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Met a real life "I'm being oppressed and attacked because I'm a strong Christian" the other day and I physically do not care pls shut up

Beijo da Morte.

Busco em preces não ouvidas, promessas vazias, juramentos abandonados, por um Judas fiel e um Jesus implacável.

Mas tudo se resume a palavras. O corpo nem mesmo reconhece seu poder de fazer o que deseja, enquanto eu só posso implorar, esperando talvez, ter.

Angeline Christ

Death's Kiss.

I search in unheard prayers, empty promises, abandoned oaths, for a faithful Judas and an unforgiving Jesus.

But it's all about words. The body doesn't even recognize its power to do what it wants, while I can only beg, hoping perhaps, to have it.

Angeline Christ

Oh hell, I absolutely feel that last sentence in your bio. Ex-Christian solidarity

Religion is difficult to say the least. And it’s nice to meet another ex-Christian!

Christian parents: Well, if all of your friends jumped off a bridge, would you?

Also Christian Parents: Just as Abraham was told to sacrifice his only son as an act of faith, God often asks us to do things we don't want to do and you just need to be okay with that.

Growing up religious gave me existential crisis & dread at an early age.

Look, we joke a lot, but really, "you were born evil, wretched, worse than the scum of the earth, and it took killing a god to make you salvageable, so now you'd better be grateful to that god and thank him 10,000 times a day for it and fill your thoughts with him 24/7 and abide by the letter of his every word, lest you suffer unimaginable torture for all of eternity" is a truly horrendous thing to believe about yourself and other people

I’m tired of healing I’m tired of waiting to heal I’m tired of researching what’s wrong with me I’m tired of feeling pathologized im tired of pathologizing myself im tired of not feeling safe im tired of overanalyzing everything im tired of not being able to make a decision im

Trigger Warning Below: blood and self harm

My parents made me go to church last weekend and I got really stressed out, to try and help myself focus through my anxiety I grabbed my arm, my fingernails scratched my arm, I tried to use a temporary tattoo to try and cover it up until it heals, the scabs were still visible and my brain got the best of me and I took of the scabs and cut one of my toes. Somehow my depression and my sense of creativity got mixed up and I painted the blood on the blade on my temporary tattoo. Below is a picture

EDIT: RECRUITMENT IS CLOSED!! Thank you sooo much to everyone who participated and filled out the screener. :)

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sooo um hi! I’m a graduate researcher and wondering if folks would be interested in my study! 👉🏻👈🏻

Are you an ex-fundamentalist, ex-evangelical, or ex-charismatic Christian? Me too, and I’m looking for people like us to participate in an academic research study (IRBNet NO: 1873336) on identity development among ex-Christians. If you want to participate, please fill out the screener survey listed on the flyer (bit.ly/aposidscreener). And please share with anyone you know who might be interested! Please message me or email me at fio . haire @ mnsu . edu for more information.

Thanks!

Fio Haire (they/he), master’s student at Minnesota State University, Mankato

Primary Investigator: Dr. Aaron Hoy (he/him), Assistant Professor of Sociology at Minnesota State University, Mankato

[Image description: A multicolored flyer with text that says:

IRBNet NO: 1873336

Research Study for Former Christian Evangelicals, Fundamentalists, and Charismatics

Conducted by Fio Haire and Aaron Hoy at Minnesota State University, Mankato

Now Recruiting Interview Participants

Participants must be:

- 18 or older

- Live in the U.S.

- Be able to converse in English or with assistive technology

- Identify as ex-evangelical/fundamentalist/charismatic

- Not currently identify as Christian

Complete the screener at bit.ly/aposidscreener

Questions? Email fio . haire @ mnsu . edu

Scan here! - image of an arrow pointing to a QR code.

Share your story in a research study on the identity development of ex-Christians!]

made an alt just to post songs 🙃 but it’s meaningful to me so why not

Today I broke 1,500 tracks in my Spotify master shuffle. To me, this is a big deal. Growing up, I wasn’t allowed to listen to anything but classical or Christian musician, and it took me a long time to undo that conditioning and find music outside of those realms that resonated with me. Listening to songs I’ve never heard before is an act of autonomy for me. I’m aiming to reach 2,000 songs by the end of the year and am using this blog to share my faves with others.

Listen along with me :)

Project “31 interviews in 40 days” complete! Thank you to everyone who has contributed to my master’s thesis project on identity development of ex-Christians; the interviewing process has been so life-affirming and hearing the stories of people in the ex-Christian community has reminded me over and over again why research in this area is so important.

I’ve reached recruitment capacity for this project, but I will undoubtedly be doing additional work on the topic of religious exit in the future. If you’d like me to reach out for a future project or if you’d like a copy of my master’s thesis when it is complete, please feel free to send me a message!

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YA BOY IS A PUBLISHED ACADEMIC IN SOCIOLOGY!!!!

