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You were nervous it was only your second variety show that youve been on. The last one was called “ Sugarman ” and u didn’t do to well, but this time around you had your very loud support group sitting in the audience. “WHOOOOOOOO MAJESTY!!!” you looked in the audience and saw your best friends BTS screaming and yelling with your fans. “Oh my god they didn’t!” you said to yourself whole walking towards them. “What are youe guys doing?” you said to them “ we’re supporting you guys ” said the loudest of the group J-hope “ Well I’m happy your here but just don’t be loud OK? ” you asked them. “ OK we promise ” they all said in unison. You walked back to your group b/c the show was starting. The topic of idols being over weight came up and they asked you how do you feel “To be perfectly honest, I don’t really care about idols being over weight, because still the end of the day its all about the music. If their music is good I don’t really care about what the idols look like.” Everyone applauded you and agreed with You. But one of the hosts disagreed. “Well I believe that if an idol is over weight then they should stop being an idol all together. Your not the right weight to be an idol, and to be honest (Y/N) isn’t the right weight, so she should stop being an idol as well until you get your weight perfectly right.” there was an awkward silence in the studio after she said that. Until the other host changed the topic. You know this would happen if this topic was picked. Yeah you have bigger thighs like all the other idols, but that’s what your fans liked about you, You were different from everyone else. You were used to everyone talking about you. It happened all throughout highschool, but when you looked into the audience you saw the angry looks on your fans faces but they weren’t as angry as your friends BTS were. To calm them down you smiled the biggest smile and waved at them. The audience, and BTS smiled and waved back but it didn’t shake the angry looks on their faces. After the show the members of your group where yelling on the top of their lungs. “WHO DOES SHE THINK SHE IS! SAYING THAT YOUR NOT THE RIGHT WEIGHT! YOUR PERFECTLY FINE THE WAY YOU ARE!” said the to youngest member Bambi. “Hey Bambi can you calm down please? I don’t really care about what she said. I’m happy with the way I look OK?” “YEAH I KNOW THAT BUT STILL THAT DOESN’T GIVE HER THE RIGHT TO CRITICIZE THE WAY THAT YOU LOOK!” It was easy to tell that she was highly pissed off. “You know what..Im gonna girl tell her off!” she said as she was walking out of the door. She out her hand on the door when your manager stopped her. “Don’t even go there..shes just a waist of time.” he said. She looked at him, stopped to her seat, and put her headphones in. You on the other hand weren’t even worried about her too where worried about your other friends BTS. The last time you looked that them they had angry looks on their faces. You where knocked our of your train of thought when a staff member came up to you. “(Y/N), one of the hosts are looking for you.” she explained. You where a little confused but you follower her anyway. When you got to your destination it was the male host. “(Y/N), I’m really sorry for what the other host said to you we really didn’t know that she would say that to you” the host was rambling on and invention um you stopped him. “Oh, its fine it didn’t really got to me. I don’t care about what she said.” “ Well you really should.” You heard a voice behind you and you already knew who it was. “ Look I’m sorry sweetheart but with those looks you will never..EVER..be a successful idol, you better lose some weight and come back again when you have body like mine. Then She just laughed in your face and walked off. ~END PART 1 I don’t know what this is but I lost all inspiration after this I think that BTS will come in the second part. Please give me feedback it would really help a lot.

divorce | myg | 01

summary: in which you have to go through a painful process of your own family shattering

pairing: yoongi x reader

genre: angst

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“Mommy!” you heard your ten-year-old daughter yell and ran up to your room. The bed shifted as someone jumped on you. You groaned loudly while your daughter shook you awake.

“YAY NO SCHOOL!!” you heard your son yell out of joy. He was only two years younger than his sister. Your eyes widened and you looked at the time. Oh man! The bus will arrive in less than 20 minutes. You jumped out of bed, grabbing the two and dragging them into the bathroom. “Alright, you two will brush your teeth now. Ahran! Make sure your brother doesn’t create a mess. I want your teeth to shine brightly, alright?” you rattled off without pausing once. Spotting a small scrunchy, you grabbed it and tied your hair into a messy ponytail. As long as your hair wasn’t annoying everything would be fine.

You ran downstairs to prepare their bento boxes. You turned on the rice cooker and started to cut some vegetables and fruits for their lunch. It was a race with the time and you had to be really fast. You heard growls from upstairs and sighed when you heard a loud sound of something falling. You ran upstairs and could literally scream.

“What are you two doing?” you looked at the mess they created in the bathroom.

“Mom, Junsun is getting on my nerves, he splashed water on me…” Ahran mumbled, pouting in front of you. You shut your eyes, preventing yourself from yelling at them because of your lack of time.

“Come on guys 10 minutes!” you three ran into their room and you helped your little son change into his clothes while your daughter wanted to do it on her own. You brushed their hair and helped them to put on their jackets. The bus stop was in front of your house and you were happy when you made it in time. Just as you saw the bus, something popped up in your mind.

Their food.

“Oh no …” you turned around, leaving your kids at the bus stop to run into the kitchen. Grabbing the completed bento boxes to ran after the bus. The bus driver spotted you from his outside mirror and waited. You hoped into the bus, not caring that you were in bare pajama and didn’t even wash your own face. You thanked the bus driver while he nodded. Giving your kids their lunch you kissed their cheeks and hoped out of the bus, waving at them.

You smiled to yourself as you returned to your house.

Your husband Min Yoongi wasn’t home. He went to work earlier than usual even though it has already been more than a month that he left early and came home pretty late. Sometimes he would pick up your kids from school and other days they spent time together without you. You didn’t blame them, though. It was more important for your husband to spend more time with his kids than with you. You were an ordinary housewife. While the two were married you still worked hard, to help him earning money to lead your own household. Once you were pregnant he didn’t allow you to work. He wanted to be a good husband and father for your family.

