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I get how you feel @angelcatlowyn I have austim and anxiety in my life. I was so scared to tell anyone about it so I kept it to myself. I had austim ever since I was a young teenager. I only have anxiety when I'm excited about something, when I'm nervous about something, or when I'm scared. But don't worry girl I got your back I'm here for you.
About me!
Hello everyone who is new to my blog, I have to report that I have PDD-nos (autism) some times its possible that I do not understand you if you want to chat with me in the DM. I do not do this on purpose, I am not stupid or whatever I need time to store the information, be patient with me. And really don’t get mad at me for not understanding it. It can be possible if I still don’t understand what u mean I can ask for more clearly answer.
See link below. 👇 Thank u for your Understanding.
😄My RP rules! 😄
Mostly my OOC Lowyn talks or chat’s with u (don’t worry this is just me! )
1. Characters are not my forte don’t expect too much from me
2 it may be that I respond late or it may be that I am translating (Dutch to English) English is not my strongest point when I RP so be patient if there are any mistakes with my grammar well excuse me,
3. I can handle 18+ RP no worries,
4. Have fun
5. don’t even think about taking over my OOC Angelcatlowyn because then it’s game over she belongs to me just like the other char’s I created :)
6. Leave the wings on, also for her tail also no R*Pe
7; got Questions? ask away ^^
8: don’t u like this blog u can leave *opens the door of her blog and gives u can go sign*
9.My fandom (TMNT BAYERS) is my safe haven don’t fuck it up for me!
before I forget I have a chore every Thursday evening
Merry Christmas to you @angelcatlowyn !
maybe i'm a day early but merry christmas everyone
@dai-su-kiss @narwals14 @coolstargirlgirl @letdarknessconsumeyourworld @bcbii @redskii4k @nightsoulsworld @turtlesbythebay @turtle-babe83 @turtlebae90 @turtlesmakemehappy @foreignbrunette @forerunnertracer @alittletworaph @allybutton @the-four-terrapins @thelostandforgottenangel @fyreball66 @kokokatsworld @fantasticcomicsartkid @s-usans-blog @sometmntblog @tmnt-fangirl101 @tmnt-rp-1996 @cowabunga-doll @severelychiefprincess @xx1remmy-san1xx @xxsugarinthebreakxx @xanadu702 @exovapor
and all others of my friends/sisters
Don't worry girl I got your back remember that and I'm still here for you.
I hate my dad so much he destroyed my life
Everyone dies in a different way.
Dobbiamo imparare bene le regole in modo da infrangerle nel modo giusto.
Love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs.
-William Shakespeare
Los Angeles, 4:05 a.m.
Can’t have demons under your bed when they’re under your sheets.
Shotaro Futaba and Mashiro Tsukiyuki
a friendship of little suns
Zoos are prisons for beings who have committed no crime”
fifth pic
photo by @alice-apsx
Caricatura em chibi vetorizada dos meus amigos da internet XD
"'Cause this is thriller Thriller night And no one's gonna save you From the beast about to strike You know it's thriller Thriller night You're fighting for your life Inside a killer Thriller tonight, yeah"
http://www.goear.com/listen/b8b48ba/thriller-michael-jacson
Caricatura Chibi Vetorizada das minhas grandes amigas do colegia XD
"Coração de estudante Há que se cuidar da vida Há que se cuidar do mundo Tomar conta da amizade Alegria e muito sonho Espalhados no caminho Verdes, planta e sentimento Folhas, coração, Juventude e fé."
http://www.goear.com/listen/d0febdb/coraasectapoundo-de-estudante-milton-nascimento
Since it's Friendship Day and I'm also a Marvel/Hiddlesworth fan...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=23FSeJxWhBI&feature=share
" This is where I leave you."
People say that the hardest thing in love is seeing the love of your life happy with another. They're not so wrong. However, they also failed to tell others that leaving the very person that has became your world, the very air you breath, and the reason for sunshine in the morning is painstakingly arduous and painful.
If only she was given a heads-up, she would have held on tightly as the foundation of their love crumble as every season pass.
