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[8:08 pm]

“Seungcheol one shot”

Pairing: Choi Seungcheol x female reader

Genre: Angst,

Warnings: mention of blood and self harm

Word count: 1.3 K

A/N: i want to say, don't hurt yourself no matter what, things will get better, just don't hurt yourself, you are really precious to some people out there. If things get hard, hang on there, things will get better

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[8:08 pm]

I shut the door, infront of her face, she can’t make me feel shit like this, she can’t, not after I wanted to be happy for once. She didn’t have to come to me just to make me feel miserable.

Even I have no idea how devastated I was, everything just hurts at this point. I wanted to get rid of all the thoughts, I was helpless, her guilt tripping worked on me, and I am really feeling like a mistake.

‘You are the worst child ever’

‘You don’t deserve to be here’

‘Hope no one ever gets a child like you’

‘I wish I never had you’

‘You are of no use, why are you still here’

‘You are such a rebel who never does anything I want and never listens to me. You will be alone, forever. Everyone will leave you’

‘You can never survive, no one needs you here’

These words hurts me, everytime I hear from her, but today it did something more to me, which I never wanted myself to feel, she told me everything I was feeling the same. Her words worked on me; I wanted to do something for once and finally I did but she can’t see my happiness and she cares about her reputation and everything? Is it this hard for her to accept me the way I am.

Am I really a mistake?

Will I be alone? Forever? Everyone will leave me one day? These thoughts scare me everytime, and this is scaring me, this is my biggest fear. I can’t stop crying, my heart hurts, I am alone, I miss warmth, am I really alone?

I want someone to hug me tight, I want someone by my side, because I can’t do this anymore, I want to end this suffering, I was few steps away from self-harming, I stopped it but why am I looking for ways to do this? just because it’s my coping mechanism? i can’t do this to myself not after he saved me. He always told me he will there be by my side, whenever I feel alone.

The room is filled with my crying noises only, “No, I can’t do this” this was the only thing I was saying to myself just to calm down and stop whatever I am doing but it wasn’t helping, my mind wasn’t listening to me.

I was holding phone in one hand, I went through the contacts and called him right away, I can’t do this anymore, I need to hear his voice. My tears were blurring my vision, I tried calling him once, twice, thrice, but my call was never answered, my phone fell from my hand. My legs went weak, I couldn’t think straight, is this everyone wants? Am I really a mistake? Should I leave? No one needs me here, everyone left me alone already, what am I waiting for?

“one more step and suffering will end here only.” The devastation in me was clearly visible, which couldn’t take it anymore.

Tears started falling more, I couldn’t stop crying, the feeling of being alone was eating me, my comfort person is not here, why can’t I deal with myself alone?

‘If you are depressed, you have to get help from people around you. Don't do it on your own’ his words were ringing in my ears, but my mind wasn’t listening to it at all.

I am just alone after all, I wish I was bit stronger to handle this, her arguments make me hurt more than anything else, it was not the first time I am like this, she was the reason I started self-harm, she never knew, she can never, I was losing myself everyday but there was this one person who helped me to get back at myself, I thought I was getting better but I don’t see myself doing better, she can break me into pieces. The power her words hold that she can make feel shit, unloved, alone, miserable and I can’t help but to absorb it instead of ignoring.

What can I do she is my mother after all?

I was holding the blade, so tight, that my other palm was already bleeding, “one more step” and everything ends.

That’s when I thought everything is over, there I saw him running, he came running towards me, and hugged me tight, the blade fell on the floor.

Blood already started flowing through my hand and leaving the stains on the floor, my legs went weak, I fell, he was still holding me tight in his embrace.

“Erica!”

There I broke down, my cries got louder, how he comes and saves me everytime?

“what were you trying to do just now?” he shook me hard, looked at me and then hugged me again

“You are not this weak Erica, you are not this weak, how many time I have told you, I am here for you, I can’t lose you Erica not you”

“I can’t do this anymore Seungcheol, I can’t do this anymore” I was holding him tight, my bloody hands were holding his shirt tight, making his white shirt go red. He was caressing my back, he was trying to calm me but I wanted to let it out, I just couldn’t stop crying. My cries got louder and louder; I just couldn’t think straight. What was I trying to do just now, I was trying to end everything? What about my loved ones?

“Please stay Seungcheol, please stay.” I was sounding so desperate; I just couldn’t think of anything else but him and his warmth.

“I am here love, I will never leave you, so stop hurting yourself.”

“This hurts, she hurts me everytime cheol, this is so sick.” My cries were never ending.

He lifts me up, and made me sit on the bed, he was about to go, I held the hem of his shirt, “I am not going anywhere. I am here” he removed my grip and went to bring the first aid box. He came back, he was sitting on the floor, he took my hand, he was cleaning the blood

“don’t give the power to anyone to ruin you and make you feel like this, that you want to end everything” his words making my body numb, I couldn’t help but to cry harder. “always remember you are someone’s pride, happiness and source of strength”

“I’m sorry” that was all I could utter, even I don’t know myself what was I doing back then, how come he always makes me feel better whenever I feel like everything’s over.

He cleaned the blood carefully and applied ointment; he was dressing it carefully. I couldn’t help but to cry more. He always takes care of me.

“Is it hurting a lot?” he asked softly, I shook my head.

“Cheol?”

“Hmm” he hummed

“Can I please cuddle with you? Please?” my voice broke while speaking.

“Let me keep this first aid box” he was so tender with his words, his voice is my comfort, I just can’t help it but to love him more, how come I was thinking of leaving everything behind and put everything to and end. The way his love made me stronger, I don’t want to leave him, he is my everything, my pride, my happiness and my strength.

He kept the first aid box and came towards me, he was cuddling with me and pulled the blanket and covered me, I hugged him tight and I felt safe. He was caressing my hair, “love” his voice was nearly a whisper

“hmm?”

“don’t care too much about other, love and trust yourself more and I am here for you, forever. So never do it again please, it scares me. I don’t want you to do something like this because of someone who never cared for you.”

“I’m sorry”

“I love you, I can’t lose you, you are so precious to me and to everyone” he kissed my forehead.

“I love you, thankyou so much for everything Seungcheol” I said and closed my eyes.

It's his birthday ~

Seungcheol one shot

Pairing: Choi Seungcheol × Female reader 

Genre: Fluff

Word count: 1.4 K

A/N: It’s cheol’s birthday, i just thought how it would've been if we celebrated his birthday like this? seungcheol, deserves all the love in this world, he deserves the whole universe, he is just so lovely. 

[11:45 pm]

I looked at the clock and him, simultaneously, he looked so adorable when he sleeps, I was admiring his face, he looks like a fallen angel, I just love him, how did we become like this? looking back to our days, I fell for him at the very first sight, I didn’t realize how he became so important for me, I started caring about him and started liking him until I realized I am already in love with him and today I am here, by his side. My fingers went to his bangs and I started admiring it, his bangs looks so pretty on him. his hair always wants me to run my fingers through his hair, only I know how much I resist it, because they are just soft. Like his boy who is sleeping peacefully infront of me, is just perfect, and I am madly in love with him, more like totally smitten by him. I looked at the time, the clock shower 11:50pm.

I went down to my kitchen, I didn’t want to wake him up now or else my surprise will be ruined, I had to tip top because of him, although this big baby is sleeping but he will find out that I am not by his side and will start searching. I went down hurriedly.

I went to check the cake, it looked perfectly baked, I took it out carefully, it was hot. I took out the cream and cherries, cheol loves cherries. I started decorating it slowly and carefully, my patience will help me today, I have to hurry but I can’t mess this cake. After I was done with cream, I started placing cherries, and once I am done, I looked at the clock, it showed 11:56pm.

I still have 4 minutes, I took out the candles, and placed it carefully on cake, and switched off all the lights except the lights I used for decorations. One good thing that happened, I managed to do this with Jeonghan and Joshua. I looked at the time once more, they should’ve been here by now, I went to the door, and opened it, in a hope maybe they will arrive soon. I was getting impatient, I wished they didn’t call me on my phone because it’s not with me right now, I left it on my bedroom. I just closed the door, without locking it so that they can get access to it when they arrive and they don’t need to ring the doorbell. I looked at the clock and it showed 11:59pm.

I sighed because of Hannie and Shua, I went running to the bedroom.

There he was sleeping peacefully and looked so comfortable and ethereal while sleeping. I went near him and tried waking him up.

“Love, wake up.” I tried waking him up, I was so desperate to wish him at 12:00 because I know he will get sulky if I miss 12:00 am after few attempts he woke up, he rubbed his eyes sweetly, he smiled and looked confused, “What’s wrong baby? Why are you awake?” he looked so adorable and confused. Before he could speak another word, I wished him

[12:00 am]

“Happy Birthday baby” and hugged him tight.

I could feel he was taken aback for a second and smiled, I could feel his smile, he hugged me back.

“Thankyou so much princess”

“It’s your birthday today, did you forget?” I asked him, still not leaving him.

“Yes, I forgot but now I remember”

“You were so sulky last time when hannie didn’t wish you at 12:00 am and now look at you, forgetting your own birthday” I told him, he pulled back from the hug.

“But now I have you, who will remind me everytime if I forget something” before I could say him something, he pulled me into a kiss, he pulled me closer and my hands went to his neck, I just couldn’t help myself, I missed his soft tender lips on me, before he could kiss me deeper I pulled back. He pouted, very obviously he didn’t want to stop.

“Don’t pout now let’s go downstairs” I held his hand,

“Close your eyes before we go downstairs and no cheating and also don’t open until I tell you to.” he closed his eyes, and he didn’t cheat like last time, Jeonghan gives him so many ideas, I just can’t believe him, like he got an amazing brain, well he is Yoon Jeonghan for a reason.

I held his hand and took him to the table where I kept the cake, and lit up the candles first, I tried looking for Jeonghan and Joshua, they were still not here and the clock was ticking, it was 12:10 am already, I wonder what re they upto. I wanted to wait for them, they are his bestfriends, how can I celebrate seungcheol’s birthday without them? We can wait for them. Once they come, they need a good lecture from me.

“Can I open now princess?” here he is being way to cute, how to resist his cuteness, I always melt because of that. “You can open your eyes cheol” I replied him with a smile.

“You did this?” he gasped, I mean it was not a grand decoration but it was just perfect, soft, sweet, cozy.

“Yes but Jeonghan and Shua helped me too, when you were out today. Three of us did this together, I wanted to do something special for you and asked them for a little help so we did it.”

“Awwww, my princess, thankyou so much”

“Seungcheol will you stop teasing me? You know it very well whenever you call me princess my heart can’t take it.”

“That’s why I love it, I love calling you princess”

“Cheol stop I swear-

And there he kissed me again, I was speechless, his fingers went to my cheeks, caressing it, his touch was working on me again. he knows my weakness to well, this is our fourth year together and fourth year celebrating his birthday, but I am still not used to “princess” it just makes my heart skip a beat, it gives me butterflies and he knows it too well, being the biggest flirt, he knows everything, how to deal with me, make me blush, make my cheeks go hot, give me butterflies, he knows it all and I'm still not over his tactics.

I couldn’t resist again and put my hands around his neck, he pulled me closer, my eyes were closed but I could feel his stares on me, he just knows how to make things go his way, if he needs a kiss, he would kiss me and if it’s a no from me he would get sulky and I would give in.

“Thankyou so much for everything you’ve done for me love, I love you so much” he whispered

“I love you too cheol, love you a lot” I said he was about to kiss me once again but voices made him stop.

“Coups, that candle will melt anytime soon and then what? She made the cake for you, don’t let it get wasted because of wax”

“Joshua?” I asked

“Yes” it was Jeonghan who replied

“Jeonghan?”

I went to them and gave a good smack on their head, they were holding gifts, “when did u come?” I asked them, very well aware they both of us didn’t notice them coming.

“Just before you confessed eachother” I was embarrassed at this point. Jeonghan is a very big teaser, I don’t want him to tease me till my last day in earth before he could speak something, I spoke “Since both of you are here, let’s celebrate this big baby’s birthday and thanks for finally coming and you are LATE”

Seungcheol was watching everything and just smiling, I looked at him, even his smile is adorable, god this boy, he is just way to adorable.

We all gathered around the table, and Seungcheol, closed his eyes before blowing up the candle, he made a wish and blew the candles.

“Happy Birthday Seungcheol” three of us wished him

“Happy birthday love, I love you” even if I tell him” I love you for the nth time it still feels that’s it’s still less, my love for him is something else “thankyou for being born, love and bringing happiness to my life. You have no idea how much special you’re to me, you are my home, my comfort, my happiness and my everything. Being with you made me realize that I love you more than myself and there you stand, I will love you till the last, so be happy, you mean a lot to me.”

Before I could tell him more, that how much I appreciate him, he sealed me with a kiss, “I know and I love you more”

[11:30 pm]

“Seungcheol one shot”

Pairing: Choi Seungcheol x female reader

Genre: Angst

Warnings: no warning as far as I know, it’s a sad one

Word count: 822 words

A/N: this was in my drafts, i dont know how's it, but hope you like this ; i actually wanted to write for people who feel they are not loved, we don't need any reason to be love 🥺💕

[11:30 pm]

Tears weren’t stopping, I wished I never went there to visit them; it hurts. Going back home, is it even my home? Is it called home? That’s absurd. Whenever I go back there; they just humiliate me for what I am doing and for not coming back home after I left it years ago. I go there for monthly visit and still get treated like shit; I can’t handle this. I apologize for things I haven’t done. I am not going there back again. every time this happens, they never appreciated my presence just comparing me with all the shit. I never asked for anything but still they keep on going on like I am the main problem in their life. Every time I say I won’t go but I always go back to them, why? Because they are my parents. I try not to care but I know myself well.

Tears were making my sight blurry; I was somehow driving. Keeping myself sane with music, it’s the only thing which can keep me sane and calm. I reached my apartment; it was still raining outside. I parked my car and went out of the car, rain made me wet. Rain pouring on me, just wanted me to cry harder, as if it’s telling me to cry. Slowly step after step, I reached the door and pressed the bell, trying to hold back tears.

He opened the door, he was shocked at first when he saw me and his eyes showed me how worried he was, “are you okay? Why are you soaked? Come inside? What happened?? Tell me”

All I could do was nod him, he held my hand tight and brought me inside. “remove your shoes and stay here” he went inside running and came back running to me, he brought towels with him. He covered me with one and another towel on my head; he brought me inside.

“Do you want to change first? You are totally soaked Min, you’ll catch a cold. I brought your clothes; do you want to change?” he was about to go to bedroom but I held his wrist.

“Seungcheol ah, why… why do you-love m-me?” I hardly managed to ask him, he looked at me with those worried eyes which can just tell you a story how much he is worried right now.

“Min, are you okay?”

“tell me first, why do you love me?” my cries got louder, everything was hurting as usual but this time it was hurting a lot, like it never did. I was breaking down into pieces, I wasn’t okay, it was paining and hurting.

“I asked you Min”

“Why do you love me when everyone hates me?!? I don’t understand, it feels like you are the only person who cares for me? Since childhood, I’ve lost friends, even my bestfriend left me and I till date I don’t know why, is it because of me? or was our bond that weak or did my parents do something? I never know. Every time it hurts, it still does but this time it’s hurting more, it shouldn’t hurt like this. I always think I am strong, and I shouldn’t get affected by all this but how can I fool myself? They hate me and say things like I shouldn’t have bo-

He sealed me with a kiss.