Ahran was born and you two shared the happiest moments in your life. She completed you two. You two had many up and downs in your marriage and fought a lot, even while you were pregnant. After she was born everything changed to better. That’s what you thought actually. Ahran wasn’t even one year old and your old habits returned. You sometimes regretted your choice in marrying him so fast but you didn’t want to make any choices because now everything was different. Throwing away a marriage would be easier if both sides agreed and if there was no child. Just as you thought about letting go the doctor told you that you’re pregnant again. You saw it as a light in your empty and dark world. He would be the reason for you two to fight for your love and marriage. Junsun was the jewel of your house. Of course, kids should never be used as a pretext to save a marriage but you didn’t want your kids to feel lonely and have divorced parents at their young ages. Everything went well at first but you and Yoongi lived yourself apart. It was hard to not argue with him once you two were left alone. You were afraid that once your children will hear your arguments that is why you try to ignore the urge to talk back to him. You knew that it was hard to save your family but you wanted to fight for your children. You would sacrifice yourself for the sake and happiness of your children but you doubted Yoongi infighting as well. He already gave up and you knew it.

At home, you cleaned the mess in the bathroom first. Pulling a bandana over your forehead you started cleaning the whole house since you had nothing to do. Sometimes you would feel so bored but you knew that even your friends were working and had no time. Most of them weren’t married and the ones who are married don’t have children yet. As you were cleaning the kitchen you felt your vision getting blurry. It’s not the first time that you had dizziness. It’s been already a month that you suffered from headaches, dizziness, fatigue, and inefficiency. That’s also the reason why you have to rush every morning. You don’t feel good and powerful to wake up. You believed that it was the stress which you had to suffer from. At home, the kids and of course the issue with your husband. You bit your lip reaching for your phone. It felt like you would collapse any minute. You clicked on the caller ID of Yoongi who was probably working right now. He didn’t pick up your call and you ended it. You put your phone on the counter and grabbed a glass to drink cold water. It relaxed your senses and you sat down on the chair. You should eat something but you had no appetite. Sometimes you forced yourself to strengthen yourself Suddenly, your phone rang. You picked it up without looking at the caller ID.

“Hello?” you mumbled questioningly.

“Hey,” a female voice exclaimed and you looked at the caller ID which showed Yoongis.

“Excuse me … but do I know you?” you were pretty calm.

“No… no, you don’t but soon you will know. He was always so hesitant at telling you that’s why I decided to-” you cut her off, not being able to understand a word.

“Where is my husband?” you asked, wondering why a stranger called you.

“Ex-husband…” she corrected you and your mind went blank. You ended the call as soon as possible and stood up. Feeling your throat burning and your eyes filling with tears.

You threw your phone at the counter, letting it ring over and over again. You went upstairs to hop into the bath. Letting the hot water flow in the bathtub. You removed your clothes, feeling the cold breeze of air touching your bare skin. You lost an immense amount of weight but you blamed it on the stress which prevented you from eating. That’s why you had to force yourself to eat.

Everything was already so clear for you to be surprised by the situation. But it still hurt that your effort didn’t matter. It made you sad that he didn’t think about your kids as much as you thought about them and their feelings. The puzzle was complete now. Why he left early and came home late. It’s been already years that you two had shared your last physical contact. The last time you truly made love and felt the passion. After he went distant you waited for him to give in the divorce papers. It was needless to fight anymore because you lost all of your strength already.

It was sad that the last memories of you two would be nothing but hurtful.

You hoped into the bathtub and leaned back, putting your head on your neck. It felt refreshing. You always took your time to the bathroom and it was already getting a little darker outside. You showered and went into your room to change yourself. You had a towel wrapped around your body and pulled out some clothes.

“You showered?” you heard a deep and familiar voice asking. You turned around to look at Min Yoongi who wasn’t even looking at you. He was searching for something in the drawer. You nodded, knowing that he still saw you from the corner of his eyes.

“You’re early …” you mumbled putting on your clothes. Having a clue that he came early to confess because he probably found out about his new affair and wife sharing a conversation.

“I had to get something …” he mumbled and cleared his throat when you sat in front of your mirror to brush your hair.

“I believe there is more …” you said when the room filled with an awkward silence.

“Are the kids in school?” he looked around the room and you nodded. He scratched his neck and stared at the movements of your hands. He bit his lip.

“Y/N … it’s been already so many weeks and the cold ice between us still didn’t melt. I want you to know that I didn’t cheat on you-” you cut him off, feeling the hot tears filling your eyes.

“Yoongi … I only wonder how you think about starting a new relationship when even our relationship is shattering…” it hurt to see that someone you truly loved had no interest in you anymore.

“That’s not the same …” he started but again you cut him off. It was another habit of yours and you knew that you two would argue any minute soon.

“You didn’t even think about your own children Yoongi… You went after your own desire. I’m okay with you not loving me anymore because, to be honest, I am sick of fighting for someone who doesn’t even show slightly effort in saving our relationship. It’s already over Yoongi. It was over even before our kids …” you said, looking to the side.

“I am sorry Y/N…” you let out a sarcastic chuckle. It was the first time you heard him apologizing for something he had done.

“I don’t know what you feel sorry for. The fact that you already moved on, the fact that you want to leave your family behind? That you don’t care about the kids-” he cut you off, getting angrier.

