what happened. They both stood silent until (Y/N) spoke up.

“You don’t waste time do you.” He rolled his eyes.

“Don’t start..”

She glared at him as he fixed himself something to drink, “Your protecting her, aren’t you.” His nonchalant look filters for a moment before composing himself. She knew it his eyes betrayed him when she mention the barmaid. She shook her head.

“It doesn’t matter, you should leave.”

He sighed, “(Y/N)...” she put her hand up stopping him.

“Don’t...”

He took a step close to her making her step back, “...just leave.” She plead, he looked conflicted as he watched someone he considered not only a lover but a friend look so hurt. He turns to leave until (Y/N) said something leaving him heartbroken.

“I hope she loves you the way I do.” She watched him take a moment before leaving shutting the door behind her, she slammed her fist on the desk angrily as tears fell down her cheek. Thomas still near the door heard her sobs making him hold back tears himself. He soon left without her noticing.

Time Go By Fast

3 years later

(Y/N) looked in the mirror trying to fix her hair, she turned around hearing the door opened, “Mummy, I don’t know what dress to wear.” (Y/N) looked at her young daughter holding the dresses she choose for their day out.

(Y/N) made a face, “Hmmm...” she waved her daughter over and looked at the two dresses, “I think this one...” (Y/N) pointed at the left dress.

“You think...?” (Y/N)’s daughter made a face of distaste at her mother’s choice, making (Y/N) rethink her decision.

“Okayyy...” she said a bit thrown off, “The other one, it matches your necklace.” (Y/N) said straightening the bow on her head. (Y/N)’s daughter sighed sad looking at the dress.

“What? What’s wrong with this one...?” the young girl looked at the pink dress in distaste making (Y/N) more confused.

“It doesn’t...how do I say this..” (Y/N) stared at her waiting for a answer.

“...fit my personality, for example the dress you brought me yesterday. Definitely fitted my personality, don’t you think?” (Y/N) tried to keep a straight face as she finally catches on what her daughter was trying to get at this whole time. (Y/N) slowly nodded her head when the young girl finished.

“That dress is suppose to be for your birthday...” the girl bounce on her heel anxiously waiting for her mother to continue, “...but I guess you can wear it for-” the girl squeal happily wrapping her arms around her mother repeatedly saying ‘thank you’.

“Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.” She said repeatedly running out of her mother room to finally get ready, (Y/N) shook her head with a small smile going back to her vanity mirror.

“I spoil her too much.” She mutters applying a little bit of make-up before leaving the room and going down stairs for breakfast.

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(Y/N) sat on the bench watching her daughter play with other children, before a man walked up to her, “Is this seat taken?” She didn’t say anything as the man took a seat next her, he didn’t say a word as they sat their together. (Y/N) dug in her pocket pulling out a cigarette, she sighed as her lighter choose a perfect time to not work as her daughter was turned away.

“Here...” before she can take the cigarette out of her mouth the man next to her light it, she leaned closer to him. (Y/N) inhale the nicotine slowly before blowing it into the air. “Thanks..” she mutters.

(Y/N) stiffens as she looked at the man in front of her, he looks at her nervously, “T-Thomas?” She whisperers, he gave her a small smile.

“Hi, (Y/N)..” he rest his hand on hers making her tad bit warm inside.

“Mummy...” (Y/N) and Tommy looked away from each other as (Y/N)’s daughter made her way over, making (Y/N) pulled her hand away and turn her attention towards her daughter.

“What’s wrong, princess?” She asked grabbing her little hands, “I made a new friend..” she said excitedly, (Y/N) eyes light up.

“Really? That’s great, my love.” (Y/N) smiled as her daughter talked about her new friend.

“Can he come to my party?” She asked happily

“It’s your big day, sweetheart. But I think we need to ask his parents first.” The little girl glanced at Tommy eagerly.

“So can be?”(Y/N) looked confused at why her daughter was asking Tommy, she was about to ask her daughter before Tommy beat her to the punch.

“I don’t see why not...” he said making the child grin and run back to her new friend to tell him the news. (Y/N) sat back a bit caught off guard about what just happened.

“What are the chances. My boy and your daughter....friends.” He chuckled softly.

“Hmmm...” Thomas looked at (Y/N) before reaching for her hand again, she flinched as his cold hands touched hers making him look away.

“I’m sorry.” he looked at her, “...for your lost, must be hard for you and your son.” He nodded pulling out a cigarette.

“Yeah...” after he walked out on her, he never felt right. The love he had for Grace was gone the moment he laid back in bed with her, he couldn’t find it in him to love her like (Y/N) loved him. For a period he thought having Charlie would have made the love he had for her come back but...it didn’t, the birth of his son made his marriage with Grace somewhat bearable. For the time being.

“If we had a second chance would you have stopped me?” (Y/N) frowned.

“My heart would have but my pride wouldn’t.” She said sadly

“Would you have stayed?” Without a second to waste Thomas blurted out his answer, “Yes, without a second thought.” He grabs both of (Y/N) hands, stared in her eyes.

“My life with Grace was...not the best. I wasn’t a great husband, and the only thing that kept our marriage intact was my son, Charlie.” He said ashamed.

“I remember one night I dream it was you that carried my son. It was you I married. I wish I stayed that night, I wished so badly that I got to tell you I love you.” (Y/N) couldn’t stop the tears from falling, Thomas pulled her close kissing her tears away. (Y/N) was lucky there wasn’t a lot of people here today, she always hated cry especially in public.

Thomas couldn’t contain himself any longer and kissed her. (Y/N) took a minute for kissing back, she hook her arm around his neck pulling him in closer. She pulled away making Thomas attack her neck as she glance over to the playground to see the kids are still playing before turning back to Thomas.

“As much I would love to finish this but I have to get the little one home.” She untangle herself from Thomas as they both stood up.

“Are you saying there’s a chance we get to do this again?” Thomas says with a sly smile.

“Maybe, if you ask me properly.” She smiled.

Thomas smirked leaning in to her, “(Y/N) would you go on a date with me?” (Y/N) bite her lips playfully thinking before nodding her head ‘yes’ making him give her a very much longing kiss.

They both pulled away, “I’ll see you soon.” She said kissing his cheek before calling her daughter, Thomas stared at her as she walked away with her daughter. He finally came back to reality when his son hugged his side, he picked him up and walked to his car.

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6 months later

(Y/N) and Tommy laid on the blanket looking at the stars her head rested on his arm as the snuggle together on the grass. (Y/N) smile at the day they had together, she forgot the feeling of being wanted and adore. Her inside fluttered remembering how they couldn’t take their hand off each other, it was so hard for them not to get carried away since it was their first date with each other.

The nervous feeling she felt for weeks after he asked her out distracted her constantly, the moment he picked up her up all that worried melted away and the memories resurfaced as to why she always felt secure with Tommy. The whole day he held her hand as if at any given moment she would fly away, and he made it his sole mission to make her laugh, smile, and feel happy.

(Y/N) smiled turned into a sly smirk as she felt Tommy’s fingers ran up and down her thigh, she glanced style smiling fool before her making her glare at him.

“Don’t start something you can’t finished, Shelby.” He looked at her as if he didn’t know what she was talking about, “Whatever do you mean, Ms. (Y/L/N).” He says now moving his fingers under her dress, he stared into her eyes before kissing her. Both didn’t waste time as they undress each other.

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2 years later

(Y/N) watched as Tommy played with the children, she looked down at their five month year old son in the stroller. She smiled at the memory when she told Tommy the news, they were both thrilled to have a baby together and the kids were excited to be a sibling. But she sighed sadly at the aftermath....

𝑇ℎ𝑜𝑚𝑎𝑠 𝑠𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑒𝑛𝑑 𝑜𝑓 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑎 𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑛𝑒𝑟 𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑦 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ (𝑌/𝑁), ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑡𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑑 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑜𝑓𝑓 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑗𝑒𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑙𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒-𝑢𝑝. 𝐻𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑙𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑔𝑖𝑣𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑓𝑒𝑤 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑠 𝑜𝑛 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑛𝑒𝑐𝑘, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑡𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑠 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑙𝑖𝑝𝑠 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑝𝑎𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑎𝑡𝑙𝑦. 𝐻𝑖𝑠 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑤𝑜𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑡𝑜𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑑𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑏𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑝𝑢𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦, “𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦, 𝑛𝑜...” 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑘𝑛𝑒𝑒 𝑏𝑦 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑠𝑖𝑑𝑒.

“𝑊ℎ𝑦 𝑛𝑜𝑡?” ℎ𝑒 𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑠𝑒𝑎𝑡 𝑡𝑜𝑤𝑎𝑟𝑑𝑠 ℎ𝑖𝑚, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑟𝑜𝑙𝑙 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑒𝑦𝑒𝑠 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑟𝑢𝑏 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑔ℎ, “𝐵𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝐼'𝑚 𝑡𝑖𝑟𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑛𝑎𝑢𝑒𝑜𝑢𝑠...” 𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦 𝑤𝑎𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑙𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑠 ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑏𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑠.

“𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦, 𝐼 𝑚𝑒𝑎𝑛 𝑖𝑡.” 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑎𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑒𝑑, “....𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦!” 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑔𝑎𝑠𝑝 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑖𝑡 𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑖𝑑𝑒 𝑜𝑓 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑔ℎ,  (𝑌/𝑁) 𝑝𝑢𝑠ℎ𝑒𝑑 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑓𝑎𝑐𝑒 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚 𝑏𝑜𝑡ℎ 𝑙𝑎𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑒𝑑. 𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑑 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑒𝑟.

“𝑀𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑦 𝑚𝑒?” 𝑆ℎ𝑒 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑜𝑘 ℎ𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑎𝑑 𝑐ℎ𝑢𝑐𝑘𝑙𝑛𝑔, “...𝑦𝑒𝑎ℎ 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑒.”𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑠𝑎𝑟𝑐𝑎𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑐

“𝐼'𝑚 𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑜𝑢𝑠.” ℎ𝑒 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑏𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑠 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑝𝑎𝑙𝑚 𝑏𝑒𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑘𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚 𝑡𝑜𝑔𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟, “𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑚𝑦 𝑤𝑖𝑓𝑒. 𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑡𝑜 𝑏𝑒 𝑚𝑦 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟.” 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑐𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑚.

“𝐼 𝑤𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑏𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟, 𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦...” ℎ𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑜𝑛 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑒𝑘,“𝐵𝑢𝑡 𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑘 𝐼 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑦 𝑦𝑜𝑢...𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠.”

“𝐼𝑓 𝑖𝑡𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑎𝑏𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝑤𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑑𝑜 𝑖𝑡 𝑎𝑓𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑦 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑏𝑜𝑟𝑛..” (𝑌/𝑁) 𝑚𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑡𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑜𝑛 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑠𝑜 ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑠𝑒𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑 𝑜𝑛 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑓𝑎𝑐𝑒.

“𝐼𝑡'𝑠 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡..” 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑚.

“𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑖𝑡?” ℎ𝑒 𝑎𝑠𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑏𝑏𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑏𝑜𝑡ℎ 𝑜𝑓 ℎ𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑠 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘 ℎ𝑖𝑚, “𝐷𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑡𝑟𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑚𝑒?”

“𝐼𝑡𝑠 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑒𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟..” 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 ℎ𝑒 𝑟𝑜𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑑 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑒𝑦𝑒𝑠 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡𝑜𝑜𝑘 ℎ𝑖𝑠 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑠 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘 ℎ𝑢𝑟𝑡, “𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡?” ℎ𝑒 𝑎𝑠𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑟𝑦

“𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦, 𝐼-..”

"”𝑊𝑒 𝑏𝑜𝑡ℎ ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑒𝑔𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑏𝑢𝑠𝑛𝑖𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑠, 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑙𝑖𝑒 𝑎𝑑𝑜𝑟𝑒𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑖 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑒𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑠 𝑖𝑓 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑒 𝑜𝑤𝑛. 𝑆𝑜 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑖𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑏𝑙𝑒𝑚.”

“𝑇𝐻𝐸𝑅𝐸'𝑆 𝑁𝑂 𝑃𝑅𝑂𝐵𝐿𝐸𝑀 𝐼 𝐽𝑈𝑆𝑇..”𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑔𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑢𝑝, “𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑎 𝑤𝑒𝑑𝑑𝑖𝑛𝑔. 𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑 𝑎 𝑑𝑖𝑎𝑚𝑜𝑛𝑑 𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔. 𝐽𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑚𝑒, 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑘𝑖𝑑𝑠. 𝑇ℎ𝑎𝑡'𝑠 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡.” 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑐𝑎𝑙𝑚𝑛𝑔 𝑑𝑜𝑤𝑛. 𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑠𝑛𝑎𝑡𝑐ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑐𝑜𝑎𝑡 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑖𝑟 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑤𝑎𝑙𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑜𝑟.

“𝑊ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒 𝑎𝑟𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑔𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔?”

“𝑂𝑢𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑎 𝑓𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑖𝑛' 𝑑𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑘.” ℎ𝑒 𝑜𝑝𝑒𝑛𝑒𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑜𝑟,“𝐼𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑤𝑒 𝑔𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑑𝑜 𝑛𝑜𝑤? 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑟𝑢𝑛 𝑑𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑡𝑜 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝐺𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑖𝑠𝑜𝑛, 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑠ℎ𝑖𝑡𝑓𝑎𝑐𝑒 𝑑𝑟𝑢𝑛𝑘, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑒𝑛𝑑 𝑢𝑝 𝑖𝑛 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑒𝑙𝑠𝑒'𝑠 𝑏𝑒𝑑. 𝑅𝑎𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑛 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡𝑎𝑙𝑘𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑒.”

“𝐷𝑜𝑛'𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑜. 𝑌𝑜𝑢 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝐼 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤.”(𝑌/𝑁) 𝑓𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑑 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑙𝑎𝑚𝑚𝑒𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑑𝑜𝑜𝑟 𝑏𝑒ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑖𝑚, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑡𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 ℎ𝑜𝑙𝑑 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑡𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑠 𝑎𝑠 ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑑 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑓𝑎𝑖𝑙𝑒𝑑, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑑 𝑢𝑝 𝑡𝑖𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔 ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑐𝑟𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔.

𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑛𝑒𝑥𝑡 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑤𝑜𝑘𝑒 𝑢𝑝 𝑡𝑜 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑠𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑 𝑎𝑠𝑙𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑛𝑒𝑥𝑡 𝑡𝑜 ℎ𝑒𝑟. 𝐻𝑖𝑠 𝑎𝑟𝑚 𝑑𝑟𝑎𝑝𝑒 𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑤𝑎𝑖𝑠𝑡 𝑎𝑠 ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑜𝑓𝑡𝑙𝑦 𝑠𝑛𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑛𝑒𝑎𝑟 ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑒𝑎𝑟, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑙𝑜𝑤𝑙𝑦 𝑡𝑟𝑦 𝑡𝑜 𝑚𝑜𝑣𝑒 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑎𝑟𝑚𝑠𝑜 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑛 𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑐𝑘 𝑜𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑐ℎ𝑖𝑙𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑛. 𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦 𝑤𝑜𝑘𝑒 𝑢𝑝 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑜𝑓 ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑠𝑙𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑, (𝑌/𝑁) 𝑙𝑜𝑜𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑎𝑝𝑜𝑙𝑜𝑔𝑖𝑐.

“𝐷𝑖𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑚𝑒𝑎𝑛 𝑡𝑜 𝑤𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢.”

“𝐼𝑡'𝑠 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑒, 𝐼 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑦 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑘 𝑎𝑛𝑦𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠.” ℎ𝑒 𝑔𝑟𝑛𝑡𝑠 𝑠𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑢𝑝, 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑛𝑜𝑑𝑑𝑒𝑑 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑙𝑒𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑎𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑡 ℎ𝑒𝑟 ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑑.

“𝐼'𝑚 𝑠𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑦 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑙𝑎𝑠𝑡 𝑛𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡. 𝐼 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑛'𝑡 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑙𝑘𝑒𝑑 𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑜𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝐼'𝑚 𝑠𝑜𝑟𝑟𝑦.”

“𝐷𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑏𝑒 𝐼 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑡𝑜𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑟𝑜𝑚 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑛𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑚𝑦 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠 𝑜𝑛 𝑔𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑚𝑎𝑟𝑟𝑖𝑒𝑑.” 𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑

“𝐼𝑡 𝑑𝑜𝑒𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑠 𝑙𝑜𝑛𝑔 𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑘𝑖𝑑𝑠. 𝐼'𝑚 ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑝𝑦, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑖 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑝𝑢𝑡 𝑎 𝑟𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑟. 𝐷𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑠𝑒 𝑚𝑒𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑘𝑛𝑔 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑢𝑝 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑏𝑠.” (𝑌/𝑁) 𝑐ℎ𝑢𝑐𝑘𝑙𝑒𝑑 𝑘𝑖𝑠𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑇𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦’𝑠 𝑙𝑖𝑝𝑠.

“𝐼'𝑚 𝑜𝑘𝑎𝑦 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡...”𝑠ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑎𝑖𝑑 𝑠𝑚𝑖𝑙𝑛𝑔 𝑎𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑚, “𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑡𝑜𝑚𝑚𝑦.”

“𝐼 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒, (𝑌/𝑁).”

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1943

Tommy looked unfazed as his son, Charlie stands in front of him in the living room scowling him. (Y/N) looked confused and startled at what she was witnessing, Charlie never looked so angry but so disappointed at the same time at his father.

“Got something to say, boy?” Tommy asked a making Charlie face grow red by the second.

“I could ask you the same thing, old man.” Tommy sighed and took of his reading glasses well putting his book down on the table next to him. He stood up off his seat and looked eye to eye with his son.

“Ask and you shall receive.” Tommy said.

“Is what Lizzie Stark say is true?” (Y/N) wondered what Lizzie said to make Charlie look so coldly at his father.

“Hmmm, I see...” he fell back into his seat remembering what he been hearing about her.

“Is it true? Is Ruby your daughter.” Tommy looked from his son to his wife, (Y/N) looks back at him.

“...yes..” (Y/N) looked away from Tommy angry she couldn’t believe she was played once again by him, she kept a neutral face as her children looked shocked and angry at their father.

“For 17 years you kept this a secret.” Charlie hissed making Tommy turn back to him.