“Never say that, I love you and you should know that only, it doesn’t matter if someone hates you or not. You are the one whom I love, that’s it.”

“Seung-cheol” I couldn’t hold it anymore, he hugged me tight. “I’m sorry, I am sorry” I just think I should apologize for everything and for everyone.

“Don’t be sorry, don’t cry. You didn’t do anything and don’t cry”

I nodded and hugged me tight, “my baby” he smiled at me

He always cares for me, whenever I’m with him, I feel safe, just safe. I don’t know how he loves me because till now I never understood why he loves me. No one loves me till now, I was always that loner and I fell in love with this person. He was the only one who helped me, cared for me, walked me till the bus stop, waited for me outside after school and college hours. Just one incident in school, being partners for a project changed everything.

“I love you for who you are Min, you’re brave, you don’t fake anything, I’ve seen you since we were in high school and till now, I never regretted loving you. You are perfect the way you are, you are someone who was sent by heaven, and you need love and care; if someone or no one can give, I am here, to give you the love and care you need. I love you, more than you can imagine my love”

“thank you for loving me, thank you so much”

i missed you;

“Seungcheol one shot”

Pairing: Choi Seungcheol x female reader

Genre: Slice of life, a bit of angst

Warnings: mention of pregnancy

Word count: 2.1 K

A/N: Finally I am posting this, this was in my drafts since a long time; lemme know if you like this, I was wondering cheol would be the best dad for sure.

“Sehyun baby where are you?” I called her. I kept the bowl after washing; I rinsed my hands and took off the apron. I went to the living room searching for her “Sehyun, baby, Choi Sehyun where are you baby?”

“Mommy!!” I felt a back hug and I looked back and her. She was smiling sweetly at me; I bent to her level and ruffled her hair. “Baby where were you?”

“I miss daddy” she was looking down, I picked her up in my embrace; “Dad is coming today baby, we will go to airport soon. We need to get ready” she was holding something in her hands.

“What are you holding love?” I asked her, she smiled at me, “Chocolates!!! I want to give chocolates to daddy.”

“Awww, my baby” I kissed her and she hugged me tight. I miss him a lot but Sehyun must be, missing him more than me, she was just one and half years old when she hugged him last and felt his touches. I can’t imagine how Sehyun will react when she will see him. ‘Seungcheol, I want to see you, I miss you’. I am just happy he is finally coming back.

I looked at the time, it was 5 pm already, “baby we need to go change because we will go meet daddy soon, okay?” she nodded and smiled. I took her to our bedroom and changed her into a cream colour dress with cherry print on it. I combed her hair and made her sit on the bed. I went to my closet to choose something; I was going through my clothes and noticed the white dress I brought on my birthday last month; I took it out. I wanted to try it, I wore it once only, “Sehyun… should mommy wear this?”

“You will look pretty mommy!!!” she was smiling so wide; I love her so much. I went to her and kissed her on her cheeks. She got his eyes, her eyelashes are long just like him, her dimples remind me of him. All the beautiful features are from him, the way she resembles him the most; makes her look so lovely.

I changed into the white dress, and let my hair down. I combed my bangs and applied light makeup, and cherry lip tint. I looked at my wedding ring for the last time and smiled, it shined when I moved my finger; it reminded me how he put the wedding ring in my finger so carefully that day. I can’t believe we came this far together, from dating and being campus sweethearts to husband and wife, who have a little angel now. It’s been five years since we got married and Sehyun is three years, everything feels like a dream, a dream I would never want to wake up. I grabbed my car key, phone, my sling bag and picked up Sehyun in my arms. “baby let’s go”

I went down, wore my heels and helped Sehyun with her shoes. She looked adorable. “Mommy ready!!” she looked so excited; this is my first time taking Sehyun with me to the airport to pick Seungcheol alone. I locked the door and Sehyun ran to the car. “Sehyun don’t run, you will fall” I told her but she is just like him, she won’t listen and will do what she wants to do.

“Mommy open! I want to go inside” she was jumping near the car, she looked more excited from me; I walked to her and unlocked the car. I made her sit in the middle, of the back seat and put on the straps on her from both the side; making sure she is seated safely. I double checked on her and got into the car. “Love let’s go” and I started driving. I turned on soft music, “Mommy, I can’t wait.”

“Yes baby, I know. But let mommy drive now, or else if I get distracted, we will get into an accident.”

“Okay mommy, I will not call you while driving” I could see her soft small smile from the mirror, she is cute.

“Good girl” Sehyun is a three years old girl, but the way she always listens to me when she should and that always amaze me, she is growing up well.

There were times when she would cry and tell she is missing seungcheol; she would call him and cry all night. Some sleepless nights were just painful, she would just cry and looking at her would make me cry and hurt; even if I miss him, but looking at her makes my heart hurt. She’s too precious and the way she reminds me of him, I miss him more and more. I can’t forget those days when I was carrying Sehyun inside, he used to take care of me like I’m a fragile glass. He would always deal with my mood swings, take care of my weird cravings, always comfort me after my morning sickness, he wouldn’t let me do any work at all and what not, he used to take days off just to take care of me, it was very hard for him I could see that but he never told anything or complained me. I can never thank him enough for taking care of me like that, maybe that’s how someone feels they go through pregnancy. I never lived apart from Seungcheol till now, that’s why when he said he needs to go to a different country for a project and since he is the head of HR department, and he needs to go with his team, I was sad because Sehyun was just one and half years, and I can’t just go, stay with him there just because I would miss him. He wanted to take me there with him but I refused, I knew I won’t stop him because it’s his work and he doesn’t have a choice. So, I let him go, but who knew I would miss this terribly and it would be this hard to take care of Sehyun alone; I was working sometimes it would be really hard for me to manage everything, working from home was exhausting as well. I regretted staying apart from him, almost blaming myself for not saying yes to him when he asked me if I want to go with him, because it will be for two years. I remember calling and crying all night after Sehyun slept, I stayed with Seungcheol’s mom and dad for a year; she helped me with Sehyun a lot but they had to go back since they had some work there; and I didn’t stop mum since it would be a bit hard for dad to manage everything alone there along with work load. Everything was so hard until Sehyun turned 3 years old, she listens to me sometimes and I quit my job too, now I just want to spend my time with Seungcheol and Sehyun; I feel empty when Sehyun goes to playschool.

After an hour I reached airport, I looked for parking and parked my car. I got out and went to take out Sehyun, I picked her up and locked my car. “Mommy when will dad come?”

“Soon”

We went inside the airport, we were waiting for him to arrive, Sehyun was getting impatient, she is just like him. I saw his flight arrived and I was waiting patiently, Sehyun was on my lap holding chocolates, she wanted to give to Seungcheol. The clock was ticking, I was trying not to get impatient. I wanted to calm myself down but I know I can’t because I missed him so much that I can’t stop myself from being impatient, nervous, happy and tears almost coming out. Missing a person like this, never happened in my life.

I remember, when I came here with Sehyun last time; she was just one year old and he was leaving. I remember crying so much, Sehyun was crying; mum came with me to see him off. I remember not leaving him, and hugging him tight until he had to go inside for check in, he was just telling me to take care of myself and whipping my tears. I remember crying all night that day, I would just call him and cry, I would miss him so much and had to take care of Sehyun, it was exhausting thanks to Seungcheol’s mum, she helped me a lot. Every morning I would wake up with Sehyun but it would feel cold, because he wasn’t here with me to cuddle, I would miss his morning kiss and goodnight kiss; which made my day and end my day but without him everything felt so lonely and empty. I would never want to go back to those days.

I almost teared up thinking about those days because I know how hard it was for me. It felt like I wouldn’t survive a single day anymore but I did.

“Mommy let’s go stand there please, I want to see daddy first” Sehyun had that adorable face on her, which I can never resist. I nodded.

“Okay my baby let’s go” I got up and held her in my arms. She was smiling, her smile could heal me from anything.

I was standing then I saw him walking, he was wearing white t-shirt, his favorite denim jacket, black jeans and white specs. He was looking perfect as usual, his bangs were falling perfectly on his forehead, giving him the most adorable look ever.

“Don’t cry I am here~” my grip around his shirt was tight, I just couldn't let him go, “I missed you too love” he was caressing my hair, he always does this to me. My cries got louder, his voice was just comforting as always.

It felt like world stopped then and there, it looked like he was taking forever to come to me. “Mommy let me down!!!” I let Sehyun down first and saw her running to him; I saw him halting his steps and bending down. Sehyun got him and hugged him tight. Seungcheol took her in his arms, and picked her up. My tears started falling even though I wanted to stop them, they weren’t listening to me. Cheol kissed her and hugged her again, I was walking and then our eyes met. I smiled, trying to stop my tears, I wanted to walk slowly and not let him see that I am again crying for him, but my mind wasn’t listening to anything at all; all I wanted to do was run to him and hug him tight.

I saw him letting Sehyun down, I went to him and hugged him tight; he hugged me back. I couldn’t stop crying, it felt so good to be in his embrace again, all these days I craved his touches the most. I inhaled his green aromatic scent, which I missed the most, the safe and comfort feeling which I craved for the most is back.

“How are you love?” he kissed my cheeks.

“I… miss…ed you….” My voice cracked; I just couldn’t explain how much I missed him.

“mommy don’t cry please” she started crying, I looked at Seungcheol, his eyes soften he hugged both of us and pulled us closer. “Sehyun, daddy is sorry now don’t cry and mommy will not cry too.” Sehyun was sobbing lightly, I looked at both of them, they are my little universe, Seungcheol was trying to calm Sehyun and he eventually held her in his embrace and pulled me closer.

“Daddy!! Mommy is crying again, just like she does because of you, I hate it when mommy cries, daddy please stop her from crying.” I heard Sehyun’s voice, I let go of his shirt, wiped my tears and looked at Sehyun, she was tearing up. I picked her up and kissed her cheeks; “baby mommy won’t cry anymore because daddy is here now”

He placed a kiss on my forehead, “I love you, my love. Sorry for not being here but now I am back”

“I love you too” I smiled at him and he pulled me closer.    

“I’m sorry for being late”

“Seungcheol one shot”

Pairing: Choi Seungcheol x female reader

Genre: Angst? mafia au

Warnings: mention blood, gun, bullets, anxiety

Word count: 2.5K

Author’s Note: I was confused which member would go with this and then I literally went to twt just to ask oomfs and they suggested Jeonghan? I was in dilemma should I put Jeonghan or Seungcheol but I’m ending up with Seungcheol because of the grip this man has on me. Hopefully you’ll like this, happy reading <3

I came out after a long shower, I was feeling better. I blow dried my hair and then looked at the time, it was 1:17 am. I went towards the bed, and saw Aera sleeping peacefully, she was missing him a lot and finally slept an hour ago. I wonder when will he come back, even I miss him. Everything was so dead silence; I could see the black clouds floating in the sky. Being a doctor, and being the wife of the biggest mafia in this country, leaves me with a question, that is; seeking for peace? It’s just something you can get only for countable times only because you’re the one who choose this thing for your life.

Living like this I need to be aware of everything. Be careful everytime, at work, at home, literally everywhere. I walked to the balcony, I looked at the moon, it looked so pretty. I miss him, I know he will be back soon but I miss him, I miss his warmth and his cuddles at night. I sighed thinking about him, I went back to check up on Aera, she’s sleeping peacefully.

I was sitting on the bed, and I heard something, it was a sound of something falling. I shrugged it off maybe because the windows are open and the wind is quite strong, I diverted my attention back to Aera. I was caressing her hair, I love her so much, nights like this, when he is late, I just stare at her to make me feel comforted, because she’s a part of him.

I kissed Aera’s forehead, “I love you so much baby” and then I heard the sound of glasses falling and breaking. I got startled because of that, I looked at the time, it was 1:29 am. The sound of things falling and breaking started getting clearer. My instincts were telling me something was wrong, I took my phone was on the night stand and ran to the balcony, everything was silence, not a single person was visible. I went to switch off the night light which were on. I tried calling, Seungcheol, I was not sure what was happening, I looked at Aera who was sleeping.

I went to the wardrobe, there was a gun; which he gave it to me, he told me to use it; if something happens. I ran towards the wardrobe and searched for the gun, I heard a gunshot. My hands stopped for a second then resumed searching for it, I can’t stop here and I realized I’ve 4 years old Aera with me. I opened the last drawer and found the gun.

I took it out and went to Aera, I tried waking her up and I was still trying to call Seungcheol but he wasn’t picking up. He never does this, I was calling him again and again but there was no response, I was getting scared. I tried waking up Aera, “baby wake up, Aera?”

“Aera wake up, baby wake up” after shaking her few more times, she slowly opened her eyes. She was about to speak and I shushed her, “Aera, I need you to listen to mama” she nodded, “from now on don’t make a noise and we will be going to dad right now, I will be driving, okay? Can you be a good girl and listen to mama?” she nodded, she rubbed her eyes and I picked her up, I gave her the phone, “baby try calling dad” I was holding her in one side and grabbed the car keys which were on the table; I was holding the gun in other hand.

I heard one more gunshot and I covered Aera’s ears. I looked at her, her eyes were teary. She was never exposed to this and I don’t want her to get involved. She was shivering in my embrace, I walked towards the door, and since everything was dark I have to be careful. I opened the door without making any noise and the sound of footsteps got closer. I stood there to know from where they are coming.

“Mrs. Choi, we know you’re here. You better come out right now or else we can’t guarantee what’s gonna happen next” I took a glance at Aera, she looked like she was about to cry. I kissed her and whispered “baby, hold me tight and the phone, don’t drop it no matter what” she nodded and her tears started streaming down. I ran down the stairs which was on the other side. The darkness was replaced by the light suddenly, I looked up and then noticed five men, holding guns, all dressed in black. They noticed me, and as soon as they had the eye contact, my mind went blank because I was standing in the halfway of the stairs. I couldn’t think of anything and shot the lights and the chandelier, it fell and Aera screamed. I ran towards the door and somehow managed to get out of the door and just went towards the garage. I ran towards my car, Aera was crying very badly. I wanted to comfort her but I need to get out of this place and go to Seungcheol as soon as possible. I placed Aera inside the car as fast as I can and put the straps around her, she was a crying mess. Nothing like this happened after Aera’s birth, I kissed her on her cheeks and wiped her tears “Baby, few minutes more”. I closed the door and got into the car as well and started driving it. As soon as I started driving, I heard gun shots and I looked from the mirror that they were shooting at our car so I had to speed up car.

“Aera call your dad, right now” I won’t lie if I said I wasn’t scared, and it’s not only me alone, I’ve Aera with me. I can’t let anything happen to her, she’s my life. I connected my phone with the car. He still wasn’t picking up, how can he do that? I already called him so many times, he doesn’t even have time to pick my calls now? Or did something happen? Thinking about this, it gave me goosebumps. I again tried calling him, and he still didn’t pick up.

My eyes were focused on the road, I knew where he would be right now, so I was driving, I can’t be reckless even if I’m scared like this, because I’ve our daughter with me. I was trying to calm myself down, being a doctor, I know how to calm myself in serious situations down but nothing was working for me right now. I somehow managed to find the contact of Seungcheol’s Secretary, I was about to call him and I heard a gunshot and to my surprise, the bullet hit my car.