“Oh stop it already! I  love my children. They’re my everything and I would never let them go. It’s just that we both see that nothing works out for us and it is the best to end it before we two destroy ourselves. It’s for the best …” he said. The topic of him meeting a new girl was totally unnecessary for you because you cared about your kids more than your own happiness. You couldn’t even express any sad feelings towards him. It was anger which filled up your whole body but you maintained calm.

“So you wanna divorce?” you murmured. His silence was louder than a hundred words. So he gave up your family without even doubting himself.

“Alright,” you put the hairbrush on the table and stood up “Let’s divorce.”

SAUDADE

Min Yoongi Imagine

Part 1

Saudade: Saudade is a deep emotional state of nostalgic or profound melancholic longing for an absent something or someone that one cares for and/or loves.

28 October 2020

Hello it's me Min Yoongi. I am still getting used to this. Writing about myself and talking about my everyday life to you. Not that it constitutes much, just basic things like eating, playing video games, working on music and playing with Holly. Oh have i told you yet i have a dog named Holly.

I was resentful about this at first knowing that I hadn't told Y/n about this. But further as I continued it I felt good. This way it is so  much better rather than meeting outside everyday.

Imagine getting caught by paparazzi, oh my I can't even imagine how much of a scandal it would be. Now that we have landed on the topic of paparazzi I somewhere think it's because of them that I have started to become anxious about going outside. 

I remember when I talked to you during our first meeting I have never felt so relieved talking to someone except Y/n. By the way, I am planning on telling her soon.

 I really can't hide it anymore. Is it wrong to do this while she is gone. What will she think of me? 

Okay this is good, i feel this is all I wanted to talk about today. Bye, hope to see you soon.

To, Kang Soowon

Looking over at the digital clock sitting on the desk, which displayed 6:00 pm indicating it was already evening. The shimmering orange hues shone in the apartment acting as a proof. 

Hitting the send button he relaxed back into his chair and stared up at the ceiling. The entire house was peaceful with just a few sounds from the cars passing by and Holly's barks. 

He had grown accustomed to these sounds for over a week now. These were the only things that made him feel he was not completely alone. His prominent source of chitter chatter and chaos had been out for a  week now. 

She had gone on a trek with bangtan as the only representative for the couple. On the other hand all the members had accompanied their wives or girlfriends. The youngest one Jungkook had also brought his daughter along with them for this trip. 

Funny how the maknae was the first one to be a father out of all of them. Even the eldest was married and had a stable married life now and following his footsteps were his younger brothers. 

Soon Taehyung was also going to propose to his long time girlfriend. Now the only one left was Yoongi. Yes he was dating you but that's it. There were no advances in the relationship yet. 

You both knew you loved each other dearly and had also confessed to each other previously. Not in a very romantic manner of course, it took place when Y/n presented Yoongi a plate of spaghetti which she made all by herself from scratch. 

Even though it was not the very best in regards to taste , he admired his girlfriend’s hard work and the love she had put into it. Her eyes focused on his face just to get a nod of approval from Yoongi. 

It wasn’t bad considering it was her first time making it. He looked up to give an appreciating remark to Y/n when her face lightly covered with flour came into his sight. 

Oh how cute she looked. But she was so eager to get feedback from him that she did not realize that he was staring at her face with a slight smile. 

“It’s good, really good!” Yoongi said, taking another bite out of the spaghetti and picking one bite for her to taste.

A frown formed on her face as soon it landed in her mouth. 

She started to mutter how bad and bland it tasted and asked Yoongi how he even managed to chomp down the whole plate, literally taking the last bite. “Why do you even bother eating this let alone finish the whole thing,why?” 

“Because I love you” Y/n’s constant emphasis of why and how seemed to have done its work subconsciously on Yoongi’s mind. When the reality of what had been spilled clicked both of them, their heads instantly turned to each other to take a glance at their partners faces. 

Both of them were trying to find any hints of cringe or “oh it came out by accident” kind of look on their face. But all they could decipher the stunned and honest looks they had.

”You love me Yoongi?” she asked him just to make sure that those words were not just tongue slips. This is the time Yoongi says it, say those words out loud to her, the words that you had been practicing secretly in the bathroom for weeks and even when working. 

Partly also because of Seokjin’s proposal video which he had decided to keep as an inspiration when it would be his time to do it. But alas! look at the situation where they were in both in their pyjamas in their not so clean house a complete 180 degree of his hyungs proposal. 

Not over candle light dinner but the dining table in his kitchen. Well now it's done and there is no turning back. His girlfriend’s voice broke his chain of thoughts when she presented the same question to her. 

Smiling he looked up at her, still a bit nervous but just wanted to get it out. “ Yes I do, I love you alot and I mean it, even if it's not the best place and situation to confess this but it's a fact” he looked up at her face to see what she had to say. 

Will she accept his feelings and reciprocate or will it just get overlooked?. “It's okay if… if you don't like me back I-'' before he could continue saying anything further her tiny palms were covering his face, thumb stroking his cheekbone.

Her face expresses a broad range of emotions whether it be happiness, excitement, but the most prominent one adoration and respect for her lover.” 

I love you too Yoongi, I love you too” with this a stream of tears flowed from her eyes. Yoongi was overjoyed and over the moon knowing that both of them were in the same place and mindset in their relationship. 

From now on it was just moving forward and not looking back. Both of them scooted close to each looking forward to kiss each other but before yoongi could even do anything Y/n turned her face around and yoongi’s lips landed on her cheek making her release a huge laughter which erupted and echoed throughout the room. 

“Yaah Y/n you better get back here and give me my kiss”Yoongi said with puckered lips. “Holly your appa finally said it he confessed to me” you said looking towards the dog you had been holding in your hand. 