Back in January 2021, I started writing a literature review for a class assignment that grew into something much bigger. My professor, Dr. Don Ebel, noticed my passion for the mental health of ex-Christians and encouraged me to seek publication for my literature review. Back then, I never would have thought publication in any reputable journal was possible, especially for a review article, but two conference presentations and many, many revisions later, it’s officially published as of today in Sociology Compass.

If you’re a student and/or have an institutional library access, the link below will take you right to it. If you’d like to read it but don’t have access to an academic library, please message me and I’ll happily provide a pdf copy. 🙂

(And feel free to share the link or pdf with others who might be interested!)

(P.S., for those who interviewed with me this summer, this is a completely separate project from that one, i.e., my thesis, which is still in the analysis stage.)

https://compass.onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/10.1111/soc4.13030

Hi folx!

I put out a call for participants in Spring 2022 for a research study on the experiences of ex-evangelicals, ex-fundamentalists, and ex-charismatic Christians. I wanted to update you on the progress of this research and provide a little info about where my analysis has led so far.

First, I want to thank those of you, from the bottom of my heart, who participated in this study, vulnerably shared your story, and contributed to a beautiful tapestry of narratives of autonomy, self-discovery, and empowerment. I was overwhelmed in the best way with the outpouring of responses, and I ended up interviewing 31 individuals with similar religious backgrounds. Far more of you wanted to be interviewed than I was able to schedule, and for that I am infinitely grateful.

My original intention with this project was to synthesize the narratives all of you shared into a study exploring the ways ex-Christians navigate the development of the self, and to have the analysis completed towards the completion of my master’s degree in May 2023. My writing and analysis for that paper is about 60% complete. During the time of interviewing and analysis, several complications arose in my own journey of self-discovery related to my own religious exit, that made continued engagement with the data difficult from a trauma perspective. I unfortunately had to put the project on hiatus during this summer, and I pursued a related but different project towards graduation this fall. That “pivot” project was an analytical literature review of existing studies that narrate mental health patterns during the process of religious exit for those leaving their religion. I graduated with my master’s this past Saturday. I would be happy to DM the PDF of that paper to anyone who would like to read it. The Appendix of the paper explains more about my decision to pivot to a different project for graduation, and the impact that this research has had on me as a researcher.

However, the project many of you contributed to is not over. I am committed to getting your stories out to the world, both to an academic audience and the general populace. To that end, I will be continuing the analysis as an independent researcher beginning in the new year, with the goal of having a complete draft to you by end of Summer 2024. During this process, if you would like, I would be more than happy to incorporate any new information you would like to share about your experience and work with one or more of you as beta readers or co-researchers (and thereby include you as a co-author on the paper if it successfully moves towards academic publication). For those I’ve already interviewed, I would also be happy to share your specific interview transcript if you would like to reflect back on the specific knowledge you contributed to the project.

I greatly appreciate your grace and patience with the writing, the analysis, and with me as a researcher-human living a journey alongside yours.

If you would like to assist with the project in any way (beta reading, ideas for analytical direction, contributing additional information or developments in your journey from the past year, being interviewed if you were not during the initial ask), I would be honored to work with you in that capacity. You are more than welcome to DM me with any questions, concerns, comments, or requests.

Thank you so much for existing as your whole self!

-Fio

sooo um hi! I’m a graduate researcher and wondering if folks would be interested in my study! 👉🏻👈🏻

Are you an ex-fundamentalist, ex-evangelical, or ex-charismatic Christian? Me too, and I’m looking for people like us to participate in an academic research study (IRBNet NO: 1873336) on identity development among ex-Christians. If you want to participate, please fill out the screener survey listed on the flyer (bit.ly/aposidscreener). And please share with anyone you know who might be interested! Please message me or email me at fio . haire @ mnsu . edu for more information.

Thanks!

Fio Haire (they/he), master’s student at Minnesota State University, Mankato

Primary Investigator: Dr. Aaron Hoy (he/him), Assistant Professor of Sociology at Minnesota State University, Mankato

[Image description: A multicolored flyer with text that says:

IRBNet NO: 1873336

Research Study for Former Christian Evangelicals, Fundamentalists, and Charismatics

Conducted by Fio Haire and Aaron Hoy at Minnesota State University, Mankato

Now Recruiting Interview Participants

Participants must be:

- 18 or older

- Live in the U.S.

- Be able to converse in English or with assistive technology

- Identify as ex-evangelical/fundamentalist/charismatic

- Not currently identify as Christian

Complete the screener at bit.ly/aposidscreener

Questions? Email fio . haire @ mnsu . edu

Scan here! - image of an arrow pointing to a QR code.

Share your story in a research study on the identity development of ex-Christians!]

Quote from Susan Cottrell on the difference between what we believe and Jesus' call to love.

Quote from Albert Einstein.

Why must I repent for my doubt?

I wish that I could forgive as easily

Mock exams are finally over and I can keep running my secret tumblr blog !!!