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There's always a super awkward moment when someone brings up that their parent(s) died and I gotta pause in my brain and hold back from saying 'is this a sad situation or a yay situation' cause when my mama died I was devastated by when my father died I cheered when I found his body 👀

Journal of Scientific Inquires

Chapter 8: The Skeleton Siblings

(TW for description of dead bodies, bullying, drugs, parental abuse to children, and neglect)

A couple of days ago, two children fell down here. Torel heard one screaming for help and rushed to their aid. Unlike most others that have fallen down previously, they sustained no damage. Not even a small bruise. Torel had called both me and Asgore, urging us to come down to the Haunted Ruins. Asgore met up with me at the new lab [that was built on top of the ruins of the old one] and we both quickly made our way to the Haunted Ruins.

Torel was waiting at the door to let us in. He then asked to talk to me first to help him process what he saw. What he describes next unnerved me to my core.

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Multiple lacerations along the arms and legs of the male figure. Two large stab wounds: one in the stomach, the other closer up to the chest with a slight vertical up slice. The woman also looked to have been stabbed in the chest. Her head was semi-cleanly sliced off, meaning near the end the skin and muscle from the head tore off.

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He has never described what any of the previous bodies looked like before, but he said that these two recent kills were far more tame than some of the previous kills in the past. He said that the most horrifying thing about this situation is that the two kids, presumably the children of the two adults, saw what happened. Correction, only the eldest child saw, as they kept the younger close to their chest to prevent them from seeing anything as they were falling. I could tell that Torel was struggling to keep himself from breaking down, so I had Asgore comfort her husband while I went to talk to the newest residence.

I should have expected as much. The eldest child's name is Sanse, the one Chara babysat and the one they were worried about. Their sister's name is Papina. I checked both of their souls for injuries. [which proved to be difficult. Sanse seems highly weary of me and refused multiple times when I asked. It was thanks to Papina that Sanse reluctantly agreed.] Neither had sustained any injury. I made sure to update Torel of such when he was feeling better. Asgore said she would make more frequent visits to keep Torel company, until he feels more stable from his emotional turmoil. I bade them and the children farewell before heading home.

Update. Torel is trying to get me to adopt. He keeps coming up with excuses like how all our monster forms are skeletons, that I'd be able to relate to them better, that he just has a hunch that we'd fit well, that having something to take care of would help me not be so work minded and help me take care of myself better. There are several problems with each of those. One, it doesn't matter if our monster forms are the same or not. Two, If I neglect myself due to work, then I don't want any kid to suffer the same way. I have no comment on the other two. I don't have to. And I won't.

Update. Torel keeps pestering me on adopting those two children. I failed at protecting his, so why does he think I can protect them?

Update. I have decided to adopt the two children. Maybe having something at home to return to will force me to not spend so much time at work. [Torel told me that these two children are special. He said they were born from a soul mage parent. This could lead to a scientific breakthrough. Soul mages are commonly sterile due to neither monster, human, or m-h being able to handle the vast magical energy. There has never, in recorded history, been anyone born of a soul mage parent. The closer I can be to them, the better I can observe them in a non laboratory setting.] Also, they may just liven things up at home.

Update. This was a bad idea. Papina is fine. She's a sweet girl, and a massive ball of energy. She was worth adopting. Sanse is a different story. They are always making snide comments; they refuse to listen to what I'm saying; it seems that they are trying to irk me. I am trying many disciplinary actions, but none of them seem to be effective.

i know what you're planning.

no matter where you hide this journal, i will find it.

under the floorboards? really? try harder next time.

c'mon g. do you really not like someone prying into your personal life that much? funny. i feel the exact same way with you.

Update. What do you want Sanse?

the truth.

Why not just tell me then? Communication is key to a healthy relationship.

then why don't you tell people about the harmful experiment on yourself?

That's different.

you refused to talk to me. you expected obedience from the word go just because you adopted us. i can tell when someone has ulterior motives. the way you looked at me and paps as you adopted us was different from when you looked at us the first time. i just want you to tell me face to face that you are hiding something. do that, and i leave your journal alone.