He started to bark, wagging his tail at you, definitely not understanding the words you said but felt the emotions you radiated through your facial expressions. Yoongi felt his heart at ease, pulse lowering down and a surge of easiness rising in him, this is all he wanted and now finally he has what he had dreamt of, a stable life, a loving partner right in front of his eyes. 

“Psst Y/n” he called her trying to make eye contact. She stopped whatever she was busy with and looked at him and a tint covered her cheeks with a confident smile on her lips hearing the words “I love you” falling silently, inaudible but you could make out what he was saying.

You winked at him and muttered those same words ”I love you too”. 

The doorbell at their apartment rang making yoongi fall back into reality. He quickly understood it must have been the delivery guy which came with his lunch. 

He quickly took in the order and paid him his money. Yoongi had been ordering from the same restaurant you had been to. He even insisted for the same delivery guy knowing very well that he might get triggered if he saw anybody else. 

He was in the most vulnerable stage of his health right now. Knew he had to do everything in a wise manner or else the situation would completely turn 180 degree. 

He placed down the parcel on his table and started eating his food. He was in the middle of glancing through his media when a picture of you and all the boys popped up on his phone. There were a bunch of people standing around you guys, probably their fans and everyone was smiling at the camera. 

His eyes were only focused on you looking at your smile and your jacket clad figure, but besides you a guy who was intently gazing at you and smiling just by looking at you unlike others who were looking at the camera. 

Yoongi wasted no time to search for his profile and understood that it was your guys tour guide. He couldn't help the insecurity which was building up in his mind. 

He always knew you had an outgoing personality and would befriend everyone around you and yoongi on the other hand was a completely opposite person. Would only talk to the group of few people he trusted and never intended to know any other people the only exclusion for work related meetings. 

It's always a distraction to have too many people in your life he would say and firmly believed it too. The question of would you leave him for somebody else or would  you find someone much better than him would constantly go through his mind and now with his condition it increased even more. Suddenly he received a call which broke his chain of thoughts. 

The screen displayed the callers id: Kang Soowon. He instantly smiled looking at the call and picked up in hopes of clearing his mind by talking to her. It felt good to have someone around to talk to.

Few minutes had passed of him still talking on the phone, afew whispers and faint laughs could be heard from him. “Yes, even though I think I should let this all go, I could become a better person and have a better life I guess, thank you so much for helping me realize that Miss Soowon."

Hope I see you soon at the same place. Good night” he placed his phone down on the counter and was about to get up when a feminine voice came from behind him”Yoongi?” he instantaneously turned around to look at the source of a very familiar voice.

Lacuna | Pt. 3

An unfilled space; a gap.

Min Yoongi x reader

Genre/Tropes : established relationship, miscommunication, angst, yelling

Word count : ~2.2k

A/N : Hello sweet readers! Finally the third part!! Enjoy it please<3  Not much left before these two go heart to heart ^^ Are you excited to see how this plays out?

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Next morning Yoongi is once again met with a displeasing view. You silently rushing around the room collecting your clothes and toiletries. His breath quickens and he shoots up in bed clutching the comforter as if he has woken from a nightmare.

His eyes move around following your form and only as you turn to leave you notice him. His eyebrows furrowed a sleepy and confused expression on his face. You take it as a hint to leave the room and quickly scramble out without a word.

Yoongi holds his breath the moment your eyes meet. He couldn’t read the expression adorning your face and it scared him. He once again ran hands down his face taking in a deep breath. His heart still hammering inside. Yoongi was even more scared now then he was yesterday evening. The later realization coming back to hold him by the neck. When a thought shoots in his head. He still needs to apologize to you.

He quickly throws on sweats and moves out of the room. He can hear the shower running in the guest room and stays behind the door, scared to invade your personal space now and tick you off.

On the other side of the door you were getting dressed with those same thoughts. Scared to tick Yoongi off you try to make yourself scarce as fast as possible. The stare you’ve been met with this morning almost put you in cardiac arrest as you heart stopped.

You exit the shower and start pulling on your work clothes. Suddenly a knock on the door stops your heart once again. “Y/N?” A small voice catches your attention.

You haven’t heard your name leave his lips for so long. You stop for a moment frozen in space but quickly recover as your phone lights up with notifications. You need to hurry or you’ll be late for the new presentation.

Yoongi can hear you shuffling inside the room. Excitement fills his insides when he hears your footsteps coming closer to the door. He braces himself to face you, hug you, kiss you and fall to his knees before you to apologize. The door opens and Yoongi barely catches sight of you before you scurry down the stairs. A thought enters Yoongi’s head. You’re running away from him…

He comes after you hot on your trail. When he stands on the bottom of the staircase he can’t do anything but observe you putting on your shoes and taking you bag in your hands. That’s when it clicks for him. You’re leaving. 

He nears you in three big strides and catches your arm before you can disappear out the door. “We need to talk” he says assertively. You only look at him with big eyes and stutter out a “I’m late for work” before removing yourself from his grasp.

Yoongi stands there frozen in place. Everything seems to drop into place for him now. The detachment in your eyes, the space between you two now miles. This relationship is hanging by a thread...

You were full of adrenaline as you reached work, not only from running but from the weird morning encounter with Yoongi. You quickly pushed Yoongi out of your mind and walked through the office door. After setting your bag on your chair you grabbed your computer and set off to the meeting room.

After three hours you finally slumped down in your chair a smile adorning your face. A tear of happiness escaped your eye and you wiped it laughing. You got it. You got your position.

