My Parents Suck - Tumblr Posts

My "parents" don't believe that I've lost almost 2kg a week

They're like "that's not possible"

It's fucking possible!

I've been restricting myself to eat only max 650 kcal a day and now it shows!

And they tell me to stop dieting

Oh no

I have a goal

I need to achieve that

With your soul, time, nerves, mental health and gods know what else

Tw for everything

"What will we do after you have an operation"

Funny

What about me? What will I do after the operation? Will I still be alive?

"You should lose weight, everything is going wrong because of your weight."

Thanks

Now I will starve myself even more

"How do you see yourself in the future?"

Dead

You make me want to kill myself even more

You are the fucking reason for everything

Everything is going wrong in my life because of you two.

You shouldn't have taken me from the orphanage

I will rot

I will suffer

I will die

And all thanks to you

It’s so hard to see any hope in my relationship with my parents. Each time I speak to them, no matter how much I try to deny it, it is so evident that I am seeking their approval. I want them to be proud of me. I want them to see me. I casually bring up how my competition season is going well, or a good grade I got on a test, or a nice moment with a friend. It somehow always seems that they are either not listening/don’t care, they turn it into an insult, or they refuse to see me in the light of someone caring and intelligent. My sisters are always better than me, worth more than me. My sister mentions her good grade, my mom tells her that she told everyone at work and my dad congratulates her. Then I tell them about my good grade, saying I’m smart too, and they laugh at me and don’t respond with any ounce of congratulations or pride. I feel invisible. They reduce me to something less than I am. They make me feel small. They will never see me. I have such depth, intelligence, and emotional capacity as a person…but they will never choose to see me in a way that isn’t negative.