“I did what I had to do for this family.”

“For who? Her or us.” Ester said glaring at him.

“For all of us.”

Charlie shook his head in disbelief, “No, you did it for yourself. Like you always do, she a pawn like the rest of us.” He grumbled walking out of the living with his sister following behind, (Y/N) got up off the coach and moved closer to Tommy.

“(Y/N), I’m sorry.” (Y/N) pinch the bridge of her nose feeling a headache coming and sighed, “I know you are Tommy. I know you are and that’s okay. Because I already knew.” He sat there still unfazed by what his wife said.

“How?”

“Is that a serious question?” She rolled her eyes looking in the fireplace, “....she has your eyes and your attitude, I didn’t know for sure but I do now.” He finally looks up at her.

“Are going to leave me?” He asked genuinely. (Y/N) moved sitting on his lap, he leaned his head on her chest listening to her heart beat, “No, I’m not gonna leave you. I’m already in too deep, so why not ride it out...” she says.

“And besides it helped me relieve some of the guilt.” She sighs rubbing small circles on her stomach, Tommy clench his jaw at her words.

“I’m gonna check on dinner, I’ll send Mary in to fetch you when it’s done.” He nodded watching her stand up from his lap.

“(Y/N)..” he said stopping her, Tommy got up and pulled her by her waist and gave her a tender kissed. She kissed him back with the same passion, he broke the kiss leaning his head onto hers, “I love you, don’t doubt that for a minute.” She didn’t know what to say so she just nodded.

“I love you, too.”

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1975

Tommy laid in bed with machine hooked up to him well looking through photos of him and his family, he saw an old photograph of him along with his brothers and another one with him and (Y/N), he traced his finger over her face longingly. He was back were he started when Grace died, expect his children were all grown up and despised him, expect for his youngest. All he had was his dirty money and the manor, most of his family moved away or died. So he was the only one left to run the business and keep it intact for all of these years.

Tommy started coughing badly causing his nurse to come in quick and hand him his medication. He took his pills and took a drink of water as he rest back in his bed with the photo album still on his lap, his nurse was about to go when Tommy stopped.

“Marie...” he asked weakly making her walked back to him, “Yes, Mr. Shelby. Do you need anything else.” She asked kindly.

“Yes, I need you to call my children. Tell them it’s an emergency...” he said coughing a bit before settle back. The nurse nodded leaving the room to call his kin, Tommy relaxed as he waited for his family to get here.

After waiting for well before his door opened to reveal his son, John. He walked in with Ruby and Mary close behind as they pulled up a seat next his bed.

“Hi, dad.” John said.

“Hello, dad.” Mary Jane said.

“Hi, dad.” Ruby said.

He smiled as they took a seat.

“So, what’s the emergency?” Mary Jane asked.

“I’ll tell you when Charlie and Ester get here.” The three siblings looked at each other.

“Dad?” Tommy looked at him.

“When was the last time you spoked to them.”

“Not since your mothers funeral, god bless her soul.” Tommy said.

“That was nearly two years ago.” Mary Jane said shocked, she knew her brother and father weren’t on good terms but still she kind of hoped one of them would at least called him once.

“It’s not their fault, I wasn’t a always a good father or husband for them to check up on. I deserve it for my past sins.” Ruby felt a bit sad because she was the breaking point to Charlie and her father downfall, but (Y/N) never blamed her unlike Charlie. It seem like she understood, if that makes any sense.

They all turned hearing the door opening to see Ester and Charlie with their own families, Tommy looked happy seeing his son and daughter walked in the room. He smiled as his grandchildren surrounded his bed giving him hugs and kisses, telling him how much they missed spending Christmas and Easter with him.

“Come on, kids. Why don’t we give them some space.” The children awe in sadness wanting to spend more time with their grandpa, “Now, now. Listen to you mother. “ Tommy said as they moved off his bed and followed Charlie’s wife and Ester’s husband out the door.

“I’m happy that you came..” Tommy said.

“Marie said it was emergency.” Ester said taking seat on the other said of the bed making Charlie followed suit.

“Indeed. I wanted to talk to you all about my will.” Tommy sat up a bit.

"And you couldn't wait to tell us this tomorrow." Charlie said watching his father pull out a folder from his side table, "I wanted to talk about it now, just in case.." He said nonchalantly putting on his glasses.

"Dad, why is everything okay?" John asked worried

"There's no need to worry, I just wanted get everything settle before my depart.." He says.

"Dad..." Charlie started but cut off by his father,

"Now, my estates are gonna be split between all of you." He hands each of the properties to his childern.

"You giving me the betting shop?" Charlie said, "Yes, you can sell it or keep it. It's yours." Charlie looked back at the paper.

"I only have one request to ask of you." they looked at him with teary eyes, "...forgive me.” He said looking at all his children. They nodded.

“Now, bring my grandkids back in here before they have to go.” Ester stood up and called all everyone back, the children rushed in as they surround their grandfather again. He told them stories of their grandmother and his brothers/sisters, all the well his children watched and laughed along forgotten ever being sad. The night was coming to a end, John and Mary Jane along with Ruby bid their family a goodnight before leaving home.

Ester bend down kissing Tommy on head before saying goodnight, “I love you, dad.” She whispered Tommy smiled grateful at the women he was so proud to call his daughter, “I love you too, my dear.” Tommy kissed her hand saying goodnight her and her kids.

“Hey, can you give me a minute with my dad?” Charlie asked his wife who nodded kissing him on his cheek before saying goodnight to her father-in-law. Tommy waved goodbye to his grandchildren and daughter-in-law, Charlie came close to his father’s bed.

“Dad?” Tommy looked up at him.

“I wanted to stay I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have treated you-.”

“Charlie...” Tommy stopped his son, “...there’s no need.” The look on his father face told him everything he needed to know, “I love you, dad.”

“I love you too, son.” He smiled.

“But before you leave, here.” Tommy handed him the photo album, Charlie looked taken back at the book his father was holding towards him. He took from his hand as he scan through the pages.

“I can’t believe you still got it,I always thought we lost it.” He said staring at a photo of him and John in the backyard.

“Marie was l throwing stuff away and came across this old thing, so many memories.” He said he looked at his son as he smiled at the pictures, “I want you to keep.” Charlie looked at him.

“Are you sure?”

“Of course, my old man brain gonna misplace it one of these days. I want you to have it. Just in case.” He said.

Charlie nodded, “Thank you..” Tommy started coughing and wheezing making Charlie give him a glass of water, he thanked him and took a couple breathe from his mask before lying down.

“Maybe we should stay over.” Tommy shook head, “No, Im fine I have Marie here.” Charlie looked complex.

“I’m be fine.” Tommy said sincerely trying to put on a brave face for his son, Charlie nodded.

“Okay, dad. I’ll see you tomorrow.”

“See you tomorrow, son.” He watched Charlie walk out with the album in his hand, Tommy got comfortable in bed with a photo of (Y/N). He stood up for a well thinking about his life and his family, h sighed kissing the photo.

“I miss you, my love.”

Tommy settled into bed. Nothing but ventilator sounds fill the room, slowly he drifted and to sleep as he imagine (Y/N) sitting next to him on the park bench watching their kids and grandkids play. He turned to her watching her smile and laugh at them.

“There’s a pretty face.” He whispered.

@literally-anythin

If By Chance

requested × @pollysgirl

My head nodded towards the gentleman as he handed me my bags, I sway my way around passengers getting off the train.

I looked around trying to find a familiar face, I walked around passing people before setting my suitcases on the bench. I digged in my coat for my lighter flipping it to pass the time as I waited for an old friend.

"What's shakin' bacon?" I grinned turning around and seeing my favorite person in the world world.

"Not a thing, chicken wing." I winked at her holding my arms out as she ran into me.

"Oh, I missed you." She held me tightly.

"The feeling is mutual, darling." I kissed her cheek, we pulled away smiling at each other before I notice a little boy walking up to us.

"Does my eyes deceive me, or is that baby karl." I squat down at eye level with the boy, he shy away behind his mother only peaking from behind her to look at me.

I reached in my pocket and got out a small toy car for karl making him stepped from behind his mother.

"I know your birthday was last week, but I didn't want to meet you empty handed." He hesitated to take looking st his mother before me.

"My mother says I shouldn't take things for strangers." I smirked looking at Ada as she smiled down at her son proud.

"Smart boy. Good thing I'm not a stranger, am I ada." Ada shook her head no looking down at Karl.

"No, she's one of my closest friends. We're basically sisters. " She grins rubbing his back, he looked back at me before taking the car out of my hand.

"Thank you." He says softly admiring the red fire truck.

"You welcome." I stood up straight looking at Ada, the sound of thunder ringed in the distance making us head towards the car.

"Next stop: home." Ada says starting up the car.

We finally reached Ada's house as the sun starting to set, I laid my suitcases on the bed in the guestroom she offered me until I can found myself a flat.

"Thank you for letting me stay here, Ada. It means a lot." I said sitting at the kitchen table watching her looking through her fridge.

"It's the least I can do for you helping my cousin out and all." I waved my hand as if it was nothing, imagine my surprise when I ran into Michael. He was a smart guy but he was too ambitious....reminding you of someone.

"It was nothing. I'm just glad his back here safe and sound, he was wild card back in New York." I said shaking my head taking a sip of my beer.

"Yeah, I heard. Did you met Gina." Ada asked.

"Yeah, she seemed like a good girl." I shrugged.

"Good girl?" Ada laughed before taking a puff from her cigarette.

"That girl is snake in a fur coat." I laughed with Ada at her take on the young girl.

"Oh god, I missed this..." she giggled.

"What? Talking shit." I grinned.

"That and talking with you."

"You might not be able to tell, but I'm blush right now." She coughed inhaling the nicotine as we laughed not second later karl walks staring bis hungry.

"How about pasta for dinner, I remember seeing a Italian restaurant when we past by...I pay." I asked.

"No, way. Your a guest–"

"A guest who is staying here rent free, come on Ada you know you can't win argument with me." I smirked getting out my wallet.

"You win this time, but next time I'm paying." I gave her a look saying otherwise.

The next time came sooner than I thought as I took Ada out on a lunch break.

"Guess who asked about you today." I raised my eye sitting across from her outside a Cafe.

"Does his name start with T." She nodded playing with her necklace as she rest her chin in her hand.

"He wanted to know why you haven't visited yet." I hummed tilting my head up to the sky as the sunglasses I had on blocked the sun from hitting my eyes.

"What did you tell him?"

"That you were busy trying to find a job and a flat." I looked back at her.

"Did he buy it." She shook her head no making me groan.

"He gonna want to see sooner or later." Ada says softly.

"I know." I sighed taking off my shades and putting them on my shirt.

Ada break was over and offered to drive me back to the house, but I decline telling her I was going to the park to clear my head. I kissed her cheek before we parted way, I took in the fresh cut grass and birds chirping as I found a bench under some shade with a great scenery of a field with people on the grass having picnics and childern playing.

A group of childern ran around with a football kicking it around reminding me of a memory that meant dearly to me.

I stomp in a puddle of mud getting my black shoes dirty, I could hear my mother stern voice cussing me out when I get home. I walked along the schoolyard at recess watching the other kids play, my head snapped up hearing crying from the tree I was a few feet away.

"Hey, are you okay?" I asked the little girl, it wasn't unusual to see younger kids around here since we share the same recess in the small school she shook her head clenching a decapitated doll.

"No, a big kid ripped my doll head off." She sniffled rubbing her eyes, I frowned down at her before looking around for a teacher to find and surprise surprise they weren't any around.

"Come with me." I hand out my hand and she took it as I pulled her to the art room we were lucky we still had and sat her down in the chair.

I went to the cabinets and grabbed some thread and a needle that the teacher kept in case, I moved back over to her and started to fix her doll.

"I seen you around watery lane, your a friend of charlie?" She asked.

"My dad and him use to work togther in the mines, before he moved away." I said making her nod.

"I'm Ada. Ada Shelby." I told her my name and shaked her hand after I finished fixing her doll.

"Nice to meet you, Ada." I handed her back her doll, she smiled happily clenching it to her chest thanking me.

The next day I was under the same tree reading when i glanced up to see a boy from my year walking towards me, I looked back to my book ignoring them knowing they just want to cause trouble.

"What's your reading?" The boy asked, I looked up staring into his piercing blue eyes.

"Frankenstein by Mary Shelley." He nodded walking a little closer towards me about to say something when the same little girl from yesterday came running over.

She stopped next to me taking a seat, she smiled towards me before looking over at the older boy giving him the second degree.

"Why are you messing with my new friend." I looked surprised at her before hearing the boy snort.

"I'm not messing with her, I just came over to tell her thanks for what she did for you." He huffed rolling his eyes.

"Oh...well you thanked her now kick rocks." She sassed making me giggle, the boy glared at me as I continued laughing.

"I assume you know each other?" The boy opened his mouth to say something when Ada beat him to it.

"Sadly yes, this is my older brother Tommy." I chuckled again closing my book between my index finger to save the page. I grin at Tommy.

"Hi." I said.

"Hey." The bell ringed signaling recess was over, Ada said goodbye to me not even glancing at Tommy as she ran back to her class.

"Can I walk you to class." I asked smirking, he looked at me with raised eyebrow before nodding.

I never told them this but meeting Ada and Tommy was the best day of my life, I was a outsider and its hard to befriend new people you barely know. I usually wouldn't look twice at what happened to Ada but I did...why? I don't know...but I'm happy I did it, if I didn't I wouldn't have met Polly, John, and Arthur.

Thomas and I grew close we hanged out ever chance we got with Ada and John tagging along with the us, Arthur would come too just so he didn't have to do chorus...I remember having a crush on Arthur. I was always teased by Ada and John by it and I think Arthur knew too, Thomas laughed about it wondering why I a thing for his older brother.

"I don't know maybe because he knows how to have fun, unlike someone I know." I jest looking at him, he rolled his eyes.

"I know how to have fun." He grins before taking a another of his beer before handing it to me as he ran and jump off the quarry into the water below.

"Holy shit." I said looking down over the edge to see Thomas splashing in the water, I finished off his beer before launching myself off the rock and into water.

We had so much fun back then but it seems liked when we started our 11 year we had to stop, we started to changed...I started to changed my body actaully...my once small chest grew a bit and so did my hips I got a bit taller...and thomas notice this...and arthur.

Arthur and Thomas flirted with me every chance they got either in my father's shop or at the garrison, one day after coming home my mom told me we were moving back to the states and I was devastated. He messed up again and we had to move...again, I got drunk well everyone was having fun at our going away party I sneaked off and drunk kissed thomas. It was the best first kissed I ever experience even though we were both a bit tipsy, what hurt the most was that he didn't send me off me off as I boarded the boat to America.

It always amaze me how a happy memory of mines can also lead to a sad one, I looked up hearing someone clear their throat to see the very man who been on my mind every since lunch.

"Hello, Tommy." He nodded wearing that same look when we first meet.

"Hey." He took a seat next to me as I looked back at the scenery in front of me.

"How did you know I was here."

"Ada told me you were having lunch at the Cafe, so i drove over and hope for the best." I looked at him in surprised.

"What if I wasn't here."

"Than i would have took it as a sign." He said taking out a flask, he took a sip before handing it towards me.

"A sign for what?" I asked coughing a little at the strong whiskey.

"That we weren't meant to be togther." I handed him back his flask and looked down at my boots.

"Oh."

"It's that a good 'Oh' or a bad 'Oh'..." he asked.

"It's a bit of a not so happy since you took my first kiss and didn't show up to send me off kinda Oh." I said snarky.

"So...a good oh?" He joked making me slapping his chest.

"Don't get smart with me, Shelby." I glare softly at him with a faint smile.

"You haven't changed a bit." He chuckled lowly rubbing his chest.

"I don't think so..." I looked away from him, he frowned a little looking at me before grabbing me hand and caressing my hand with his thumb.

"I'm sorry for not being there when you left." I looked over at him.

"Why weren't you?"

"I was angry at you for leaving." He sucked his teeth shaking his head.

"I didn't have control over that..."

"I know you didn't and I knew then too I was mad that after we kissed it was...perfect as if we fit togther like–"

"Two puzzle pieces." He grinned nodding.

"Yeah, it wasn't fair." He sighed taking off his cap and raking his hand through.

"I know." I glanced at him and scooting closer.

"Good thing i waited in the park a little bit longer." I said smiling at him.

"Is that you saying you willing to take a chance on me." I moved my to left and right thinking.

"...yeah." I nodded leaning in making the first move capturing his lips, I held in him as hid tongue explore my mouth making me feel greedily.

"We should leave too many prying eyes." He said whispered in my ear making me look around seeing some people give us looks.

"Good idea." As we stood up tommy put his arm around my shoulder pulling me closer to his side making me put my arm around his waist as we walked towards his car.

Hi, I didn't really have a request. I just wanted to know how you were doing. And that I love your written and how much effort you put into them. ❤

Awe that's so sweet I'm doing good thank you 😊 it means a lot to know people are enjoying my work.

How are u?

Back Again

Requested by × @shyjellyfish1

John sat lumped in his chair as Thomas talked, his eyes bore around the room not really paying attention to his brother. His mind wondered to a memory that he been frequently visiting lately, one of his special memories of his sweet beauty.

John pulled his lover over to the ferris wheel, he looked over to see (y/n) glancing up at the wheel.

"What's wrong? Scared of heights." He grinned making (y/n) glare at him.

"Shut up, Jonathan." John scrowl at the mention of his full name, she knows how much he hates to be called it making it easy to get under his skin.

"Don't be lashing out on me, because you too much of a pussy–" She slapped the back of his head.