I heard Aera’s cries “Mommy I’m scared” I couldn’t help anything at that moment and drove the car with speed I was driving in, I called his Secretary. “Wh-

“Where is Seungcheol??!! GET HIM IN THE LINE RIGHT NOW,”  I didn’t think I would yell at him like this, yes I was pissed and terrified and that’s the result, I was holding back my tears because of Aera, I cant cry our infront of her.

“I NE-

AH” I let out a scream, the moment I felt their car gave a good hit to my car. I had no choice other than driving the car with all the speed I could.

“Ma’am” that was the last word from Mr. Lee I heard before the line went dead, I wanted to hit the streeling wheel so bad, I wanted to kill those people. I pulled my car to the highway and drove it without getting distracted. Thankfully I know the way to Seungcheol’s place, I can’t rely on him fully when he is not even picking up my call. “Mama, I want to see Dad” I heard Aera’s cries, my heart was aching so bad, I wanted to hold her and calm her down.

“We are on the way sweetie” I have no idea why are tears streaming down my face.

After good fifteen minutes, I didn’t see any car following me, I heaved a sigh and slowed down my car to the normal speed and drove to his place. I wanted to relax but my anxiety wasn’t giving me a break. I was about to take another turn and I saw a car infront of me, I pressed the breaks with all my force and stopped my car from hitting the car which was infront of me.

How can a person be so careless, what if that car accidently hit mine or I did the accident? I saw three more cars coming, from back and I knew I am in dead end. I took the gun which was in the passenger’s seat, I had just one thought, that was I need to save Aera. I held the gun tight and went out of the car, and went to take out Aera. She looked scared and I kissed her on her temples, I wish she could smile right now to make me feel better. I held her tight in my arms. I saw three men coming out from the car which was standing infront of me, dressed in black.

Only I knew how much I was shivering with fear and how badly I wanted to run away or just want to be in Seungcheol’s embrace. My gun was ready, if I pull the trigger, I can kill these people but since I already used two bullets back at home, there are few bullets left and I can still go for 16 rounds.

“Mrs. Choi, you sure are so pretty, you look prettier at night.” I heard one of them who was walking towards me.

“what do you want?” I screamed back, I was still standing near my car. “If you come closer, I will shoot you, so be careful, I know how to shoot and I will directly aim your head or heart, don’t forget I’m a doctor, I know better than anyone else where to shoot”

“Pretty girls with weapons are dangerous I guess” he took a pause “You should know the reason, why we are here, such a shame.” That man laughed hysterically, I wanted to shoot him so bad. “Baby please close your eyes” and I brought Aera’s face closer to the crook of my neck, I would never want her to witness these things. The whole place was silent and I could hear them walking towards me, “I told you don’t come closer” when they didn’t stop, I pulled the trigger aiming one of them and shot him.

“Lady take it easy! Why would you shoot him?” I wanted to buy time but they weren’t cooperating at all, how much I wanted Seungcheol to track me and come. “I told you, if you come closer I will shoot you and kill you right here, don’t you understand?”

Three of them came closer, I was stepping back bit by bit, I can’t take risk but I already took the risk and shot one of them. Soon, I was facing them and they were right infront of me, and I heard the cars stopping. “Don’t try to over smart us, Mrs. Choi.” And he held my chin tightly, I removed it with all the force I had, “How dare you touch me” and I kicked him on his knee. He groaned in pain.

He took out the gun and directly pointed it to Aera, I held the gun, “Don’t you dare to do anything or else I will kill you before Seungcheol finds you and kill you” I had enough courage to say this. I took out the gun and pointed to his chest, “Don’t you dare to do shit right now or else I will pull this trigger”

“And do you think you and this kid will live after you shoot me?” he had a smirk, I felt more people coming towards me. This can’t be the end, right? I ain’t losing my life like this.

He was looking back at his members, and I got a chance so I started taking steps to my right side, so that I could shoot them and run, I was left with no choice but to run as much as I can. “Mrs. Choi” he called up my name again, and I froze “what are you thinking?” he looked at me, and I was successfully at a distance from this man. I aimed the gun at them, “Try something stupid and we will kill you and your daughter here, and you great husband can’t even find your bodies” I felt my shoulder getting wet, Aera was crying.

“Do you think I’m scared? I will kill you before he does” I pulled the trigger and next thing I felt was a sharp pain on my arms, a bullet hit me, and my gun fell on the ground. “Jia!”

There was a gunshot, I looked to my left, I saw him running towards me, tears started streaming down my face, I tried running towards him without even thinking twice. I don’t care even if a bullet hits me right now, I want him, I want him to hold me tight, I want to be in his embrace, my home.

I saw him taking out his gun and shoot back-to-back; blood dripping down my arms, it was hurting me. The moment I saw him infront of me, he hugged me tight “Jia, Aera” my tears weren’t stopping. I heard Aera’s cries got harder, “Baby dad is here, so don’t worry” the moment I heard him say this, I felt his grip got tighter around me.

“Secretary Lee hold her” He took Aera from my arms, the moment he took her from me, I felt like I had no strength at all. “Jia...” he was holding me, I could barely keep my eyes open, I could see him tensing up, “Cheol… Hol..hold… me” and I felt like my legs gave up.

“Jia, look at me, love don’t close your eyes” his voice was so comforting to me.

“Secretary Lee, take Aera and I’ll be heading back to home, and call the doctor, I can’t let her close her eyes, I just can’t” he was looking back at Secretary Lee and me.

“Jia, love look at me please” he picked me up and I held his shirt tight, I felt the world slowing down. He was looking at me, apologizing. “I’m sorry for being late” I wanted to tell him it’s fine and then wanted to cry in his embrace but I had no strength at all, “Love look at me, don’t close your eyes, you’re a doctor you know what can happen” my tears were streaming down my face.

“It’s all good now, everything’s fine now” he took me to his car, still holding me in his embrace.

if this is love I don’t want it

“seungcheol one shot”

Pairing: Choi Seungcheol x female reader

Genre: angst (mafia)

Warnings: mention of gun, gunshots, mention of death/lifeless body (please let me know if i missed something)

Word count: 1.4 K

A/N: i really wanted to write something about mafia seungcheol, and here i am writing about him. I think i love the idea of mafia seungcheol a lot, i don't think i can escape this any soon

Happy reading <3

“it’s either you live today or me because I am sure he won’t be able to find us, not in this short time and you’ll be long gone when he will find your lifeless body and if he finds me, I will kill you infront of me, giving him the best memory ever.” He placed the loaded gun pointing at my forehead, I was trying not to cry and hold back my tears but it wasn’t working, tears were falling.

I heard a door slam, “Pull the trigger and I will kill you all myself today” I looked at him, the guy started laughing. There was a cloth stuffed in my mouth which wasn’t letting me scream. My eyes were looking at him, he was walking towards us “take a step and I’ll pull the trigger” he looked at me, with his soft eyes and stopped his steps.

The guy suddenly placed his hand on my head, “I wonder will she live today or are you going to witness something which you can never forget choi seungcheol?” the guy’s finger traced down my cheeks, his touch made me shiver and suddenly he slapped hard on my cheeks. It started hurting.

“I told you, don’t touch her or I will kill you myself along with everyone here” he screamed, everything infront of me was getting blurry because of my tears. This guy suddenly grabbed my neck and placed the gun pointing at my forehead again.

“So, what do you think choi seungcheol?” I closed my eyes, terrified. “Who will win Choi Seungcheol? ”

“NOW” and I heard a gunshot, my eyes were closed shut but I didn’t feel any pain. Another gunshot was heard, one after one, around five gunshots I heard back to back and when I opened my eyes, I saw the guy who was holding the gun earlier is on the floor and he was running towards me, men started entering and started firing.

He came towards me and untied me, took out the cloth which was tied around my mouth, “you’re okay now, I’m here” he hugged me for a brief second as if he was refraining himself from hugging me tight and refraining from taking me in his arms and comfort me.

He pulled me and took me to near a pillar in that garage, he was shielding me, my back touched the coldness of the pillar. “forget this moment” and his hands closed my eyes. I heard him fire back-to-back.

After some time, everything silenced down, I could heard footsteps, everyone was leaving and then he moved his hands from my eyes. I opened my eyes to look at him, full of mixed emotions

Everything that happened in past one hour, still terrified me but I wasn’t going to step back from ‘us’.

“I am sorry, I dragged you in this” he was holding me tight, tears were streaming down my face, “I can’t let you suffer like this anymore” I was shaking my head in denial, all the things that happened past few hours flashed in my mind, how I saw people shooting and killing eachother. How I was about to get the shot but he saved me and he was blaming himself for all these things. It wasn’t his fault; it was something unavoidable. I know he was feeling guilty because I could’ve lost my life in a fraction of second but somewhere I knew he would save me and he did. But I also couldn’t deny the fact I was terrified and scared, scared of losing myself and never be able to see him again.

“Cheol…”

“I can’t do this with you… I can’t anymore” he looked devastated, “It’s not your fault, it was never your fault” there was an unknown feeling inside me which was scaring me as I knew what he was thinking.

“I can’t put you in danger anymore” he removed his hands which were resting on my cheeks, “I can’t do this anymore” and I knew what he was thinking, I was correct because I can read him like an open book. “Seungcheol, no” he started taking his steps back.

“You can’t do this, not this” the whole place was echoing with my voice, I could hear my devastated voice. “You’re in danger, because of me why don’t you understand Aera? Why don’t you understand it’s me, I’m the reason you were kidnapped, I’m the reason you are here right now, I’m the reason why you suffered, I’m the reason why there was a gun placed on your forehead, I’m the reason of everything, they wanted to get back at me, I’m the reason why they planned to kill you, I’m the reason of your tears, why don’t you understand that?” he raised his voice at the end, it was the first time I heard him shout like that, “and what about my reason… Seungcheol? What about that?” I looked at him, tears falling down my face.

“Aera don’t say this, I can’t see you getting hurt anymore, it pains me, what if I was late today? What if something happened to you? What if…” he sighed, I took a step towards him, “nothing happened, you came on time, you saved me, I am here standing here in front of you, look at me love” I tried smiling and holding his hand but he removed my hands “you don’t understand how scary everything can be, it can cost your life! Aera, and I can’t afford to lose you.”

“None of these things were your fault Seungcheol, none of these.” I was trying to persuade him but he was being determined and stubborn.

“I’ll be leaving and will send someone to take you home. I can’t let you suffer anymore, if I leave you now, you’ll be safe and nothing like this will happen with you anymore” his voice was intimidating and determined, his voice felt so sure about everything. He turned back and started walking out of this place, “tell me you regret this?” I asked him, he stopped and replied, “I regret this. I regret because you were hurt” he started walking again. I never wanted to ask him this but I couldn’t stop myself from asking him “tell me you regret loving me” he didn’t stop, and I continued, I knew how much it was hurting me, hurting him, we were hurting together.

“if I knew you were thinking to take this decision of your own then it would've been better to get shot by that man” I took a pause “if this is love I don’t want it.” I saw he stopped his steps. “If this was your love, go ahead and walk out of this place alone today, as if you never loved me and everything was a lie to you. But remember, I loved you and if you walk away today everything will be over between us and don’t ever look back on me, do it, just like you do everything easily and I was never in your life” only I knew how much it was hurting, and I closed my eyes and shallowed the lump forming inside me, not letting me speak a single word next. My own tears were chocking me, “tell me choi Seungcheol” I raised my voice as much as I could.

Next moment I felt two arms embracing me tightly, “This is hard for me, this is so freaking hard, I can’t leave you and can’t let you suffer like this as well” his voice was the softest and most fragile  thing I ever heard

“then don’t leave me” my tears were still falling. “why would you say something you never meant, we are in this together” I tried speaking, he was caressing my hair, “I love you, I love you, I love you so much”

“I love you too” he pulled out from the hug and looked at me, he wiped my tears with his thumb “I’m sorry, I won’t let anything like this again. So, don’t cry anymore” I nodded and placed my hands on his, he placed a kiss on my forehead.

“my love for you is something I can’t describe in words, I wasn’t scared of losing my life until I found you, every passing day, I want to live, live with you, smile with you, I’m scared of death, I’m scared of losing you because of me. I love you more than you could ever think of. The day I lose you, it’s over for me that’s why it scares me, love scares me Aera. I love you so much” I already started crying because of his confession, his hands cupped my face and caressed my cheeks, as if they he was telling me he’s here and he will never leave with this action. He slowly leaned towards me and he kissed me.

[05:26 pm]

I was walking towards the university gate absent-mindedly, I was just missing Seungcheol, it’s been two weeks since I last saw him and I know he busy that’s why I can’t tell him to come and meet me whenever I miss him everytime. Being a student makes me busy but working makes him busier and I don’t want him to overwork. I wish I could just go to his apartment and cuddle with him.

My classes were over and I looked at the surrounding, I didn’t feel like going to dorm right now, I wanted to get lost somewhere and I really missed him. Either I wanted to be with him or wanted to be alone. I even ditched my friends, because I wasn’t feeling good. I know they are my friends and they want to go and have some fun roaming around but not today, it wasn’t my day. I was fine in morning but I don’t know what happened during classes or after classes. I felt something was wrong and I had this urge to cry.

And this cold weather wasn’t helping at all, well winters are depressing at times. I had this urge to either roam around alone right now or go and cry in his arms. And since I can’t do the second one because he might be at work right now or might be busy so I decide to do the first thing.

I came out of the university gate and I felt like my mind was clouded.

My phone started ringing and my mind was battling whether I should look at the caller id or not and then when I took out my phone from my pocket, I looked at the caller id, I was surprised because I didn’t expect this.

I was hesitant a bit but then picked up the call, “Hey~” his voice almost teared up, I swore at that time, if he tells me one more word then I would start crying my eyes out right now, “look infront of you” my eyes were getting teary, “huh?” that’s all I could say.

I felt like I was hallucinating for a second because I saw him waving at me wearing my favorite blue hoodie. I started walking gripping my phone tight on my hand, I was taking slow steps and then suddenly I fastened my pace. I still couldn’t believe he was standing there and smiling at me, I ran to him and threw myself in his arms, I hugged him tight and he lifted me in the air.

I couldn’t care less about the stares we were getting because of me, I missed him so much. My tears started falling, because I was so overwhelmed, “I missed you so much”

“I missed you too my love”

“Thankyou for coming today and surprising me” I couldn’t describe how happy I was became he came to see me.

Author’s Note:

After getting into a new university as a post grad student, I got so busy and I miss writing so much ;_;

And at times I crave for hugs and miss my friends who are in different cities ;_; also I hope whoever reads feels better and since it’s still winters, sending you warm hugs 💕

And then I met you

[two]

Pairing: Jeonghan x fem reader × Seungcheol

Synopsis: Falling in love with bestfriend’s ex wasn’t something that Jeonghan planned.

Genre: angst

Word count: 1.7K

Warnings: mention of pregnancy, mention of cheating, doubtful coups

Author’s Note: angry coups :( well, let’s see what happens next, who expected that coups will get this pissed :( do let me know if you liked this or not, happy reading :) where are my angst enjoyer? 😭 or is it just me? And I didn't proof read yettttttt maybe I’ll do it soon

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Aisha walked into the convenient store near her apartment, still thinking about Seungcheol. She decided to tell her parents today about Seungcheol and they decided they would do a formal meeting for the families soon so that they can get married soon. Aisha being always the most excited one about weddings, she had half things decided with Seungcheol.