Update. Papina is a wonderful listener; she's very insightful. I have been getting really mad at Sanse for touching my journal, this journal. No matter where I hid it, Sanse found it. I got so mad that I started ranting about it to Paps. For a six-year-old, she analyzed the situation maturely and told me point blank that I was the one being childish. Sanse was only acting out because they didn't feel properly heard. They did have to go through four years of hiding and observing. They didn't feel like they could trust anyone, so they guard things close to their chest. And if they figure out, and they will figure out, if someone is trying to get close to them only to further something that they aren't telling, then Sanse will push them away or force the truth out.

That's why I wrote back to Sanse. And now, I've told them why they were adopted. I listed off my reasonings for not wanting to adopt them before. Then I told them the uniqueness of their situation, that they technically shouldn't exist. I wanted to know what an m-h born from a soul mage is capable of, and what could this mean for future experiments. After that, Sanse broke down crying. They said they were tired of being special. They just want to be normal. I sat there, holding on to Sanse, trying to comfort them. [Sanse, when you read this, and I know you will, I'm sorry for causing you such heartache. If there is anything I can do to make it up to you, even if it's giving you and Paps to better parents, just tell me. I understand.]

Mini update. I had just taken Sanse and Papina out on a walk. I took them to Echo Falls and we let ourselves get lost. I told them something special about the echo pumpkins, something I had just recently been made aware of. You can whisper your darkest secret, fear, etc. and it'll keep that secret for all eternity. You can have it replay back by saying their password, as it only follows the command of the secret owner's voice and the password that has been set. The secret is only connected to that echo pumpkin, and it magically keeps echo flowers from picking up on the sentence that is said. We found three pumpkins sitting next to each other and took turns telling a pumpkin what we don't want anyone else to hear but need to get off our chest. I can't say mine here, as Sanse is liable to see it. And I plan on teaching them Wingdings as part of their coursework. We got nice cream afterwards before heading home.

Update. I know Chara said that Sanse was smart, but I think genius may be more accurate. They are advancing quickly through their studies. They are able to write in Wingdings perfectly, they can speak fluently in Spanish, and speak almost near perfect Mandarin. They are also quickly moving up in difficulty with math and science. Papina is just as smart as her sibling, but in a more clever way. She is constantly coming up with solutions to problems that I would never have though about. She's a wonderful outside the box thinker. Papina also has a near perfect memory. She excels in History and English. As for the arts, Papina is more into acting, singing, and dancing, while Sanse is more into the hands on, like paining and sculpting.

update. wingate is asleep. i may be guilty for tiring her out emotionally. when you see this, i'm sorry. context: i asked her about her family. one of the things i read was that she wasn't going to answer two of torel's reasons for adopting me and paps. i had asked torel before why he though gaster would make a good mother and he said he had a hunch. apparently, when he gets a hunch, it usually turns out correct. so that only leaves one question unanswered: how could she relate to what me and paps have gone through? i tried asking that question, but she kept avoiding me. i managed to corner her though, and she finally told me what happened with her.

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her parents were also torn away from her at a young age. her mom died giving birth to her. she was the youngest child out of two older brothers, and the only monster-human out of an all human family household. she was smarted than them, and would become more successful than them. her father was arrested for illegal drug usage, neglect, and abuse to his children. the two boys would compete for love and attention, but gaster never did. they were put in the foster system. her brothers would pick on her, destroy her things, and bully her because she was different. one brother was a brainless jock who was barely even good at sports. the other hung around gangs. her foster parents took her in and called her special. like me she never wanted to be special and often wished to be normal.

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she started crying heavily after that and i put her to bed. i'm sorry, gaster, that you went through all that. but hey, you persevered. you're fine, mostly. love you. sanse.

Thank you, Sanse.

Update. I've been taking Sanse to my workplace, while Papina is being babysat by Asgore and Flowey. Sanse is very curious and asks a lot of questions, questions that I am happy to provide answers for. They have also been on their best behavior: not touching anything, not wondering off, etc. As a side note, I promised to never use their parents' souls for testing, so they just sit in a clear canister on their dresser beside the erns in their shared room.

They said they wouldn't mind running some tests so we can have a better understanding of a m-h born of a soul mage's capabilities. They are used to testing, as their parents wanted to better understand their children, and let them better understand themselves as well, and had testing done to them. At some point in the future, we just might. I also ask Papina if she would be willing to do the same. She agreed enthusiastically, as she usually does with requests. She then rambled about her day with Asgore and her new best friend, Flowey.

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