"Shut up. I'm not scared and I'm not a pussy." He glared at her rubbing his head as they took another step, she suddenly felt nauseous noticing they were almost to the front.

"I-I'm just a bit timorous." she gulp feeling a lump in her throat, John raised his eyebrow confused.

" Timorous?" she smiled faintly looking at him.

"A feeling of nervousness, fear, or lack of confidence." He looked awed nodding in understanding.

"Right, right, right." He says, John smirked glancing at (y/n) noticing his girlfriend was a bit at ease. One of the reason, (y/n) loved about John he could make her feel better without even trying.

"Next!" (y/n) felt her blood run cold as she glanced up at the wheel, john gave the tickets to the operator whispering something to him before turning to her and reaching for her hand.

"Hey, it's going to be alright. I'm right here." He whispered bringing her hand to his lips, she nodded before he helped her onto the car.

He slide right next to her as the operator closed the small door and locked the latched, John squeezed her hand caress her hand with his thumb. (Y/N) jolted moving closer to John making him smirk, she held his arm as the ride creaked.

"What was that?" She asked scared, he chuckled kissing her forehead.

"It's fine it just the machine, babe." She nodded quickly burying her face in his chest, they were on the top when the ride jerk to the stop causing (y/n) to looking around and look over the car.

"What the fuck just happend? Did this thing just break down?" She said freaking out, John chuckled with arm around her.

"It's fine, babe–."

"The fuck it is." She said looking down at the crowd forming.

"Babe. It's fine." He tried assuring her, the ride jerked again causing her to cling to him.

"oh my god, oh my god, oh my god." She repeated.

John looked over the car to see a crowd, before glancing at his girl.

" (Y/N). Your fine." He said again, (y/n)'s eyes were closed.

"If you say it's fine one more time I'm going to punch you in the fucking throat." She said through clenched teeth, she could hear him chuckled rubbing her back pulling her closer.

"It's beautiful tonight." He moved a strand of curl behind her ear making her open her eyes, she looked up starry night sky before looking over at John.

"Yeah, it is." She smiled up at him, he looked down at her with a smirk before leaning towards her pressing lips to hers.

John couldn't resist exploring her mouth tasting cotton candy and beer they had earlier, his hand squeezed her hips as his other hand went under her dress.

"Ever fucked on a ferris wheel before?" He mumbled against her lips, she moaned feeling his hand gazed her inner thigh.

"No, and I'm not gonna start today. " He pulled back face all red with a frown, (y/n) smiled pulling him back by his collar.

"But, I could do you one better for now." She purred, her hand rubbing his member through his pants causing him to moan and lean his head back making her kiss his neck.

The ride jerked again causing her to pull away and John to look annoyed, the wheel started moving again making people on the ride cheer. (Y/N) sighed in relief before looking over at John who wore a irritated look, she glanced at his pants as he shifted in his seat.

The wheel stopped making the operator open the door to the car, (y/n) stood not before feeling John's crotch against her back as they look for another ride to get on.

"You owe me a little something when we get back to the house." He whispered in her ear before tickling waist making her giggled.

"John? JOHN?" John looked up looking around the room before his eyes landed on Tommy.

"Wha." He looked boredly at Tommy making Arthur shook his head, well Tommy looked irrited at him.

"I said how are the numbers coming along." John sighed before telling him the rates and the money flowing through

"Alright." He said moving along to other business making John roll his eyes, after the meeting john went for a drive. He didn't feel like like going to the garrison for a drink or home for that matte, he wanted to be alone with his thoughts.

He was in London when he parked his car couple of blocks away from her shop, he would walk by it looking through the window trying to get a glimpse of her even for a second. It been couple of years since (y/n) left for paris for school that was two years before the war, after John got drafted he went looking for her when she stopped sending letters. He looked everywhere around her school and apartment she was staying with her roommates, and couldn't find her he believed she was died.

Until the war was over, a year later he found out that she somehow made it back to london. John wanted to go to her but he was different and he could tell that she was the same girl....the same beautiful woman he fall in love with and he didn't want to ruin that by coming back into her life.

He walked to her Cafè looking through the window and to see her counting money behind the cashier register, he hesitated for minute before walking through the door.

"I'll be right with you." I said hearing the bell ring, I finished counting the money and sitting it back in the register.

"Welcome to Heaven on Earth. The greatest bakery in West–" I stopped looking at John, he took off his cap.

"Hello, my love." John says walking closer to me, I stared stunned at him.

We stood there staring at each other for a moment before he spoke up again, "I know I should have come sooner, but I didn't want to intrude and–" I rushed around the counter and jumped into John's arm burning my face in his neck.

"shut up, dummy." I muttered feeling his arms wrapped around my waist, he kissed along my cheek before kissing my lips.

"I missed you." He mumbled against my lips.

"I missed you, too." He pulled away leaning his head against mines breathing heavy.

"I'm sorry...I'm so fucking sorry." John shook his head making me grab his face.

"You don't have to apologize, john. I understand why you did it..." he buried his head in my neck.

"I moved on...I was married...I had kids...fuck..." I could feel him shaking against my shoulder as he cries.

"I wish it was you...I wish they were yours."

"Oh, John. It's not like it's the end of the world, we have can do all of it." He looked at me.

"You still want to be with me?" I laughed nodding my head.

"There's nobody I rather be with than you. " He smiled pulling me in for another kiss.

"I love you so much."

"I love you too, johnny."

Caim

requested by x @angelluminary

Thomas was in the kitchen drinking coffee when he saw his wife walk in with charlie on her hip, she put him down when they saw tommy.

"Daddy." Charlie ran up to his father making tommy lift him up and kiss the top of his head.

"My boy, good morning." He said sitting his son on the counter top before looking over to his wife.

"How did you sleep, my love." Thomas asked, (y/n) shrugged pouring some tea in a cup.

"Good. It would have been better if you were there..." She looked over at him with a small smile, he sighed giving her a guilty look.

"I'm sorry, but I promised I be here tonight." he grabbed her hand squeezing it with care.

"You better or your going to be spending more time on the couch rather than your own bed." (y/n) kissed tommy's cheek before moving over to the table, tommy chuckled nodding before moving charlie off the counter and sitting him between (y/n) and him.

"What are your plans for today?" He asked looking between his son and wife.

"Well, I was thinking we head to the flower shop to see my mother, then get some sweets at the bakery we love so much..." Charlie giggled when (y/n) tickled his tummy before looking back at tommy.

"And finally head to John's so charlie can see his cousins?" Tommy gave (y/n) a look after sitting down his coffee.

"Is that a good idea? You know how wild John's children can get and I don't want you to strain yourself." She rolled her eyes.

"Tommy I'm only 14 weeks along I'm not gonna strain myself." His hand landed on her small bump, (y/n) notice the look of worry on his face as she place her hand on top of his own.

"If it makes you feel better, ill bring the nanny to help." He looked at her thinking before nodding his head.

"Yeah...I'll send some boys to watch over you as well..." (y/n) opened her mouth to object.

"I know, I know, but it help me to know your okay...please," She sighed before nodding, he leaned over and kissed the side of her face.

"Thank you." He got up and poured his coffee down the drain, before walking back to his small family.

"I'll see you tonight." he kissed his son head, (y/n) got up as mary came in coming to watch charlie as tommy took (y/n)'s hand and lead them to the foyer.

"Be careful today."He says pulling her into a hug, she winced pulling causing tommy look scared.

"What? What's wrong...is the baby, okay?" His hands shoot to her shoulders as she bends over wincing.

"I-I'm okay...just cramps...I'm fine." She took in deep breathes.

"You could visit your mom and kids another time, we should you to bed. Mary?" (y/n) hushed tommy making him look at him watching her straighten up.

"See I'm fine...just a cramp." she smiled at him showing he was okay, he looked at her for a minute.

"Are you sure?" She nodded moving her hand to her stomach and rubbing it.

"We're fine...she's fine..." Tommy rolled his eyes making (y/n) grin wider.

"Your still milking that.." He stared at her with a smirk.

"Hey, I'm just telling you what the lady told me. She's gonna be a strong headed little girl...like her father." He chuckled.

"You mean like her mother..." (Y/N) slapped his chest as he kissed her lips.

"Call me for anything, okay?"

"Okay." She put his coat on him before he turn around to look her straight in the eye.

" I love you."

"I love you, too." He pecked her lips one more time with his hand on her stomach before saying goodbye, she watched him get in the car and she waved blowing him a kiss before he pulled off to go to work.

She groaned lowly feeling another cramp coming on but it went away a second later, she sighed rubbing her belly before walking inside and closing the door behind her.

It was close to midnight, when tommy was in a meeting with alfie and the russians. He stared between alfie and the short russian man as they talked he could feel another set of eyes on him, he glanced over at tatiana who was looking at him with a small smile before her gazed turned back to the two men. Thomas watched the two man finally shake hands making him get up and settle on an agreement, alfie and tommy was talking when tatiana walked up to them.

"Gentlemen." She glanced at both of them but her eyes lingered on tommy a little bit longer, they nodded toward her before watching her walk away with her uncle.

"It seems like someone has a little crush on you." Alfie says glancing back at tommy, thomas rolled his eyes.

"I don't do crazy russians." Tommy mutters walking out of the room with alfie by his side.

"No, you like them headstrong and...exotic." Thomas side eyed alfie before taking out the cigarette from his mouth.

"Alfie-"

"Speaking of headstrong and exotic, how's that ebony goddess you have hiding away?" Alfie asked.

"You mean my pregnant wife...she's fine." Tommy looked over at the amused look on alfie's face at the mention of (y/n) pregnancy.

"Mazel tov." He said patting tommy on the back before he headed towards his car, "I hope we get to talk soon about business." Tommy nodded before stepping back as alfie drive off, tommy flicked his cig to the ground before heading towards his own car.

He pulled up to his home seeing the lights off, he sighed getting out and walking to the door. He quietly sneaked inside closing the door behind the him, he slowly started pulling off his coat and cap before making his way to his office.

He rubbed his neck walking into his office to found his wife waiting on the couch looking out the window, "(y/n), what are you doing in here you should in bed." he walked over to his wife and sat down next to her.

"Where were you?" she looked over at him.

"In a meeting...why? what's wrong?" she sniffles looking over at tommy with misty eye.

"So, no one told you what happened then..." tommy shook his head looking worried, he reached for her hand only for her to moved it away,

"No, what is going on (y/n) your... your scaring me." he moved closer he noticed that (y/n) didn't move away so he moved his hand on top of hers, she started crying and moving her head to his shoulder.

"I lost the baby..." she cries into his shoulder, thomas sat there frozen in place as his wife cried.

"i'm sorry...I'm so sorry..." Tommy snapped out of his dazed, he wrapped his arms around his wife and held her tight.

"It's not your fault...you didn't know." (y/n) shook her head.

"I should have listened to you...I should have-"

"No, its not your fault...I know it's not your fault." Thomas planted kiss on her head, he closed his eyes trying to keep his tears at bay.

"W-We get through this...we will...I promise we will." his voice cracked moving her curls out of her face, she hooked her arms around tommy's neck causing him to moved his arm under legs picking her up and carrying her to their bedroom.

He laid her down before moving to removed his clothes, he slide into bed hesitating if he should hold her or not. He choose the latter and laid in bed staring at the ceiling, he griped the covers in pain trying to contain his anger and sadness. He tried to go to sleep but every time he closed his eyes he sees a little girl with (y/n) beautiful skin and wild hair, and his eyes...thomas opened his eyes as tears poured down his face, he took a shaky breathe trying to deal with the lost in silent.

"...Tommy." he turned to look at the back of (y/n)'s head.

"Yea?"

"Can you hold me." she whispered, he closed his eyes for a second before opening them again, he moved closer to her slinging his arm over spooning her. He kissed her shoulder making her sighed.

"....I was gonna name her Martha...if it was girl." he smiled.

"If it was a boy?" he asked.

"I was thinking...daniel...daniel is a good name."

"I love them both." she turned around looking at him.

"Maybe we can try again...a year for now maybe." he nods.

"I love you, (y/n)" he says drawing circles on her soft skin.

"I love you too, tommy." he pulled her into his arm resting his head on top of hers, they fell asleep in the embrace.

When the morning came (y/n) woke up by herself, she decided to stay in bed not feeling up to moving, she laid there in thought until she heard the door opened revealing charlie still in his pajamas.

"Mommy, can I stay with you." (Y/N) looked over at him before smiling and opening her arms, she watched him come over and climbed on the bed. He climbed into her lap and wrapping his arms around his neck burying his face in her should.

"My sweet baby." she smiled kissing him on the cheek, she rest her head on top of his head. The door opened again revealing Tommy walking in seeing his wife and son cuddled up in the bed.

He walked over to the side of her bed, she scoot over giving him space to take a seat. He pulled a box from his coat and gave it to (y/n).

"What's this?" she opened it with charlie still in her lap, she pulled out a bracelet with cute charms scatter all over the chain.

"A little gift...to give you hope and protection." she looked at the charms seeing a M and D making her smile.

"This is beautiful, babe. Thank you." he kissed her cheek before kissing his son head, he took off his coat throwing over a chair and then his vast and his shirt.

"Your not going into the betting shop, today?" he shook his head.

"I want to stay home with you and our son." he went under the covers scooting closer to her.

"A lazy day in the shelby household...that's the first." she smile.

"First of many." he said making her giggle, she slide the bracelet on before settling in bed with charlie in the middle.

Thomas watched his wife and son play with his toy cars that (y/n) kept in her drawer just in case he lose his other ones, even through he lost a part of himself and (y/n) yesterday he had to stay strong for his wife. But, seeing his love and son made the pain suppress just for now...right now he just want to forget...because looking at her and he vow he give her the life he promised her when he got on one knee.

Incandescent

requested by × @paisholotus

(Y/N) watched as her daughter ran around the playground, she nervously tapped the letter in her hand on her lap as she waited for tommy arrival. The sudden feeling to runaway creep its way into her chest, she let out a huffed of air trying to calm her nerves. She leaned forward planting her elbows in her thighs as her hands hold her face, she wondered if he ever thought about her after so long of being apart.

The last time they saw eachother was at the train station where him and his brothers were being drafted to france, she remembered the looks people gave her as they held hands. The memory of him close to her whispering sweet nothings making her giggled and smile, she wished it didn't have to end she wished they could run away from it.

"Let me take a good look at you." He says stepping back still holding her hands, he stared at her with adoration top to bottom burning the beautiful siren in his head for safe keeping, but unknown to him (y/n) is doing the same thing memorizing his soft eyes and his bright smile.

The train whistled causing (y/n) dry eyes to become misty again, Thomas gave her a small smile pulling her into a tight hug.

"Come back to me, okay?" He nods rubbing her back, she sniffled trying to blink away the tears. He sighed pulling away stating into her eyes, he caressed her cheeks before locking their lips. The whistled blow again causing the lovers to pull away and rest their heads on one another trying to let this moment last a little bit longer, he place a kiss on her lips one more time before pulling away.

"Hey, you don't need to cry and wanna know why." He says removing her tears with his thumb.

"Why." She sniffled again moving her coils out of her face.

"Because I'm planning on bugging you for a long, long, long time until we're old and wrinkly." He smiled seeing her laugh making his heart feel warm.

"Until YOUR old and wrinkly this face is never gonna age." She smirked making him chuckled at her response.

"Lucky me." She rolled her eyes glancing down at their entwine hands.

"I love you, (y/n)." She closed her eyes in pain.

"I love you too, tommy." He pecked her cheek and lips before pulling his hand away, she held her hands togther tightly watching him follow his brothers on the train. The train slowly started to move when she let out a chuckle waving as he waved at her through the window blowing kisses, she pretend that she caught them and placing them over her heart. The man who held her heart soon disappeared from her sights causing her heart to clenched, she was pulled away by Ada and her sister back to the car to go home.

It wasn't that long she found out that she was pregnant with her little girl, her mother was disappointed that she falled pregnant but angry when she realized it belonged to tommy shelby. Which brought her a train ticket out of watery lane, (y/n) didn't tell anyone of the women wanting tommy to meet their daughter first when the war was over. It wasn't until two months past, when she got a letter from Ada telling her the horrific news she been dreading for weeks.

(Y/N) was in her room rereading some of the letters tommy sent to her to pass the time, the last letter he wrote told her he was assigned to be a tunneler so he wouldn't be writing to her for a bit. Her heart clenched in her chest, now every day she has to live with unbearable doubt if her lover is alive or dead.

A knock came from her door causing (y/n) to put down the letter on the nightstand and open the door, "You got mail." A bright smile plastered over her face taking the envelope out of her sister hand, she didn't waste time in ripping open the envelope.

Her eyes scanned through the letter reading what Ada wrote not tommy, she frown a little reading Ada's rambling. The words didn't make sense she couldn't understand half the words the girl was writing, (y/n) blinked at the last paragraph on the letter.

"(Y/N)? You alright?" (y/n) didn't her sister's concerning voice as she started to take deep breathe as she stared at the letter.

"(Y/N)." Her sisters came up to her as she ripped the paper apart, she broke down crying into her older sister shoulder.

"His gone, his gone, his gone..." she mutters crying, her sisters held her looking at each other with sorrowful looks.

(Y/N) rubbed her face thinking back at the horrible memory, she had a choice to go back to watery lane and raised her child with the Ada and Polly deciding against it. She didn't want to be surrounded by so many memories of tommy, it was selfish keeping the family away from the only thing that had left of him and moved to the london. But, then she found out he wasn't died like she thought and was now a gangster, news of the peaky blinders traveled fast especially when he started burning pictures and paintings of the king.

She was hesitant opening the letter addressed to her from tommy when it made its way to her doorstep, he explain why he didn't come found her after the war and how he wanted to meet their daughter. That worried her even through tommy made it clear in his letter his doing legitimate business now, but that didn't mean he still didn't have enemies who want to see him and his family dead.