She was mindlessly walking and searching for the things she needed to take home, since Seungcheol is coming over. Aisha saw, Jeonghan and was about to call his name but she bumped into someone and she felt cold liquid spilling all over her white tee, “Shit”

“I’m so sorry” Aisha panicked looking at her tee, “Aisha, are you okay?” she looked at Jeonghan, “Jeong-Jeonghan”

“I’m so sorry” the girl apologized again and again to Aisha, but her coffee was already spilled over Aisha’s tee, “please be careful next time” Aisha managed to say but the panic on her face was visible clearly, how was she supposed to go because the coffee made everything transparent, she saw Jeonghan taking out his shirt, thankfully he was wearing a white undershirt.

“Take this” he gave his shirt to Aisha, and urged her to go change.

Aisha came after changing, she was holding her stained tee in her hand, “Are you okay?” Aisha nodded, “are you sure? You didn’t get hurt right?” she nodded at Jeonghan with a smile. “Thankyou so much Jeonghan” she smiled at him again, “Don’t worry about it” Jeonghan’s eyes noticed her neck and… how did you get burn marks… Aisha?” She was quick to look at him, eyes widening. She was embarrassed, how will she tell him, she was trying to style her hair after drying it and it was Seungcheol’s call which distracted her for a second and this happened. She looked down and said “curling iron… Jeonghan”

“You gotta be careful, Aisha. Don’t be this clumsy.” he smiled at her and she did the same after looking back at him.

Only Seungcheol and Jeonghan knew about her pregnancy, Aisha broke this news to him after she got proposed by Seungcheol; Jeonghan was very happy for them. Aisha became a very good friend of Jeonghan because of Seungcheol; Jeonghan was Seungcheol’s bestfriend.

Jeonghan came to take few essentials and he was happy to meet Aisha, being in the same locality it was quite normal for them to bump into eachother. “I’ll go first, I need to go back home fast” she smiled at Jeonghan, Jeonghan got the hint in her smile that Seungcheol might be coming over.

“Bye” Aisha waved at him holding her bag. The moment she walked out of the convenient store, she thought she was hallucinating because she saw Seungcheol leaning on his car.

He looked at the shirt, and it was something he didn’t expect to see, and that gave him the reply why Aisha was smelling like Jeonghan’s perfume. Aisha was smelling like Jeonghan all over, and the shirt was enough to tell that’s it’s Jeonghan’s smell.

She saw him walking towards her, he was smiling and she was confused. He came closer to her and hugged her tight, “Cheol” she felt raindrops on her, “See, it started, that’s why I told you wait for me at home.”

“But I wanted to come.” The moment he let go of Aisha, his face changed.

He looked at the shirt, and it was something he didn’t expect to see, and that gave him the reply why Aisha was smelling like Jeonghan’s perfume.

“why are you wearing this shirt?” Aisha was taken aback because of his sudden voice change, “Cheol, it’s raining we can talk about this inside”

“I asked why are you wearing this shirt.” He suddenly grabs her wrist, making his grip stronger.

“Aisha”

“Cheol let me go, you’re hurting me”

“This is Jeonghan’s shirt.” Seungcheol spoke even before she could speak, “I gifted this personally embroider shirt to him.”

“Now, tell him why are you wearing his shirt?”

“Cheol, listen to me, it’s nothing like whatever you are doubting, calm down please first.” Each word she was saying, with heavy breaths, raindrops were pouring harder.

“And what is the truth Aisha? You’re smelling like him, it’s his perfume all over you and you are wearing HIS SHIRT!” she flinched at his raised voice, she never encountered this Seungcheol, getting jealous was pretty normal between them but this was something she never expected.

His voice was enough to make anyone cry, Aisha was tearing up, she wanted to keep her calm, doesn’t matter how bad it was raining right now. “Cheol, you’re hurting me” she almost whispered back, in a thought he would let go of her wrist. But Seungcheol was getting angry each second he was looking at Aisha, all the thoughts which he left behind about Jeonghan and Aisha were coming to his mind. Both of them living in the same locality, sometimes hanging out alone and right now wearing his shirt and not picking up his calls at night was something he just can’t look away. He felt all the dots were joining.

Seungcheol looks at her once again, trying to calm himself down but the moment he noticed her neck, he lost all his temper he was holding, he held her shirt’s collar. “Aisha take it off right now”

“Seungcheol stop this” it didn’t seem to matter both of them that they were drenching in rain right now. “Aisha take this shirt off right now!” she flinched again and this time, she slapped him subconsciously

Panic took over her body, “Cheol.. I’m sorry, I’m I’m really sorry. I didn’t mean”

“Aisha you-” Jeonghan’s voice went unheard by Aisha because she saw Seungcheol raising his hand on her and Jeonghan was quick to hold his hand. Jeonghan pushes Seungcheol slightly.

“Seungcheol! Stop this, she’s pregnant.” Jeonghan couldn’t believe whatever he was witnessing infront of him.

“is that was you were insisting that I should be waiting for you at your home because you were with Jeonghan.” Aisha shook her head, crying.

“Tell me this is a lie? Aisha?” Aisha let out a whimper, and Jeonghan noticed Seungcheol’s grip on her wrist. He removed Seungcheol’s hand from her wrist, “Seungcheol, you’re hurting her”

“And you care about her more than me now?” Seungcheol’s anger was visible on his face, “Seungcheol”

“Care to explain why is she wearing your shirt?” he looked directly into his eyes, Aisha couldn’t say a thing because of shock, “I gave- he couldn’t even complete his sentence and he turned to look at Aisha, who was already crying.

“did you sleep with him?” she was shocked because, she never thought he would actually say that to her and questioned her loyalty, “you’ve lost your mind Seungcheol” Aisha argued back, because nothing like this happened. How could even Seungcheol not listen to her even once, and accuse her of cheating? How could he even say this without even thinking twice?

“did you sleep with my bestfriend behind my back?” she was about to argue back again and this time it was Jeonghan’s voice

“Choi Seungcheol!!”

“YOON JEONGHAN!” Jeonghan witnessed Seungcheol’s anger earlier but for countable number of times, but he never saw him this angry and specially on Aisha

“Shut up Seungcheol! And you claim you love her? Without even listening to her even once?” Aisha was feeling guilty because Jeonghan was caught up with everything. “How do you explain this?” Seungcheol pointed at her neck, clearly getting the wrong idea. Both Aisha and Jeonghan couldn’t believe Seungcheol’s words right now, it was hard to believe because the Seungcheol they knew was deeply in love with Aisha.

“Enough Seungcheol, enough. How could you even say this to me.” Aisha took a deep breath before speaking, she couldn’t stand the way he was accusing her of cheating behind his back. She wanted to clear everything right now.

“I should’ve known you Aisha. I should’ve known yesterday, the moment you said you were pregnant but never said I was the father of this child.” Seungcheol shouted at her, “Seungcheol? Are you serious right now? You’re the father of this child Choi Seungcheol.” He looked at him, “How can you even question me about this? Aisha wanted to scream at him, she didn’t care about the surroundings anymore, she didn’t care if Jeonghan witnessed everything, and Seungcheol was making it dirty, how could he even say this to her right now.

He held her hand, forcefully, “Seungcheol what are you doing?” Aisha was getting nervous, “Seungcheol” Jeonghan called out his name

“Don’t you dare to call out my name Jeonghan” Seungcheol, forcefully took out the ring which he slid into her finger yesterday. “Seungcheol, Seungcheol what are you doing”

“You always wanted Jeonghan” she couldn’t believe her ears, what was he saying. “Seungcheol” Aisha held his arms almost begging him to stop, he turned his back to her. “Seungcheol please stop, please. Listen to me once, love please”

Seungcheol was already walking back towards his car and pushed Aisha back. “Seungcheol” Jeonghan was quick to hold Aisha from falling, Aisha broke down there.

“Seungcheol you questioned our friendship first then you questioned Aisha’s loyalty, I understand why you never deserved her” these were the last words Seungcheol heard before he went inside the car.

His anger was turning into grief each second.

You shouldn’t have been here

 Seungcheol one shot

Pairing: Seungcheol x Fem reader

Genre: angst

Word count: 4.6K

Warnings: mention of guns, bullets, firing, losing of parents at a young age, implied death

Author’s Note: Firstly, Merry Christmas!! and here's a fic, I've been wanting to write, I finally got some time to write and completed it, this is definitely not the ideal fic to post on Christmas TT but here it is, and ofc it's mafia fic. Hope you like this~

Happy reading ~

“I’ll be back tomorrow, I love you” and she kissed him. He looked happy and so was she, “I’ll wait for you, too bad I don’t have a night shift tonight and you’re leaving. Bed would be cold without you” Seungcheol was caging her and he didn’t want her to leave. There was a hidden sadness in her face, but she looked at him with eyes full of love. “I’ll be back tomorrow Cheol, I promise I’ll be back tomorrow morning before you leave for work” and she smiled at him.

“text me or call me once you reach, okay?” he was always protective of her, but why wouldn’t he be, after all she was his wife. “I will now get some sleep” She kissed him and left.

She was driving her car and she was thinking about Seungcheol, she looked at the time, it was 08:08 pm exactly, Seungcheol’s birthday date. There was a faint smile on her face but she focused on the road.

“Would you like an upgradation from my girlfriend to my wife?” the way Seungcheol was looking at her while giving the bouquet, no words could describe how he was feeling. She was overwhelmed, but she wanted to be herself and be with him. Seungcheol was her home, her home when there was no one for her.

The moment Seungcheol knelt down, and showed her the ring, “I want you to be my wife, I want to spend my whole life with you, will you marry me?” marriage for Sihyun was something she always dreamed of but marrying the person she loves the most and actually wants to spend her whole life was something she just dreamt of or maybe something like a fever dream but happening infront of her, she was unable to say a single word, tears were threatening to fall, “Ye-Yes” it was her broken voice, Seungcheol heard her voice, and smiled at her, once he took her hand and made her wear the ring, he got up and cupped her face. “I love you so much Sihyun, I love you so much, I can’t live without you”

“I love you too Seungcheol” and he kissed her softly; he would always kiss her softly, for him, she is someone who deserves all the happiness and everything and of course him.

He suddenly lifted her up and twirled her around, “I am so happy Sihyun” he could only hear her laughs and for her, he was her whole world.

She parked the car, and took out her bag and went towards the apartment. Once she was inside, she went towards the lift and pressed the top floor button, she looked at her watch, and in a fraction of a second she was at the top floor.

She went towards the door and pressed the doorbell. “You’re here” Sihyun smiled at Hanuel, “Come inside”

Sihyun stepped inside, and took off her heels then went straight towards the living room. “Want to eat something?” Sihyun shook her head, she was in a conflict in her mind, and in deep thoughts about Seungcheol, “No, I already had dinner with Seungcheol”

“I see, how is he doing?”

“He is good.” Haneul sat facing her, “Is something bothering you?”

Sihyun wasn’t a big opener about her problems, the only person she trusted a lot was Seungcheol, beside that sharing her problems with anyone else felt like a burden to her at times but then she could always use the company of Hanuel and Seungmin. “I don’t know” and she sighed, Hanuel looked at her, Sihyun was always lost in deep thoughts nowadays, it’s been months but she wasn’t opening up, maybe Seungmin knew about it.

“Sihyun if you don’t say what’s the matt-”

“I think Seungcheol was doubting me somewhere but why would he?”

“He’s doubting you?” Sihyun nodded, “Did he drop any hints?” Sihyun nodded. “And these things are making me doubt him, I wonder what is he doing and what not, I never felt like this all these eight years, everything was going smoothly but why now? when everything is going so smoothly. Seungcheol was that person in my life, who taught me how to trust but now? if one single thing happens and falls apart, it’s all over.”

“Don’t worry too much, he won’t know and you’ve a reason Sihyun. You’re not hurting him or something, it’s you. You love him, you can never wish for his downfall.”

“But Hanuel if what I am thinking is true then why would he lie to me, I need to know him, his intentions, I can’t take any betrayal after all these years I spent with him”

“You’re overthinking Sihyun, Seungcheol is not that kind of guy, who would lie to you for so long.”

“But Seungmin? He can never be wrong, and he always tells me the things he found out, if what me and Seungmin are thinking are true then I would be making myself a fool infront of my whole team and family.”

“Don’t overthink too much, Sihyun. Be the way you are.” Sihyun sighed and looked at the time, today it took her almost two hours to come here. “I need to change and then we will leave. Inform Seungmin to come here, and I will go in his car, I can’t risk taking my car this time not after Seungcheol’s car passed through the same place and we were almost about to cross eachother’s path that night”

“Okay” saying that Sihyun took her bag and went to Hanuel’s bedroom to change her clothes.

Once she was inside, she started changing her clothes, a black dress, a black leather jacket, black boots, and a small pendent. She did her makeup lightly and looked at the mirror. “Sihyun, what are you doing?” “This is all for the people who left you alone”

The look was giving her an intimidating vibe; which was enough to let people know this is how a leader should behave. Once she was done with her hair, tying it up in a low ponytail, she came out of the room only to see Seungmin sitting on the couch.

“Are you ready for tonight?” Seungmin asked and she nodded, “Always have to be ready. Is everyone ready?” he nodded, “Everything’s ready and everyone is on their way. And everything is inside my car.”

“Perfect. We need to get this either way.”

“Don’t worry, everything will go your way, and I don’t think they will find us today as well, we’ve been eluding them till now without any problem and today’s a big day for us.”

“Seungmin, we can’t overlook the fact that Seungcheol’s car passed through the same place that night, and last time, it was barely three minutes difference and I cannot risk it again.”

“But you said he is staying home, right?” Seungmin looked serious, Seungcheol was one reason everyone was stressed, “Yes”

“So, don’t worry Sihyun, nothing will go wrong and it’s our day today.” Sihyun was stressed but she couldn’t show it infront of Haneul. She smiled at her, “Yes, let’s get going. We need to reach by midnight and since it will take time, let’s go now.”

They were ready and went down to the basement, Sihyun got inside Seungmin’s car and Hanuel took hers. “Can I drive Seungmin?”

“Do you want to blow off some steam tonight?” Sihyun smiled, Seungmin being her right-handed man, always knew, how driving was her way to release stress and it’s rare for them to go hit the racing circuit after she got married, most of the time spending time with Seungcheol would take away her stress or at times it would be Seungcheol who would make love and Sihyun could never deny him because he always gave her the best cuddles after that and the sleep would be the best one.

“Once we are done with the deal, I’ll let you drive” and Seungmin started the car, “since you’re going back to your husband’s arms tomorrow morning. I know you, can’t even stay away from him Sihyun; you love him so much and it shows it on your face.”

“But sometimes I feel this is wrong, carrying out the whole gang and then going back to his arms as if nothing happened. Sometimes I feel like I will pay the price for being the leader and being happy.”

“You’re doing this for your people Sihyun, never blame yourself and you have every right to be happy. You chose Seungcheol because you love him but you didn’t abandon us so doesn’t matter. You are happy.”

“You know, yesterday we went to meet Jeonghan and his wife, and when I saw Seungcheol holding their little angel in his arms, I realized how badly I want Seungcheol to be the father of our child.” Seungmin stopped the car in the traffic and looked at Sihyun, Sihyun looked like she was somewhere in her own world. The love for Seungcheol was something that always made her weak whenever it came to work, her work was dangerous, and her life was dangerous but living with Seungcheol she was always afraid, of leaving him and what’s coming for her next. She can’t risk everything but she is risking everything because of him after all.

