I Notice That I Feel Really Angry About The Kit Conner Situation, And That's Because It Hits A Little

I notice that I feel really angry about the kit conner situation, and that's because it hits a little close to home.

So here is a little rant:

I notice it in daily life too, everytime I do someyhing 'fruity' i feel like i have to disclose my sexuality to anyone.

Like yeah I like listening to girl in red and I am straight (or idfk i'm 16 and get no bitches what do you expect) does that mean i'm not allowed to do it? I'm not profiting off anything by 'pretending' i'm gay. Yeah I like to read wlw books and see series of it, but when people come to me like, yeah you might be a little...

It's not like I'm not self aware, I even call myself fruity but idk I jist feel like it gives me a way out by saying i'm aware

Like they could be right but all it does for me is feel the need to disclose my sexuality. I'm not harming or making fun of anyone. Just let me life my life. But there's is just this pressure. I'm not saying actual lgbt people/allies calling you gay (the intentions are harmless) is just as bad as homophobes doing that, because it isn't. But it does put this pressure on me to tell anyone my sexuality.

And eventually it spiraled down to me calling myself unlabelled, but even that doesn't sit right with me. Because that would mean I am part of the lgbt community. But what if I'm not, would I then be queerbating everyone (while that isn't even what queerbaiting means) / meanly lying? It gives you that responsibility to disclose who you are. While idk, but then I would rather say I'm straight.

While in reality i just want to be 'nothing' not the unlabelled label, just blop I like men that's about it, idk about other options. But i hate identifying. It gives me this responsibility to uphold whatever I identify as. I don't want to do that, just let me do stuff in peace I guess.

It kind of bugs me when people who have read Percy Jackson say "O i wish i could read this again for the first time". It envys me, because I have barely any memory of when i read pjo for the first time. Sure they are my favorite books and they are what got me into reading, but i read them when i was really young.

This meant for me that i rememberd the plot, but not/barely any of my reactions to it. I can never say, "Wow i remember being so suprised when this and this happend etc." So when i read these books for the second time i wasn't suprised by the plot anymore, no shocking reactions for me.

The one comfort i have is that of what i do remember, how i liked the funny chapter names. But mostly, the feeling i had when i read the books and my growing love for them. It makes reading them again also incredibly amazing.

And for me, maybe even better than the first time i read the books.

What are your thoughts on this?

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Bitches be like:

let's randomly start writing a fanfiction that i don't know the ending of.Then bitches don't know how to continue writing anymore and have to come up with something.

It's me, i'm bitches

obsessed with this entire thing