Dontwannabealive - Fat Cow - Tumblr Blog

there’s something so sad about the holidays…

it’s offical

as of today I have officially lost 20lbs

I’ve been starving myself for about a year and I’ve gone from 208lbs to 188 lbs

ya know it’s getting bad again when you start cutting deeper :/

I don’t wanna get better,i love this feeling.

I keep losing the people closest to me and I can’t keep doing it anymore

I feel so alone

stop asking me “wyd” i am literally at home losing my mind

I want to be so physically ill that people start to worry

the feminine urge to lose my shit

just impulsively cut me some bangs🤪

feeling a lot better now👍

why are diet sodas so addicting?😩

wow I love binging to the point I feel SUPER full and then making myself throw up for half and hour 👍

what I ate today:

air 💨💗

water 💧💗

weed🍃💗

im a greedy, fucked up person

me lmao

so please don’t

being alive is a very hard thing if you think about it

so many things you have to worry about for JUST existing (basic necessities like food, shelter,etc.)

and then let’s say you have school or work

OR KIDS?!

like how do you manage everything at once

its very complicated

sometimes I just feel like one big fuck up.

the urge to kms in front of people when they yell at me

guilt consumes me every second I’m awake

sleep is my only solace

✨🌕✨

killing myself is not enough, I wish I never existed in the first place