"Hey." (Y/N) snapped out of her thoughts and looked up to see tommy standing next to her, he looked so different the last time she saw him.

"Hello." She greeted scooting over on the bench as tommy took a seat next to her.

They sat there in silence, (Y/N) glanced over to him to see him looking at the playground his eyes searching for his daughter.

"She's the one in the black boots and brown coat." She utters looking back at her daughter playing on the merry-go-round.

"She's beautiful." He said softly, she looked back at him curious.

"How did you found me?"

"Last year, I hired someone to look for you." Her eyes harden turning her body towards tommy.

"That was you." She said angry.

"I needed to see you–" He said desperately.

"He scared the hell out of us, did you know he was talking to her? Or that he was lurking around my house." Thomas let out a exhausted sighed before nodding.

"For fuck sakes, tommy."

"That's wasn't his intention or mines." (Y/N) huffed out irritated, when she first saw the guy at her daughter's school she thought he was a parent. But, then she saw him in the neighborhood, at the market where she shop even standing in the building she worked.

"I'm sorry that I scared you two. I'm really am." His hand laid on top of hers squeezing it, she gently rubbed her thumb on his palm tracing circles.

"Listen why don't you and..." (y/n) said their daughter name causing a light in thkmas's eyes to brighten.

"Why don't you two come over and have dinner with me and my son," (Y/N) looked over at her daughter thinking about it.

"I don't know tommy, all this will be too much for her. Finding out her father is alive and that she got a brother, she going to have questions that I can't answer." Tommy cold hand held her warm cheek turning her head towards him.

"I know and I will answers them as much as I can, but for now I am a friend inviting another friend and her daughter to dinner." She sighed accepting the invitation.

"Would you like to met her?" He smiled nodding, they both got up and walked over to her at the swings.

"Hey, pumpkin. This is tommy his an old friend of mines." The little girl sat on the swing looking at the grown man.

"Nice to meet you, sir." She nod to him, he chuckled tipping his cap.

"Nice to meet you, young lady." Tommy pointed at the swing next to her.

"Mind if I join you." The little girl nodded again, Thomas looked over at (y/n) before taking the spot on the swing to his daughter.

(Y/N) watched as Thomas and her daughter swing togther, she smiled as her daughter sparked up an conversation with tommy. Thomas isn't surprised his daughter was a very bright young girl, it's obvious she got that from her mother and himself. He glanced at (y/n) to see her watching them with a smile, his chest grew warm being here with her again. He hope that (y/n) will found it in her to take him back and do what he promised he do when he came back from war, because can't imagine a future without (y/n) in it.

Hi, could you do one for Tommy shelby on what it would be like on hid wedding day. Could it be black reader please 🤍

What it would be like on Tommy Shelby wedding day.🤍

requested by x @shyjellyfish1

• The reader was unbraiding her hair to give it her coily look, before she part her hair to one side making her smile in the mirror.

• She took in deep breathe as she stand at the mirror in her white gown, she squeezed her hands to togther nervously thinking what tommy is doing right now.

• Thomas stalked in front of his underage sons after catching them with a bottle of scotch behind the church, he watched them sharply slide next to Michael and Finn.

• "Don't fucking move from this spot until this wedding is over." He hissed, glaring at them both.

• "What if I need to pee?" The first born asked sarcastically looking innocent, Thomas scowled trying to restrain myself from choking the life out of his son out.

• "Fucking hold it in, then." He grits out.

• "That's not good for your bladder." His second born said.

• "Then fucking wet yourself, I don't care just stay in your fucking seats." He turned to walk away when he stopped.

• "You shouldn't cursed in the house of the lord, dad. " His second son says after him a bit buzzed, Tommy closed his eyes taking a deep breathe before continuing walking hearing his sons snicker behind him.

• Tommy was at his wits end with trying to make sure everything was perfect for his soon to be wife, he had to run after his young daughter multiple time as she went towards the pond nearly slipping in himself trying to stop her from grabbing a toad.

• That wasn't the worst part of the evening, John and Arthur along with some of the reader's brothers were getting wasted.

• "Tommy. Tommy. Have a drink with us." Arthur shouted sluring some of his words waving a bottle in the air, tommy shook his head.

• "Not right now, the wedding about to start soon." Tommy walked up to them.

• "Come on...just a little sip." Arthur shook the bottle in front of tommy.

• "Alright thats enough Arthur give me the bottle." John and the other laughed watching Tommy try to grab the bottle from Arthur well trying not get any alcohol on him.

• "You stay away from me." Arthur says running as Tommy chased him around trying to get the bottle, tommy finally catches him getting him in the headlock and dragging him to church doors.

• Arthur chuckled as tommy put him in the seat next to polly, so she can keep him from doing anything stupid. Tommy looked at his watched and moved to stand in front of the priest as the music started to play.

• He rolled his shoulders well moving his head side to side, he faced the door where his love will be walking out soon. The doors opened making everyone stand, tommy gave a little waved at his daughter who dropped flowers on the floor as everyone awed her.

• Thomas breathed caught in his throat seeing his true love walking through the double doors, he smiled widen as she waddled down the aisle towards him with a grin on her face. He held out his hand for her to take as they stood side by side, the priest started to say a pray when the reader started to contractions.

• "What's wrong?" He whispered to her as their head were bend in prayer, he felt her squeezed his hand tighter.

• "J-Just pregnancy cramps...I'm fine." She lied chuckling through the pain, tommy looked at her with a look before leaning into her.

• "You would tell me if your going into labor, right?" She nodded her head giving a soft smile, the priest finished the prayer as the contraction stopped making her breathe a sign relief.

• They were almost to the I do's when the reader groaned lowly clenching her stomach, tommy looked at her worried before stopping the priest.

• "That's it. I'm taking you to the hospital." The reader shook her head no, "I'm fine. We almost finished just continue talking." She said strained looking at the priest.

• "Darling, you going into labor–" the reader grabbed tommy by the collar pulling him close.

• "I am not waiting another year to be married. Skip to the good part." She snapped at Thomas and the priest.

• The priest told them if they take each other to be husband and wife, they said yes and the reader gave Thomas a quick kissed before falling into him.

• "Now you can take me to the bloody hospital." She says softly as Thomas picked her bridal style telling someone to get the car, Michael hurried outside and pulled the car to the entranced as Ada opened the door for tommy

• The reader water broke as tommy put her in the car, Ada and polly along with the reader mother had to deliver the baby in the back seat in front of the church for their friends and family and the lord to see.

• "It's a girl." Ada said happy making everyone cheer, the reader leaned her head against tommy chest out of breathed.

• "I told you it was going to be a hell of a wedding, my love." Tommy chuckled kissing her head before looking at their baby girl.

Hi, guys it weird making this because don't usually have a lot of people asking for request but I'm holding off taking request since I'm back in school. The class I'm taking is time consuming, but im finishing up two more fics and then calling it quits until summer comes around so I hope you guys understand. Deuces ✌🏾

What it would be like on John's wedding day.

requested by × @angelluminary

• John and the reader had a small outside wedding, the sun was near setting as the reader was with her mother getting ready feeling  giddy as she dtared at herself in the mirror.

• John on the other was shitting bricks as he tries to calm his nerves, he glanced around seeing his children for once behaving themselves.

• As he stood away from everyone behind the tree, he took sips of alcohol to help making him a bit buzzed but not enough for him to be all over the place.

• "Hi, John." John coughed glancing behind to see lizzie stark staring at her.

• "Lizzie–Hey." He looked her up and down, before looking around for Polly or Ada.

• The reader knew that John and lizzie had a thing, and as much she love and trusted John. She didn't trust him enough to be left alone with lizzie, even though shes married to his brother.

• "Your looking nice." She smiled slyly walking closer to him, John knows he shouldn't be talking to her but the buzzed part of his brain that held some fond memories of them togther said otherwise.

• "Thank you. You look beautiful by the way." He says making lizzie blush, lizzie had her hand on John's chest as she moved closer to him as his hands landed in her waist.

• "Come here, you fool." Polly hissed coming out of nowhere grabbing John by the ear shoving passed lizzie, John groaned in pain as he was being dragged away by polly.

• "For fuck sake, pol. I wasn't doing anything." He glares at her as she stood him by the alter.

• "Not yet you werent I swear you and your brothers are just un fucking believable." She swears walking away before telling Ada to keep a eye on John.

• It didn't take long for polly to tell the reader what happened, and didn't take long for the reader to want to kill and bury lizzie and john.

• Against her mother wishes to call off the wedding, the reader kept her head high and walked down the aisle with her father.

• John was starstruck when he saw her come out with her long white gown, but  when he made eye contract with her he knows that polly told her about lizzie.

• The sudden feeling of dread filled his stomach as he stared warily at her, her face is calm but her eyes held blazing hellfire causing him to gulp.

• "You look gorgeous, my love." He whispered standing next to her, she glanced at him before at the priest again as he speaks.

• "Mmmhmm." John sighed defeated, only he pissed off his fiance soon to be wife on their wedding day.

• In a blink if an eye, the ceremony was over and the party was in full swing. The tension everyone felt didn't last long after they started to serve drinks, John was talking to some people when he heard his wife laughing.

• His face dropped seeing the reader laughing and dancing with bonnie gold, he watched as her smiled widen as he spin her around his arms.

• John glared clenching his jaw moving to grab the champagne bottle next to him to kill gold when tommy stopped him, and tried to calm him down.

• "Take a walk, John." Tommy said sternly patting his brother on the back, John had the bottle snatched out of his grip by his brother as he walked away still staring at them dancing.

• John angrily watched from his seat at the table with a cigarette between his fingers, lizzie sat next to him trying to get his attention but was ignored as he watched his wife have a good time.

• He perked up seeing the reader excused herself walking away from the dance floor, john got up midway of lizzie talking following his wife.

• The reader wondered around until stopping neat a tree far away from the party fixing her heel.

• "Shit! John you scared the hell out of–" the reader didn't finished as john kissed her, he had her up against the tree as his hand lift up her dress.

• "I shouldn't even let you touch me, after what pol told me." The reader whispered, John groaned in her neck as he felt how wet she was.

• "We were just talking, it meant nothing." He muffled in her neck kissing and biting her making her moan lowly, he could feel her squeezing around his fingers.

• "She means nothing to me." He moved a strand of hair put of her face peppering her with kisses, "Nothing," John unbuckled his trousers pushing them down to his thighs.

• The reader eyes rolled in the back of her head as he thrust into her, she digged her nails in his shoulder.

• "You so beautiful, fuck your so beautiful." He moaned, the reader arm went around his shoulder as he sped up.

• The reader opened her eyes hearing someone coming, she was about to warn John when she saw lizzie coming around and stopping in shock seeing the reader and John fucking.

• The reader moaned loudly moving her hips making John moan, "Right there, Johnny." She moaned loud enough for her to hear.

• "Fuck, I love you so much." The reader saw lizzie back away looking a bit embarrassed before walking away, she could feel John close making her biting his soft spot.

• John held her hips grunting empty his himself into her warm pussy, John kissed her cheek before pulling himself off her.

• "Where have you been hiding that move?" He chuckled pulling up his pants, his bride giggled shrugging.

• "I was saving it for our wedding night, but I had to remind you who you belong to..." he shook his head with a sly smile pulling her close, he buried his face in her hair before walking them back to the party.

• "Maybe I should flirt with lizzie more often, if it gets yout to act like that..." he joked, the reader glared at him.

• "Try it and I have bonnie throw your body in the cut." She smirked.

Loving

requested by × @bluesapphire2

The museum was half empty when (y/n) walked out of her office, she smiled at some of the guest as she headed towards the roaring 20s display that just opened up. She stop at the entrance of the exhibit feeling her phone vibrant in her back pocket.

"Hello, my love." She says continuing on inside and have a look see to make sure everything is in order.

"Hey, baby. I'm outside, are you ready?" John said sitting in his black rolls-royce cullinan just coming from work, (y/n) hummed jointing down something on her clip board as she looked at a picture.

"Not exactly. Hey, do you mind coming in I want to show you something." John furrowed his brows confused and curious before responding, he got out and headed up the stairs of the museum.

He adjust his suit jacket as he walked inside, he walked around seeing all the different arts and historical artifacts scattered everywhere.

"John." (Y/N) calls out making him smile and gaze at her, she looked beautiful her hair was twisted up half down and other half in a bun on her head. (Y/N) was dressed in black jeans and a white dress shirt with a loose tie around her collar, he came up to her pulling her into a kiss.

"What you wanted to show me?" He asked, (Y/N) was so dazed she almost forgot what she wanted to show him.

"Uhhhh, it's this picture I wanted to show in this new exhibit we just opened." She linked their hands togther pulling him to the display, she brought him over to a display with pictures.

"...recognize anyone?" She said watching look at the pictures, John stared and shrugged.

"Should I?" (Y/N) shoulders slumped as she leaned forward and pointed at a picture of three men.

"Uh, yeah. You and your brothers doppelgängers." John scoffed moving closer to get a better look before shaking his head.

"Those blokes don't look anything like me or tommy and arthur. Who are they anyways. " (Y/N) looked down before flipping theough some papers before finding the number.

"We don't have any of their names, but we do know that they called themselves the peaky blinders." John rolled his eyes before straighten up.

"Sounds like something Netflix would make into a movie."

"Or TV show." John laughed moving his arm around her shoulder pulling her in for another kissed.

They finally left the museum and headed home.

"Do we have everything for tonight?" (Y/N) asked staring at her phone as she answered some emails.

"The cupboard is stocked with all our favorite treats." John smiled looking at the road, (Y/N) nodded

"Good you don't want laila throwing a fit, when she doesn't have her jaffa cakes." John chuckled, as they pulled around the corner almost to come home.

(Y/N) was flicking through HBO Max trying to find a appropriate movie to watch, john and (Y/N)'s middle child walked in the living room pushing her glasses further her nose.

"I thought we decided to find a movie togther." Talia asked taking a seat at the end of the couch.

"Yeah, well I didn't want to spend the better half of a hour arguing so I'm picking the movie." She said taking a seat next to talia, (Y/N) finally picked a movie and waited for the others to get down stairs. Laila was the first to come down stairs and make her way next to her mother, (Y/N) turned her head over to the stairs hearing shouting coming from her oldest and husband.

"You can't tell me who I can and can not date, I'm 17 not a child." Imani shouted walking down stairs with her father hot on her tail, John was red in the face as he shouted back at her.

"The hell I can your leaving under my roof, eating my food, and texting your friends and loser boyfriend on the phone I paid for with my money." (Y/N) and the girls watched as the two shout at each other, (Y/N) would get involved but she learned to CIO with both of them.

Both John and Imani were two peas in the pod sharing the same traits of gutsy and charming, she knows that they tired themselves out and hug at the end.

"His not a loser–" she shouted back.

"He is a loser, and his a dead beat and..." he looked over at his wife and daughters, "his TWICE your age." He growled looking back at Imani.

"His twenty-three, calm down." She put her hand up making him clench his jaw getting more pissed.

"You know how about we postpone movie night until tomorrow, yeah?" (Y/N) said cutting through their argument.

"No, we're having movie night." John crossed his arms moving over to the couch, Imani moved her braids over her shoulder before crossing her arms.

"I'll passed...I'm not in the mood anymore." She said snarkly turning around and stalking back to her room.

"Imani! Get back here." (Y/N) stopped John from going after her, he looked over at her as she looked back at the girls.

"Why don't you head up to bed." The girls looked at each before walking passed their parents to their rooms, John shook his head heading over to the kitchen to fix himself a drink.

(Y/N) walked after him watching him gulp the first brown liquor down, before fixing himself another with a scrowl on his face.

"I'm telling you this now I'm not holding your hair tomorrow morning." John looked up giving her a look, before putting the bottle back in the cabinet.

John walked past (Y/N) to their share room leaving (Y/N) to put away all their snacks they had scattered on the coffee table, she shut off the lights and headed to her room to find John already in his boxers.

(Y/N) grabbed a scarf from her draw and wrapped it around her head, she slid into bed next to John as he looked at his tablet.

"It's kinda ironic how you giving Imani grief about the age difference between her and her boyfriend, when we started out the same." John didn't look up from his tablet when he spoke.

"That was different we were in love..." he looked over at her with a glint making her stare at him with smile, "They are not...she thinks she loves him." (Y/N) sighed.

"You know she's gonna keep dating him now just to piss you off, right?" John shrugged setting down his tablet on the night stand, (Y/N) watched as he laid down in bed facing her.

"Let's see how long that last when I stop paying her phone bill." (Y/N) let out a muffled laugh burying her face in the covers, John pulled (Y/N) closer kissing her on the nose.

"They grow up so fast don't they..." she whispered.

"Yes, they do. I hope the girls love me enough not to pull something like this..." He mumbled.

"Laila is still young and a daddy's girl so you still have that to hold on too," she sighs.

"...and talia is a bookworm who is wouldn't look twice at a guy for well so I think the cards are in your favor." She smiled.

"Yeah, true but y'know when they do realize it, maybe we can try again." John says gazing her flat stomach, (Y/N) rolled her eyes.

"That's the alcohol talking–"

"No, it's really not I'm serious. It be nice to have a baby around again."

"Boy for who? You didn't change not one dirty napkin," John chuckled.

"It be different this time, the business is booming I can start to work for home to help out." (Y/N) stared at him in thought, she was young when she had Imani and not a year later they had talia. John and his brothers were just getting their businesses off the ground during that time, and (Y/N) was in her last year of uni when she found out about Laila.

So, long hours and spending nights working made it hard for John to spend time with her and the girls, so maybe trying again and giving him a chance do the kids he couldn't do with the girls would be nice.