You could not contain yourself as you started typing out a message to Yoongi. Your finger stopped right above the send button. The whole world stilled as you deleted the message not wanting to annoy your lover any further. The thought once again made you sad… he didn’t feel like a lover any more…

“Congrats Y/N you were amazing!” Your colleague Hyun clapped you on the back. You turned to him “Oh!” You were startled but recovered “thank you, thank you” you smiled once again. “Great even amazing job on the presentation. Finally, you put that Lee in her place. Please fire her I’m getting tired of listening to her..” he rolled his eyes jokingly and lounged on your desk beside you.

Hyun kept up small talk asking you about the document, your days and finally reaching a topic of a new café down town with famous Japanese buns that you’ve been craving to try.

“That place is bomb! I was there a few times while in Japan they have the most delicious buns I have ever tried” Hyun almost melted on your desk holding his tummy “It’s all I want in life” he closed his eyes theatrically. You laugh boomed through the office at his actions and you held yourself back after receiving some judging glances. “I’m convinced alright stop making a scene someone might kill us” you giggled.

Hyun got serious, straightened up and looked into your eyes “Come with me”. Your giggle stopped in your throat “W-what?” “Come with me to the opening. We can go on Saturday it’s our free day thanks to you” he smiled. “C’mon Y/N we do need to celebrate you somehow” his eyes were full of affection.

Your head was spinning. Hyun has been your good friend for a couple of years in the company. But that’s it, there was never anything more than that. You had never taken your friendship out of the confines of this office and now you were feeling like maybe you wanted it. It was nice having him here at this moment, having someone congratulate you, take interest in you day and laugh together.

You gulped as Hyun got up from your desk a hand on your shoulder “I’ll get back to you” he smiled and walked away. Your eyes followed him and your heart lit up with a possibility of a new friendship.

While you were congratulating with Hyun, Yoongi was having a fight on his own.

Repairing his music was going as NOT smooth as possible. Despite the fact that he had no music, he also had producer Cho on his ass. Cho has not left him alone for the whole day.

Yoongi could deal with Cho being in the studio but he could no longer deal with his shouting and constant nagging, tough Yoongi could not say a thing back.

Apart from Cho, you were also on his mind. The morning encounter, the evening fight all of it pressing him from within. Yoongi wanted to cry. He wanted to cry his whole body out and curl up in your loving arms so you could nurse him to health again. He wanted everything to be alright. But most of all he wanted YOU. He wanted YOU to be alright. The thought made Yoongi tear up and drop his head into his hands for the hundredth time that day.

“Hyung it’s time for practice” Jungkooks voice filled the studio and immediately irritated Yoongi. He let out a groan “yeh I know.” Jungkook slipped into the room leaving the door ajar and and looked around awkwardly “Hyung are you alright?” He laid a comforting hand on Yoongi’s shoulder and Yoongi shot up out of the chair making Jungkook jump back and land awkwardly on the carpet before the couch. “DOES IT LOOK LIKE IM ALRIGHT?! IF YOU DON’T ALREADY SEE NO NOTHING IS ALRIGHT YOU- YOU-UH?!” Yoongi towered over the younger male body shaking with anger. It didn’t take long before all of the members filtered through the door to see what was happening. Namjoon and Jin quickly evaluated the situation and jumped in front of Yoongi making him sit at his chair while Taehyung and Jimin helped a tearful Jungkook up. “What the hell is going on here?! Jungkook are you okey?”the leader tried to bring peace back.

Yoongi glanced around the room eyes meeting Jungkooks. Eyes filled with tears looking up at him, a sight so sad it reminded him of a worse one... 

Yoongi was taken over by his emotions once more, he could feel something brewing inside him and he had no idea how he was going to deal with it without you. “Yoongi? Tell us what’s wrong? You’ve been distant for a long time now? Is it Y/N??” Jin’s voice uttering your name was like the final straw in Yoongi’s emotions and he let it all flow.

With his tears flowing down his cheeks all the hardships flowed out too. All six members sitting around now listening to their brother cry out his concerns about his relationship and work. 

“And I’m so sorry Jungkook that you happened to probe me at the worst moment. I didn’t mean to dump all of this on you…” Now Yoongi felt embarrassed not only about this Jungkook situation but also about opening to his members up about his emotions and struggles with your relationship.

“Hyung it sounds like the two of you just …grew apart…” Said Hobi and Yoongi’s head shot up to his brother eyes full of fear. “No no no not that way, maybe not grew apart but simply spent too little time together and have simply misunderstood one another’s feelings now. And to be honest time has not been kind to the two of you” Jimin tried to help his friend who looked like he was having a heart attack. 

“Jiminie is right, when was the last time you talked with Y/N?” Yoongi fell into deep thought and the members looked at him hoping for an answer. The longer they waited the more scared for their friend they got. Yoongis face went from thinking to breaking in a few seconds and tears once again flowed.

A soft chorus of “Hyung” and “Yoongi” was let out by the boys as they stood from the couch and gathered around Yoongi to hug him and wipe his tears. “Yoongi look at me. Stop crying and go. Find some flowers a nice drink and something delicious then go get your woman and tell her that you love her.” Jin looked sternly into the younger man’s eyes. 

Yoongi blinked a few times and nodded his head but then a revelation from yesterday popped back into his mind and he lowered his eyes to the floor again. “What if she doesn’t want me anymore...” he whispered the paralyzing words for the first time and it hit him more than he thought it would. The air got knocked out of Yoongi and the others noticed. “Yah! Stop it hyung!” “Yah go get Y/N! You know she loves you just don’t give up”

It felt like a breath of new air being supported by his brothers and it gave him new bravery to text you.

Yoongi: Hey...

Yoongi: When do you finish work?

