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Okay so, personally, I think that in some way it could be true that he figured it out and that Ody knew before Eury confessed it to him.

But also in the "Scylla" song as Eury says "I've opened the windbag while you were asleep" we can hear like a sudden "dun" sound, as if this information hit Ody in some way

Still, it could be like the person wrote that he could knew, but it just hurts to hear it outloud.

Anyway, what I think is interesting in this is that is that I don't think Ody would be as shocked. We can hear it in his voice as he commands Eury to light up the torches. Like.. this unbotherness in it is kinda.. eerie. Also his lack of response to Eury's apology- I don't think it's caused by the shock of finding out. I think it's caused by shame.

Here Eury is apologising to him, not aware of what's about to come. Imagine the kind of pressure and shame, the stress inside Ody's head that he's bottling up, trying to numb himself out to be able to complete his sacrificial plan. "Leaving them feeling betrayed" doesn't point to Eury's mistake. It points to Ody's secret plan and the guilt that he's feeling deep down yet repressing 'cause "what if I'm the one who killed you, every time I caved to guilt" and also "If I became a monster and threw that guilt away" (Monster song)

Which is kinda ironic because in this song it indicates that Ody is willing to change his ways and become less remorseful/merciful to save his men and himself ("If I became the monster to everyone but us") yet as the time passes he becomes more and more desperete to get HIMSELF back home, to his wife and son. (" Please don't do this (...) I need to get home"- Mutiny)

He's so desperate that he's willing to even turn against his own crew members, sacrificing few for the "greater good". ("You miss your wife so bad, you trade the lives of your own crew" and "I am not letting you get in my way" - also Mutiny)

Tbh I have a lot more to talk about here but it would be going off topic haha

I just love analysing lyrics of the songs in this musical as it's so fascinating to see these seemingly harmless phrases starting to make a whole picture as you put them together- like a puzzle! The way the lyrics are so open for many many interpretations is such a cool thing. Jorge is a lyrics genius <3

Personally I think Ody already knew Eury opened the wind bag, initially bc there's just something about his tone and the way Ody cut him off in the beginning of Puppeteer that felt... deliberate? But it's also mirrored in Scylla and Mutiny

It's just a little thing in Scylla but when Eury first tries to confess in Puppeteer Ody gives him a task instead "go check out the island" vs "light up six torches" instead of talking about it, like he's avoiding it

But more prominently is "whatever you have to say can wait some more of this I'm sure" sounds to me like "don't tell me. If you don't tell me we can pretend I don't know and I don't have to do anything about it. Lie to me (by omission)" vs Eury's "tell me you did not know that would happen" and "then you have forced my hand" while said in anger can also totally be ready similarly. I've already seen others talk about how he was basically begging Ody to lie to him so like, "lie to me so I don't have to do anything about it" again

(whether or not Eury would've been able to play along, assuming he did want that, I don't know, and ig we'll never know)

Also Ody's total lack of reaction. Sure Scylla had "leaving them feeling betrayed" but having it said out loud could still sting. It could also be a "I thought we had a deal to not talking about that" type betrayal.

Anyway many thoughts head full

Odysseus vibes

EPIC THE MUSICAL: SONG RANKING :]

I saw some people and my favourite artists ranking songs from EPIC the musical and, as I am a huge fan of this musical myself, I thought I could share my own personal favorites :] Here are top 10 EPIC songs for me (the numbers aren't representing hierarchy, all of them tickle my brain in different ways): 1. Wouldn't you like 2. Dangerous (can you tell Hermes is my favourite? XD) 3. Open Arms 4. Just a Man 5. Ruthlessness 6. Get in the Water (ik it's not released yet, I just love it sm) 7. Luck Runs Out 8. Monster 9. Different Beast 10. Thunder Bringer/Scylla (I cannot choose haha)

Personally, I think all of the songs included in the musical and also the scrapped ones are a work of a genius/geniuses for both the lyrics and the sound compositions and I appreciate all the work that both Jay and all of his people put in into this masterpiece of a musical <3 These are just the ones that I think about/listen to more frequently ^^

"Fucking hell--!? You broke my nose!"

"Good. Maybe that blood will shut you up."

================================ POV: BC!Gabku got fed up with Rasmus taking out his frustrations on his co-worker and her friend, BC!Eva. I think it's my first time drawing Rasmus He's not as complicated to draw as I thought he would be That's all, have a good one folks! ========= BC!Gabku belongs to @/gabkudoesstuff (check them on IG!) BC!Eva (the one standing behind Gabku) belongs to neptuii (me) Rasmus belongs to @inkly-heart

"And the universe said 'I love You" because You are love."

