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life is nothing but pain and suffering. I need food but I don't want to get up bc I have no energy bc I have no food but I have to get up to get said good. evil. ARFID is evil
ill never forgive the people online who made me think EDs were cool and normal as a 12 year old because now im in my 20s with ARFID and my body is too weak to feed itself when i long so badly to live and exist in this world. i hate food but love the taste, no matter how sick and dying i look people still compliment my weight and at this point a sick part inside of me enjoys it because it's the only joy i get out of ruining my body like this. if any kid sees this i promise you it'll never be worth it, you are adding a chapter of self regret and body/mental trauma it'll take a long ass time to get past.
recovery; a return to a normal state of health, mind, or strength.
This is how i have been since i can remember. I can never remember a time before i was very picky with what i ate, before i was revolted by most foods to the point i could only eat a few. There is nothing for me to return to, because i have never known life without this eating disorder.
i will never have a normal and healthy relationship with food. i will never be able to go to a restaurant and order something new, just because i want to try it. i will never be fully ‘‘recovered’‘ from this.
and that’s okay to me. i don’t find this a bad thing, not really. i’m ok with how things are, but i know i’m not healthy and i have no desire to change, but if i did, i wouldn’t focus on trying to recover, or trying new different foods. i would just worry about making sure my body gets all the stuff it’s supposed to, and i wouldn’t mind if i had to eat vitamins daily for the rest of my life for that.
Hi, so like, quick warning that this post talks about an ED (more specifically ARFID)
So like I was wondering if there is anyone who can give advice on like how to actually get the courage to try new stuff?? Cause like i still live with mt parents and get constant complaints about not having a large enough food pallet (mostly due to sensory issues and slight food related trauma?) so they pressure me alot into trying new stuff but it always like makes me so anxious and utterly terrified to do so, so i was just wondering if theres anyone on here with similar issues who can give advice? I have no clue if anything i'm saying is making sense or not but i hope it does lol