Your eyes shot away from the computer and back at your phone when you read the senders name. You gulped and could feel cold sweat coating your body. The text was exactly what you had been expecting for a while. This is it. “Maybe it’s something else, c’mon respond” you thought trying to stop yourself from going into shock.

Y/N: Hi

Y/N: I finish work at 9

Y/N: Why?

Your heart beat fast and out of rhythm as you waited for a response praying for a better one than you have imagined.

Yoongi: I’ll pick you up.

You sat now thoroughly confused by the message. Why would he want to pick you up? Was he at home now? He wouldn’t just break up with you now would he?

If this situation had occurred weeks ago you would have jumped up and down at the thought of your boyfriend being spontaneous, however now it only served to make you nervous. You couldn’t imagine being at such a close proximity with him.

“Y/N did you get my message?” Junhi stood at your door and you awoke from the nightmare that was going on inside your head thanks to your boyfriend. “Ah message? Oh yes yes I got it sorry” you buffered looking at your computer screen trying to find a message. 

“Interesting” Junhi chuckles. “Huh..?” You turn to him dishevelled. “I didn’t send you any messages. Are your messages haunted sweets?” Junhi came inside your cubicle and sat on your desk. “Don’t call me that it sounds like we’re dating or something..” you lowered your gaze in disgust. 

“That doesn’t sound that bad huh? I could be your work boyfriend? We’d make an office power couple. At least you’d have someone to attend the party with on Friday” he flashed a smile searching your eyes for contact. He locked his eyes on yours finally and you let out a weak chuckle ‘this idiot again…’ . “Is there anything you need help with Junhi?” you asked looking through your documents, only one man on your mind, heartbeat elevated.

Please don’t let this be our end…

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min yoongi fic rec list (Ⅴ)

hi guys it’s been a minute since i posted it’s been hectic i recently got a promotion so that’s been taking up my time but here’s another list of my favourite yoongi fics honestly reading them was so much fun and made me feel happy so i hope you enjoy them as much as i did. remember to please show lots of love and support to these incredible authors and creators and their blogs, don’t forget to give them a follow , leave a heart, reblog or leave a kind message i know they will appreciate hearing from you, these fics contain smut so no minors interact feel free to send and share any fics you are currently into and would like to share with me i would love hearing from you guys

a- angst s- smut f- fluff

series

love lockdown by @personasintro f s a (enemies to lovers zombie apocalypse)

belong by @ahundredtimesover f s a (exes au basketball yoongi summer love au)

in the margins by @bonvoyagenoona f s a (enemies to friends to lovers slow burn)

look down on me like that by @here2bbtstrash s a (enemies/coworkers to lovers slow burn)

andante cantabile by @kkulfm-2 f s (regency au unrequited love slow enemies to lovers pianist yoongi)

match made in hell by @ughcore  f s a (arranged marriage doctor au rivals to lovers)

only yesterday by @borathae f s a (strangers to lovers)

dating advice by @taleasnewastime f s a (strangers to lovers)

the deal by @untaemedqueen f s a (strangers to lovers gang/cartel au)

matilda by @babystrcandy f s a (brother’s best friend unrequited love)

down the hall by @jjungkookislife s a (brother’s best friend)

ink nemesis by @scriptaed f a (fake dating au)

unexpected lovers by @jjkeverlast f s a (fake dating artist yoongi)

love is a dog from hell by yourlocalhoney (ao3) f s a (love triangle friends with benefits) ft.Jungkook

petals by @yoonia f (parents au)

pink bird houses by @54daysormore f a (single dad au)

everytime by @deathbyyoongx f s a (fuckboy exes au)

desolate by @angelicyoongie f s a (hybrid au)

one-shot

first-date bait by @jimlingss f (strangers to lovers)

↬first-date bait drabble @/jimlingss s (strangers to lovers)

wallflowers by @bonvoyagenoona s (strangers to lovers)

shirt by @bonvoyagenoona s a (one night stand idol au)

sugar by @zehakoo f s (ceo au strangers to lovers neighbours)

radio sweethearts by @helenazbmrskai s (brother’s best friend college au slow burn)

tongue like candy by @jjungkookislife s a (brother’s best friend age gap)

auburn skies by @persphonesorchid f s a (brother’s best friend)

black and white by @akinnie75 f a (slow burn)

always & forever by @sugakookitty f s (established relationship wedding au)

hard liquor by @chateautae s (boss x employee age gap)

sweetener by @taegularities f s (enemies to lovers fwb au fuckboy)

soft spot by @cultleaderyoongi f (first date)

↬sweet spot by @/cultleaderyoongi f s (established relationship)

sticks & stones by @xpeachesncream f s a (friends to lovers ex friends with benefits pinning au)

fuck being friends by @strawberrynamjoon f a (friends to lovers college au)

the seventh muse by @wwilloww f s (friends to lovers)

tell me what you want by @/wwilloww f s (friends to lovers)

yoongi’s lullaby by @jiminrings f a (unrequited love friends to lovers soulmate au)

illicit favors by @yoongiofmine f s a (friends to lovers)

snow blanket by @yoonieper f s (friends to lovers)

a wager of lords & love @hisunshiine s (regency au arranged marriage)

an empty home by @7deadlysinsfics s a (arranged marriage) ft. Taehyung

the nanny diaries by @btsgotjams27 f (single mom roommate au)

the good part by @introlxv s (roommate au)

handyman by @borathae s a (rebound au roommate au)

peaches in bed by @/borathae s (domestic au husband au)

don’t hold hands by @whatifyoulivelikethat s ( friends with benefits roommate au)

by the time i’ve figured out what it’s worth by @ugh-yoongi f s a (marriage au)

swing life away by @aphrodijin f s a (marriage au)

the little things by @kth1 f s (boyfriend au)

fxck a fxckboy! by @yoongifis s (fuckboy)

cupid’s curse by @ressjeon s a (first love au)

dawned in by @aquagustd f s (dilf yoongi)

bad things by @yoonia s a (escort au pining)

close call by @xjoonchildx (mafia au)

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Would kill to feel this love T^T

"Are you crying?" "No."