They entered their house and Seungcheol locked the door, “Seungcheol” Sihyun’s voice was barely audible, she was about to go upstairs to their bedroom but she stopped but still didn’t face Seungcheol, she was hesitating, she never felt like this. Till date she always felt having kids is something she can never think about, being a mother and the thoughts of parenting always haunted her and specially after thinking how she saw her family getting killed infront of her eyes, when she was barely nine years. She was reminded of what is her work and whatever is she going to say had the power to flip her whole world upside down. Because one mistake from her side and it’s all over.

She felt Seungcheol’s steps approaching her, soon he wrapped his arms around her waist, “What happened my love?” Sihyun was deep in her thoughts, how would Seungcheol react and what if the past that happened with her repeats? Seungcheol knew she lost her family when she was nine years old but he doesn’t know why. Seungcheol knew her but at the same time he didn’t. “Sihyun” his voice was low, and he rested his head on her head, Sihyun turned around to look at him, “Cheol”

“Yes my love?” and that was it. ‘my love’

“A thought crossed my mind today when you were holding Jeonghan and Luna’s lil angel Mirae, I wondered how would you look holding a lil angel who looked like you, your eyes, your dimples, your smile” a smile spread on Sihyun’s face, “Even I want our little angel to look like you.” Sihyun’s eyes widened in the realization of what he had said, “What do you-” Before she could say anything, he kissed her. Seungcheol always wanted Sihyun’s approval in this matter, he always dreamt of holding their baby that’s why he waited till Sihyun said it. He had faith in Sihyun she would be a good mother and they would make nice parents.

“Looks like my baby is finally ready to take the next step” he looked at her and said, Sihyun was unable to say anything, “I was waiting for you to say” Sihyun realized how much Seungcheol respected her. “I love you so much” and she kissed him, and pulled herself back. Seungcheol held Sihyun shoulder and his other hand was holding her cheeks; he leaned closer and Sihyun could see what he was going to do next. He kissed her and her hands traveled from his shoulder to his neck, Seungcheol pulled her closer and she parted, “I love you too” and kissed her again. Seungcheol parted after they were out of breath and he picked her up in his arms “Let’s make you feel how much I love you” Sihyun smiled at him and buried her head in his embrace

“What did he say?” She looked at Seungmin, who was looking at her, “Even I want our little angel to look like you”

“Isn’t that good?” Seungmin’s voice was low, “You know what happened with my family and why, I am scared Seungmin, I am scared of what’s coming, and having a baby, I can, I want to with Seungcheol, I want to have our own small little family but the fear is still there. And I don’t want my baby anywhere near my work. I don’t want my baby to find out who I am which is impossible Seungmin and then there are chances of everyone getting targeted.” Sihyun sighed

“Don’t stress too much about it Sihyun” Sihyun smiled at Seungmin.

Soon, they reached and Seungmin parked the car. “Everything’s at the back seat” Sihyun nodded and went to check everything at the back seat. “Are the guns loaded?” Seungmin nodded, Sihyun took her gun and kept it with her. “Let’s try not to kill anyone tonight. I don’t want anyone interrupting our deal” Seungmin nodded and they saw Hanuel’s car parking. Hanuel came out of her car with her gun in her hand. Seungmin was holding a briefcase and they all went inside the warehouse.

“Everyone’s ready with everything?” the whole gang was there and they nodded, “Yes ma’am” There was the seat of Sihyun, she was walking gracefully with Seungmin, her right-handed man. Hanuel stepped back and stayed as the incharge of everyone. “Everyone’s safety should be the priority along with our deal, okay?”

“Yes ma’am”

“When are they coming Hanuel?” Sihyun took a seat and asked her, “They are almost here.”

“Good” Once they are in their work mood, there’s no friendship, it’s work relationship. That’s how Sihyun taught herself to handle the whole mafia gangs, she was the leader. Her identity was hidden, she was living a normal life without exposing her identity of mafia leader. She was the leader of Mafia and she handled everything with Seungmin.

“They’re here.” Hanuel said.

Sihyun crossed her legs and nodded, “Let the boss in and everyone stay outside. You too Hanuel.”

“But-” Hanuel was surprised because Sihyun never did this, “I said, OUT EVERYONE.”

“Okay ma’am” Seungmin was with Sihyun, “What’s wrong?”

“I want this deal to be just between us, no interruption Seungmin, I do not want anyone else inside and we can’t let our guards down, no matter what”

Once everyone was outside, it was just Sihyun and Seungmin; the other gang leader entered the warehouse, he was with his man. “Looks like you wanted only me tonight?” Sihyun wasn’t liking the way this man was talking to her, being the leader and a woman she knew, how she could be treated by other leaders but Seungmin was always there by her side, and never let these men get her. Last time a man talked down with Sihyun, Seungmin lost his clam but Sihyun killed him, that’s when there was almost a war because Sihyun killed an underboss.

“Did you forget how I killed him and do you want to be the next guy, who wants to get killed by my precious gun?” there was a smirk on her face.

The guy had his hands up, “Okay, I surrender, I am here for money and you’re here for your weapons, once the deal is done, it’s over”

“Good, come and take a seat.” Sihyun smiled. The man came and took a seat opposite to her, it was the leader of Kwon gang. One of the top gangs and also a ruthless one.

Once they showed each other, whatever they need, Sihyun checked the weapons and Seungmin showed the money. “Looks like this weapon deal is done” the guy had a smirk, and Sihyun smiled, “Yes” she took a pause and leaned towards him, “But always remember not to mess up with my people, I won’t hesitate to kill you and your members next time I see them killing any of my man or trying to hack our systems” Sihyun looked intensely at him, “Okay?”

“Well, you can’t order around like that Kim Sihyun” she had a smirk, “Of course I can, because all of my men are outside, and your people are already taken down. That’s what you pay for trying to hack our system and killing two of my men”

“Are you out of your mind?” she smiled at him, “I wish I was, but that’s how you handle double-faced people. Now get up and walk away, and remember not to mess up with me” he got up and at the same time, Sihyun and Seungmin heard Hanuel’s voice in their in-ear “Seungcheol and a team is almost here, get out of this place with Sihyun. RIGHT NOW.”

“Leave, they are here.” By the time, Sihyun’s voice was heard, everything turned upside down in a second, “Do not wait for me, leave. LEAVE HANUEL, TAKE EVERYONE AWAY I WANT EVERYONE TO BE SAFE.” Sihyun threw her in-ear and looked at Seungmin, “You take everything and leave first”

“No”

“I said, LEAVE.”

“I REFUSE KIM SIHYUN”

“THIS IS AN ORDER” By the time she could say one more word, she heard the door open and she pushed Seungmin, “If you ever cared about me, then leave” and that was it, Seungmin had no choice, and Sihyun didn’t know what was she going to do?

Surrender to Seungcheol? When she doesn’t even know why is he here?

To prove herself right that Seungcheol was lying to her and is an undercover agent?

That Seungcheol was the following her?

“Hands up” and then she heard her husband’s voice. And Seungmin couldn’t leave because of his loyalty, no matter how much Sihyun pushed him away. She could recognize his footsteps, and they were getting closer.

She saw him holding a gun and she was standing there face to face with him. Never in her nightmare, she was prepared for a day like this, standing face to face with Seungcheol and him pointing a gun towards her.

“What are you doing here? You shouldn’t have been here.” He screamed, the anger was visible on his face, he was pointing his gun toward her and in a second, everyone was pointing a gun towards her, “Lower your guns, not a single bullet should be fired and no one should hurt her or I will shoot you myself” his voice was stern, Sihyun rarely saw Seungcheol being pissed but today was something else, it was a blow-off for both of them. No one dared to speak a single word, “But sir-”

“STAND DOWN I SAID” Seungcheol’s voice almost made her flinch, but her expression stayed the same.

“So? Sihyun, how long have you been lying to me about everything?” he asked, his voice was almost unrecognizable to himself, she couldn’t answer and it was very evident that Seungcheol was pissed. She didn’t have any answer, “You also lied to me Seungcheol” and then she looked at him, directly in his eyes. No one had any answer, both were doing their own job, and falling in love was something that was never in their plan and how worse it could be that, the case Seungcheol was assigned and Sihyun was the mastermind and leader of everything. It was her job to protect her team and familia but it was his job to take her down, how could the universe be so cruel?

The pain and hurt were visible in his eyes, he wanted to prove himself wrong tonight, it’s been more than years since Seungcheol was assigned this thing, and he was an undercover agent. He was feeling cheated on his trust, he almost had a fight with his vice-team leader about Sihyun being the leader and he said he would prove them wrong tonight that’s why he lied to Sihyun about going out.

But here he is, standing face to face gun pointed towards his own wife, who was a ruthless gang leader. How could he do this to his own wife?

“You shouldn’t have been here SIHYUN” his screams weren’t helping him at all. There was just silence, no one spoke a single word.

“You shouldn’t have been here not after all this” Seungcheol’s mind wasn't working at all, looking at his wife as the person who was behind all this, she was the prime suspect but he was in denial and now that she is standing infront of him, he was more than shocked and angry.

“Seungcheol, remember I love you but for once in my life, I am going to choose my job” and she took out her loaded gun and pointed at him. Sihyun had no choice. “Let him leave and I will be the one here” Seungcheol, never said no to his wife, for him she was always the priority but he couldn’t even let his emotions take over him right now, he was on his duty. “If I let him go then what are you going to do Sihyun?” if her eyes could tell him how hurt she was when she heard her own name, she wasn’t used to this Seungcheol. “I am the one, you need.” She took a pause and looked at Seungmin, “Let him go.”

“Bring him” Another officer went to bring Seungmin, he was holding Seungmin. “Leave him” Seungcheol agreed and Seungmin had to walk away from the warehouse, Seungcheol knew what he was doing, he was trying to make Sihyun vulnerable and he had his team all over this place, once Seungmin stepped out of this warehouse, he is going to be caught by the officers and he would be taken away from this place.

“Now, put that gun down. You cannot leave this place” she shook her head, “I won’t and mind it, by the time you take me down, everyone would be gone, I saved my members already.” Sihyun’s eyes never looked away from Seungcheol’s eyes, there was a tension only they knew. “I gave you my heart already and there’s nothing left to give you anymore. My love, my heart and my whole life, it’s all yours. The day I realised I was in love, I knew what I was signing up for, the love the betrayal. I kept myself prepared for the day, maybe someone will ask me to surrender for being the leader but, never in my wildest nightmare I imagined you, that you would be here as the officer and telling me to put my gun down?”

“Why would you lie about yourself Seungcheol?” she was hurt, he knew she was hurt. It was his mission, he couldn’t even share this even after getting married, he wanted this mission to be over so that he could tell Sihyun and be happy. Seungcheol was feeling betrayed but on the other hand Sihyun was also feeling betrayed, both were on their duty and the crime of being in love and married to eachother was enough to tear them apart. “I love you Seungcheol and I can give up on my life for you but I can’t betray my family and knowing how they weren’t even my blood but someone I could call my family. And after knowing how much me and my people had to go through, I can’t step back. Do you want to know who made me like this?” Sihyun’s eyes were speaking, Sihyun never opened up totally with her past and Seungcheol was always waiting for her to say it without forcing her. “You and your organization” she had a tight smile “They didn’t take a single step when our family was killed. My own family died infront of my eyes, I never told you, how but my family was killed infront of my eyes when I was just nine years. And the people you’re working with, you call them justice?” she let out a smirk, remembering how she still gets the nightmare of her family getting killed infront of her, it was another reason why she afraid to be with Seungcheol. “It turned a blind eye and that was it.”

“I was alone until I found you.” all the memories of Seungcheol felt like a flashback to her.

“Seungcheol” she took a deep breath, she wanted to be calm and say everything that’s inside her but her heart was beating like crazy because she was nervous. “Your smile heals me. You make me happy and I admire you a lot. You helped me to find a home, a home I can always return back to. I want to give you all the love, more than you deserve. I call you, ‘My Seungcheol’ because you are everything to me. Love is not just a word I can use to describe you, you are a feeling, an emotion for me, you always give me a heart-warming feeling that no one else can ever give to me. You are my own Seungcheol. I will never keep a secret from you and will stay with you in all your happiness and sadness. I am ready to share my life with you and take one more step towards us. I love you too”

Once the exchange of rings was over, the priest then asked, “Do you Choi Seungcheol take Kim Sihyun, to be your lawfully wedded wife, to share your life openly, standing with her in sickness and in health, in joy and in sorrow, in hardship and in ease to cherish and love forever more?” her eyes were fixed on Seungcheol, and she heard “I Do” it felt like her whole world stopped for him. He smiled at her, his dimples. Another reason she never wanted to let go of him.

The priest turned to Sihyun, “Do you Kim Sihyun take Choi Seungcheol, to be your lawfully wedded husband, to share your life openly, standing with her in sickness and in health, in joy and in sorrow, in hardship and in ease to cherish and love forever more?” She took a deep breath and replied, “I do”

“You may now kiss your Bride”

The kiss was one overwhelming one and it had so many emotions in them. She couldn’t believe she made this decision, this was the second decision she made for herself. She was happy, she could feel the happiness, just for today she wanted to be the girl she wanted to be, forgetting about her duties as a leader. She wanted to be just ‘Seungcheol’s Wife’

“Why would you do this Sihyun? Why? Was everything a lie?” Seungcheol couldn’t process anything, everything Sihyun told him yesterday about have a little one and being a happy family was coming back to him as a flashback.

“You’re my happiness and my home but seems like at the end of the day you would also leave me. You knew everything about me Seungcheol except one fact, I am the leader you’ve been looking for since years, even before we met, if only I knew this is how it was going to end then I wouldn’t have met you” by this time, Sihyun was tearing up, it reminded of all the best memories Seungcheol gave her. How her life was beautiful after meeting him, “I love you but I hate your organization and now that I know you’re the one who was handling my case, I can’t even hate you. It all fell down.”

“I always had a motto, and that was to ‘die with dignity’” and with that the grip around her gun got tighter, “Thankyou Seungcheol for all these amazing seven years, I love you” and she fired.

The moment the bullet was fired, Seungcheol moved from his place but his bullet hit her right there and against his will he realized he shot her.

“Sihyun” was the last thing she heard before falling into the floor.

And the very next day, it was Seungcheol who received the award standing infront of the whole crowd, he was holding the trophy. He gave his speech and only he knew how much it was hurting. Only he knew, how he saw his wife dying, the tears that were threatening to fall, didn’t deserve to fall. It was the pain of losing his wife, his support system, his love, and the person he trusted the most, but then what is even trust?

He was the one who shot his wife and here he is being awarded for that.

All the dreams died down the moment she took her last breath infront of him saying she still loved him even after this.

