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I have been trying to appreciate myself more lately. When times get tough I tend to fall back on myself and be cruel to myself. I'm tired of doing that; not only is it unproductive, it harms me quite deeply in the long run. So, I made this page to appreciate my weird little self. I'm also trying to draw myself more accurately and realistically — rather than ideally — lately, because that too is harmful. Just know that you are important and that you should hold your own hand instead of biting at it. You are your body, you should care for it and listen to it. Nurture your mind. Put effort into happiness.
Tweaking nishas design and struggling against my instinct to draw all my ocs buff as shit
Jab dard reh Jaye par dard Dene wala hi chala jaye, to dard rakhna laazmi hai kya?
seeing everyone's oc made me realize how plain my ocs are damn 😂
It took so long for me to create interesting OCs, I promise 😭 I’ve been working on most of my OCs for years. The best thing you can do actually is try filling out like, template sheets for giving OCs personality. Things like “favorite food, favorite color, biggest pet peeve, favorite hobby, least favorite chore, etc”. It may sound silly but that was what really helped me add more to my characters. Just remember to add strengths and flaws. All the best characters are imperfect in some way. And give characters opposing personalities too (Blake likes to think things through but John likes to tackle things head-first. They have opposing personality traits)
The only thing harder than giving them personality is giving them good outfits 😐
Learning to be human can be hard— The joy and the fury all wrapped up.
So, I have a new Hyper-fixation…
if there’s one self-care skill I really wish fans would develop – especially fans of continuing media, where you get into a thing before it’s finished – it’s the ability to say “this is no longer the story I wanted it to be” and walk away
(and I am not exempting myself from this! there are definitely periods in my past media engagement which would have been less negative for my mental health if I’d been able to do this, rather than banging my head in increasing frustration as the story veered further and further away from what I had always thought its arc was supposed to be.)
you gotta marie kondo this shit. if the story no longer sparks joy for you, then let it go. and you can grieve for that! that loss of potential, that happiness you might once have had with it. you can be frustrated and sad and bitch about it in your group chat. but you have to let it go.
because the alternative is trying to force the creator to change course to comply with your vision and historically? the success rate of that is very, very low, and far more statistically likely to result in the destruction of the thing entirely. which might sound tempting and satisfying in those moments of frustration but in the end, honestly, is not going to make you any happier. (and is definitely going to make other people unhappier.)
what will make you happier is finding some other story that is more like what you wanted. because it’s a vast vast world out there, and people are creating stories and media faster than ever. yes, even queer media, yes, even PoC driven/led media. no one person will ever be able to consume them all. find something out there that brings you joy, that is the story you wanted. and the rest? let go.
The immortal battle between trying to write chapters in advance and following a posting schedule and dumping several chapters in one day and then going months without posting again.
so turns out we all have the power to turn ourselves into the person we want to be
Avian August 2023 Day 1 - red siskin! With chocolate orange cake 🍊
as i sit getting ready to go outside in the rain. i’m reminding myself of something. and i thought i would remind anyone else who reads this too.
it is raining, and i don’t feel great. mentally or emotionally. but im going to go outside in my rain jacket and my waterproof pants. and i’m going to breathe the fresh air. and even though listening to sad music would be more fitting. i also know that it would make me feel worse. and i don’t want that. i don’t want to feel bad. and me acknowledging these facts. is progress. and i am getting better. and it’s hard. but i’m doing. by going outside in the rain.
i love you.
I live, but i don't live, u know what i mean?
Buncha' kinger (+pomni and gangle)
THAT SHIT IS GOOD HOLY FUCK?!.
Aw YEAH Pappy rappy is BACK
Learning katakana is so hard for no reason because it sounds just like the english word but you don't realize until you know what it means. Like if I said "sutukesu" would you automatically realize what it is?? No but when you know it means suitcase it's really fucking obvious isn't it
And "kureyon" means crayon. It's so simple. I learnt it a few months ago and at the time it took like 5 minutes of struggling until my tutor said it (I have to read it out and then translate it, she didn't say it before). I always go one syllable at a time but with katakana it's so much simpler when the words are fast. It was literally:
"ku-re-yo-n???"
".....kureyon"
"OH CRAYON??"
I was sounding it out like I'd never heard a word in my life. And you know the second you figure it out you will feel stupid. (It literally sounds just like crayon when it's said fast enough I'm still mad I didn't get it)
I learnt "macudonarudo" today and I was struggling. It's fucking McDonald's.
Other simple words that I was clever enough to actually figure out without being a moron for 10 minutes are "kare" (curry) "baiorin" (violin) and "pa-ti" (party)
Not my ADHD distracting me from the depression loophole I almost fell into rn xD
This is an appreciation post for the fanfic authors who aren’t included on rec lists
For the fanfic authors who don’t get art of their fics
For the fanfic authors who can’t get to 1000/500/100 hits
For the fanfic authors who don’t get comments/reviews
For the fanfic authors who write for small fandoms
For the fanfic authors who write rarepairs or gen fics
For the fanfic authors who get hate for the ships/characters/fandoms they write
For the fanfic authors who write in English despite it not being their first language
For the fanfic authors who don’t write in English
For the fanfic authors who don’t think anyone reads or likes their work
For the fanfic authors who aren’t big name fans
For the fanfic authors who don’t get requests in their inboxes
For the fanfic authors who can’t write stories that are more than a thousand words
For the fanfic authors who only write one ship
For the fanfic authors who are just starting
For the fanfic authors who have been writing fic for years
For the fanfic authors who use fanfic to practice writing
For the fanfic authors who write self-insert fics
For the fanfic authors who write about their OCs
For the fanfic authors who write to vent or cope
For the fanfic authors who are just waiting for their big break
Keep creating, I love you ❤️
to all the depressed teens out there not brushing your teeth FUCKING BRUSH THEM i promise you i promise you i promise you i promise you look at me i promise you my heart my liver my lungs that you’re gonna thank yourself later. Just once a day even. Please