Pairing: Min Yoongi x Reader

Genre: Angst, Fluff

Word Count: 2k

Summary: Yoongi can't help but get upset with you when he's away, but he misses you too much at the same time.

“Why did you take so long to answer?”

Your eyes widened at the abrupt question that you were greeted with.

“Hello to you too, sir.”

You weren’t sure if what you heard was a sniffle.

“Hi.”

“Why are you in such a bad mood?” You asked him gently.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” Yoongi stated simply.

“Yoongi…” you sighed softly. “What happened? Tell me.”

“Nothing. How was your day?”

You took a moment to breathe in deeply. “Was okay. I just got back home.”

“Did you eat?”

“Not yet. You called me when I was taking my shoes off.” You stretched your legs across the sofa with a satisfied hum.

“Go eat,” he urged.

“I will after I speak with you.”

“Hmm.”

You couldn’t help but frown at his indifferent attitude.

“Yoongi, why are you in such a foul mood?”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” he repeated.

With a huff, you nodded. “Okay. How was your day?”

“Nice.”

“Tell me more.”

A short pause followed before you heard him breathe out an exhausted sigh.

“We had a short practice session early this morning. Ate some breakfast and then went to the venue.” Yoongi appeared to be tapping his nails against some surface.

“And how did that go?” you inquired.

“Tiring. You know me, I kept a neutral face. The coffee there sucked so bad I wanted to throw it at their faces.” He scoffed.

You giggled at the frustration in his voice. “When you come back, I’ll make you the best coffee.”

For a moment, you thought the line got disconnected, looking at the phone in confusion.

“Hello? Yoongi you there?”

Silence.

“Yoongi?”

“Hm.”

His voice was so much lower than it was before, and you knew that tone really well.

“Are you crying?”

“No.”

“Yoongi…” you called out suspiciously, your heart dropping a little. “Don’t lie to me.”

“I’m not crying,” he grumbled over the phone, sniffling a little.

“Whatever you say,” you mumbled, not buying it one bit.

You could almost see Yoongi nodding stubbornly. “Yes.”

“Are you angry with me?” You took your chance.

Your heart began to raise when the line went silent again.

“You are, aren’t you?”

“What’s for dinner?”

You gasped at the way he tried to change the topic. “Yoongi!”

“My god – you almost blew my eardrums out.”

Blinking at his words, you sat up straighter. “You’re mad at me, aren’t you?”

Yoongi sighed. “A little.”

“Why?!” you yelled out in confusion. “What did I do?”

“Think,” he challenged you to figure it out yourself. On the other side of the line, Yoongi cracked his knuckles, distracting himself from the sadness that was threatening to break him. He stood up to walk to the mini-fridge, pulling out a can of beer and sniffing again.

“Is it because I picked up the phone late?” He smiled a little at the urgency in your voice.

“Not entirely.”

You gasped again. “I told you I was returning home! I took out my phone only when I was entering.”

“Okay. I’ll let that pass.” He nodded.

“What else could you possibly be mad at me for?”

“Think harder.”

“Is it because you miss me too much?” You teased him a little. Yoongi almost choked on his beer but he composed himself in time.

“Somewhat.”

“Somewhat?” your eyes widened. “You miss me somewhat?”

“Yeah.”

“I thought you loved me enough to miss me more than that, Yoongi.” You pointed out.

“I do.”

“What’s with these short answers?” You whined, wiggling your legs across the couch. “Talk to me properly.”

“I am.”

“Yoooonggiiiiii…” you dragged out his name cutely. “Why do you – oh!”

Yoongi sat back down with his beer. With raised eyebrows, he sniffled a little again. “What?”

“Is it because I dragged you out into the rain day before yesterday after dinner?”

“What?” he blinked in confusion.

“You’ve caught a cold, haven’t you? Ah!” You threw your hands up into the air. “I should’ve listened to you, now you’re sick and I’m too far away to take care of my baby.”

Yoongi swallowed thickly. “Uhh… I don’t have a cold?”

“That means you’ve been crying.” You put him on the spot.

Yoongi stopped himself before he could sniffle again, finally understanding that that was what gave it away. So while raising his shirt to wipe at his watery nose, his eyes almost bulged out of their sockets.

“You’re wiping your nose now, aren’t you?”

He quickly pulled the phone away to check briefly if the call was actually a video call which he clearly remembered was not, flustered at the way you knew exactly what he was doing.

“I’m not.”

“Should I be mad at you now?” You teased him with a slight smirk. “Why are you drinking without me?”

“How do you know I’m drinking?”

“I know you a lot better than you think, baby. So tell me, why were you crying?”

Yoongi rested his head back against the cushion, eyes closed and the phone pressed to his ear, wanting to feel you as close to him as was possible in that given situation.

“I miss you.”

Your lips lifted into a sad smile, heart racing at his words. “Is that why you were mad at me?”

He gasped slightly. “Aren’t you supposed to say, ‘I miss you too’?”

“I want to know why you’re mad at me first.”

Yoongi almost pouted, but quickly stopped himself before you could somehow magically figure that he was doing that too.

“I’m mad at you because you didn’t listen to me.”

