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tried purg!ng for the first time bc i felt so gross after my parents made me eat an entire burger😭😭

it hurt a lil at first but i got it after a few tries, i dont think i managed to get everything out so i still feel upset, but i made sure to drink water and brush my teeth after🙂‍↕️

i think id rather just ⭐️ve ngl

i fear i peaked in third grade and it all went downhill from there

why is everything CROPPED

i DONT want my stomach to show it is COLD and i am fucking insecure and TIRED

i actually fucking hate my thighs and my hips and my rib cage i dont gaf abt “being attractive and curvy” no i NEED to have a body like a model who will break ur heart and then be on the runway the next morning like skinny legs look better in everything, skirts fits right, baggy pants hang off better, and shorts are literally tailored for small legs

“why r u so loud” BECAUSE I CANT FUCKING HEAR YOU DUMBASS

𝑐𝑟𝑒𝑑𝑠 𝑡𝑜 𝑜𝑤𝑛𝑒𝑟

back into my deficit!! i still feel so gross from binging on vacay but this week im locking in!

honestly im so mad at myself for breaking my deficit but dealing with my parents takes a LOT of energy i do not have

when i go back to my moms homeland in the winter i want to be as th1n as possible, i want my grandparents to even notice it <3

Me when my 3d gives me symptoms of an 3d:

"The d1s0rd3r with the highest m0rtality rate is slowly k*lling me??? Whaaaaaa???? Nah no way, I'm built different."

“source?” divine intuition, gut instinct, and cryptic symbolism from my dreams

im so sick of ppl replying to ed posts and saying to eat smt like its not your business??? leave me alone?!?!? close the app???????? go clock in???????????? if thats not stuff u wanna see dont follow me or look at my posts😭😭

i want a bf so badly but at the same time i want them eradicated from the earth

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i joined debate club and every week i debate about actually going for once

i think that if my dreams never come true, ill become a nun

i’d like to be pure before death arrives

if i someday turn into my father i WILL jump off a bridge and do my future children a favor

this is literally me