Y/n L/n did not know when everything started to change. When the colors so vivid started to dim and the love as red as his dream car faded. She can still remember the very first time she held his hand, the first hugs, kiss, and the first of everything. She and Charles loved each other as if the love they have is the only right thing there is. Maybe it is at one point. Because looking back, she came to realize that she had become a liability to him.
As Charles Leclerc continue to soar in the world of racing, Y/n felt that she has been holding him down - stopping him from reaching his true potential. They are two worlds completely differing each other. As he stands and bask in the spotlight, she found peace in the shadows. They walk in fame and peace, separately, and that's when the support she had been giving was not enough, no more. That even when their love clings on to the hope that this can be overcome just like the other times it did, it seemed that their love has its limit. From the whispers of people to the unending hungry stares of women wanting a piece of him, as though he is a prize in a game, caused cracks in their hardened relationship that stood proudly with time.
Y/n loved him too much that she stood by him. Through the ups and downs, the laughter and tears, and to the most painful of times. She was beside him when Jules passed; she became his rock and comfort. Even that was not enough for the world is cruel. It did not give their love time to blossom beautifully, it withered and died unwittingly.
Now, 6 years later, everything has changed so as everyone. But it seemed he did not. Looking as the blazing red car seamlessly turn and sped off to the finish line, proved her theory. His dream still stand firm and she was grateful she was there to witness as he stands victorious in his home race. Maybe everything did not change, because if it is, then it wouldn't hurt this much. The memories of the past still fresh in her mind - his tear stained face, the broken sobs and the tight arms that envelop her, haunted her for years and it was at this moment that she felt its full force. A wave of nausea hit her as she stands looking up at her past love. She could no longer stop the tears as she sobbed and held her chest as he proudly give honor to Jules and Herve above.
'He did it Jules, Herve. He conquered Monaco and they love him back.'
Hence, she turned her back one last time. Just like she did all those years ago. How she broke his heart and left him to pick up the pieces. But leaving him today hurts so much more as she made peace with the truth. This will be the end of their story. Every step away from him tore her further as finally she lets go of the past, of him.
"How can you be so selfish?"
Y/n stood stuck as the ever familiar voice laced with a thick accent reverberated in her ears. It couldn't be right?
"How dare you come here and leave again." It was no question as his voice is laced with venom.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." was the only thing that came to y/n's lips as her hands found comfort in them. She cannot face him. Could not. Would not.
"Did you really think it was that easy. Do you take me as a fool to just forgive you?" Charles growled as he view the figure of the woman he had loved in the past.
"Look at me and tell me why you did it." he yelled as he felt his heart constrict.
Charles Leclerc thought that he was over the past. That he had buried everything to the deepest parts of his memories. That he had already forgotten the shape of her face, her infectious smile, and everything good about her. How selfish can she be coming today and showing her face to him like nothing happened? How dare she cry as he triumph? How dare his heart skip a beat upon seeing her.
The man that he became is someone he does not even recognize. The podiums, the wins, the praises, everything felt like a buzz in his ears. He could not feel himself again. Upon picking up the pieces of him that was left after her ruthless goodbye, he has learned to close his heart. Every relationship after her was for a naught when every peaceful nights, her face is the one he sees as was every waking dawn. He tried to move on, to forget everything about her but it was hard. So hard that no matter the pain she gave, his heart still beats for her only.
And seeing her today, just proved it. He did not care about the win at all, he knows that he made his father and godfather proud. It was because of them that he was able to race but, it was she that became his driving force to continue. And when she left, the world stopped.
"Look at me." he pressed as he held his anger. Afraid that he would lash out in front of millions.
But he did not care. He wanted to know what happened. Why she left as if he was no more than a stranger. He give no mind to the eyes that follow his and her every move. To all the rumors and backlash be damned. He needed this after all this years.
Slowly but surely, he found his forest colored orbs trained to the eyes that held warmth from before. He was now met with the face of the person he had laid his heart to.
" Charlie, I'm so sorry..."
" Don't!... don't call me that. You have no right."