Keeping that for later 😋

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written by @cheolism :

In The Eye of The Beholder (smut but also fluffy and soft, boyfriend!cheol and he's such a simp) by

Couch Comfort (fluff)

The Great War (historical au, fluff, smut, enemies to lovers) by @amourcheol

written by @lovelyhan :

Down Bad (So So Bad) (friends to lovers, fluff, smut)

Thirst Trap (smut, fluff, established relationship)

Sonder (angst, smut, knight!cheol) by @jundundun

Gryffindor Captain (hogwarts au, angst, smut, one sided love) by @http-mianhae

written by @toruro :

Exes and Oh's (angst, smut, rebuilding relationship)

The Cake In The Back (smut, fluff, rich dilf!cheol)

All For You (smut, fluff, hurt/comfort) by @gfcheol

Push It Down (Sooner or Later It All Will Comes Out) Series by @dontflailmenow

Crossing Boundaries (smut, fluff, single dad au) by @wonusite

written by @duhnova :

A Witches Apothecary for All Your Desires and Needs (smut, angst, witch!au)

Who's in Control? (smut)

Setting The Mood (smut, fluff) by @playmetheclassics

Black Suit (smut, mafia boss!cheol) by @gyuranhae

Lover (smut, strangers to lovers, sugar daddy au) by @starlightxsvt

Terrifyingly Innocent The Series (smut) by @twogyuu

I Like You (smau with some written parts. fluff, angst, doctor!cheol x nurse!reader) by @taeyegu

Your Touch; My Lullaby (fluff, smut, angst) by @j6shua

After Class (smut, professor!cheol, with several continual parts) by @rubyreduji

Tomorrow Tonight (friends to lovers, angst, mutual pining) by @cheolbooluvr

Bite That Lip (smut, fluff, mild angst) by @beahae

Romance at Mistletoe Inn (smut, fluff) by @1-800-hwahui

written by @smileysuh :

Sapiosexual (smut, sugar daddy au)

Cherry Cheollie (smut)

written by @yoongiseesawmp3 :

Cupid (smut, brother's bestfriend!cheol)

Get You (fluff, neighbor!cheol)

Banana Pancakes (smut)

Reliable (smut, humor, bestfriends au) by @ncteez

Indulgence (smut, vampire!cheol) by @sluttywonwoo

Shiver Me Timbers! (smut, fantasy au, pirate captain!cheol x siren!reader) by @beefboyandbabygirl

Just Friends (smut, childhood friends to lovers, slowburn) by @lvscoups

Shiny Star (fluff, hurt comfort, university au) by @wonwoonlight

To Boil A Frog (fluffy, childhood acquaintances to lovers) by @seungkwansphd

When You Love Someone (angst, eventual fluff) by @shuahoonie

Exam Szn (smut, a bit fluff) by @azamf

11/10 (smut) by @bluejeanstrash

Track 1 ; Hotel (smut, heir!cheol, old money au) by @drunk-on-dk

Clouded (smut, slight fluff, established relationship, idol!au) by @hoshzone

It's Always Been You (smut, fluff) by @heartkyeom

Lusty Gallant (smut, roommates fwb au) by @onlyseokmins

The Devil Said... (angst, smut, half demon!cheol) by @multi-kpop-fanfics

DRABBLES / SCENARIOS ! ✧*

Wine & Dined (fluff, smut, established relationship) by @celestiababie

Silky (fluff, smut) by @playmetheclassics

Driving Me Crazy (smut, bandmate!cheol) by @1-800-hwahui

11.00 PM (smut) by @celestialpearls

dry humping (smut) @sluttyminghao

written by @idyllic-ghost :

birthday sex (smut)

written by @lovelyhan :

when you're having a bad day (soo fluffy)

forced orgasm (smut)

you sound pretty hot when you shut up (smut)

written by @toruro :

take care (smut)

escapades (smut)

written by @onlyhuis :

wedding night (smut, fluff)

more please (smut)

written by @yikesmary :

three : he falls first (fluff)

pregnancy cravings (fluff)

Insomnia (smut) by @jaestrz

written by @bluejeanstrash :

manspread (smut)

giving road head (smut)

unholy (smut) by @multi-kpop-fanfics

6.29 am (fluff, established relationship) by @ksywoo

ice cream (smut, fluff) by @/seonghwalogy

baguette (fluff) by @/bwinnies

possessive cheol (smut) by @/meltwonu

fwb with cheol (smut) @/wonwoonlight

written by @/fairyhaos :

what's good? (fluff) by

4.15 am (fluff)

5.02 am (fluff, dad!cheol) by @/slytherinshua

winter (smut, husband!cheol) by @/xmyunghoe

୨୧The Afterparty୨୧

| The Fight | The Party | The Afterparty | The Epilogue |

{your head is reeling from the scene you’d just witnessed at soonyoungs party, and your heart isn’t doing much better. how could everything go so wrong in just a few hours? whatever, if things were already fucked you’d just have to get fucked with them. but hes still there, in the back of your mind. and youre evidently in the front of his. cheol is furious with you. furious and possessive, and you wonder if you can get through soonyoung's afterparty without something happening between you two}

warnings: angst, smut, cheol is possessive and slightly creepy (mentions of possible stalking but he doesnt confirm anything), hard dom! Cheol x sub! Reader, bondage, degrading, multiple orgasms, light breeding kink, impact play (spanking), nipple play, size kink cause i cant help myself, just the general hard fucking yall know the drill, drinking but for the plot theyre not super drunk during sex (cause dont do that)

word count: 6k

you threw back shots like they were water, your face constricting from the bitter taste on your tongue before you slammed the little shot glass on the counter “another one.”

somewhere through the buzz the alcohol caused you could hear cheers. some from jeonghan and soonyoung, who had convinced you to try and out drink mingyu (who they joked was “the resident alcoholic”), and some from people you didn’t know.

somehow this afterparty was even bigger than the party itself.

the ride over to jeonghan’s loft was completely silent. both soonyoung and seungkwan had watched your face fall upon seeing seungcheol leave with her, and both were graceful enough to let you have your moment of peace before the afterparty started.

fuck him.

genuinely and whole heartedly, fuck him.

your head spun with each shot, each pass of that vile liquid down your throat.

you didn’t know how long it had been since you got here, and you weren’t sure you cared. you planned on getting as blackout drunk as possible and passing out somewhere in this overwhelmingly spacious loft.

it seemed like other people had that same plan. what with how nearly every surface contained substance ranging from white powder to the remnants of someone's attempt of rolling a blunt. the smell of something sharp filled the air, mixing with the awful smell of whatever the fuck you were drinking right now. who even knew with how many bottles were lining every table in this huge fucking space.

seriously how rich was jeonghan anyways to be able to afford this luxurious downtown loft? you thought the view of the city might be nice too if you were sober enough to see straight.

music blasted overhead, something about parties and women and fucking. all things that reminded you of him. of how he held her face while shoving his tongue down her throat…

jeonghan passed the now refilled shot glass to you and you downed it without a second thought.

mingyu did the same across the table from you and gagged “alright i might have to tap out.” you locked eyes with him as the crowd around you yelled for you and smirked at his pout

“i thought you were supposed to be good at this” you teased the large man "maybe next time youll take more than-"

soonyoung's voice cut through the conversation "Cheol? how did you find this place?"

you stopped. the room stopped. the whole fucking world stopped.

you watched as cheol sauntered into the loft, his eyes locked on you.

"soonyoung, i thought you said he didnt get an invite" you hissed at your friend. you were about to push further, convinced he orchestrated this for you and cheol to talk out your relationship, until you saw his face.

soonyoung had gone pale. he was just as surprised as you to see cheol at this afterparty. jeonghan however didnt look the least bit phased to see him.

the rest of the people around the four of you had gone back to partying, completely oblivious to what was about to happen.

"cheol, what are you doing here?" soonyoung said, stepping forward to put himself between you and the man "i never sent you the address"

cheol looked to jeonghan before turning his attention back to you, ignoring soonyoungs question for the second time. "wheres dino? im surprised hes not following you around like a little lost puppy."

you balked. was he being serious right now?

"i could ask you the same thing about anjelica. thought youd be fucking her by now" you crossed your arms. if he wanted a fight youd give him one, you were definitely tipsy enough.

"who said i didnt?"

this bitch.

"then why the fuck are you here seungcheol? we both moved on apparently, so why even show up?"

his eyes stared through yours "who said i moved on from you?"

soonyoung moved from infront of you, seemingly understanding that as his unspoken cue, and pulled jeonghan into the corner to talk to him (more like argue).

standing alone with cheol in jeonghan's kitchen you braced yourself for the conversation youd been waiting days for.

"then why do it cheol? why ignore me for days only to bring her to the party and rub it in my face?"

"i could ask you the same thing, y/n. i didnt hear from you at all until a few hours ago when you asked to talk, but by then Anjelica needed someone to take her to the party and i couldnt just say no."

"but -"

"and i know how it looked. i know. but you didnt even let me explain. didnt even let me come up to you before i watched you almost run to hole yourself in the bathroom."

he waited a second for you to say anything, and when you didnt he continued.

"i thought you had just drank too much or something and thats why it was taking you a while, but when i went to check on you i heard moaning." he inhaled and paused, gripping the edge of the counter like just the memory of it was too much for him to recount, "i couldnt believe it. so i listened, i thought maybe id just missed you leave or something. that it was anyone but you in there."

he scoffed, "but i know you and i know your voice like its my own. i knew it was you so i waited. i waited until i couldn't anymore. and then it was him." another inhale "it couldve been anyone else but it was him."

"again, i could say the same thing about you, seungcheol. that woman is the whole reason were here in the first place. and i tried. i tried to contact you to get you to talk about things. so imagine my surprise when shes the one you bring to the party. the one youve been fucking for god knows how long and-"

"and you havent been fucking chan?" his voice raised loud enough to draw a few party-goers attention to the two of you

"what are you-"

"i know about the texts y/n. why the fuck do you think id fuck her in the first place."

you paused. what did he mean by "the texts?" first he knew about you and chan hanging out and now he knows about your texts with him? no, theres no way. surely hes talking about something else.

"oh dont play innocent, y/n, you know exactly what im talking about" cheol leaned into you, coming so close to your ear so that youd be the only one who could hear him. "how you texted him every slutty thing you wanted him to do to you. how you wanted chan to fuck you...cum in you and eat it out of you"

your mouth hung open and your face turned red as a tomato. you couldnt tell if it was from embarrassment or anger. or from the looming fear that he somehow knew, somehow found out about your private texts.

"hoenstly, y/n, i had on idea how much of a slut you could be"

he leaned away, straightening his back again and looked down at you.

"how-how did you-"

"i have my ways."

your eyes widened at him in shock, causing him to grin at you. for the first time in your whole relationship you were...scared of him.

"maybe chan was right" your voice was weak "maybe i shouldve gone home with him tonight" your voice cracked with the tears that threatened to spill

cheol said nothing, he didnt have to with the fury that burned in his deep brown eyes. he grabbed your wrist and tugged you along behind him, leading you down a nearby hallway you didnt even notice before.

he pulled you into the darkened room with so much force you nearly fell down. you couldnt see much but you figured this was one of jeonghan's many guest bedrooms judging from the king sized bed in the middle of it.

"what did you just say?" he had his back to you, facing the door as he spoke as if not looking at you would help him calm down some.

you couldnt help it, you were crying now, hot tears running down your face as you stumbled over your words "cheol, youre scaring me"

"oh, im scaring you?" you hear the faint click of the lock on the door. you were trapped with him now.

"y-yes." you sniffed "chan said you talked to him. threatened him and now youre doing the same to me"

he turned to you, eyes still lined in rage "he said what? y/n-" he tried approaching you but stopped when he saw how small you looked. you were truly terrified of him

his voice softened "first of all, id never hurt you. that you think id even try is-" he gulped, trying to hide how his voice wavered "and second, i didnt "threaten" him, i told him not to touch you because i knew that word would get to him about our...fight...and hed try to steal you away from me."

he slowly closed the distance between you two, taking note of how your body language became more receptive of him. he took your hands in his, running his thumbs against the soft bumps of your knuckles.

"look, i know things are rough between us right now but i miss you. and im sorry for everything" he looked into your eyes, willing you to understand just how sincere he was being "theres questions you have for me that i just cant answer. i dont have an excuse for anything and i know thats not enough, and i know its wrong of me to ask you to understand, but please"

you faltered. saying there were questions you had or him didnt even scratch the surface. for one you couldnt understand how he just happened to know about the sexts, then that compared with what chan had said about him always...showing up. how he could find you and just be there without you even telling him where youd gone. how hed done that same thing just now despite how soonyoung obviously didnt sned him the party invite.

yes, you had questions (almost an endless list of them at this point), but he was close to you and the woodsy scent of him was engulfing your senses and those big brown eyes were pleading with you not to storm off again. you couldnt help yourself.

you stood on your tip toes and kissed his lips softly.

cheol's arms immediately brought you closer in a warm bearhug, his lips moving against yours with all the tenderness of an apology and all the fervor of a man that had waited, dreamed of this since he first met you.

his lips quickened, his tongue running over your bottom lip to ask for entrance, and you obliged.

cheol's tongue roamed in your mouth, licking you up like hed eat you if he could. just fucking inhale you until you both became one.

he turned you both around suddenly until he had you caged within his arms, your back pressed against the door

"is this how you like it, hm? i heard him fucking you against that bathroom door, is that what you want me to do?" his voice was hushed as he spoke between kisses to your neck

you whimpered, had you really been with chan just a few hours ago?

his lips paused on your neck "are you thinking about him?"

"what, cheol i-"

he pushed off of you "you are." his eyes darkened, "what do i have to do to erase him from your mind huh? i couldnt keep your attention before, so what do i have to do now to keep you from even thinking his name?"

"cheol-"

he caged you in again, gripping your wrists and holding them firm against the door.

“do i need to tie you up so you won’t leave me again? cause i will.” you paused, eyes widening up at him as you realized he was being completely serious “i’ll do anything to keep you here, with me. you might want chan but you need me.”

then he moved off of you, you were so stunned by what he said that you didnt even notice him walking towards something. ofcourse his words shocked you, but what shocked you more is you realized chan was right.

cheol was crazy.

the ropes were on you before you even noticed he’d come back. he bound your arms with expertise, weaving the rough material around your wrists, but being sure not to tie them too tight. he didn’t wanna hurt you after all. he wasn’t a monster.

"cheol! what the fuck are you doing?" you words were panicked, he really was tying you up in the middle of some random room. the only saving detail about all of this was that this was jeonghan's house, and you guys were friends.

and then it dawned on you.

how cheol knew where to go for the party. jeonghan.

the two were good friends, everyone knew that. but did that mean that jeonghan knew how fucking crazy cheol could be, was being right now?

when you came back to reality your hands were completely bound together, and cheol had picked you up bridal style to place you on the bed.

he plopped you down on the soft mattress, the scent of fresh laundry filling your nose before you pushed yourself onto your knees, your dress riding up your plump thighs.

"think you can get away with it? letting him eat your little pussy out. come on baby, you know that belongs to me"

he crawled on the bed to you, placing his strong arms on either side of your thighs as he towered over you, even sitting on the bed he was still quite a bit taller than you.

"but you were allowed to fuck someone else tho, right?" you pushed your lips out in a pout and cheol's eyes tracked them, a smug smirk crossing his face as he saw the jealousy you so easily conveyed.

you looked so...cute.

"awwww is my pretty baby jealous?" his voice was low as he began kissing your neck again, trailing down to your breasts that were now peaked with your nipples. you didnt know if it was right to be turned on by his possessive asshole behavior, but you werent sure you cared right now. you couldnt deny that you really wanted to feel his hands on you.

"n-no," you breathed

"no?"

