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Easy (Switch Screens) - Son Lux ft. Lorde This song is so awesome; have a listen. https://soundcloud.com/son-lux/easy-switch-screens-feat-lorde
ngl a lot of my posts are probably cringe but eh i don’t wanna fight that battle rn
in this house we don’t get hung up on past actions
an enchanting memory of love
icy fingers sparked as they met, souls intertwined in glazed breaths.
embraced by the soft glow of a celestial moon, your lustrous eyes left me in a daze too soon
tinkling laughter and your sweet smile, still etched in my memories, so vile.
I hate those days!
Life often feels like a fight against a greater force. The sad thing is that many people give you the impression that they are there to support you, but again and again you painfully realize that you are fighting all alone.
bro do you ever think about that feeling you get when you’re in school and excused in the middle of class and so you walk around and watch as a handful of bored students in their classrooms, too hot or too cold, notice you outside their windows and stare at you, envying your brief moment of freedom, and so you hold your head high and walk through the empty halls, nodding in solidarity at the few students who pass, and you just breathe in the sounds; the muffled voices of teachers presenting and students laughing and especially the way your shoes break the quiet with every step, tap tap tap, until you return to your classroom, the ribbon of serenity that once wrapped around your neck yanked off the second you dive back into the loudness of the space, whether it is a buzzing chatter or a resounding silence, the feeling shattered completely the second you lower yourself into your uncomfortable plastic seat? yeah no me neither bro
Always hold my hand babe always
Touching
Always touch me and love me 💗
Touching
Every damn time I want a specific art meme they never 100% fit what i want and i end up being a dumbass and going to the extra trouble to just make one myself to fit my own needs and wants
anyways color pallet meme! most of the pallets come courtesy of my own ocs/designs so thats a lil fun touch
Send a pallete+emoji+character and ill draw them in reply!
[Commission Prices] [Etsy]
❀ Pansy n°8 = Who are my / our Husbandos ?
*sigh*
You know how therapists say - at least tiktok ones :/ - that to be ready for a relationship you have to break off your imaginary ones first ? Well for me - and many people I’m sure - it is complicated to say goodbye to thousand that much fictive lives and lovers… Especially when it’s the only way I get to fall asleep, making up fake scenarios.
I dream so much about love, I’ve got to have it in some way, no ? Be it with fictional characters, celebrities, voice actors or even made up characters, I have to dream about a significant other loving up on me. Am I exposing myself too much ? Yes, yes I am … :/ But, f*ck it.
It is really easy to imagine a life with a celebrity as they are public personalities and we know so much about their lives. Too much… Moreover, your brain - and heart - does not make the difference between real people and fictional ones. That’s why you can feel truly heartbroken when a character you’ve grown attached to is sad or dies. Real or not, it makes no difference when emotions are thrown into the mix…
→ The way I realized this was true is pretty embarrassing but I’ll tell you anyway… I was young - around 17 - and in a big as well as deep spiderman / Tom Holland period. So much that it was concerning… :/ Then, pictures of Zendaya and Tom kissing came out and their relationship was outed. And… *sigh* My first reaction was crying. I felt heartbroken but mostly pathetic and embarrassed to be affected so much by it. I was disgusted by myself, because I was crying over something - someone - that had nothing to do with me. Yet it was a true awakening. After that I stopped - or at least I think I did :/ - to get THIS attached to my dumb celebrity crushes.
It also made me realize something really important.
We don’t know who our celebrity crushes are, not really. What we see of them is only through media, dramas, speculations… Their images are controlled and a source of income for many - *cough cough* paparazzis :/. Sadly, they don’t have the chance to live freely, away from camera lenses…
And we, their fandom, play a part in their objectification. It’s important to know that the person we have a crush on, write fictions about and obsess over is a made up version of them. It’s only how we picture them, how we’d like them to be. Not how they are, because we don’t know. We can’t know. And we shouldn’t, because they have a right to privacy.
We don’t know them, exactly how they don’t know each one of us.
So now, I see it more like having a crush on a fictional character. Because that’s what they become. They have made up lives and personalities. It’s fake, it’s fictional. And it’s okay. I think it’s better than knowing every detail and overstepping boundaries in their busy and stressful lives. It might be okay to admire and be attracted to them, but it definitely isn’t if we don’t respect that they stay humans and that in their place we wouldn’t want our lives to be invaded by strangers.
Nevertheless, drawing this conclusion makes me feel even more lonely. Plus, all these imagination filled scenarios definitely don’t help to have a realistic idea of love. I feel bound to be disappointed by life and love - especially by men :/. That’s the problem with overthinking, dreaming and projecting too much… You always end up falling from the high cloud you set yourself on.
Maybe one day I’ll find “the one” - whoever it may be or if they even exist. Only time will tell, for now I’ll try and deal with the loneliness.
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I dont know if this makes sense, but I just crave physical affection? But like, not friend affection, and not like sexually. I just, I want forehead kisses, and cuddling, falling asleep on each other. I want facetimes, and holding hands. I want hugs, to just be in someones presence? But not in like a friend way. I just want to be in someones presence, but like romantically?
Idk the difference between the platonic and romatic, but there is a difference, even if i cant explain what the difference is. idk, i guess I just want someone that wants to hang out? Like I have friends, and good friends, but I dont think im ever the priority. they all have better friends, yk? So like, im just kind of there? like i take up space, but not as much as everyone else? And i know its prob my fault, because im horrible at reaching out, but it doesn't make me want it any less.
Idk how to articulate it, but it just kinda hurts my heart to think about? Like, I want this so bad, but I also know it prob wont happen, because im like hella basic? and im annoying? So sometimes I see posts of couples, or even just people at my school, and it kinda feels like im mourning for something i dont/wont get to have.
its really late, so im sorry if this doesnt make sense, but im struggling a little bit, so yeah?