"I'll pray on it." She chuckled moving her arm under her pillow and closing her eyes, John had a twinkle in his eyes before scooting closer wrapping his arms around her.

Dance to a Different Tune

requested × anonymous

The sound of the alarm clock woke you making you slam your hand against it to shut it off but that didn't get you to get out of bed just yet, the big bear you called a husband next to you shuffled in bed as he leans over to you and pressed multiple kisses on your back and shoulder just waking up.

"Morning, pet." He whispered before kissing your cheek, the smile that spread across your face made you crack one eye open and turn your head slightly to kiss his lips.

"Morning." Alfie patted your butt before getting out of bed and heading towards the bathroom, you closed your eyes again trying to go back to sleep before being force to get up soon.

You listened out hearing the toilet flushing and the sink turning on and off made you continue relaxing, she heard alfie grunt as he walked out of the bathroom and back to bed she perked up as he pulled her into him by her waist.

"Shouldn't you be getting ready for work?" She asked.

"I'm the boss. I'll get there when I choose to." She chuckled lowly as she felt him melts into her, she sighed in bliss she loved mornings like these with alfie where they just laid there not saying a word just melting into each other. It's crazy how life turned out for her one minute shes' fucking men for money now she's working in her own bakery and married to camden most notorious gangster, a life she never imagined having but here she was with him enjoying this beautiful quiet morning.

The voice of their oldest daughter, Dinah voice boomed through out the room causing both alfie and you to cringe as more footsteps ran down the hall to your room.

"Mama! Papa! I want pancakes."

"And I want bacon and eggs."

The shouts of the twins made you bury your face into your pillow as you just wanted quiet morning little bit longer, she sat up hearing a painful grunt coming from alfie seeing the little boy and girl crawling on their father's back before sliding off to get into my lap.

"Alf? You okay, babe." His face was buried in his pillow muffling his words, "what?" she says leaning closer to him.

"...fuckin peachy." He grunts out making her give him a small mock pout as she rubbed his back, he twisted onto his back before huffing like a bear he is and looking up at the ceiling as she put ella and david on the bed.

"Do you want me to do that thing that help with the pain?" She asked getting out of bed and going to his side, he looked at her up and down slowly before a small grin made its way onto his face as dirty thoughts ran through his head.

"Oh, darlin not with the kids around." He mutters making you glare at him with a small smile.

"...you guys are gross." Dinah says disgusted before walking out of the room, alfie's index finger trailed its way slowly against your warm thigh making you slap it away gently.

"Stop that," She whispered rolling her eyes when alfie laugh.

"What? We could start on baby number 6." He grins slowly sitting up making me back up a bit.

"Let the one brewing in my belly form first before we start talking about baby number 6." I watched him get off the bed before looking down at her with his hands on her hips.

"I told you when I married ya I wanted a litter of them, didnt i." I let out a mocked laughed making him give her a toothy grin.

"Not that I could recall." I say as him massage my hips, the twins throw their arm around alfie's shoulder as he got up making them giggle as they cling to the man.

"Why don't you take the munchkins to get ready for the day, well I wake the beast from his cave." Alfie nodded giving me a peck before you moved to kiss the twins on their cheeks.

They walked out of the room with you watching as alfie held both twins over his shoulder to the their room well you walk to your oldest, I knocked before peaking my head insides my son's room to found him still asleep, I smiled a little as I make my way inside and take a seat on the edge of his bed. I ran my hand through his silk brown hair stirring him, he turned towards me with his face against his pillow as he crack open one eye.

"What time is it?" He croaked out.

"A little before seven fifty." He groaned as he closed his eyes again.

"...give me five more minutes." He mutters drifting back to sleep, I moved my hand from his hair making him frown a little.

"Okayyyy, but I have to warn you, your father is making pancakes." I song getting up he groaned knowing that if he didn't get down stairs before his father finish cooking he only be left with scraps of bacon and sausage.

"...I'll be down in a minute." He sighed pulling the covers over his head, I giggled before walking out and going back to my room to get dress for the day.

I finished doing my hair with the curling iron before sliding on my black step in pumps, I looked in the mirror one last time as I fix my black bow brooch tie before walking out. I saw that Joseph's room door was left opened i looked inside not seeing him, I closed the door before making my wsy downstairs with the rest of the family.

"Good morning, family." I said walking over to the coffee pot on the stove, my childern spoke over each other as they wish me a good morning. A hand went to my waist as I pulled out a coffee cup and sat it down next to the stove, Alf got a cup from the same cabinet placing it next to my mug waiting for me to pour him some coffee.

"I saved ya a plate." He said lifting the plate from behind his back towards me making me smile in appreciation.

"Ah, thank you, my love." I took the plate of his hand and laid it on the island behind us, he was press to my side like a fly on honey staring at me.

"Can I help you, Mr. Solomon." I asked lifting the mug to my lips taking a sip as I look at him.

"Nope just waiting for my thank you kiss." I raised my brow at the man.

"Thank you kiss?" I asked, he nodded as his hand on my waist made me come closer as his hip leaned against the counter.

"Yea, I basically had to beat those heathens off with a stick to save ya food, I think I deserve a little kiss don't ya think." He said tilting his head to the side with a grin making me smile behind my mug as I thought about it, I held my mug as I set on the counter before leaning in with alfie doing the same and brush my lips against his only for a second.

"...mwah, there you go, happy." I smiled at him as he narrow his eyes at me.

"What was that?"

"That was a kiss." He scoffed.

"You called that a kiss?" He asked crossing his arms.

"You said you wanted a little kiss, so I gave you a little kiss." I shrugged before turning towards my plate of food.

"Don't play, (y/n). Give me a real kiss." I rolled my eyes as I put down my half eaten bacon and turned back to my husband who had his arms open for me, I stepped into his hold putting my arms around his neck and giving him his kiss. A large gasped left my lips when alfie dipped me making one arms go around my waist and one if his hands to take hold my butt making me smile against his lips, his lips moved away from my lips to my neck causing me to laugh loudly as he bites and suck on my neck where I'm ticklish.

"Mum! Dad! The bus is here. " Joseph call out, making alfie pull me straight up I smiled widely at him as I slap his chest for that stunt he pulled causing him to laugh whole heartily. Alfie followed behind me with coffee in hand as we walked Joseph and Dinah outside where the bus came up in front of house, we peppered them with kisses before letting go and watching them ran up to the bus and get in I waved one last time as the bus drove away before reaching in my skirt pocket and taking out the car keys that I brought myself a long time ago.

"I'll see you after work, my beloved." I said as Alfie walked me and the kids to the car.

"See ya after work....you two be good for your mum, now." Alfie says before binding down as the twins nodded planting kisses on his cheek as they hug him making me smile.

"I love you." I said when he stood up straight making him look at me starstruck as if I never said those three words to him before every morning.

"I love you too, lovely." I unlock the door and buckle the twins in with alfie help before Alf opened my door. I took his hand as I got into the drivers seat he shut the door before leaning his head in kissing my lips for a minute.

"...have a safe drive." He whispered pulling away a bit to look into my eyes.

"I will...," he smile but I could see he was still a bit worried that I didn't have his men to drive me, but I made it clear long ago that I could take it with his men being at the bakery but to drive me around was too much. He nod before he patted the roof of the car as I put the key in the ignition, the kids bid their dad a goodbye as I started to pull out of the drive way he waved as he stood in his same spot. I smiled at him one last time before driving down the road of our street to the bakery.

Ella and David sat in one of the four tables in the shop drawing when I was talking to a customer, I slide the pie towards to the woman with a smile as she thanked me and walked out. I looked over at the time seeing it was almost time for the kids to get out of school, my head turned to the swinging doors where Rosie came out with more fresh bake goods.

"Hey, I got a new batch and there a man in the back that need you to sign some papers." She said putting the cookies in the bakery case.

"Alright, I'll be back." I wrapped my hands on my apron before going to the back and walking past my two other employees, the man turned with a clipboard I smiled at the familiar face and take the pen out of his hand as I sighed my signature on my supplies.

"Thanks, Mrs. Solomon. See you next week. " He tipped his hat towards me.

"See you next week, simon." I smiled as his men put the bag of flour in their usual spot as I go back in the front of the shop, as I walked out of the back dinah and joe walked through the door.

"Hey, how was school." I asked walking up to them and give me a hug.

"Great! My teacher was out so we didn't have to take her test today." Joe said happy as he walked behind the counter with his sister sitting down their backpack.

"Luck you."

"I know right." He said with wide smile making his sister roll her eyes.

"And that's wasn't the best part of the day, a boy in my class got in a fight with a kid a year above us and he won. It was unbelievable." He said ecstatic.

"Well, it's good to see you a great day, how about you dinah how was your day." I asked looking at the little girl who took tied her hair in the back before putting on her apron.

"It was alright I got a A on my science test and got the part of wendy in the peter pan play." I squeal pulling her in a hug.

"I always knew you could do it, baby." I kissed the top of her head still holding her, "I can't wait for all of us to go watch it." Joe groaned.

"Do we all have to–"

"Yes." I cut him off making him scrowl softly, as I let her go the bell to my shop ring.

"Welcome to Lovelie's Bakery, what can I–" I turned towards the door before stopping and seeing who it was.

"I knew it was you, you haven't change a bit." I looked at the person speechless.

"Mum? Who is that?" Joseph asked making the lady look at her son, I could see the gears in her head as she study my son and daughter who was next to me.

"She's...she's um..." I couldn't come up with words to tell my son.

"I'm an old friend...she and my husband were old acquaintances, isn't that right?" Lizzie asked looking at me with a wry look making me roll my eyes.

"Hey, Rosie. Can you take the kids in the back and get started on the cookies." I asked my friend she looked at the woman and back at me nodding as she walked over to the twin.

"Come on, guys. Let make some Christmas cookies." I watched as they shouted in excitement and drag her to the doors, dinah followed right behind leaving Joe to still stand by my side. I put a hand on his back making him look at me.

"I'll be fine, go." I motion to the door with my head making him glance at the woman and nod before walking in the back as I watched.

"Their beautiful...the boy looks like his father." My eyes snapped back to her with a vacant look.

"How old is he? He looks like he a bit younger than charlie–" lizzie looked taken back when I cut her off.

"What the hell are you doing here." I asked coming from behind the counter and standing in front of her.

"I was in the area and thought I could go for a cookie." I scrowl taking a step closer to her as she taunt me.

"It's really not a good idea to mock the wife of a gangster in his territory." I glared as she put her hands up.

"I didn't come in here to fight." I scoffed crossing my arms.

"Then why are you here." I asked impatient, she shrugged sighing before moving some hair out of her face.

"I don't know I saw you from across the way and then I saw your kids, and I just–I guess wanted to see if any of them belong to Tommy. " She said.

"Lucky for you and me, none of them are, so." I held up my arm up motioning towards the door.

"How could you be sure?" She asked stepping closer making me look her up and down.

"His still cheating on you." I stated she didn't say anything making me sigh.

" I haven't seen Tommy or been to small heath in over seven years, and I'm not the type of woman to cheat on my man." I let my arms fall to my side, lizzie nodded looking down onto the floor.

"You know you were his favorite. After Grace, he somehow found his way to you and he found you special, why?..." She asked looking up at me I didn't notice earlier but a bit of her mascara was smudge under her eyes as if she was crying earlier today, I wiped my face looking over at the doors behind me before turning back to her.

"Ask him. I let you overstay your welcome long enough, now leave." I turned to walk away when I felt her hand wrap around my forearm.

"This will not last your perfect life...he will get bored they eventually do, and hopefully you feel the same heartache and misery you caused me." I snapped my arm out of her grip and glared at her.

"Let go of me before your husband found your body floating in the–" I shut my mouth when the door creaked.

"Mum? Eveything's alright." Joseph asked.

"Yea, my old friend was just leaving." I turned back to lizzie with a agitated smile, she gave a tight lipped one back before backing up and leaving out of the shop, i huffed rubbing my head before turning and stirring my son back to the kitchen.

When I got home I didn't tell Alf about the visit from mrs.shelby, neither did the kids especially since they could tell that something wasn't right when I came back into the kitchen. Even though i know lizzie was chatting shit it still planted a seed of doubt in me I know Alf and I know he loves me, but his eyes likes to wonder to other woman when we go out and we always laugh about it when I catch him. It's our thing. I trust alfie and he trust me. That what makes our marriage work.

"We be back around midnight." I told Ollie, he nods as he followed me around the house as I told him what the kids can and can not have well we're away.

"If they get hungry we have left over meatloaf in the oven." Alfie was already in the car waiting, I turned over to the sitting room to see the kids lounging.

"Alright." He said as I kept looking at them, alfie was invited to this function by one of his associates and brought me along to distract from boring rich people talk.

" You don't have to worry (y/n), they in safe hands." I turned to Ollie giving him a sweet smile.

"I know they are." I squeezed his arm before stepping closer to the living room.

"I'm going...be good for Ollie, alright." They mumbled a yes before going back to what they were doing before entered the room, I rolled my eyes smiling one more time at Ollie before walking out to the car.

"I don't think asking Ollie to watch the kids was a good idea, you know the twins can smell weakness." I giggled as I link my hand to alfie free one, we were driving out of london to the countryside.

"That's why I told Rosie to drop by when she close the shop to make sure everything's okay." Alfie shook his head.

"...still playing cupid I see." I shrugged a little before looking out the window.

"She likes him and he likes her, I don't see the harm in interfering." She heard alfie snort, we stayed quiet as the music on the radio played through the car, after an hour and half we finally pulled up to a nice-looking mansion.

"...rich pricks." I heard alfie whispered as he tried founding a space to park the car, he got out swiftly before opening my door i smiled at him as he grabbed my hand helping me out. I hook my arm around his own and started walking up the steps the door was opened by an old white man, he stepped aside letting us in as people stood around mingling.

"Remember we only here to show face and get the hell out, okay?" I nodded as I took a glass from a tray before drinking it, the night was spent being pulled left to right by alfie as associates of his introduced him to their friends. I was on my sixth glass when we were brought to the drawing room, a bunch of people was standing near the fireplace when we came up to them.

"Alfie this is Oswald and his wife diana...." I looked up and see a man with mustache standing straight as if he as a stick up his ass, he bend his head down a bit greeting.

"How do you do." He said, he glanced over to me for a second before looking away, I didn't take no offense I know how his kind is. Alfie nod back not saying a word.

"...and you already know Mr. Shelby and his wife." I turned my head a bit looking for a waiter, I wasn't going to pay them no mind especially Thomas I just hoped that his whore kepts a muzzle on about what happened–.

"Hello, (y/n). It's good to see you again." Lizzie said, I look at her giving her a quick smile before looking away.

"How the kids?" She asked, I could feel alfie's eyes burning the side of my head.

"Their fine." I said again, I smiled again when the waiter took my empty glass and gave me new one.

"That's good maybe we could do a little play date with the–" I gave her a uninterested look as alfie spoke up.

"Hold on, now darling. When did you two..." he waved a finger between me and lizzie, "...meet?" He asked looking at me, I let out a nervous laugh shrugging.

"Oh, that it was weeks ago." He narrowed his eyes at me before glancing over at Thomas who was watching us.

"Did you know anything about this?" Thomas took the cigarette out of his mouth.

"Lizzie mentioned it." I rolled my eyes as I downed my drink.

"Funny. Because me own wife didnt." He said.

"It slipped my mind." I refrained myself as the others were watching us, I could tell that lizzie was eating this up so I calmed myself down and grabbed his hand so he could do the same.

"Alfie let's talk about this later." I whispered looking him in the eye trying to get him to see that I didn't want to argue, but he wanst having it.

"I think I want to talk about it now." He said gruffly, I gave him a look as he glared at me.

"Alfie–" I stressed glancing at the prying eyes.

"What? Am I embarrassing you in front of your little boyfriend." He said heated, I looked at him eyes widen in shock.

"You know what..." I let out a deep breathe, " I can't talk to you when your like this so I'm going to the restroom." I grabbing my clutch from the table.

"Come found me when your in the right head space, okay, Alfred." I glowered walking past him and away from the group, after taking a break and hiding out in the bathroom for a good twelve minutes I think that gave me and alfie enough time to gather ourself. I was finishing wiping my hands with the towel when someone knocked on the door I walked over thinking it was alfie

"Hello." I furrowed seeing oswald mosley standing at the door.

" Mr. Mosley–" he cut me off with a wave of his hand.

"Call me Oswald." I looked over his shoulder for anyone as he made me back up back into the bathroom I watch him shut the door.

"You know when lizzie told me you used to be a whore, I couldn't help but be intrigued..." I watched him closely as he walked closer to me.

"I never been with a woman of your complexion before I always heard your kind tasted divine," he said undressing me with his eyes, a bit of bile came up making me gag mentally.

"Whatever that gutter trash told you I don't do that anymore." I shut down.

"Not even for the right amount of cash, you know I have it. Especially with how my political party is going." He said proudful.

"I rather eat glass and I didn't take you for a man with taste." He chuckled at my comment with a small smile.

"And why is that?" I shrugged as I walked around him.

"Well, I heard from the grapevine that you like to keep it in the family, mr.mosley." He face turned sour causing me smile innocent at him.

"Rumors." He rolled his eyes.

"Of course, they are..." I said patronizing, before he could grab hold of me I clocked him in the nose causing him to fall to the ground.

"You have balls I can give you that, but let this be a lesson to you." I said throwing down the towel I was once holding on the floor near him for his bloody nose.

"Never corner a women like this ever again." He was slowly getting up when I landed a kick to his stomach causing him groan again and collapse back to the ground.

"Oh, yeah one more thing...your cause is shit." I turned on my heels and threw open the door and stalked out leaving that pathetic excuse of a man in agony.

