Mary Lisbon - Tumblr Posts

gonna get through this school year by romanticizing 👍

She gave me her cherry, she’s my virgin suicide

pics from tvs u might not hv seen 🎞️🫧

the way this picture foreshadows everything...

i am these bitches

i’m a mary lisbon girl in a lux lisbon world

ranking of the classes i chose this year!!!

literature: omg girls, i am really loving it but my classmates….. 0/10 for them but for the rest i’ll give it a 9.5/10

history: i love history 10/10

spanish: this is my 7th year learning spanish so idk 7/10

english: yass girl 10/10

philosophy: idk 7.5/10

pe: 0/10

greek: okay girl i get u 8/10

latin: nice 7.5/10

idk what more i have so yeah 😭😭😭 bye

ik i have more classes but i really don’t remeber them

omg i need that dress

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𝙄'𝙡𝙡 𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡 𝙖𝙨𝙝𝙖𝙢𝙚𝙙 𝙤𝙛 𝙪𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙥𝙡𝙚𝙖𝙨𝙪𝙧𝙚

ykw fuck yeah

blue eyeshadow ‧₊˚𐙚⋅˚₊‧

so hi. i haven't opened tumblr in like a month as i was away from home for my scholar internship, now i'm back and i don't even know where to start. first of all, i hate my house and my parents, i wish i could go back to vienna every single moment of every day since i've been here. i despise my bedroom, i eat too much, my bed stinks and everything reminds me of depression. today's been the worst so far, i don't even have the strength to wake up or answer some texts. and viennaaaa, oh how i miss the place, and the people. to them, it probably isn't as important, this is just a normal experience a lot of teenagers do, but to me, it was most likely the closest i'll ever be to knowing what it feels like to be alive, to have a group of friends you can laugh with and get high with and to have people who care about you and know you, even if just a little bit. i was alone and i was alright. nothing will ever bring me back to those feelings. feelings my mind has already erased due to how i'm used to this sick place. and i don't want to go back to school, i fear there's no more energy in me to spend another year like the last few ones. always swinging, ranting and raving, feeling like I'm being dragged around. and that one boy...for the first time ever, i felt like i could be interested in someone in a normal way. for the first time, i wasn't obsessive or unnatural, at least not while living through the moment. only he has a girlfriend. and like, who am i fooling? i am able to recognise that i am not his person anyway, and that nothing would have happened even if he hadn't already been with someone because of how i normally act and handle these situations -i don't feel like i deserve to be with someone, I'm firmly sure nobody will ever feel romantic attraction towards me-, the problem is that i don't know how to forget and how to move on from all of the simple, yet special things that have come upon me, as it never happened to me before.

sometimes i just feel like i wanna hang myself

I rewatched the virgin suicides yesterday and now I don't know what to watch next cuz nothing compares to the virgin suicides it's literally the best film I've ever watched. If you have any recommendations pls pls pls tell me xoxo

I just found out that my dad has been listening to the virgin suicides soundtrack becuz apparently he's an air fan. I am my father's daughter after all

that girl didn't want to die, she just wanted out of that house ♡⋆ ˚｡ ⋆

real || ♡🎀