I Miss Something That I Can't Even Describe Yet.

I miss something that I can't even describe yet.

Maybe the feeling of belonging somewhere, anywhere, I do not think I was ever really a part of something.

Everyone seems further away than even the stars.

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burned0utstar

1 year ago

Oh my fucking lord?

I just got asked about my special interest???

Holy fucking shit??

I am in love.

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burned0utstar

1 year ago

Someone I love tells me a story,

It reminds me of you,

Suddenly I am calling you good when you say you are bad.

Suddenly I am still in love with you.

And when I come back,

I am happy like it is now,

I see your name and smile,

My scars itch,

But I am getting better.

I am starting to heal.

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burned0utstar

1 year ago

Me when I get yelled at, hit, assaulted, bullied, hated, forced to do things, try to kill myself and overall survive terrible things: ●_●

Me when a minor inconvenience: *crying, shaking, throwing up*

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burned0utstar

1 year ago

I didn't mean to hurt you.

I promise all I ever wanted is for you to be safe.

I'm sorry that this almost killed you.

I never ment for you to hate me.

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burned0utstar

1 year ago

Yeah you should kill yourself for not liking percyfan94, everyone telling you to not kill yourself is actually nothing more than pieces of shits that really want to kill you

don't trust those that say that they wanted you to being alive, deep down, they really are rude to you for being queer, even your "friends"

suicide is the only answer

Wait, wait, wait, what???

Who the fuck is percyfan94??

I actually am out if the ward again and don't wanna actively kill myself rn, but thanks for the encouragement anyways.

I am queer and my friends are too, it's totally okay to be queer, I actually love being queer, it's like one of the things I'm proudest of.

Overall, what? What is going on, someone explain please???

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