I was looking in my clutch when I ran into Tommy, he held my arms to keep me from stumbling.

"Where's the fire?" He asked glancing at me, I shrugged his hands off me and walked around him.

"Will you fuck off." I hissed at Tommy as he blocked my way, "It's bad enough I was drooled on my a fascist pig, I don't want to be around you of all people right now." He looked taken back at me.

"Are you okay?" He asked looking at me.

"I'm good but your friend on the other hand is not." I pushed my hair over my shoulder.

"His not my friend."

"Whatever. I need to find alfie." He still didn't move making me glare at him.

"Seriously, shelby you need to get out of my way." I snapped growing impatient.

"Did you know how much it cost to get you out of there..." he asked, I gave him a blank look as the though of punching him was playing on my mind.

"Is that a rhetorical question orrr..."

"Alfie gave me thirty percent of his business to me, plus the rest of money you had to pay your debt." He says, I blinked at him taking in his words.

"I guess he knew I wasn't going to let you go so easy so he sweeten the pot, he choose you over his business." I looked up at Tommy hoping to detect if he was lying but he wasn't.

"I need to go."I whispered before pushing past him he grabbed my wrist and making me look at him again.

"Before you find alfie you should know something..." he said.

"What?"

"His drawn to you. His faithful. He loves you." I looked down at the floor.

"How would you know. You and alfie don't seem like the type to talk about those sort of stuff during business hours." I said.

"We don't, but i can see it when he walked in with you and how he held you by his side the whole night. It's exactly how I was with my grace." He said letting go of my wrist before walking away, I let his words sit with me a bit before walking to find my husband.

After a well, I found him outside looking into our car, "Alfie? What you doing." I asked walking over to him, he turned sighing meeting me half way pulling me into a tight hug.

"...fucking looking for you." He said pulling away.

"I told you I was in the bathroom." He rolled his eyes.

"You never told me which fucking bathroom I comb through this entire fucking house looking for you." He looked angry but happy to see me alright.

"I'm sorry." I apologized, he shook his head putting his hands on my waist.

"Don't apologized, pet. If I wasn't so hot-headed you wouldn't have run off in the first place." My hand palm was against his cheek as my thumb caressed his cheek.

"No, you had every right to be mad I should have told you about her visiting me, I knew it was wrong keeping it from you. She got to me." I whispered the last bit.

"Is she still getting to you." He asked, I shook my head.

"No not anymore." I smiled up at him, he smiled back.

"Let's go home. It starting to smell like cow shit, i dont know how these rich pricks could live out here." I laughed as alfie pulled me to his side before I climbed in through the driver's seat.

"I don't know, Alf. I think the country side is a great place to raised a family of six and counting." I grinned looking over at him.

"...let the one brewing in ya stomach grow first before we start thinking about moving, ya."

Peaky Blinders production knew what they're doing XD

this is literally the hottest thing i’ve ever seen in my entire life. i am just sitting here watching it over and over and over and over again… ITS TOO MUCH FOR MY BRAIN TO HANDLE.

Oh lawd... He knows what his doing... I bet you he does :0

New - Wake up Girls and Guys !!

Little You-s and I-s

Thomas Shelby x Reader

Summary: You and Tommy deal with the changes that come with your pregnancy.

Your pregnancy changed you a lot.

You became more sensitive to smell for example.

One evening, Thomas arrived home from the bar, and as soon as you caught the smell of drinks and smoke on him, you rushed to the bathroom.

Then there was the incident when you craved fish but before you could cook it, the smell of it caught your nose and again, rushing for the toilet you went.

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Soooo uhmm hiii I don't usually know how request works but I'm gonna give it a try because you write freaking good stories! Can I request a Shelby!Sister fic where in she and her family used to be really close (she was the closest to Tommy 🥺) then everything changed after the war and they barely have time to spend with her because the business was booming and everything and she had to raise Finn on her own too. Then she turned 18 and she was finally allowed to work in the business and she was happy but then money goes missing, they accused her of stealing it (bcoz like her job was writing down all the money that enters like she records it) she got fed up, told her everything (her problems, the neglect she experienced etc. ) she realized that she deserved better than this after all all she did was lookout for her family when everything was going downhill. She was always there for them but they where never there for her. So she left home. Started working 24/7. Finding jobs, getting an education, and making a name for herself. Moving to London and then to the US. Then many years later she's successful. She became a doctor, she has business all around the world. And when she can, she helps people in need. Then she meets her brothers (and family members) again. DUN DUN DUNNNN realizations where made. hehe the rest is up to you, you can change whatever you want hehehe. If ever you decide to do this request for me I just want you to know that that will make me incredibly happy. This scenario has been stuck in my head for monthsss its just that I suck at writing things (clearly, from the way this request is written) anyways, thank you so muchhhh! And I love your stories very much! I always come back and reread them! I can't get eough of it 😫 I hope you have a good day! :))))

Word count: 9079 - AH!

Okay first of all I'm sorry this took forever. I've literally been working on this for like three weeks. No matter what I do I just keep wanting to add things or fix them... Honestly I have other parts planned out that didn't make in. I'm a hot mess for this idea. I changed some stuff... Also I added in a romance and I'm sorry not sorry. Really hope you enjoy this and thank you for sharing it with me. If you all enjoy let me know and I might post some extra bits I have planned for it.

XOXO

Warnings: heart break, depression, anxiety, peaky related stuff, kissing, flirting. Happy ending because I'm not capable of hurting the Shelby fam. If you want to spoil the romance - its in the tags!

Being a Shelby meant very little growing up. It was a name that was often cursed for the criminal actions of your father. As a little girl you remember looking up at the loud man, watching him sway around the house temper flaring. Adults approaching you on the streets uttering death threats for you to pass along to the men of your house. But almost every memory you had of your parents or other people also included the back of Tommy’s leg. He was always standing in front of you and it never took long for him to scoop you up into his arms and carry you away.

Tommy was always more of a parent to you when you were young, he didn't play dolls with you like Ada, but he always took the time to try and teach you how to think. Eventually you were old enough for it to become more brotherly. By that time your mother was dead and your father had disappeared. Polly took hold of the family and you followed in suit, raising Finn and John’s kids.

You thought that you owed it to the family to look after the children as Tommy had taken so much time over the years to help you. So you managed your school work, cleaning, and all the children. You told yourself that you were just as important as the rest of the family, this was just your job right now.

The war hit and things fell on your shoulders more than ever. Wasn't long before you had to watch your brothers leave. You’d been Polly’s right hand man after that. The Children were old enough to be in school and out in the streets with the other kids. It caused a bit of tension between you and Ada but it was never spoken about so you let it go.

The things you had to do to pull the family through, you would never speak of again. You wrote letters about how lucky the family had been, but only you and Polly knew the extent to how badly things were. No point in worrying the boys with things they couldn't change.

All three boys came back. You weren't naïve, you didn't think they would be the same as they were, hell you were only a small fraction of the girl you were before they left. But nothing prepared you for what it would be like.

They tried their best to settle in. Tommy was not your loving big brother anymore, he fought against Polly and all the changes we had to make while they were away. She tried to protect you claiming she’d done most of it herself.

No use in telling him that it had been you, burying bodies, up to your eyebrows in illegal trades. But the Shelby name was cursed by all, and the rumors caught up with him eventually. People always underestimate the capabilities of women, how the Shelby family pulled through got placed on your willingness to whore yourself out. Which you would always be grateful for, was not the case.

Tommy outright refused to look at you in the eyes after that. He was cold, he drank too much, and he didn't have an ounce of gratitude for what you’d done.

No one did.

But you continued on, reduced to a bookkeeping position. You worked in the corner, got spoken over in family meetings. The only thing that proved it was happening was the occasional sympathetic glance from Polly. It hurt like hell, but you’d been through worse. At least the money was coming in…

Until it was gone. The shop was broken into, and despite John being the last person in. The last person to lock up. He’d sold you down the river claiming you’d been there when he left and that’s why the door wasn’t locked.

Thomas started in on you, screaming his head off about what you’d done and what you’d been rumored to do. Tears welled up in your eyes as your heart raced, watched as everyone stood there and let it happen. Death would have been a kindness as opposed to standing there watching someone who used to be your sole protector tear into you with a viciousness reserved for the enemy. He screamed about how hard he was working to pull the family out of this life of poverty, as if he hadn't come home to destroy all the work you’d done. Then it finally snapped, whatever strings that had tied you to this family were not as strong as you believed they were. You were as good as the enemy to them, it just took you too long to realize it.

With him standing inches from your face shouting, those blue eyes looking at you wide with disgust. You took a big breath in, curling your slender fingers into a small fist. He paused for a moment, giving you the opening you needed to get on with the rest of your life.

“If anyone knows a thing about working hard, and being underappreciated it’s me. But because I'm such a kind woman, I’ll do you all the favor of a lifetime.” You turned and walked out of there with your head held high. No one followed you out but you heard them shouting at him to go make it right between the two of you.

You didn't have many things to pack, within fifteen minutes you were back to your gypsy roots. The rain falling on you as tears stained your cheeks.

This was the worst day of your life. As you got on the train to London with nothing more than a bag and a shattered heart, you had no idea that your life was just beginning.

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You watched as you transformed into many things in this time of darkness. You were finally separate from the thing that had defined you your entire life. What were you without it? Being raised and drowned in that life how could you have possibly grown something separate in the depths of your soul? How could you be anything different than the poor gypsy choices that have plagued your family for generations. It was their blood, their bone, their skin, the hum of your bloody heart was more theirs than it would ever be yours.

Surely that's how it worked. And yet you kicked and bled to escape that sentence, working three times harder than the people who frequented your new life. You were determined to rise up above this, find something in the darkness of your soul that had the strength to persevere past your heritage and the consuming bleak world around you.

If you were put here, now, of all the things you could have been, there must have been a reason. Perhaps that was just another feature to the grayness that enveloped you in this world, maybe there was no purpose. Maybe you should just become hardened, fade to nothingness, enjoying the bitter-sweet taste of irrelevance and all the freedom it offers…

Or you could make something better. You’d accepted, after many nights sick from drink, that you were going to die now, tomorrow, and everyday until it actually happened. When the final blow would land would always be a delicious mystery a step ahead of you. So naturally you might as well do something with the time you had, and figure out what's on the other side of death's door when it opened to you.

At least you would be leaving your name on something separate from the savagery of this place. Something divine and entirely your own.

London was where you’d made peace with yourself and the spirits that stood behind you. London was where your bones became strong enough to be your own.

America was when you started to heal. After years of hard work you graduated top of your class, you were a doctor, often one spoken about in very high regard. Your heart broke over the man you left behind, but it was something that had to be done….

You had a top floor apartment where you could look over the ocean that stood as a barrier between you and your old life. Often storming as if to show you that there was no way back.

It was a place that made you feel safe. You became a name known to the rich and poor alike, meaning you went where you wanted to and no one said anything about the large dog that stayed at your side.

Everyday you saw the strength of ordinary people and it renewed your faith every breath you took. When you’d see a woman's life improve over your education, or a child recover, a man cry over his newborn, you knew you’d made the right choice in London. The mark you were making would make up for the wrongs committed by your hands and blood.

Things were chaotic and stressful in the most peaceful way possible. Your mind was your own and your heart was shared with many. You’d made friends with some of the women you worked with, bonds you were grateful for as they made you laugh, and their mothers held you tight when they had you over for dinners.

Your dog, Aminta stayed close to your side which proved very useful wandering the city at all hours for house calls. She kept you sane and often barked at you when you drank too much.

Things were going better than you thought possible for yourself.

You just finished helping with a particular tricky birth and laid down on one of the sofas in the women's change room. Light streamed through the windows and you wondered how it could possibly still be day time. The space was very cozy after you’d had your way with it, it was a change room with lockers but you’d moved some furniture in so it looked more like a living room. Aminta lumbered over and sat with her head placed on your stomach. You closed your eyes, having missed her presence in the treatment room.

“There you are! How did it turn out then?” Betty called out walking through the door. You watched as she looked herself over in the mirror.

“Successful.” You murmured.

“Calm down woman! You only saved two people this morning. Try to contain your excitement!” she teased, causing you to smile.

“I am so tired, and I can't feel my feet, I can't feel anything”

“Join the club. At least your shift is over darilin’ oh by the way there was a phone call for you. Some man with the name Shelby.” She said, giving you a strange look. She often found your lack of love life something that needed to be sorted, but eventually she adopted the theory that perhaps something awful had happened to you and it was better to let you find your own way.

“What?!” You shot up sending Aminta into high alert. “What was the name??” You shuddered thinking that perhaps all that storming sea wasn't enough to keep yourself safe after all.

“Thomas? Look if this is the one you're running from. Go straight to my parents place and I’ll take Tod to your place after to grab some of your things. I’ll call my momma -” Your head started to spin and you watched her worry over you.

“No no, I’ll call him. He’s my brother. I can take the call. Maybe that will be enough…” Your heart ached at her willingness to help you. “If things don’t go well I’ll let you know.”

She came closer to you and a waft of perfume hit you. She slipped you the piece of paper with a phone number written in her loopy writing.

“Call him right now in front of me so I can get things sorted before my shift.” She pointed to the phone and you were shocked enough to do it.

“Maybe just give me some space?” You asked in a small voice she nodded and stepped out into the hallway.

“Shelby.” Polly’s voice called out over the line and your stomach dropped.

“Thomas called me at my place of work?” You started coldly. You heard a sharp intake of breath on the other end of the line.

“Darling is that you?” Her voice shook in a way that brought years of pain flooding into your mind.

“Yes” You said as naturally as you could.

“That's her, hand it over.” You hear his voice in the background. There was a sound of fabric rustling.

“NO I wont have you take her away again Thomas!” You heard her snap at him, this was a mistake you thought heavily. Aminta let out a wine, pushing her face into your leg. You sat down and took a deep breath.

“Family needs you, we are moving to do some business in London. Our contact won't meet with us unless you're present.”

“You want me to come all the way across the ocean. For a meeting in a world I moved passed? Nice try.” You said slightly amused. You loved how unbothered your voice sounded.

“I will make it worth your time, I’ll pay for the trip, pay you a hefty amount, as well as making a considerate donation to your Women’s fund of $20,000 pounds.”

This was how he was going to do it. The bastard. You could do a lot of good for people with that donation. Fucking bastard. You knew who they were meeting. You knew why that man wanted you there. You groaned internally, at the raise in your heart rate.

“Put it in writing and I’ll sign it when I arrive.”

“Deal. You have a place on a ship leaving tomorrow at six am.”

“Tomorrow is no good. I have a meeting that morning. I’ll leave Monday after my affairs are in order.”

In case I don't make it back.

He sighed and swore softly.

“I’ll make that work.”

“I’ll see you then I guess.”

“Thank you.” His voice sounded hesitant, like the words were new to him. He cleared his throat. “For taking the call and coming back. Be safe on the way over, alright. Last I recalled you swam like a stone.”

“Lot’s has changed since then.” You responded shortly.

“I look forward to hearing about it.”

“Good bye”

“Take care” His voice rang out in your mind for a long while after the line went dead. Betty poked her head in and saw you frozen in place. She took the phone from your hand and placed it back on the hook. You realized that Aminta had gone to get her.

“Sorry. I’m okay.” You took a deep breath trying to calm the dog down. “My family needs me to come home.”

“For how long?”

“I’m not sure. But I told them I would go on Monday.”

“Well there are a few good things about that. There were some rich callers from London that requested you to help with an experimental surgery. Meaning you can do it while you're gone. Marie can take our caseload and give it to the newbies. Tod should be able to help out momma while I’m gone, lord knows he should be doing more already. It’s gonna be a good experience for them. Show ‘em what they're missing.” She prattled on for a while about how Marie will be good at looking over everything, before it clicked that she was going with you.

“Betty. No. You are not going my family are- It’s complicated - they - it’s messy and -”

“They are British gangsters, It will be dangerous, they could hurt you - Am I missin’ anything darlin?”

“HOW ON EARTH DO YOU KNOW THAT?” You hissed.

“One time when we were drunk you accidentally introduced yourself with the wrong last name and I looked into it. I figured the story fit.” She waved her hands around you.

“And you just-”

“Kept it a secret.” She nodded. “ I decided to keep being your friend, and that’s not changed.” Betty gave you a small smile.

“Good lord.” You murmured.

“I gotta tell momma! I'll tell the boss we are taking the job in London, then we need to go shopping!!!!” She was trying to make you feel better, something you appreciated but it didn't reach your heart the way it should.

“Look if you come with me I can't guarantee that we will make it back. Things are dangerous over there. This kinda stuff can stick with you for the rest of your life.”

“I’ve been looking out for you since you started here at this hospital and I’m not stopping now.” She answered in a serious tone.

“Well then don't worry about shopping, nothing here compares to the shops there. Save your money for when we get there.” You watched her do a little happy dance. You can’t imagine what the contrast between her and your family was going to feel like.

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The journey was surprisingly fun. Thomas adjusted things to add Betty and Aminta on to your trip. It was ritzy and expensive, you spent most of it half cut with her partying and gambling. In the evenings she stayed up as you described your family members and some of the backstory.

You were happy that she was happy. She’d never left the city she was born in, her family were good people and from very poor beginnings. All of them had worked very hard to be where they were now. You weren't certain what this journey would bring, but you felt you owed her this fun as she was the main source of brightness in your life.

You arrived at the station after trying to make it look like you hadn't spent the whole journey drunk. You thought you both looked polished, and you were shocked by the greeting party.

The whole family was there outside the doors looking for you. Fin was taller than you, Aunt Polly looked like she’d been crying. Two new women were there, Arthur and John looked nervous. And Tommy looked like himself. Unimpressed and tired.