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Thought about this quote while editing it; props to those who recogize it :]]

Just wanted to paint something before the end of the day

I was nervous to use the black pen for the outlines but it turned out quite nice

It's sad that the quality is ruined

Okay, that's all

Goodnight <3

Nett(persona) belongs to me

Happy Birthday to Me :] I know it's been a while since I posted anything here, but I've been quite busy with my life as a student and as a member of a big family- it's been a lot. Mostly great things, but at the same time a hasty pace of life like this can be quite draining for me. Nonetheless, I'm very greatful for everything I have experienced this month as well as this past year. I couldn't thank enough for my family, my friends, my collegues and my teachers that have helped me, supported me and that have been there when times were a bit tough for me. It's a great pleasure to be a part of such community I found myself in and how positively it has impacted me. I can't wait to see what the next chapter of my life has got for me. And also- Happy Pride Month! It's been about 2 or 3 years since I came to the conclusion that I'm non-binary and since that moment, I'm quite happy with my label :] I'm also probably somewhere on the ace spectrum but I'm not pressuring myself to figure out what exactly is my place on that spectrum; that's why I didn't include any of the flags (although I do love the flag designs dearly) So, I hope that whoever is reading all this and is on the queer spectrum is celabrating or just enjoying this month happily and safely, whether with loved ones or just by themself. Remember you matter; no matter your gender, sexuality or orientation. Sending you all love <3 Have a great day, folks

I keep finding myself in those cycles in my relationship. We meet at each other's levels. Therefore we fit perfectly. We're like a plant and a pot. I am a plant and they are a clay pot. I feel comfortable and secure in that pot. But then I slowly start to feel uneasy. I feel stuck. I feel like the perfectly fitting pot doesn't have enough room for me to grow. It feels uncofortable now but I'm terrified of living without my pot- without it, I feel uncomplete. I feel lonely. I don't want to leave it. But a clay pot, once molded, cannot unmold. Not when it doesn't decide to break in order to recycle itself. And usually, they don't want to. Even if they know it'd be better for both of us. But the roots need room to grow. If they don't have it, they slowly start to wither away. The plant will die. But it's hard to tell the beloved pot that it doesn't fit my roots anymore and I cannot stay. So I stay silent, letting my roots grow dense and weak. I know it's not good for both of us, but I'm a coward. I'm scared of being potless forever. I'm always waiting for life to take pity on me and repot me. "Everything I've ever let go of has claw mark on it" It hurts and I'm ashamed.

Nett(persona) belongs to me

REALLLL

graph of what being hungry is like with adhd

Crow my beloved <33

it’s for you!

late night doodle

"What am I supposed to say? What am I supposed to do? Normally I'd just ask you, but We haven't spoken, we haven't spoken (...) Would you say what you always say? "It's better if we tell the truth" But look at what the truth has done Your heart is broken, your heart is broken" ["i didn't mean to" by Rebecca Sugar] ============== For a long time I never understood artists who created emotionally infused, ventful pieces of art that have no specific meaning or purpose to it. Like it just came out of boredom. It always bodered me; Why couldn't they explain it? How could there be no purpose? When I heard this song, at first I wasn't so fond of it. But with time, it grew on me and suddenly a feeling hit me. Listening to it felt so.. touching, personal. It started to have some meaning to me which is a usual thing when it comes to some song as music is a big part of my life, it helpes me feel, understand and process my feelings as I have a hard time expressing how I feel. I wanted to capture this feeling, give it a shape. While listening to this song on loop, I drew out the sketch of this drawing. I liked it but... well. The thing that bothered me is that it didn't feel like it represented what this song means to me. I want to share my vent art online but because people I know follow me on some of the media, the anxiety of being judged by them keeps me on edge. And so I don't post them that often. It's complicated. For now, tumblr seems to be the safest to share that. Now, this piece kind of grew on me. Even though it doesn't have the meaning I wanted it to have, I like it. i'm proud. And who knows, maybe it will have one for someone else who stumbles upon my art.

B I R D

This European Eagle Owl’s tippy taps

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Okay After about a month I finally got to finish this piece It's my best friends oc, Gabku but Broken Colors AU version It's releted to some ideas we came up with together Who do you think she encountered in the alley? :] -------------------------- [BC!]Gabku belongs to @/gabkudoesart or @/gabkudoesstuff [check them out on IG!!]

Another trippy art lol I had a tiring day yesterday but a sudden wave of inspiration hit me and despite my mental and physical battery being low I turned on my laptop and started drawing whatever came to my mind And I ended up with this piece I kinda like it ngl Anyways That's all for today Have a good one, folks o/

