Tw Stress - Tumblr Posts

Dude I’m really stressed out and for some reason I feel like I need to listen to music but whenever I try to I start to cry and hyperventilate and stuff and so I decided to just fuck it and now I’m crying while listening to the Rio soundtrack so that’s how my days going :)

Clearing my following list. I'm pretty tired of seeing discourse and rant texts all over my dash thank you very much. 

NOTE: Please don't take this personally! I'm not saying ranting or being salty is "bad". But I'm in so much stress lately and I'd rather not deal with too much negativity for a LONG while.

So yeah, a very unimportant post I'm just dropping, please don't mind.

Character Question 21

How do they deal with stress?

Bella: She'll read and read and read. She loves it and it's a perfect distraction. However, she also tends to repress, but she has less control. She won't have any outbursts, but she'll be quieter than usual and may swallow sobs during an intense conversation or if she's tired. She'll pause more frequently, but her voice won't crack, her words won't waver. Very few people can tell when she's stressed, and it takes a lot to coax it out of her and to sort through the issues.

Freddie: He will make and experiment to distract himself. He might come out of his lab with scorched eyebrows and blue fingertips, it wouldn't be surprising. You've seen this done before - when he heard Zach was coming, he immediately went to work on Cap's shield.

Zach: He'll practice whatever sport he's focusing on at that point. He will do it until his fingers are bloody and he's almost worn through his shoes unless the stress stops. He also loses control more often - he feels obligated to be cheerful, so he tries to repress the negativity, leading to bigger outbursts.

lil ranty ramble bc no one follows me and i want to say shit into the void also if someone read all of this let me know if i forgot any tws in the tags

ive been more stressed than ever with college + working 2 freelance jobs (theyre freelance but i have a steady amount of work in both, so no fixed schedule just a billion deadlines which makes me want to rip my scalp off)

i know im really stressed out when the palms of my hands start to kinda peel off. some lil blisters appear, the next day they pop and just become peeling skin. its kinda satistying to peel the skin so i dont use moisturizer or anything, i just have fun with it, but anyway the point is: built up stress

i have a really hard time dealing with stress and anxiety (by which i mean anxiety inducing situations, im not diagnosed with anxiety) because they put me in a kinda self destructive mood. not like in a self harm way, just drinking too much, hooking up with strangers (which is not a bad thing, just not my thing. ive used it as a kind of escape before), sometimes just sleeping so i dont have to deal with anything.

so thats where im at.

i have a birthday to go to today but my back hurts from working on my computer all day but also i wanna make terrible decisions and this would be a great opportunity. also my ex and his current girlfriend will be there so thats great

which brings me to lil ranty ramble part II: 2 ranty 2 rambly

i feel SO ALONE even though i know i have lots of friends, some truly are like family to me but i just dont feel like i fully trust anyone so i dont open up i dont talk about my problems or how im feeling or anything i just make jokes and im funny and silly and giggly. and i love being funny its what i like the most about myself (along with my boobs) but like oh my god how can you be friends with a person you know nothing about

i know thats not 100% true they know me and have been with me through some of the worst moments of my life and they still love me and blablabla i was diagnosed with depression like 8 years ago i know how this goes

but ya know what they say it do be like that sometimes (and it sucks

but yeah i guess thats what going on up in the cuckoo's nest haha lol

if anyone read this, thank you for being here