“When did I not?”

“When I told you to take a day off.”

Your lips rolled into a tight line. “You’re mad at me because I didn’t take a day off?”

“No, I’m mad at you because I didn’t get – wait, I thought you knew me better, why am I telling you all of this?” Yoongi wondered, not wanting to give in so easily.

“I already know why you’re mad at me, Yoongi. I just wanted to hear you say it.”

“Then tell me why.”

“It’s because you didn’t get to see me before you left, isn’t it?”

You felt your heart clench at the silence that followed. There was nothing much you could do about it, Yoongi had asked you to stay back yesterday before he left for Japan to attend a few meetings and for a performance that they had planned at one of their venues, but you just couldn’t afford to skip work that day.

After two of your crew members decided to oh-so-conveniently resign without any prior notice, you and a few other people on the team had to work even faster to make up for their absence and workload that kept on increasing by the second. The office was essentially a mess, but you didn’t want to bother Yoongi by explaining all of this drama to him.

But now you thought that you should have given him at least a proper reason as to why you couldn’t skip work today. You were reminded of the sad look he had on his face when he kissed you goodbye the night before he could leave, and the way he pretended to be asleep when you left for work early the next morning.

“I’m sorry, Yoongi…” you looked down at your lap. “I really couldn’t afford to miss a day of work. There’s too much going on, two people left and we all are working so hard to make up for what they didn’t complete.”

Yoongi sniffled a little, not bothering to hide it anymore.

“But still,” you frowned with a shake of your head. “I shouldn’t have taken it for granted that you would be back in a week. I’m really sorry.”

“I haven’t told you why I’m so upset yet.” Yoongi set down his can of beer.

“And why is that?”

“Our stay got extended.”

Your heart almost stopped right there. “How long?”

“Four weeks.”

“Yoongi, what?” your eyes immediately welled up with tears. “That’s too long.”

“I found out after you left for work that day. I tried calling you to see if I could at least come to visit you once before I left, but you didn’t answer…”

“No…” you cried, pulling your knees up to your chest. “Your birthday is in two weeks.”

Yoongi placed a hand over his forehead, feeling a little overwhelmed. “I know.”

“I’m so sorry, I should’ve answered your call.”

“I felt so low that day,” Yoongi began, pulling his legs up to his chest as well. “I ate lunch all by myself, I wanted you to be there with me –”

The way he stopped speaking made you cry, even more, knowing that he was trying to hide the break in his voice from you.

“I’m really sorry Yoongi. I’ll come visit you, I promise. This weekend. I’ll take an off.”

“Don’t do that if it’s not possible. Let me see what I can do.” Yoongi wiped at his nose, nodding to himself.

You rested your head against your knees, feeling even worse than you did before. With aching feet that were swollen into little bubbles, you simply pictured the day that you could’ve spent with him if you had stayed back.

“Don’t cry,” you heard Yoongi mumble into the phone.

“I won’t, if you stop too.”

Yoongi laughed through his tears, nodding and wiping at his eyes. “Okay.”

“I miss you too, Yoongi. I really wish I could come and give you a nice warm hug right now.”

“I wish so too. And probably that cup of coffee that you promised. I need that too.”

You scoffed. “Are you really comparing my hugs to a cup of coffee?”

“Not just a coffee. A good cup of coffee. One that only you could make. Just like the lovely hugs that only you can give.”

Laughing softly, you switched the phone to the other ear. “I almost forgot you don’t like hugs. I must be special.”

“You certainly are. You’re the only one who could hug me without my permission and I would openly tell you that I like it.”

Your eyebrows raised, “Are you saying when others hug you without your permission, you like them but don’t openly admit it?”

“Only sometimes,” Yoongi chuckled, taking a sip of his beer and propping his legs up against the bed. “Depends on the person.”

“I wanna know more,” you giggled into the phone.

“I’m fine with Taehyung and Jimin… maybe Jungkook too. The maknae’s; basically. But it’s weird when Namjoon hugs me. That’s too much for me.” Yoongi cringed.

“He’s a giant, in comparison to you,” you covered your mouth, unable to control your laughter.

“Hey,” his frown was evident in his voice, “I can’t help that he’s taller, but I’ve been working out too.”

“I know,” you smirked. “I can’t wrap my fingers around your biceps anymore.”

“Pfft, as if you could before.”

“I could,” you argued with a giggle.

“At least now you can’t, and I’m stronger now too, maybe I could fold you up and push you into my suitcase to take you with me the next time I go somewhere.”

“What?” Your hand slapped the couch repeatedly, “Fold me up?”

“Mhm, I don’t like to be away from you,” He stated firmly.

“Awww my baby,” you smiled fondly, “I’ll come to meet you soon. I’ll be there for your birthday, I promise. I wouldn’t miss it for the world.”

“You better,” he laughed.

“I love you.”

Yoongi cooed into the phone, toes curling but wanting to pinch your cheeks simultaneously.

“I love you too, sweet thing.”

“Have you eaten dinner?” you asked him.

“Not yet. I wanted to speak to you.”

“Let’s eat together!”

Yoongi agreed almost instantly. “I’ll order something; you go get your food. I’ll video call you in fifteen minutes.”

“Okay. I can’t wait to see you, lovey.”

“I can’t, either… come soon. Also, go freshen up and wear that pajama set I bought for you.”

“The what?” you gasped.

“I got us matching pj’s. It’s in my side of the closet. Wear them, I have them on too.”

Squealing excitedly, you skipped your way to the bedroom. “Yoongi! You’re too cute!”

Yoongi chuckled, his heart feeling much lighter than it did before.

“Only for you.”

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