“Is that them?” Betty whispered. To you they looked like a family that had hurt you to the point of near death, to her she probably saw the sparkling cars, the expensive clothing, the way other people gave them space and looks of envy.

“That’s them.” You took her arm and walked out of the place. You watched as they took you in and then shifted to Betty on your arm. Polly moved away from them and quickly took you into her arms. You allowed her to hold you tightly. She whispered words of longing in your ear, and you hated yourself for it but you melted into her touch. She was the only mother you remembered and that was a challenging thing to turn away from. You watched as Betty took your example of a greeting and awkwardly hugged everyone. John looked like he was ready to be his usual self but you saw Tommy’s cold eyes land on him and watched the humor disappear.

Fin was the next person to give you a hug, there was a lot of emotion in his eyes and you realized that this trip was going to be a lot more difficult than you realized. Aminta stayed close to your side taking everyone in.

You were introduced to John’s wife Esme, then you shook Grace’s hand, deciding that you’d met corpses that were warmer. Seemed fitting she’d be with Thomas.

“Missed you kiddo” John said quietly, pulling you into an awkward hug. You started to struggle with keeping yourself neutral. The look on Arthur's face was what almost broke you. He held your small frame tightly, and let out a soft howl.

“Arthur, it’s alright. She’ll be around all week.” Tommy said, patting his shoulder.

“Bold of you to assume that,'' Betty said in an unusual tone for her sunny personality. “We’ve got a surgery to perform and lots of meetings to attend while here.” You were floored by the way she went up against him. But she didn't back down against him, she wanted to make a statement about you that said Successful without you.

He looked at her from under his hat, you watched as Esme seemed particularly amused. Tommy only turned and pulled you into a hug.

“Looks like you’ve done well for yourself! That’s our girl.” His words hit you hard and you were grateful that it ended the reunion. You were shuffled into a car and boys put your suitcases in the boot.

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Your bones adjusted to the soft mattress under you. Tears started to spill and you were grateful that you had a separate room from Betty.

Memories from your childhood flooded your mind and soon you were struggling to breathe. Finally your mind slid down to the place you were avoiding.

The man that caused all this meeting nonsense. You’d ended on good terms, you had two options at the time: Move to America for the job opportunity of a lifetime - or - Stay and die in a gang conflict.

Memories of his hands cradling your face, the way his breath tasted the last time he placed a soft kiss to your lips. How he held you there with his forehead pressed to yours. Whispered promises in a language you didn't speak, and yet the words were painfully etched into the layers of your heart.

He sent you away with a fury that still burned you.

Now you were back, your family pretending to miss you, and you would have to sit in a meeting with everyone.

The mess of emotions threatened to choke you further. You didn't care about Thomas or his plans or the family business, that’s not why you agreed to any of this.

You came back because it was an excuse to see him again.

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You woke up to the phone ringing loudly. Your mouth was dry and you could barely open your eyes. You grabbed the phone hating how cold it felt in your fingers.

“What?” You grumbled.

“Are you available today?” Tommy’s voice called through the receiver sounding like a megaphone pressed to your ear. You sighed in annoyance.

“For what?” You tried to think of what day it was.

“I was hoping to spend the day with you” You couldn't tell anything from the tone of his voice, which irritated you further.

“Just us?” You asked.

“Yes, Polly wants to see you in the evening if you have the time.”

There was a shift in your body, you knew deep down that you couldn't put this off any longer. You were supposed to talk with Thomas. Something needed to be said. The more logical part of your brain reminded you that the only options for the day was to go shopping or wallow over a broken heart that should be forgotten.

“Okay. I have all day so that should be fine.” You answered quietly.

“I’ll come by and pick you up in a half hour.”

The phone went dead and the possibilities started to pile up in your mind. Was this going to be some kind of business nonsense?

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You watched as the green countryside flew past you, the cab filled with cigarette smoke and a heavy silence.

Tommy had dragged you out to the countryside to take you on a picnic. You rode horses the rest of the way in, stopping at a clearing he frequented often, you watched him climb off his horse and lay a blanket out on the grass. Aminta wandered around, happy to be out of the city for once.

He’d brought you treats that you used to like when you were a kid. Guilt pooled in his eyes as he watched you snack on a sandwich.

“Suppose we have some business to discuss” He said while chewing on a mint leaf. The last thing you wanted was to discuss business but you gave him a small nod anyways.

“I didn’t like how things ended.” His words hit you like a truck. He paused for a moment trying to find his words. “ I tried to find you afterwards but you were gone. If you were that well hidden I eventually decided to let it go. You knew where to find us - and then this came up and - I - had to call Winston Churchill and ask a favor before I finally found ya.” He closed his eyes. “Things that were said about you weren't true. Even if they were true it shouldn't have mattered. I just gave so much, lost so much and to come home and see that you’d given every bit of yourself away.” His jaw clenched.

You gave him a few moments, shock coursing through you. How the hell were you supposed to do this?

“When I came home to see everything, it just made everything I did worthless. I did all of that for you lot, coming home to see you, I couldn’t handle it. I wanted things to be legal and they were further from it than imaginable. I’m still trying to get us out, but out of everyone, I didn't want your hands dirty.”

“Why not?” You asked, mind still spinning.

“Because you were the one that was going to make it. You wanted to go to school, you had the marks, you had the brains. You had enough inside you to pull yourself out of this place the right way. I wanted to do it for you, I was working on it and figured I had the time to sort everything out with you.``

“I don’t know what to say” You mumbled as tears started to sting your eyes.

“You don’t have to say anything. Since you left Polly has been harder than ever. Finn tolerates me, just barely. When we couldn't find you John tried to jump into the cut, like mum. Arthur, he’s not well. I don't know how much further he has in him.” He ran his hands over his face. “You don’t ever have to forgive me, don’t have to be around me. Just please try to see the others. If you can’t forgive John then don’t but please speak to Ada, Polly, Arthur, and especially Finn.” His voice was pleading and you wanted more than anything to hold him. He looked pale, too pale, running around with a family that hated him.

You scooted over to him and rested your head on his shoulder. He flinched and quickly pulled you into a side hug, holding you awkwardly. You felt him place a kiss on top of your head.

Something inside you felt as if it had fallen back into place.

“Can I ask you some questions?” He asked.

“Sure” You murmured as he let you go. You placed your head back on his shoulder enjoying the sun hitting your face.

“How do you know my contact in London?”

“Takes alot for a girl to get through medical school. Betty is the only woman I know with the same credentials as me. World of hell she had to go through to get there. I needed a few things when I got to London and I only had a specific skill set to get them. He helped me out and I helped him back.”

“That’s all then? Old business partner?” You coughed awkwardly, damn him. You spent years hating him and yet much like when you were little you still couldn't lie to him. Your face always got hot and your words became jumbled. You could lie to the whole world, even to yourself sometimes, but never to Polly and Tommy.

“Why do you ask?”

“He seemed eager to see you.” Tommy answered hesitantly.

“I wanted one life, he lives another. Unfortunately they don't mix.” The words were strangled and you desperately wanted to leave the topic there. Tommy seemed relieved.

“Good. I don’t want him anywhere near you. Don’t trust him” He said sternly and you rolled your eyes.

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Polly was all over you that evening and you agreed to stay over with her as you were too tired to go back to the hotel. You called Betty, she was happy your day trip was pleasant, and was planning on going out dancing with some girls she met at the salon.

You enjoyed the conversations you’d had, the whole family wanted to know about school and what you did for a living. Stories about how you and Betty became friends, how you got Aminta. Once things settled down you watched more closely as Polly fussed over you. You could see in her eyes that this is where she wanted you. Home where she could hold your hand, laugh at your stupid jokes. Finally it was just the two of you.

“What about this man in London?” She asked, sipping on her whiskey. You gazed into the fire and thought about what to say. “Ah that’s why he wants to see you then?” She nodded, answering her own question. “You're the one that got away.”

“I guess so.”

“Did he hurt you? I don’t care what the consequences are. I wont have you around him if he hurt you.” You could feel the anger rising out of her.

“No, he sent me to America to build the life I wanted. Things in London were getting complicated in his line of work. For my safety he sent me away.”

“Now he wants you back?” She sighed.

“I doubt it. But I’ll shortly find out what he wants. Tommy will get his way and all will be settled.”

“I know you have a heavy caseload back home, but could I talk you into staying a while longer?” Her eyes were watery and you could just barely stand to look into them. “I promise that I looked for you love. I prayed, I tried -” Her voice cut off and you held onto her tightly. “I promise I made him pay for what he did. Both him and John.” She choked out and you knew that doing that would have hurt her just the same.

“I know. I just had to look after myself and- “

“Shhhhh - no - don't you ever apologize for anything you’ve done.” Her voice was sharp and you didn't have it in you to argue.

The morning passed as you slept off the whiskey. The surgery was in the evening and you’d gotten ready to head back when you found Polly fully dressed in a posh suit sitting in the kitchen.

“Alright I know I’m probably not allowed to watch, but I’d like to go with you.” She said hopefully. You froze, unsure of what to say.

“Alright, yeah, just gotta go back to the room to get ready then head over.” She responded with a big smile.

Polly went through your clothes watching you pick an outfit for the day. Asking you questions about where you got certain pieces and how you normally dressed at work. Once you were washed and dressed she handed you a plate of food.

“I called room service, they had your favorite. Plus I have sandwiches and some fruit for your lunch break.”

You smiled as you took the plate from her. She was trying so hard to look after you, show you that if you stayed she would be good to you despite the fact that you were a grown woman now.

“Now come sit on the floor, how do you have to have your hair pinned for such things?”

You sat on the floor as she combed out your hair. A deep sense of rest caressed your body. This was the most comfortable you’d felt in ages. You felt love, love from a mother. Who wanted you to eat a full breakfast, who took pride in taming your wild hair, in her eyes she was sending you into some kind of battle. You knew Polly had a very limited understanding of what you were doing, but officially today you were making history and that was something she understood very well.

Betty came through and was taken back by the situation. You were never relaxed like this, ever. You heard Polly sniffle and right herself before going back to twisting your hair up.

“Morning Mrs. Gray”

“Morning darling.” Polly answered easily.

“There you are, love. Can’t believe how long your hair is.” She gave you a firm pat on the shoulder and reached into her hand bag.

“This was my mothers, it’s for luck. You can tuck it under your top.” Polly carefully pulled the necklace over your head and dropped the pendant down your neckline.

“Thank you.” All of this was so strange and yet so familiar at the same time. You felt powerful with her behind you. The coolness of the necklace against your skin felt like long lost love that spanned back even further than Polly’s mother.

“Don’t mention it, love.”

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The surgery was a success, you changed in the lockers with Betty feeling like you’d climbed to the top of a mountain. It would take about a week to see how things settled and you were informed you would need to stay for at least another two weeks.

Betty was even more pleased with that news.

“Miss! Your family is waiting in the lobby for you.” A nurse called out as you moved down the hall.

You and Betty were met with loud cheers as you rounded the corner.

In a hospital, in the dead of night, by your wild gangster family. You had half a mind to shoot them, but your heart swelled at their pride.

They embraced you and Betty into large hugs. You looked at Polly and realized she’d sat on the same bench the whole time you were in there.

“Did you stay for the whole thing?!” You asked, watching her face flush.

“I wasn't sure how long it would be, or if you would need anything.” She said quietly, and you remembered the sandwiches she’d brought.

“I’m absolutely starving.” You answered by giving her a big hug. You caught Betty’s eye and she smiled knowing full well that you never ate after a surgery. Your nerves were always too wired up, anything you ate you would just puke up.

“Good, good, Tommy has something planned at his place but I have some snacks for the ride over” She pulled you both into the back of a car, before you could process her words.

Something planned. You groaned, you were so tired, the thought of doing anything seemed impossible. But you watched as John and Arthur yelled into the streets about how their baby sister made history.

“Betty? You feel up for this?” You asked and saw her flushed face and lopsided smile.

“Your family is crazy!.” She said lightly, causing Polly to stiffen in the seat next to you. “Darlin’ I wouldn't miss this for the whole world!”

The two of you ate and Betty thanked and complemented Polly on the simple sandwich. To you it felt like a gold bar. Arthur got in the front and the rest of the family piled into separate cars.

“Here you are, love. Gotta catch up to us.” He passed you an amber bottle from the passenger seat. You took a long drink and passed it off to Betty whose face pulled into a hilarious pucker.

Tommy tore down the road, taking you all to his big fancy house he’d mentioned.

The night passed on in drunken dancing and laughter. This was a part of the family you’d never really seen before.

Eventually Arthur stumbled over insisting on talking to you outside. You followed him through to a balcony and John was there. You had an uneasy feeling in your stomach.

“There you are.” John said. “Look, I've been trying to apologize to you for years. I pray, every fook’in morning that you’d come home and let me. I thought Tommy wouldn't get that mad if you’d done it. He’d got a soft spot for ya. I can’t tell you how sorry I am, about you and the family” He shook his head.

“Now you don't have to forgive him! You don’t” Arthur slurred, pointing a finger at you.

“I do. I forgive you. No more lies though eh?” John's eyes got watery and he pulled you into a rib crushing hug. You looked at Arthur and watched as a weight was lifted from him, you forgave John and Tommy, so now he could too.

“MY BABY SISTER MADE HISTORYYYYY” He shouted out into the sky and you almost toppled over in laughter. Arthur pulled you into a hug after. “Look, I don't care how big or little. I don't want to lose you again. If anyone does anything you come to me. I will fix it for ya, love. I’m your big brother and I’ll fix it next time.” He whispered.

“I promise.” You whispered back and felt his tears land in your hair.

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You woke up to light streaming through an unfamiliar room. Betty snoring softly next to you. You smiled to yourself as you looked at her smudged makeup.

Your guts were turning, head pounding, limbs shaking, but you felt that you could have both these lives and be just fine.

Maybe you could also help Tommy make things legal? You pushed the thought out of your mind knowing it was too soon to put yourself and career in that much danger.

You rolled out of bed and padded down the stairs knowing that Tommy should be up by now. Going past his office you heard his wife’s accent drifting under the door. You brushed off her harsh words about the family and made a note to get on Tommy’s case about it later. With your head pounding and multiple meetings with reporters planned that evening all you wanted was some breakfast and coffee.

You pushed open the heavy door to the kitchen and found Finn sitting over some breakfast. He looked up at you with a soft smile. Taking in his appearance properly, you remembered the last time you saw him. He was breast level, big wide eyes, chubby face, and now he was taller than you, angular face, broad shoulders. Seeing him was almost the hardest part, he must have felt just as abandoned by you as you had your family. Suddenly you felt sick for other reasons, the pain of the hangover fading.

“Can we talk about all this?” You asked softly.

“‘Course” You moved to sit next to him.

“I’m sorry that I left you behind.” You got right to the chase, you wanted this fixed. You wanted him to know that none of this was his fault.

“Wasn’t your fault.” He looked out the window and clenched his jaw.

“Yeah, but it wasn't your fault either. I thought about you often. I figured Pol would make sure you were alright. I feel selfish. I want, I need you to know that this wasn’t your fault.” You stumbled, not realizing how much pain was reserved in your chest for the boy.

“I think Mum would still be alive if I wasn't born. I think you would have stayed in the family too.” Tears started to well up and your heart was breaking all over again. Such heavy thoughts carried by such a wonderful boy.

“Tommy and Polly raised me, she was still a person but by the time I was little but she couldn't be a mother. When you came around it was time for me to step up. Should it have been that way? No, but it was mum and da’s fault. Not ours and not Tommy’s. Him and I have made our peace. I know why he did what he did and he knows my side of things now.” You watched him take in your words and eventually he nodded. “You are a gift, and I should have taken my role in your life more seriously. If you give me a chance I’d like to work on it.” You didn't know what you were saying. You would be gone back to your life in America shortly. You internally scolded yourself for opening up more wounds than you could sew back up.

“I’d like that a lot.” He answered stiffly and you pulled him into a big hug. His body eventually relaxed against yours and he took a deep breath. More shifts and changes were felt in your bones.

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Reporters, surgeries, family reunions, apologies, shopping, sightseeing, partying….. It was a lot. And now it was coming to an end.

You couldn't stay any longer. The meeting was lined up for that evening and the ship home was booked for tomorrow morning. Betty had become quite taken with a friend of Ada’s, and was dreading the trip home.

What else were you supposed to do? Give up everything you worked for? Transfer to a hospital in London?

All these thoughts swirled in your head as you got ready. You didn't want to face him, but you didn't really have a choice. You picked out a black dress that hugged your figure. It was far more fancy than you would normally wear but looking your best felt like an additional level of protection. Polly’s mother’s pendant was still heavy around your neck, you kept hoping she wouldn't notice you had it so it could stay with you through the meeting.

The car ride was long and Tommy insisted you go with him, leaving Arthur and John trailing behind.

“I didn’t agree to let him have you alone. I know he’ll ask but don't respond. I’ll handle it.” He took a long drag of his cigarette. “Just stay next to me, I won’t let anything happen to you, watch your mouth.” You smirked. “Don’t let your temper get the best of you.”

“It’s not my temper I’m worried about” You answered, stealing a cigarette out of his silver case resting between the two of you.

“Well don't worry about that either. No way I’ll let it happen”

“And if I want to see him alone?” You raised an eyebrow taking in his cold appearance.

“I’ll allow you 15 minutes, then I burn the place down.” He responded coldly. We’ll see about that. You thought to yourself, slightly amused. It was if he had 10 years of being your big brother to make up for, so he was squashing it all into one car ride. He was annoyed at your uncharacteristically lax attitude about the situation, but no matter how many thoughts raced through your mind about how this could end, your body had fully checked out.

