Let Me Die - Tumblr Posts

mood: study biology in moscow, cut open frogs, become a nihilst and die from typhoid fever at the age of 29.

fuck recovery

Fuck all of this shit

If seeing my own bl••d seep through my skin is going to make me feel okay then why do you care

stop pretending you care, Hollie. ik you don't- you haven't cared since December.

Do pencil sh@rpeners work better than r@z0rs? I need blood. Now.

TW VENT

$h, b0dy image ¡ssues, sv¡c¡d£ mentions ig

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Too numb for this shit

Too alive to be this numb

Too ugly to enjoy summer

I... i give up

if there was somewhere i could h@ng myself from in my house? I'd do it. If I had bl@d£s sh@rp enough to cvt past cat scratches and minor styros i'd make myself bl££d out. I'd cvt away all the ugly fat from my stomach until i'm pretty and thin-

no wait- DEAD

MIN YOONGI (being the sexciest mf ever) - PERMISSION TO DANCE ON STAGE LA 

So I’m in my early 20s and already feel like my life is over

..and even if it’s technically not, I can make it that way..

..it’d be so easy...but maybe so hard at the same time..

I thought my passion was art

I thought my passion was writing

..but I don’t know anymore...

..I’m starting to think I don’t have a passion at all...I don’t do anything..I don’t like anything...

..everything is empty and pointless..just a distraction from pain and emptiness..but nothing that I’m truly doing out of real drive and passion..

..I can’t do anything..

..and I am nothing....

Ah this, I feel this a lot. But I feel this in the ways of suicidal ideation..

‪adulthood is just experiencing this gif again and again until you ‬die

I wish I could just give in and die. I just can’t be the one to do it..

It would be fine if it were a “freak accident” to just happen..

That way, no one has to blame themselves for not helping or not being enough..

I wish I didn’t have any connections to people and that they felt nothing towards me

I wouldn’t have to keep going just because I don’t want to hurt them...I could just leave and stop my own hurting...

It would be so much easier

..I wish I could just be hit by a car or something and have that end me

Living with Clinical Depression sucks. You want to live and enjoy your life, but you are also constantly tired to do anything. To go out, to hang out with friends, to have a family dinner, to fucking move and sometimes... you are just freaking exhausted to only breathe...

I want this tiredness and heavyness to go away, so I can start LIVING my life. Not just survive through time.

Halloween but michael myers is just a furby in a mask

Nvm

I feel dead inside again

I have harmed myself again and let blood drip onto a drawing, sooooo yeah, kill me please

GOOD NEWS

I am feeling a bit better, still depressed but better

Im still afraid that it might return but that's a problem for future me to deal with

Right now I'm gonna try to be happy

i have now decided one of the worst feelings is being exhausted in any way that isn’t physically.

like when you’ve been crying for hours then you eventually look at yourself in the mirror and see the pure exhaustion in your eyes that you know sleep won’t fix

you see yourself and say “i’m tired” but have no remedy for your emotional and mental exhaustion

man this shit sucks