(lol I forgot to post it here) As of late I''m EXTREMELY busy- there's just so much going on in my life right now, so many changes and new things I need to learn about in such a short amount of time it's overloading my brain. I've started a new year of my studies so it's already a handful of things I gotta figure out. Additionally to that my old phone started glitching out so I had to buy a new one after futile attempts to try and save it. But, after 4+ years of it's duty- it was it's time. Rest in peace phone o7 With all the changes and stressful events going on plus the weather suddenly changing into a more wintery-one my mental health was slowly crashing. For the past 5 years I experience seasonal depression during fall-winter time which is not fun at all. Rather traumatizing. I've also been going through episodes of self-doubt, basically questioning every decision I made and my competence to handle all of this. I still do if I'm being honest. It's a constant battle between me and my inner critic. It's just another thing that drains my energy, leaving me mentally exhausted. That's why I can consider this art piece a kind of vent. But it's not all sorrow and misery. I've been experiencing bitter-sweet moments. That's just a part of life and I'm not going to give up so easily. I'm here to live my life fully, aren't I? As they say; You cannot experience joy without also experiencing pain. I find that qoute quite endearing ... Have a good one, folks

Okay so I took a break from making digital art for a few months because as much as I love making art I started to experience problems with starting or finishing my projects. I'm not sure if I could call it an artblock as I didn't had any problems with making traditional art. I think I was (and maybe still am) going through a neurodivergent burn out caused by a lot of things in my life. I'm still on the path of recovery and getting my life together. Also, sitting in front of the screen all day had a huge impact on my mental and physical health so that's why I gave up on making digital art for a while as well as tried to minimize the time I was spending on social media overall. What pushed me yesterday to make this art piece digitally is that I was completing one of my tasks I was putting off for so long- clearing out my phones memory storage. It was such a mundane task that was taking me so long that I just had to take a break and I started doodling in my sketchbook. I drew my persona with some clouds coming out from the head and thought: wow, that doesn't look so bad. Might use it as a profile pic. I was too lazy to color it though and I didn't want to use a bland, pencil drawing as my pfp so I just grabbed my laptop and graphic tablet (they were so dusty...) and just started fucking around with the brushes and color pallete lol Anyway that's all for now Have a good one, folks

"..And life will always be 'La vie en rose'..~ " This is just a little idea I got from one of my character ai rps One of the facts about BC!Eva is that because of her father's powers she kind of behaves like a bird would. What I mean by that is one of her habits is singing/humming! She typically does it when she's doing any type of chores Her favorite song to sing is "La vie en Rose"- Louis Armstrong's version There were multiple times where Damon caught Eva singing this song while cleaning/restocking during her shift at the store That boy can't get enough of hearing her voice...

Damon belongs to @inkly-heart

I think he had a lil bit too much beer.. Okay so after a bit of struggling with drawing something today, I finally got lucky and made this quite detailed doodle First I wasn't sure if I should use a pen but I'm actually really happy with the result ^^ It was also a nice practice when it comes to drawing folds in clothing That's all for today, have good one folks! Venni belongs to @inkly-heart

Moment before a disaster... Okay so I wanted to practice drawing Damon so I thought I'll try drawing his younger version So here's the sweet, shy boi! Although.. his backstory isn't so sweet Damon belongs to @inkly-heart

Okay another doodle for you folks I just felt some inspiration rush in as I waited for my internet to fix itself So I thought I'll draw the silly smiley guy :] I think it turned out okay (The quality kinda sucks bc of ig so I apologise for that) Delivery Guy belongs to @inkly-heart

Two besties taking a photo together! I just got back from short vacation abroad, it was so fun but oh so much walking.. My calf muscles are chiseled now ngl. Anyway, I'll try get back to drawing and maybe post something else soon! Have a wonderful day/night folks B] ================== CHARACTERS USED: [BC!] Eva (belongs to me) [BC!] Gabku (belongs to my dear friend, you can find them on ig: @gabkudoesart )

Another doodle of these two because I find quite comfort in this little ship And my little rp on character.ai gave me some cute ideas I might draw some sort of sheet about BC!Eva and her abilites although I'm not sure, I'm constantly changing my mind about a lot of stuff when it comes to her lol (Also yes, those are roses on Damon's boxers as I find it fitting for him xD) Damon belongs to @inkly-heart

Finally another post haha.. I'm still learning how to draw Damon as his hair is quite complex to me.. But I'm not giving up on drawing my favorite boy! I've had this little cute idea that I just had to draw I think Damon would let MC do his make up, because it means he can be real close to them. How could he pass on a opportunity like that?? And I am a sucker for that man so I put my good ol' oc on MC's place Meet Eva, aka what I use to self insert myself into different aus haha.. Anywaaay, that's all for now, byeee (Damon belongs to @inkly-heart )

My first post on tumblr, eyyyy. I actually thought about posting some kind of introduction first, but for that I would need to make one. And I'm not in the mood for doing such a thing, (I'm too impatient, I just want to share my art lol), at least for now. I'm still new to tumblr so it might take some time for this account to florish. I do hope that people who view my art will stick around for that Anyway, enough of rambling I drew a doodle fanart of one of the characters from Broken Colors Game by BlasticHeart ( @inkly-heart ), Venni! I just think his design is neat and I wanted to try drawing this awkward, depressed gamer boy (I actually have more fanart of other characters that I posted on my ig and I might actually post them here too) Okay, that's all