"no."

he nipped at his skin "not even if i say i kissed her just like this? licked her right where im licking you right now?" his tongue passed over the clothed tips of your nipples

"fuck," you hated what he was saying, but your body loved how he felt on you

"what if i say i tied her up just like this? fucked her mouth and made her take every bit of me i had to offer?" he raked his teeth over your sensitive buds, biting lightly through the material and making your back arch into him

you wouldve reached up into his hair too if he hadnt tied your hands together. or maybe you wouldve slapped his chest for what he was saying, pushed him away and cried from what he just admitted to you.

but you couldnt, so you did the next best thing "i hate you" you groaned out, even though youd never wanted him more

he paused, bringing his eyes up to meet yours "take it back"

you nearly laughed at the difference between his personas, how hed just said all those filthy things but as soon as you rebuttled he looked like a hit puppy.

and you really thought youd got him there. thought youd won the upper hand and had him right where you wanted.

youd never been more wrong.

"y/n." his voice warned "take. it. back."

you straightened your back in defiance "no."

"fine" he pushed himself up, coming to his knees on the mattress "if you cant listen to me, then ill just have to fuck the disobedience out of you"

your stomach flipped. youd never been talked to like this before. but you couldnt help that you liked it. really liked it if your pussy had anything to say about it. you were so soaked, you thought youd have ruined your panties if you hadnt somehow lost them at one point in the night.

he gripped your chin in his fingers, his palm nearly covering half of your neck as he pulled you towards him

"hows that sound baby?"

you knew what this was. an out. a way for you to express your discomfort, and you knew in the deepest parts of you that he would untie you in an instant, mutter endless apologies, and take you home if its what you wanted. but its not.

you wanted him to fuck you. fuck you so thoroughly and completely that he completely forgot another woman ever existed before you. youd be sure of it.

"g-good. it-sounds good" it came out pathetic and muffled from his fingers squeezing your cheeks together.

he smirked at you "good girl. now lift up baby, lets get you undressed"

you obliged, what else could you do with your hands literally tied.

cheol's fingers left goosebumps in their wake as he lifted your dress off of your frame. you watched as his eyes took you in. grazed upon every curve of your perfect, beautiful body, before snagging on your pussy

"baby?"

"hm?"

"where are your panties?" his eyes snapped up to meet yours as if the answer lied in them. and maybe they did, with how his gaze darkened at you.

he stood off the bed, standing right in front of you as he undid the buckle of his belt, maintaining eye contact with you the whole time.

"he has them, doesnt he?"

the thought honestly never crossed your mind that chan mightve taken your panties, not that you cared.

"he does." cheol's voice was filled with assuredness, like he knew without actually knowing where your pretty little lacy thong had gone.

he slipped his belt from the loops of his pants, folding and snapping it together once causing you to flinch at the sound

"baby, youve been such a bad girl recently" he frowned at you, his eyes raking across your body, snagging on the hickey that chan gave you "no, youre not a good girl at all. in fact, i think naughty girls like you deserve to be punished."

all you could do was sit back on your heels, looking up at him innocently through your long eyelashes.

"dont give me the innocent act, y/n. we both know you were fucking Chan's tongue just a few hours ago." pushed you down on the bed, then forced you onto your stomach, your pretty little ass on display for him "tell me baby, how many spankings do you think you deserve for giving away whats mine?"

another snap of his belt "ten? twenty?"

you couldnt answer, just arched your back, angling your ass higher at the promise of pain you so desperately craved, so long as it was cheol doing it to you.

he palmed your ass lightly, his large hand raking over your soft flesh, almost like he was inspecting you, making sure that hickey on your neck was the only one chan had left.

"lets settle for fifteen, how does that sound baby?" another snap "sound good?"

you mewled at the sharp sound

"y-yes, sounds good cheollie"

your head was pressed against the mattress, cheek squished in a way cheol thought made you look so adorable. but he knew better. you were nothing but a slut, and he was gonna show you what happened to sluts that couldnt contain themselves, that went around riding other mens' faces in their friend's bathroom.

without warning the painful sting reverberated through your body, your hips pushing into the bed as he slapped the belt against your ass. hard.

"fuck!" you yelped

"such a dirty mouth baby." he clicked his tongue "you really are a bad, bad girl" another spank to your ass. one that was even harder than the last, like he expected you to behave sweetly while he beat the fuck out of your soft flesh.

"tell me baby, did you know hed take them? did you let him take those little panties so that he could go home and fuck them?" another sharp spank had you groaning, turning your face into the mattress to keep your screams muffled "think chan's at home now, cumming into those little panties while thinking of how you tasted on him?"

another spanking. fuck he was getting hard just watching you try to squirm away from your punishment. he knew you probably didnt mean for chan to take your underwear, but that didnt infuriate him any less. and unfortunately your ass was right there for him to take out all his frustrations on.

you on the other hand were feeling both the worst and best experiences youd ever felt. cheol's spanks were harsh, but youd be lying if you said each slap didnt make your pussy even wetter.

"no cheollie" you somehow managed to whine out, the sound coming out slightly muffled from the mattress...and where you crying? "didnt mean for him to take them"

another spanking "whyd you do it then?"

you yelped, tears now streaming down your face as you took every bit of pain he gave you, something deep inside yourself spurring you to convince him that you were good. his good girl.

"d-dunno"

spank

"yes you do."

spank

you were sobbing now, hot tears creating a puddle where your face laid pressed against the bed

"j-" you hickuped from the choked sobs now rolling through you "just wanted to f-feel good"

cheol landed two harsh slaps against your ass with the belt. fuck how many was this now? maybe ten?

"and i couldnt do that for you? hm? didnt trust your cheollie enough to take care of your needs?"

another spanking

another set of cries escaped your plump lips, your hips trying so hard to squirm away from him.

"n-no, just wanted to m-make you jealous." you cried out

you braced for another spanking at your confession, only to be met with silence.

"what was that baby" his large hands came down to massage the now bright red skin of your butt.

you sniffed, turning your head to the side so that you could barely make out his looming frame behind you

"only rode his face n talked to him to make you j-jealous" it was pathetic really, how many tears slipped from your watery eyes from the confession, but it was true. youd only done all of that in an attempt to get back at cheol, even if some of the things he was never supposed to know about. so much good those little secrets did against someone so...crazy like cheol was. or whatever he was.

cheol placed a sweet, soft kiss against your ass before smoothing the skin there "and what do you have to say for doing something so mean to your cheollie? making him listen while you got your little pussy ate, while you came all over another man?"

"m-sorry" you sobbed again, you didnt even know your body was capable of making this many tears "m-so sorry cheollie"

you muffled your cries into the mattress again, too embarrassed with how hard you were sobbing to let him see even the side of your face.

cheol's eyes softened at you. your body laid out before him, cute little hickups from how hard you were crying. and that apology. fuck, you really were his cute, sweet y/n.

and he couldnt help but feel guilty for ever pushing you to act so naughty.

hed make it up to you for the rest of his life. would spend the rest of his days on his knees for you for ever having touched another woman, even if he was thinking of you the whole time. but that was his apology to make another time.

tonight was about that fucking scene hed walked in on back at soonyoung's apartment. about all the texts he couldnt erase from his memory.

"come on baby" cheol stood back up and snapped the belt again "only five more left. lets hear you count for me. think you can do that for your cheollie?"

you sniffed, unable to form another sentence, but nodded before turning your head to the side.

spank

"one"

spank

"two"

spank

"three"

spank

"four"

spank

"f-five"

you heard the faint clank of the belt against the hardwood floor.

heard the soft sound of clothes hitting the floor, before feeling a dip in the bed beside you as cheol climbed onto the mattress next to you before laying flat on his back.

cheol ran a had across your hair, pushing a few strands behind your ear before tilting your chin

"look at me baby" his voice was soft, but firm with the promise of another punishment if you didnt obey "there she is, my sweet good girl"

you sighed. there it was, that title you so desperately needed to hear fall from his lips.

you sniffed, another set of tears threatening to fall down your cheeks. "ch-cheollie" you cried suddenly, hiccupping against the bed as your body shook. you tried to reach out to him but your hands were still bound in place by the rough rope.

cheol cooed at you "awweee my sweet perfect angel, did cheollie hurt you?"

you nodded, tried to look up at him through your lashes again, but couldnt even see straight for all the tears that clouded your vision

his heart strained at the sight of you trying to tug your arms out of the restraints to get to him. how you couldnt roll over onto your stomach properly because of the rope confining your movements, and the pain searing into your lower half.

you looked so helplessly cute to him, and he couldnt help but pull you onto him, forcing your thighs apart to straddle his hips. and his now very erect cock.

his big hands came up to whisk away the tears from your face, gently wiping any remaining wetness from your softly flushed skin.

"there you go baby, let it out. you did so good. so good my good girl."

you hiccupped one last time, bringing your bound hands up to your face to wipe the few stray tears that fell.

"so fucking cute" cheol muttered under you.

under you.

the man you had been pining after, and who had apparently been pining after you too, was under you. completely naked, and you could feel him, every painfully hard inch of his long cock pressing against your middle.

you startled, trying to lift your cunt off of him, you didnt even realize hed set you on his hips until you felt how thick and girthy his cock was under you.

cheol laughed at your startled expression and how you seemed almost...bashful at the lewd position

"whats wrong baby? dont want a reward after all your hard work?"

you groaned at the thought. cheol reached up, pushing your hair behind your ear before caressing your cheek

"come on pretty baby, wanna see how good you ride me. how does that sound."

you nodded, giving a tentative grind of your hips against his cock.

fuck. he was so hard.

you spared a look down, just a peak, and were met with the huge length of him. he had to be at least eight inches. at least. and he was so thick too, your pussy barely surrounded the thickness of him as you grinding against him again

"mmphh~ fuck cheollie. s-big"

his hands guided your hips, his eyes watching as your little pussy struggled, clenched around nothing while the wetness of you seemingly poured over his shaft.

fuck, you were so wet and all hed done was spank you.

"yeah baby? am i the biggest youve seen?"

you moaned "y-yes! its so big" you paused "i dunno if its gonna fit in me"

his eyes nearly rolled back at your words. "fuck angel dont" his hips bucked up "dont say things like that to me"

"but youre so big" you moaned, you didnt mean to but your hips traveled so far up his length that his tip prodded your entrance "fuck, cheollie!"

"shit baby, need you so bad" he lifted your hips up "need to fuck you, fill this pretty pussy up"

you squeaked above him, your cheeks flushing red all over again "p-put it in" you paused "please"

please. god you were so cute, youd be the death of him.

he lifted your hips up, you almost had to lift up onto your knees just so that his dick had enough room to spring up, his thick tip glistening with his wet precum

you brought your bound hands to rest against his chest as cheol sunk you down onto him, basking in your whimpers at how thick he was. how the stink of him stretching your pussy out felt good. so right.

"h-how much more?" a sweat had graced your brow at how much his cock was hurting your little hole.

he chuckled a little bit "youre only halfway baby"

you groaned. you couldnt stand it. yes, his length hurt. but you had been waiting so long for this moment, and you couldnt wait any longer.

you pushed yourself down, not realizing he was thrusting himself up into you at the same time, causing you to ram yourself down, taking the full length of him into your little cunt.

cheol's back arched off of the bed "fuck!"

you moaned at the feeling of him lodged to his base in you, how his tip shoved itself against your cervix and your clit rubbed against his pubes.

cheol couldnt hold himself back anymore. he was gonna go gentle with you for your first time, but you were obviously insatiable. he smirked to himself, looked like chan hadnt fucked you well enough afterall.

cheol lifted you off of him, sighing at how your pussy seemed to retort at his cock leaving it, before slamming you back down onto him.

you cried out at the feeling of his cock splitting you open, of your little pussy being fucked by his much bigger length.

cheol's hips lifted each time yours dropped down, meeting you in the middle and causing the wet squelching sound of your ruined cunt to fill the room.

"did chan fuck you this good baby? did he make you cry for his cock and bounce on him like a needy little slut?"

you whimpered, the sound coming out sounding a little too much like a muffled "yes" for cheol's liking, and the man couldnt have that.

cheol rammed himself into you at an impossible pace, fucking you so hard that the grip he had on your hips was sure to leave bruises.

and then his dick twitched in you.

he came in you, the hot spirts of his white cum painting your quivering walls.

but he didnt stop.

his dick didnt even soften inside you, he just kept fucking his hips up into you, not wanting a single drop of cum to fall from you.

"cheollie" you whimpered

his eyes shot up to you, drinking in your fucked out expression. he couldnt stand it, he needed to fuck you harder. breed you and fill you full of his cum so you didnt have a choice but to stay with him, not with his babies nestled in you.

cheol flipped you over so fast you barely had time to process anything before he was ontop of you, kissing against your neck while ramming his still painfully hard dick into you.

he leaned down, leveling his plump lips with your ear and whispered “what’s wrong y/n? i thought you were a big girl”

you whimpered, eyes pleading up at him to be just a little softer, slow his hips down just a little bit so your cum-soaked cunt could recover just for a second.

but cheol only mocked your whimper, taunting you before picking up the speed of his hips

“big girls need to take responsibility for their actions. need to be punished when they act out of line and fuck other people.”

you couldnt help how the dam broke, and your legs shook with the wave of your orgasm.

"there we go, good girl, cumming around her cheollie's cock"

he pulled out and flipped you on your side, raising one of your legs and resting it on his broad shoulder before shoving himself back in and pounding his cum-covered cock back into you.

your body thrashed with the force of his hips, jostling on the bed from how hard his hips smashed into yours. he had you bent so deliciously to fit his thick cock in your little pussy.

your bound hands came down to your side to grip the sheets, give you any sort of grounding against the way cheol was pounding himself into you.

"ch-cheollie!!"

he mocked you, mimicking how you whined for him and moaned his name.

your pussy spasmed again, sucking him deeper into you as you came around his dick again.

without waiting for you to come down, cheol had you on your back, his large frame hovering over you as he rammed himself into oyur heat from on top of you now.

one orgasm flowed into the next at the new position, at how his curved dick hit your g spot so perfectly, like he was made for you.

your body shook with the most powerful orgasm youd ever had, something akin to a religious experience as his cock coaxed every worry out of your body.

"fuck cheollie," your high pitched moans and cries were music to his ears as your back arched towards him "fuck, love you s-much cheol-fuck!"

his hips faltered with your orgasm, with how perfectly your plush walls clenched around him.

something in cheol broke at the sight of you sobbing for him, cumming around him all while babbling about how much you loved him.

it dawned on him in that moment. you loved him.

nothing else mattered then. not the betrayals or how jealous he was. how crazy you made him. none of it mattered.

the only thing there was in his mind was you.

"fuck, y/n, i love you too. i love you more, so much fucking more" he slowed his hips to a long, slow rocking pace inside you. cheol wanted to savor the feeling of you, how you came and moaned around him.

the slow pace felt perfect, you were so soft and wet, all full of his cum and yours. he lowered himself onto you, looking into your teary eyes and came for the third time that night.

you groaned with the feeling of cheol filling you up again. his full body weight on you as he shook with pleasure. you knew he had come down from his orgasm when he rested completely ontop of you, one of his big hands coming to stroke your hair.

the weight of him was perfect, like a big, adorable weighted blanket.

but what was even more perfect was that choi seungcheol, your bestfriend that youd loved in secret for years, was now yours.

you knew it, and he definitely knew it. and nothing was going to separate you now. cheol would be sure of that if it was the last thing he ever did.

you knew that you had alot to talk about. alot of turmoil to fight through, but not tonight. tonight was for the two of you to pretend none of that existed. tonight, surrounded by the soft blue wave of moonlight that peered through the curtains in jeonghan's spare bedroom, you and cheol let those worries melt away within the warm embrace of eachothers' arms.

