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Update: lunch. 🍽️ ⊹ ᨘ໑.
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TW: I do not glorify any mental illnesses/disorders. This is my journey, please do not follow anything I do. If you’re a minor, don’t interact, please. I won’t feel comfortable. I am pro recovery but not yet ready for that step.
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I skipped breakfast and did some cardio, I felt very lightheaded and dizzy so, I haven’t done much: Some stairs and a lot of walking. I’ve burnt 330 calories in total. I feel nauseous after eating so much, even if I ate very slowly.
LUNCH~ 220-255°calories
-two pieces of cottage cheese, not measured but not more than four bites. Very good.
-cherry tomatoes
-one rice cake (extra low calorie version)
water drank until now: 1.5 L
🩰 ּ ﹗ ˖ ་ 💭 !! I tried calculating them accurately but, I’m still pretty much training my eye at the moment. The food description wasn’t so clear, especially the cheese since it was very fresh and organic. The only thing with a clear description was the rice cake, 35 calories each.
༘ ྀ Update + struggles༣
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TW: I do not glorify any mental illnesses/disorders. This is my journey, please do not follow anything I do. If you’re a minor, don’t interact, please. I won’t feel comfortable. I am pro recovery but not yet ready for that step.
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VENT! ⋆ ࣪. . ` YOU DON’T HAVE TO READ!: My mom is forcing me to eat. They are eating pasta with tomato sauce and tuna, (popular pasta in Italy, I am living in Italy). I just cannot. I had a strong panic attack and now I’m struggling not to cry (I’m very sensitive when it comes to food, rehab made me hate food even more). I asked her if I could take it slowly and have just some tuna and a rice cake.
TW: I will have to pûk€ everything. I hate eating and then doing that. I prefer not eating at all. I feel so unlady like when I force myself to puke. ʚ(T T)ɞ I am so motivated nothing can stand in my way anyway, no matter the situation. If I have to do it, I will.
BRIGHT SIDE › ◟⊹ ˚˖
- for the sake of my optimism and motivation I will add a good side. I’ve worked out after lunch, burning 500 calories at least. woohoo 🥳 (trying not to have another meltdown LMAO).
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(:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅:♡:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅) edit from the foture: Tried pǔking everything but I couldn’t. Just a little 🗣️🗣️
Good morning!
TW: I do not glorify any mental illnesses/disorders. This is my journey, please do not follow anything I do. If you’re a minor, don’t interact, please. I won’t feel comfortable. I am pro recovery but not yet ready for that step.
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My parents are away! They will be away all day. YEPPIII, I can be hungry in peace now. Last night I felt so nauseous and empty…. Does anyone know any ways to prevent that? It’s my only problem.
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Ꮺ ָ࣪ ۰ . ݁ My pictures 𓄹͓ ˖࣪
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I have a love hate relationship with my arms and hands. I never feel like they are skinny enough. I had waaay better hands before “recovering” at the start of the year. (•᷄ࡇ•᷅)
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Morning sunshines ¸𓏲࣪ ˚.꒷
TW: I do not glorify any mental illnesses/disorders. This is my journey, please do not follow anything I do. If you’re a minor, don’t interact, please. I won’t feel comfortable. I am pro recovery but not yet ready for that step.
Skincare done, shower done and… my favourite part: scented body creams and body moisturisers!! The best thing ever. I love my pale and soft skin. 🤍
I had half a peach for breakfast, didn’t weigh it though. Oof, So I don’t know the calories exactly but I feel so good! Yesterday I only had a rice cake with egg whites, then refreshing cold water with lemon and fresh mint leaves from my garden!⊹ ִֶָ✧ 🧸
Coffee and cigarettes taste better after a fast🧸🎀
idk why i try so hard to hide my ed at this point. i mean i still live with my family but im almost 20 and technically they can't force me into inpatient or smth.
the only thing stopping me is not wanting to further traumatise my younger siblings. they deserve a better sister than me.
does anyone have a decent excuse as to why i would be measuring my meals on a scale??
i don't want my fam to be suspicious or think i am obsessed with food/cals (i 100% am lmfao)
my ed/bpd follows me everywhere, even all the way to my dreams. and im just so tired, sleepy, exhausted, and have so many things i need to do today...
god i just want a moment of peace.
guys i finally broke out of the 60kgs jail omg i weighed myself AFTER eating today and was 59.9kg im actually so happy and even more motivated
I hate hate hate being a younger ana so much, living with other people sucks especially when they ruin my progress, does anyone have ANY tips so my family won't shove food down my throat??
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I've been eating under 1000ish or less, sometimes 300 calories a day, yet I've stayed at the same weight do any if yall know wtf is going on 😭
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This is literally my DREAM BODY!!
My friend who's already soo much smaller than me has started tracking c@ls and tracking her steps.
Me because my friend with a fast metabolism does this.
why i need to stay consistent in october
•halloween
•can't look good in a costume unless your thin
•you don't want your girlfriend to think your ugly
•you don't want to be embarrassed when someone pulls out these photos
•don't you want to eat you halloween candy and not look like a hog
•don't you want to look the best
the most important responsibility i have is losing weight the most important responsibility i have i losing weight the most important responsibility i have is losing weight the most important responsibility i have is losing weight the most important responsibility i have is losing weight the most important responsibility i have is losing weight the most important responsibility i have is losing weight the most important responsibility i have is losing weight the most important responsibility i have is losing weight