You pulled up to the familiar house. The sea air bit at your skin and caressed your lungs. Your body felt so at ease you worried it would simply blow away, half of you wished it would. Your brothers looked around, stretching and scanning the place.

You didn’t make it up to the door before the dogs tore around the side of the house. Tommy put his arm out in front of you, stepping close. You instinctively crouched down and let the dogs crowd you. Three of them you remembered fondly, they were rubbing up against you whining. The others were new but followed along, happily assessing the newcomers.

“There she is! You rotten beasts!” His voice boomed out and everything inside you gave away. This was a tense business meeting, life or death rested on some of the decisions that were to be made, and yet he strode over towards you and every bit of logic evaporated.

“Where’s my grand welcome then?” You said cheekily and before you could catch Tommy’s glare of warning, you were squealing as he picked you up. He crushed you against his chest, your feet dangling off the ground.

“This grand enough eh?” He twirled you around. How had you gone so long pushing this down? Pretending it hadn't existed. Your body was humming and the world slipped away.

“I’ve had better.” You let out a laugh as he smacked your ass.

“You have not.” He growled quietly in your neck.

“That’s enough.” Tommy said sternly. Your face flushed as you looked at John’s crooked smile and Arthur clearing his throat fists clenched. You were going to need more than 15 minutes, you were going to need more than a lifetime.

“Alright let’s get down to it.” He declared placing you gently on your feet. You tried to steady yourself which proved to be useless as he had no intention of letting you go. His arm wrapped around your waist tightly and he turned towards the house.

You’d spent many weekends away here. You passed rooms that had only gotten more cluttered, your boots clicked against the wooden and tiled floors and you ached for days when you would run through the halls bare foot.

He took you all into the sitting room and there was tea already prepared on the table. Business was tense, not just because of the mess Tommy was involved in, but more so due to the fact that Alfie rarely took his eyes off of you.

“I’ll agree to whatever ‘slong as she thinks it’s a good idea.” He declared lazily making your stomach ache.

“She won’t be involved so I wouldn't recommend that.” Tommy said sharply.

“We’ll see about that” Alfie responded cockily. Arthur slammed his hand down on the table.

“Like hell you will” Arthur boomed.

“Arthur!” Tommy snapped. “That’s enough”

“It’s fine, I’ll vouch for him.’ You responded fully placing your trust in your family. Alfie looked into your eyes and found the answer he was looking for.

“When do you leave then?”

“Tomorrow.” Your voice betrayed you slightly, more than what was acceptable.

“Stay the night then?”

“Absolutely not.” Tommy answered. You wanted to, but the thought of standing Polly up on the dinner she prepared herself was not something you could do. He shook off Tommy’s words reading your face.

“Fine. Let me drive you back.” He finally countered.

“Deal” You responded quickly. Tommy let out an annoyed breath.

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After hammering out a few of the smaller details, you were being guided into the the back of a car. The dogs howled as you got in and tears spilled down your cheeks. If you couldn't say goodbye to a pack of dogs, how on earth were you going to say goodbye to your family tomorrow?

Tense words were passed between Arthur and Alfie before he climbed in to sit next to you.

His driver got in and Alfie closed the curtain separating the front and the back of the car.

“Now, my love - you got someone waiting on ya back home then?” You watched his large hand find your knee and studied the new scars on it.

You couldn't speak so you just shook your head.

“Come ‘ere then.” He growled, pulling you up onto his lap. You let him manhandle you as you completely let go. It was a mess of kissing, crying, caressing, and heat.

______

“Now that he have that settled. How do I make you stay?” He whispered, eyes boring into yours.

“I don’t know, is it safe?” You wanted him to say no. That this was a horrible idea and you should go back to your apartment, hide yourself away.

“I can’t speak for Thomas, but I can keep you safe. Plus you know how this place is, absolutely filled with the sick and deranged, no doctors. I read that the other day, no bloody doctors. I thought to myself I know a way to fix such things. So when he came knocking for a deal, I thought I could kill two birds with one shoe.”

“Fix the medical staffing crisis in England, which I'm sure doesn't actually exist. And strike up a deal with Thomas.” You asked smiling, missing these stupid conversations that always seemed to make you feel better.

“Well, I’ll admit I mostly just wanted my girl back.”

“So you’d help my brother carve out a spot in London just to have me back?” You teased.

“Love, there isn't anything I wouldn't do to have you back” His hands sunk into the soft flesh of your ass and you were drowning again. You knew that three weeks to come back into this madness that hurt you so badly was a horrible, stupid, awful idea, and yet it was the only you knew that you could live with. He saw the flash in your eyes and his lips were back on yours in a second.

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You’d been crying, holding on to Aminta for hours.

You walked down the dark hallway and pushed open the door to Betty’s room. She was laying on her side looking positively devastated. There was the slightest amount of light pouring in from the window giving her a ghost-like appearance.

“I love him. That stupid Brit. I can’t leave my parents, I can’t make him come home with me.” Her face twisted up and you rushed to her side bursting into tears. You almost thought it funny that you’d both ended up in the same situation.

“I have to stay. Betty - I can't - go back. I know I should - but I can’t” She held onto you and stayed quiet for a long moment.

“We still have a few weeks leave, we could stay and see how things go?” She whispered, finally a bit of logic.

“Let’s just do that. Give it a bit more time. Need to meet this boy, make sure he’s treating you right.” You joked, relief spreading through you. You would need to corner Ada and learn everything you could about this friend of hers.

“Likewise. Will Thomas be upset? the tickets probably cost so much… I don’t want to put you out - I -”

“Tommy will be fine. Don’t worry about it. I’ll go talk to him. Go to sleep, I’ll sort it all out.” You ran a hand through her blond curls.

“Thank you.” She whispered.

You tiptoed through the big house. It was strange and drafty, not at all what you’d pictured for Tommy. You poked your head into his office and found him there pouring over a pile of documents.

“Cold feet.” he stated without looking up. You quickly moved towards him without speaking. He looked up at you in shock as you fell into his lap like you used to when you were small. You started crying, and his hand patted your back like it used to.

“What did he do?” He asked in a deathly calm voice.

“Everything, stupid man, stupid family, Finn - Polly, You, I don't like your wife - I don’t know about Esme yet - The kids, - Finn, Alfie’s dogs. God you hurt me so badly, and after three weeks I’m willing to throw everything away. It’s a risk and I shouldn't - I'm scared - I want to but - ” You stuttered and choked, your heart felt like it was hemorrhaging. You couldn't breathe.

“Won’t be losing anything, you transfer to London. See how things go. He hurts you, I kill him. We won't hurt you. I know that. But if things here aren't what you want then transfer back.” He ran a hand through your hair. “Give me some time, I’ll make it right. Sort everything out, want you here to be a part of it.” He said softly and you took a deep breath.

“I think that’s what I’ll do. We still have another three weeks we could use up, we are going to telephone tomorrow and see if we could stay. See how that goes, I have a feeling I'll transfer anyway.”

“Good. I want you here. We all do.” You melted at his words. He sent you up to bed with a kiss on your forehead. Polly had stayed over as well and you felt the need to tell her immediately. You knocked on her door softly, then poked your head in. She was stirring.

“What is it, are you alright?! What’s wrong?” She hissed about to get up.

“Nothing, nothing. Just wanted to talk.”

She let out a loud sigh.

“Come here, love.” She said groggily pulling the covers up and shifting over. You climbed into her bed, wondering how you’d unraveled back into a small child.

“Now tell me what’s got you worked up, love.” She asked once you were settled.

“I’m staying for another three weeks. But I want to put the papers through to transfer this week. Tommy says he’ll help me sort it all out.”

There was a moment of silence where you thought she’d fallen back asleep. But her arms crashed around you pulling you against her slender frame. You felt her cry and you cried too. She cradled you in her arms and you drifted to sleep surrounded in her love.

_______

The next day you and Betty got your lives sorted, she was going away to stay with Teddy for a few days. Tommy insisted on having his full name, parent’s names, addresses, and phone numbers. She was clearly important to you, making her an extension of you that Tommy was determined to watch over.

As for Alfie he had little patience. You insisted on driving yourself over to his house to talk things over with him, much to Tommy’s annoyance.

“Just let me take you. I’ll wait in the car.”

“Tommy! No!” You started on him tired of the argument. You snatched a piece of toast off the kitchen counter.

“Let the driver take you, alright - Someone needs to go with you. Take fucking Francis, anyone”

“Me and Aminta have been just fine on our own thank you big brother. I’ll ring you when I get there.” You took his keys and kissed his cheek.

_____

You knocked on the front door as Aminta tried to settle in with all the other dogs. The heavy oak swung open.

“Couldn’t stay away?” He picked you up and wasted no time getting the story out of you. He already knew. His mouth was on yours and soon you were a hot mess pressed up against the entryway wall. “Not goin’ to let you get away this time.” He growled.

Somehow you managed to have everything. Yourself, your career, your family, your man, all in messy chaotic harmony. You were home, and you were so very loved.

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nsfw activities with j cody.

about. sex is fun!

warnings. gif not mine, nsfw themes nd shit, a bit rough

put a pin in this. y'all i finally got motivation to write smut(ish) for the first time in like over a year lmfao.. ew

pool sex.

— when the two of you have the house to yourselves, you’ll most likely go skinny dipping for the hell of it and one thing leads to another..

— j had you pressed against the pool wall, your eyes closed tightly, biting the inside of your cheek as j guides his cock into you, pressing kisses along your shoulders before fully thrusting in, earning a sharp breath from the both of you. he grasps both your tits as he shoved into you roughly from behind.

car sex.

— i know this man really only rides a bike in the first few seasons but when he buys his car.. quickies in the front driver seat all the time, and sometimes in the back when he has time for.

— you turn your head to j with as your laugh settles down in your chest, eyes traveling down to his lap where he pats, softly, cuing you to climb over the middle console as you begun to unzip your jean shorts. he grinned a closed mouth smile at you as he begun to unzip his pants, you soon helping him after you’re left in your underwear. his lips were pressed against yours, no longer taking it slow as your underwear was pushed to the side and you slide onto his cock, both of you throwing your heads back.

giving each other head.

— j was leaned against the kitchen counter as he tipped his head back in a soft groan, your tongue slowly swirling around his tip before you fully ring your mouth around his cock, bobbing your head up and down as his hand wraps around your hair.

— “you’re so fucking hot,” j shakes his head before licking a strip of your pussy, already making your stomach tie up in knots before he leans full in, beginning to lick and suck at your clit while gripping your thighs tightly. your back arched and your head rolled as you wiggled against the tension that begun to fill your stomach.

thigh riding.

— j has relatively thick thighs that provide a rather intense amount of pleasure.. something that you hadn’t discovered till he was working and you were rather horny, kissing his neck while running your hands along his chest and shoulders, trying to get him to take a break.

— “if you’re trying to get off, you’re going to have to do it yourself, love,” he rubbed his eyes as he leaned back slightly with a sigh, you pouted before taking a seat on his thigh…

praise kink.

— 100% loves praising you, especially when you’re on top with heavy breathing and low and loud moans. 

— “you feel so good” and “i love it when you’re bouncing on my cock” and “atta girl, you’re doing so good”

choking kink.

— as a representation of his dominance, he chokes you A LOT.

— when eating you out, when you’re bottom, his hand will most likely always be around your throat, lightly squeezing (but never hard enough till you can’t breathe) as he slides himself in and out of you, pounding harder and harder as time increased.

teasing and begging.

— THIS MAN can be an ASSHOLE. he’ll make you beg to cum and even then he’ll only continuously tease you and edge you on with his tongue or just slowly entering in and out, making you frustrated. he’ll leave you high and dry sometimes just because he’s like that (but he never disappoints when he pulled through).

— “i want to hear you beg, sweetheart,” his eyes flicked down to you as he slowly pushed you down to your knees, your eyes going innocent as he licked his lips and caressed your face lightly with his thumb gliding across your cheekbone. “and maybe then i’ll let you cum.”

biting.

— okay this is kinda weird asf but i feel like he would just bite you at random times- and not necessarily hard (unless he’s really getting into it) but just little nibbles to show affection?? and even leave marks?? he does it a lot during foreplay along your neck and even your inner thighs. he also just does it in general.

dominance.

— he’s dominate over you 100% and it stems from being protective of you in general. so, he’s often on top and takes control of where and how the sex goes lmfao uh.. he’s very controlling tbh.

finger sucking.

— at the beginning of your relationship, he was gentle and before you would kiss, he would run his thumb across your lips, slowly toying with your bottom lip before he slowly shoved his thumb into your mouth, making you suck and run your tongue over his thumb.

made for display, part one. thomas shelby x reader

summary: a widely known performer seems to catch the attention of a gang leader who can't seem to get her out of his head

warning/s: swearing, drinking, really bad writing because i don't want to revise my old writing, smoking, harassment, and slight violence

slater’s note: this was originally a wattpad book of mine (just slightly edited) with an original character (kiera knightly as a faceclaim) but y’know, let me post it here 😁😁😐

you love the way people stare at you even when they have no reason to. their eyes could simply be wandering the room and then land on you for no reason and just stick there.

you loved it because it gave you some form of power that no one could seem to place. the attention they fed you reflected off of you and gave you a glowing effect, attracting more eyes. it was a mentality really; no one could be you, no one could beat you, there was no like you.

however, the attention came to be a bit much when it came to certain men, especially men like harvey lucas. a man who made constant passes at you and when rejected; he made other equally indecent men make passes at you.

there was a constant growing of discomfort that would just form in the pit of your stomach each time he came into your vision. you just couldn't avoid him no matter how hard you tried, he always found his way to you.

you made money by playing piano at the hudson; a large ballroom that was open every night, and had you play every saturday. you made good money but you also made good impressions on some of the men that would watch you, making it easy for harvey lucas to find someone to force on you.

you leaned against the copper bar rail with a glass of wine in hand as you observed the men and women that swung along to the music together.

a small smile of amusement formed on your face as you continued to watch until it was suddenly dropped when you saw the eager face of harvey from the corner of your eye; he was looking for someone.

he was looking for you.

you quickly adjusted yourself off the bar railing, setting down the glass half full of thick red wine before pushing yourself into the crowd of dancing people in hopes his eyes wouldn't catch you.

you looked around frantically, looking for someone to hide behind or to just to talk to so you could drown out harvey who was soon to find you. it was always better with the company of another person, it always made it hard for the man to push on his abrasive words.

your eyes land on a man who, conveniently, was looking right at you. you almost smirk but he slowly diverts his eyes to somewhere else with a blank expression, almost thinking you wouldn't notice him if he was subtle, but it was too late, he was already quick pray.

you glided across the slick polished wooden floors to the man who stood to the side with a glass of whiskey.

you smile when his eyes find their way back to you when you’re only five feet away. he seems unaffected, as if he expected you to come around eventually, like this was his plan the whole time, even as he had no idea who you were.

and you smiled to yourself knowing he was very well unaware that you had no intention in sleeping with him, but only to escape from the drooling men that chased after you.

"do you dance?"

maybe you liked him, chose him because he wasn't drooling all over you, and of course that's the way things go? you desire the ones who don't desire you.

he nods slowly and always hesitantly, taking a sip of the drink in his hand, not offering you any verbal response. but you take that as an opening to drag him onto the dance floor as he wasn't speaking; wasn't protesting.

eyes seemed to land on the two of you, including the ones of harvey who was after you. you smiles to yourself as you can see the disappointment clouding his features from the corner of your eye.

thank god.

thomas shelby reluctantly places his hand on your hip as well as lacing his fingers with yours. he purses his lips while studying your features as your eyes dart around the room, as if your anxiety was turned to a high and he found that strange.

"these people, mr. shelby, they take great interest in you," you mumble while studying other people and the way they look at you, no, the way they look at him.

"who are you?"

you finally look to him, finding his icy eyes that seem to stare into your soul. they make you lightly shiver, but you keep your composure, slightly smiling to hide the fear that started to creep into the back of your mind.

you were a fool to consider him as a dance partner so lightly.

his eyebrows were raised high, "how do you know who i am?"

"i don't."

he leaves your eyes, looking at the crowds of people who you were referring to, and he frowns at your incorrect observation.

"they're all staring at you."

thomas has never seen you a day of his life until now. it took him on edge on how well you seemed to know him for no reason, but it's as if he forgets how notorious him and his brothers are.

"they're staring at the both of you."

you closed your eyes tightly at the voice, leaving tommy all the more confused. he formed his lips in a tight line glancing at the man who stood uncomfortably close to the two of you who continued to dance to the music.

"fuck off, eh? harvey," you mumbled, your eyes wandering around the cream colored room.

"wouldn't you like that, huh, y/n?"

thomas looks between the two of you, loosening his grip on you and you notices right away, your head flipping to him. you give him a desperate look that he sees a lot from woman.

you didn't want him to leave you to another conversation with the man that continued to stand next to you in an awkward stance.

but thomas fully lets go of you, nodding to the man named "harvey".

you bite the inside of your cheek as you watch the man smooth down the front of his nice three-piece suit while walking away, back to his scotch.

"you look nice."

you scoff, marching back to the bar where your alcoholic drink also awaited.

maybe, you thought, maybe if i act like he's not here, he'll go away.

but he didn't. he continued to talk about the hotel room he had up in the hudson and how he was ready to go up at anytime.

"harvey, you really have no idea how much i'd like to strangle you right now," you mumbled, connecting the tip of your wine glass to your lips.

you glanced his way while you take in the thick liquid down your throat. he thinks while looking at his shoes before looking back up to you.

he comes in really close to where his lips are connected to your ear, "i'd prefer to be the one who strangles while fucking you senseless."

you could feel your blood boiling to the point you couldn't even think, so you smashed your wine glass over the top of his head.

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