[authors note]

TWO PARTS LEFT POOKIES!!!! also if youve been following me you know that i struggle with writing the porn parts of fics and this one was so...i genuinely have thought abt getting laid just to have an easier time writing smut

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Seventeen is just full of bad bitches like!?!?!?

happy birthday - c. seungcheol

»idol!¡Choi Seungcheol x fem!¡reader.

»Summary: It´s midnight and you´re alone in your apartment for your birthday.

»Tags: smut (MDNI), oral (f. receiving), cunnilingus, pet names, establish relationship, idolau, fingering, countertop oral(?, body worship, dom!seungcheol, sub!reader, reader is mention to have her ears pierced, seungcheol is strong af.

»Words: 1.4k (idk)

note: i feel like as much as Cheol likes people to congratulate him on his birthday, he would try his best to do the same for his partner, idk, it was my birthday like three days ago and i just miss him so much ;c

note 2: Any typo or incoherence that you might find was completely intentional, it’s for the sake of learning about my mistakes.

Your hair tickled on the back of your neck, the soft air of the night making it dance on your skin.

In this particularly cold night, you looked at the moon with a solemn expression in your face, you were sitting in the balcony... alone, with the big and shining sphere who has always been the witness of your bittersweet nights filled in loneliness, but also bystander of those you spent with company.

The memories of his warm body beside you, tugging you into a warm hug seem very distant, like they have been only a long and wonderful dream.

You closed your eyes trying to imagine your boyfriend being there, his hoarse voice congratulating you for your birthday as soon as the clock hits midnight like he always used to do.

Filling your face with kisses and caressing your body with softness, but he wasn't there.

It's been four months since the last time you saw him, his schedule always filled to the brim, presentations, concerts, interviews, flights, pre-recording, you didn't know what to do, you talk all the time, texts, calls, FaceTime, but it's not enough, it's just to little of him for you.

You hugged yourself and the clock rang announcing midnight.

"Happy birthday to me" you said while an uncontrollable tear slipped through your reddened cheek.

You got up, and palmed the dirt of your shirt to get inside the apartment. Dragging your feet, you threw yourself in your bed, crashing into the mattress, hurting your back with the tv controller that was laying there before.

You took the controller from behind your back, to settle in the bed hugging your pillow tightly, arching your back making your shirt -your boyfriend's shirt- lift.

"Fuck, what a nice view" the velvety yet masculine voice of your boyfriend rang in your ears, and startled you sat in your bed.

There he was, standing in the door frame, with a big box of chocolates, a bottle of wine and a cute bouquet of your favourite flowers. His pearly smile lighted the gloominess in the room, making your heart flutter.

"Happy birthday, baby" he said sweetly but with an apologetic smile, maybe thinking you were upset by his tardiness.

You wanted to cry big time, you were certain that he was extremely tired from his rehearsals, but yet you were so happy that he took the time to come.

Euphoric you got out of bed, running to him and jumping on his arms, pinning your legs on his hips and locking your arms in his neck. Seungcheol, was in a tough position, his arms were full with the gifts and now you were clinging onto him like a tick, he has to admit it, his core balance is pretty sick.

Your face rested in the crock of his neck and the woody smell stroke your nostrils, and with that you were sure that him being there was not a dream.

You raised your face, his eyes were like two shining stars and his sweet smile almost made you melt in his arms. With his hands still very occupied, he managed to hug you back and give a loud kiss on your temple.

"I missed you so much" he whispered in your ear, his soft lips caressing your earlobe sending shivers down your spine.

A chill ran down your body making you tighten your grip on his neck.

"I missed you too, Cheolie"

Seungcheol, who was somehow still lifting you, got out of the room and went straight to the kitchen, putting everything in place, the chocolates in the table, the flowers in the pot and the wine, well, the wine in the wine fridge. When his hands were free he decided to sit you in the aisle in the middle of the kitchen.

Your legs and arms untangled from his figure, but he didn't move an inch, with your legs on each side of his hips, he started to leave kisses in the soft skin of your neck, sweet kisses in the freckles of your shoulders, but biting and sucking your collarbone.

His black shirt which you were using was starting to get in the way and quickly he got rid of it. He admired your bare chest, your beautiful and delicate skin, your breasts that fit in his hands just perfectly.

He kept kissing your skin while his hands were now fondling your breast enjoying the soft moans that escaped your mouth. A loud whimper dance away from your mouth, when his lips started to give pecks at your breasts.

He missed you so much, he just wanted you to touch you, draw your whole body with his fingers, engrave every curve of your body in his memory.

The tips of his fingers were now caressing your thighs doing imaginary figures, stroking with care. His kisses got to the base of your stomach, your fingers were starting to curl thrilled.

"God, you're so perfect" he whispered against your belly, making you shiver.

Your hands squeezed tightly the edge of the isle, knuckles whitening at the action and almost losing feeling in your fingers. You laid, your body suddenly feeling heavy, a whine slipped from your lips as Seungcheol’s fingers ran over your clotted cunt, just a little caress over your clothes making you shiver, not even directly and still it felt so good.

He tugged with his thumbs in the elastic of your underwear, stroking faintly with his fingers the journey to your ankles, making your skin burn exquisitely.

Now with your underwear long forgotten in some dark corner of the kitchen, Seungcheol's fingers travelled through the inside of your thighs once again.

As his digits got closer and closer to your core, he stopped, gripping the soft flesh of your legs tightly, making you moan.

Seungcheol put his rough palms in your knees, and testing your flexibility he pushed as much as he could without hurting you, his eyes travelled from your eyes to your cunt, licking his lips at the stirring view, your core sopping in your arousal.

His breath was hot against your wet and puffy lips, how was it even possible for you to feel this worked up when you haven't even started yet?, you were eager to know what was about to come next.

Like two petals the kisses were soft and silky, lips dancing skilfully on your cunt, making you chant his name in an obscene mantra, he drank till the last drop of your arousal, like it was one of his favourite wines.  

His tongue strokes over your sex, drawing fat strips with the hot muscle, enjoying your exquisite flavour like a starving man, but also pleased for being able to make you moan just like a porn star.

You could feel his hot tongue inside of you, his nose bumping with your clit, making your toes curl, you are not sure if it is because you love him so much, but Seungcheol is just so fucking good at giving you head, he knew where to touch, where to suck, he knows your body like the palm of his hand and that makes you even wetter.

And when he pressed his big hand onto your belly you felt how the coil that has been building up started to erupt, like firework exploiting inside of you, and when your orgasm washed you over, he drank it all, leaving you a trembling mess, receiving more pleasure from hearing you become such a mess just from giving you head, ignoring completely the hard on pressing painfully against his jeans.

His blonde hair felt soft against your thighs, when he lifted his face to looked at you, you could help but let a pathetic cry slip your mouth, his lips were bright red and glossy, chin covered in your arousal, he was panting, expression denoting adoration, making your heart melt in the spot.

His eyes looked at you lovingly, his tongue licking what it could from your excitement from his lips, his face got close to yours, lips kissing your earlobe feeling the cold metal of your piercing in his lips.

"I love you"

Your chest tightened, happiness overflowing your body, you stole a soft and innocent kiss from Seungcheol, making him laugh.

"I love you too"

"Happy birthday"

"Well now I'll go get your present" he got up and started to walk towards the door but you were confused.

"Wait" you said and he stopped in the door frame to look at you with a smile, head tilted to the side "My presents weren't the chocolates, the wine and the flowers?" the disorientation in your voice was obvious.

"No, that was just a small gift" he furrowed his eyebrows still smiling, yet his expression was showered in disbelief "Do you think I'm broke or something?"

happy birthday hubby 🎊

cc: rightful owner

「 ｓｅｖｅｎｔｅｅｎ ｗｅｄｄｉｎｇ ｓｅｒｉｅｓ | ａｓ ｈｕｓｂａｎｄｓ ― ｈｉｐｈｉｐ ｕｎｉｔ 」

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as a husband/wife ♡ vocal unit | performance unit ♡

asking for your parents’ hand ♡ vocal unit | performance unit ♡

proposal ♡ vocal unit | performance unit ♡

honeymoon + photos ♡ vocal unit | performance unit ♡

wedding dress + photos ♡ vocal unit | performance unit ♡

after the wedding ♡ vocal unit | performance unit ♡

𝒔.𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒑𝒔;

will kiss you before leaving for work

cooks when you’re not feeling good

kisses your ring every night before bed

will randomly hug you

hits to you that he wants kids

𝒘𝒐𝒏𝒘𝒐𝒐;

has you come backstage to concerts

visits you at work when he can

only kisses or hugs you in private

buys you expensive gifts for your birthdays or special occasions

comforts you when you’re down

𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒚𝒖;

cooks for you almost all the time

makes you your favorite meals on your birthday & special occasions

calls you “shortie”

facetimes you when bees in tour

helps you around the house when you’re not in the best mood

𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒏𝒐𝒏;

back hugs you whenever he sees you

lets you wear his hats

posts pictures of your wedding day on your anniversaries

calls/facetimes you before every concert

buys you meaningful things on birthdays, etc.

「 ｓｅｖｅｎｔｅｅｎ ｈｉｐｈｏｐ ａｕ | ｗｅｒｅｗｏｌｆ ｐａｃｋ 」

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𝒔.𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒑𝒔;

name: choi seung cheol

hometown: daegu, south korea

birthday: august 8, 1995

age: 23

position: apha

fur colour: black

eye colour: red

𝒘𝒐𝒏𝒘𝒐𝒐;

name: jeon won woo

hometown: changwon, gyeongsangnam-do, south korea

birthday: july 17, 1996

age: 22

position: omega

fur colour: brown

eye colour: blue

𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒚𝒖;

name: kim min gyu

hometown: anyang-si, gyeonggi-do, south kora

birthday: april 6, 1997

age: 21

position: beta

fur colour: brown

eye colour: yellow

𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒏𝒐𝒏;

name: hansol vernon chwe

hometown: new york, new york, usa

birthday: february 18, 1998

age: 20

position: omega

fur colour: brown

eye colour: blue

「 ｓｅｖｅｎｔｅｅｎ ｌｅａｄｅｒｓ ｗｅｒｅｗｏｌｆ ａｕ ｒｅａｃｔｉｏｎ | ｔｈｅｉｒ ｒｉｖｉａｌ ｐａｃｋｓ ｌｅａｄｅｒ ｆｌｉｒｔｓ ｗｉｔｈ ｔｈｅｉｒ ｍａｔｅ 」

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𝒔.𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒑𝒔;

You were visiting with your adoptive parents, but what you didn’t know was that you were on unwanted territory, you had gone out to catch up with some old friends when you smelled a very familiar sent of wolves, when you turned around you saw your boyfriends, rival pack leader, and he was flirting with you and you knew it, but what you didn’t know was that he secretly followed you and he made sure that he was to never bother you ever again.

“Listen, I do know that we are on unwanted territory, but while Y/N is here visiting with her family she is to be left alone, and if stay in town with her, you are to not let anyone of your little wolves hurt anyone of us, got it?!”

𝒉𝒐𝒔𝒉𝒊;

You were out of town for a few days and without even knowing it he sent some of the wolves from the pack to look after you. You had run into someone who seemed to be a little familiar to you, and when he found out that his rival pack leader was making a move on you he came to where you were, and when he approached you, he came up out of the blue.

“This may be your territory, but this is my girl, now stay away from her or I might just have to disobey the treaty!”

𝒘𝒐𝒐𝒛𝒊;

You used to date his rival packs leader, he was also your first love, but you two had to break up because he was betrothed to someone else, so you broke it off, but recently you have been running into him, and you haven't told JIhoon about it, until when he tried to contact you personally. You and Jihoon went out for a little walk and happened to run into your ex, who was just flirting with you right in front of him, and he just wasn’t having it at all.

“Listen, this is my packs territory, not yours, this is also my girl, not yours, now leave while you can!”

「 ｓｅｖｅｎｔｅｅｎ ｈｉｐ ｈｏｐ ｕｎｉｔ ｗｅｒｅｗｏｌｆ ａｕ ｒｅａｃｔｉｏｎ | ａｎｏｔｈｅｒ ｗｅｒｅｗｏｌｆ ｆｌｉｒｔｓ ｗｉｔｈ ｔｈｅｉｒ ｍａｔｅ 」

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𝒔.𝒄𝒐𝒖𝒑𝒔;

You were in the middle of the woods walking back home from a bonfire that one of your friends threw as a back-to-school party, she insisted that you stayed over, but you knew your parents were probably already mad at you for walking out in the first place so you decided to go home to apologize to them. On your way back you heard growling and saw some guy shoot a wolf with a tranquillizer, you waited for them to leave before releasing the wolf, you went over to the cage and saw the wolf looking scared and it even growled at you.

“Hey you don’t need to be scared, I’m just like you,” you said while flashing your golden yellow eyes at the wolf and he turned back into his human form.

“Hurry, they’ll be back soon.”

“How did this even happen?” you ask finally setting him free.

“I went out hunting, I saw a bonfire, and that’s when they got me,” he told you while you guys approached your house.

“I gotta go, but don’t get caught again,” you told him smiling while walking inside your house to talk to your parents.

𝒘𝒐𝒏𝒘𝒐𝒐;

You were out in the woods playing hide-and-seek with you older sister, which she was very good at, you could never find her unless she wanted to be found, which was how she played with you, she was a hybrid, which meant that she was stronger and faster than you. While you were running you came across a wolf in a cage, you made the decision of helping him, but he just got angry, snarling at you, trying to make you to stay away from him.

“Now I wouldn’t do that if I were you,” you said flashing you eyes at him signaling that you were just like him which made him turn back into his human form.

“Who are you?”

“Right now I’m the person who’s saving you,” you told him trying to pull the lock off the cage, but you weren’t strong enough that’s when you sister came up.

“Let me help,” she says ripping the lock straight off of the cage.

“Thanks,” he says as you and your sister go back home for dinner. 

𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒈𝒚𝒖;

It was your first night turning and you were afraid of what you might do, but your parents helped you through it, you all went into the woods, but when the hunters came you guys all scattered, you figured your parents eventually ended up home, but you went to go check on if the hunters got someone. When you approached the cage you saw him, he was scared and vulnerable, you tried to get him out of there before the hunters came back and tried some experiments on him.

“Who are you?”

“You are so stupid,” you told him flashing your golden eyes at him while smiling.

“I was trying to get back my pack when I turned, that’s how they got me, now get me out of here, please,” he says as you managed to get the lock of of the cage.

“Since I saved you can you help me look for my family?” you asked him as you guys went searching for them.

𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒏𝒐𝒏;

You were out in the woods just wondering around when you heard whinning in the distance, you went to go find the source of the noise, you found a wounded wolf in a cage, it brought tears to your eyes to see the fellow wolf like this. You stooped down becoming eye level with the wolf showing him your golden yellow eyes, which made him learn to trust you for help.

“Now let’s try to get you out of here,” you say as he turns back into human form.

“Please, they’ll be back soon, I can hear them.”

“I can hear them too, we are the same y’know,” you told him finally breaking the lock off of the cage.

“Now let’s go before they get back and they’re close,” he says as you two leave trying to stay clear of the hunters.