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i’m actually so happy i have ortho bc my skin is glowing, i’m getting sknnier and happier, all bc of my dis0rd0r😋
only thing motivating 4n4 rn is imagining him seeing me at homecoming even tho he doesn’t even go to my school😭😭😭😭
last year his friends brought him as a guest tho soooo
i’ve been r3stricting so well lately but i still look so f4t
someone please give me motivation to lock tf in bc hoco is in 2 weeks and i’m still e4t1ng when i don’t have to ugh
i’ve been so cold lately yay it’s working!!!
i used to be a FREAK for diet coke but it’s so not worth it bc wdym the carbonation makes u even more bloated ugh
just ate a lot of food and i feel like i could be apart of ‘my 500-pound life’ kill me now
i wanna be perfect
does anyone have any t1p$ to l0s3 w31ght?
Yall how do you loose weight without loosing your tits
Someone needs to hurt me so bad I stop eating right mf now
I love being a defiant little shit and listening to anti-ed songs while I do the exact thing it tells me not to
I have an 4na buddy and it’s kinda weird cuz she’s like 40 pounds heavier and like her first gw is 130 but my hw was 126 😭😭 and that makes it weird bcuz I’d kms if I was 130 tho my 4na may have made me fatphobic
im going to starve but in a coquette lana del rey buffalo 66 snejana onopka kate moss sylvia plath thought daughter lexapro depression rotting animal kind of way
2/10/2024
TW: etemophobia, tmi talk, 3d, 4norexia etc.
This morning was crazy for me. I woke up at 5am and couldn't sleep, so I was watching television and planning to f@st today. I felt fine until I went to shower and suddenly got really dizzy during it. I ended up v0miting twice but I had eaten nothing (or not enough) for it to contain anything but acid. I ended up on the floor of the bathroom shivering and passing out for a few seconds before waking back up. That went on for a while and I ended up in bed still shivering but less nauseous after I had a rice cracker.
I stayed in bed and ate the other rice cracker in the pack which I think brings my total up to 45 c@lories. I was happy with that until lunch when other patients (I'm in a mental hospital, not for 4na but for general crisis.) brought me a chicken kiev :(. They knew it was my favourite thing on the menu and while I was touched they brought it up for me I was also upset because a chicken kiev is so fatty and has so many carbs and c@lories. I'm guessing it was 400 c@lories which means I've had 445, way more than I anticipated.
It's 1pm now and I'm not planning on having anything else tonight. I think I was feeling nauseous because I dropped my intake suddenly the other day from like 2000 to less than 50, and also because I started my period. Anyway, I hope it doesn't trouble me again. When I was on the floor I really thought it was the worst I'd felt in a long time.
Stay safe and skinny :)
3/10/2024
TW; 3D
I know that in a week i'll loose all contact with my tumblr until christmas, which is really freaking me out!!! I just wanna be back at my lw before christmas (if not sooner.), which is when i'll get my phone back. I hate having strict guardians!!!!!!
I'm going to fast today to make up for yesterday, because after the kiev i had a WHOLE HALF JAR of NUTELLA! idk what came over me to eat that but I started my period so that might be it.
stay safe and skinny!
welcome to my edblr blog!
little facts about me:
my name is mischa, i’m seventeen, i’m 🇷🇺 x 🇮🇹 but I live in the us!
stats :
HW: 115lbs / 52kg
SW: 105lbs / 47kg
CW: 95lbs / 43kg, 93lbs / 42kg as of July 7th!!
GW: 92lbs / 41kg
UGW: 90lbs / 40kg
height: 5’5” / 165cm
disclaimers
i am pro only for myself, i don’t encourage this disorder and i honestly wish i didn’t have to go through this but i’m not ready to get help, if you’re thinking about recovering i fully support and encourage that. this blog is mainly to comfort people with similar struggles as me and to hold myself accountable.
please, please block & don’t report. i know it’s alarming to see these kinds of blogs especially if you aren’t suffering from an ed, but my ed won’t disappear because my edblr acc did, this is a safe space for me so please respect that.
