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I'm literally so tired all the time
I can feel it seeping into my bones
it's cold outside and I just want to sleep
I hate every part of me
my face
my back
my arms
my legs
my stomach
my feet
I look in the mirror nowadays and can't even recognize who I used to be
I'm a stranger in my own body
every now and again I can't help but think that I'm the problem, that I deserve everything that's ever happened to me just because of who I am
I'll never be good enough and I think I'm starting to accept that
Help me choose what to eat tomorrow!
Option 1🍏:
Gerber apple cinnamon puffs ( 150)
1 cup unsweetened almond milk (30)
*I would eat this like cereal for a total of 180 calories
Option 2🐟:
3 packets of lemon pepper tuna (210)
pickles (0)
* I would mix together for a total of 210 cal
Option 3🍄:
mushrooms (~15)
1/4 cup of Jasmine rice ( 160)
2 tbsps of low sodium soy sauce (20)
* I would stir it all together to make a mushroom rice for a total of 195 calories
Option 4🥣:
2/3 cup of Greek nonfat plain yogurt (130)
1 green apple (95)
1 tbsp of cinnamon (19)
*I would stir it all together for a delicious apple cinnamon yogurt for a total of 244 calories
Deathless by Catherynne M. Valente
I genuinely believe that no one can ever love me for me and that really hurts
I just want to be loved as deeply as I love others
why can't you take the fucking hint that I don't wanna be here any longer?
I don't know what more to say or do to make you worry.
okay ik I said I hate eating but I literally just took the FATTEST shit for the first time in like a week😳 I feel sm better now lmao
you’d think I’d run out of tears by now
does anyone else hold off their bodily functions until they accomplish something?
like earlier I held my pee in for almost 2 hours until I finished my math homework
I bought new razors and the guilt of hiding them from my roommate is getting to me
it’s like I know they’re there but they don’t
and that somehow makes me feel worse
they think that I’m doing better
how do I tell them that I’m not?
I just need a month
A month to just fucking lose myself
A month of not being able to get out of bed
A month of not taking care of myself
A month of barely eating
A month of no responsibilities
A month of SH
A month of substance abuse
A month please
And then I’ll get my shit together
I promise
I am in a constant state of mourning
sleep is my only solace
✨🌕✨
guilt consumes me every second I’m awake
sometimes I just feel like one big fuck up.
being alive is a very hard thing if you think about it
so many things you have to worry about for JUST existing (basic necessities like food, shelter,etc.)
and then let’s say you have school or work
OR KIDS?!
like how do you manage everything at once
its very complicated