" Brother, not here. Please." Arthur begged as he held his older brother. Reminding him that all of Monaco has their eyes trained on them, that the camera has panned to their stature when Charles ran down the podium after the anthem was over. The festive circuit has quieten, nervously awaiting the scene to unfold. People of the world are waiting as the race was aired live.
" No. I need to know, 'Tur." Charles, ever stubborn, state as he stepped closer to Y/n, causing the woman to panic further.
" Arthur's right. Not here, please." Y/n stuttered as she felt every eyes on her frame. Mocking and judging her.
" What do you know about what's right. You left remember. You left me to die. You're. selfish."
" Stop. Please..."
" No! Not until you tell me why you did it."
"Just stop. Please stop."
" Then tell me!"
" I was scared!" Y/n yelled as the tears streamed unending. She has finally done it. If this is the last time, then let it be done with.
" After Jules' death, I came to realize that it could happen to you anytime. No matter how careful you are, there is no guarantee that you would come out unscathed. Every time you drive that car, I pray to God, to every force that is listening to protect you because I cant!"
" When Jules was on his deathbed, no one but me and your family saw how you seem to die with him. Yes, I vowed to be with you always. But if being with you meant that every second of every season you race meant death is upon you, how can I have the strength to be strong and be able to stay."
Charles was left dumbfounded. He did not know. Why didn't you tell him. He would have understood. He was ready to give up everything for her, even the sport he loves.
"I can't have you give up racing because of me. I don't want you to resent me in the long run. If breaking both our hearts mean you'll be able to race and win, then it was worth it." Y/n finished as she hung her head low.
She has finally said it. All those years of torment, of heartache, of everyday wanting to go back and apologize was not for nothing. Both of them can finally move on as the truth was laid bare for everyone to see.
" How..." Charles started, not knowing what to say. The anger that made home to his heart was easily melted by knowing the truth. If only he had known, he would have never stopped looking for her, never stopped trying to win her again.
What was the point of this 'what if's' now that she has clearly moved on. But he is not Charles Marc Herve Perceval Leclerc for nothing. No matter what, he'll try and try up until he triumph. Hence, he steeled himself, ready for what was to come next.
"Why are you worrying of the things that has yet to happen?" he started moving much closer to the woman he has always love.
" Please, don't do that. Just because of what happened before does not mean that it will happen now."
" You can never guarantee that. I cannot have y-"
" Y/n, look at me." Charles softly cradled her face, wiping the unending tears and soothing the chaos that is her mind.
" The things that has yet to happen does not dictate for us to lose hope. To be broken and sad. Why can't we worry about it when it happens? We'll worry about it when it comes. We'll cry when we're there. "
" No, Charles. Listen to me. You will never understand this even when you know everything. It will never change anything. And I have no right to love you." All broken and judged, she laid it for him.
However, Charles pursued. He will never let her go again. Never. Even if she tried every way possible for her to hurt him, he'll stay. Now more than ever.
" Why do you need the right to love me? I will say this once and for all, it's okay. So love me like you did before...or so much more." he reiterated as his forehead kissed hers. He closed his eyes, savoring the warmth that emanated from her.
" You do not have to worry about what happened before happening again. I will stay by your side until you beg me not to. I have loved you before, right now and always. So please stay." he pleaded for the world to see.
But he did not care. He only cared for her, for Y/n. Because after all this time, he never forgot. His heart has always yearned for her just like how it beats for her alone. And it burst with love for the woman before him as he gaze onto her eyes. He saw everything there. Everything that she cannot put into words. And who was he to not seal it, again. Hence, he kissed the life out of her. The years of longing, hatred and guilt poured into that one kiss as the world cheered for them.
The flashes of cameras and the deafening cheer echoed in the street of his home as his love is back. He made thanks to the God he had never believed and the string that has yet to snap. Indeed it was true, ' the string may bend and tangle, but it will never break.' That the years apart was no punishment but, a way for them to grow - to see things clearly, to look back and learn that what happened was worth it. Yes, it did break them but, it also taught them that a relationship is partnership, that it really does take two to tango.
But then again, they were but humans, the two of them. Faulty but faithful. Hence, they'll hold tightly this time - never letting go, and remembering the start. Because Pascale was right, we only regret the chances we didn't take.