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nihyun aka purple~

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writing is my escape from reality~ everything seems so beautiful here

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i write on webnovels too : @/ Nihyun17

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my masterlist: my world :)

Few things about me uwu:

writing is just an escape for me, it’s a place where i can be myself.

i am mainly an angst lover, i write angst mainly but i do write fluff too.

i write about Straykids, Seventeen and BTS, i occasionally write about NCT and Monsta X.

My ults are Scoups, Hyunjin and Jungkook, bang chan always have a special place in my heart.

don’t be hateful towards me, the artists or anyone on this blog.

everything i write is a work of fiction~

I love playing genshin impact, hit me up if you wanna be friends there ^^

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daily reminder:

“reality is always harsher than we think it would be. but we are always stronger than we think we are”

“Don't be sorry, don't worry, don't be afraid, don't cry anymore. To me, you're endlessly precious.”

always be happy, you can always come talk to me, dms are open ~

What do you thinking about love will you explain me...

love, sounds so beautiful, dreamy. it can be heaven for you even hell, it depends how you perceive it. i think, it's beautiful yet painful sometimes, because you miss that person a lot and you end up crying. let me tell you what i think, in love, you have to learn how to be vulnerable, it will make you vulnerable, when you give it to the wrong person; love have that power. But for the right one, I feel like it’s worth, all the pain, all the uncertainties, some people just make those things worth having. it’s hard to give your trust to someone but once you do, it’s also really hard to get out of that relationship; cause once you choose to let go of your inhibitions, and show the other person your vulnerabilities, you’re gonna want to do everything in your power to make it work; you start giving all of you. Cause you already gambled.

but love can make you feel loved, comforted and happy, it can make you feel things you never felt before, you will explore yourself more, you will feel there's that one person who will be your everything. everything would be beautiful. this is what i think, my definition of love is of course different with someone else's definition of love, everyone's definition of love is different.

be happy~

i want to write some drabbles suddenly 🥹🥹 maybe i’ll drop something soonnnn

i was randomly checking my masterlist and started reading this, idk what possessed me and i wrote this 😭😭😭 like i dont feel it's me who wrote this 😭😭😭

he cheated //

Taeyong one shot

Lee Taeyong x female reader || sad, angst, anger, revenge, friendship

warnings: Swear words are used here due to anger issues, mention of scratching fingertips, bleeding, blood

|| word count: 3.2K

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[8:30 am]

After pulling off all night I wanted to meet Taeyong, hoping that Taeyong will be home, I tried calling him since yesterday but he didn’t even pick up. He’s partially avoiding me four to five months. He rarely asks for a meet up. Who will say we are together and it already three years? I thought to meet him directly and ask him what’s going on. I didn’t want to doubt him but when my bestfriend Daniel said he saw Taeyong with a girl in the bar frequently, they drink and get wasted. I was ignoring it by thinking it must be any colleague I will definitely believe my bestfriend over Taeyong. We are bestfriend for 12 years already. If Taeyong had a problem, he should come over and say.

I unlocked his door, and I entered. I saw his shoes and-

 Another pair of heels.

Keep reading

her last letter

“Junhui one shot”

Pairing: Wen Junhui x female reader

Genre: Angst

Warnings: implied death

A small synopsis: Jun’s lover left only a letter for him.

Word count: 1.1K

Author’s Note: I was confused which member would go with this and then I randomly thought about Jun because my brain just won’t register anyone else than Cheol 🚶🏻‍♀️

I looked at our room, it felt empty. Home didn’t feel like home anymore, it was just house made of bricks and cement. I looked around our room once again. I looked at our pictures, we were smiling, we looked happy. I walked towards the study table and picked up the photo frame, we took this picture on our third anniversary. I smiled looking at the picture.

I still remember that day clearly, she looked so beautiful, “we should actually take pictures on our marriage anniversaries so that we can keep on counting it with every picture. We will grow together.” she looked so happy on the way to studio. The smile on her face, I could never forget, not until my last breath. All the memories felt so fresh with her, I smiled bitterly, remembering how she looked and her endearing habits. She was my home, without her it’s nothing.

That day we clicked picture and went for an ice cream date, she said she was craving for ice cream that day and once I saw her puppy eyes I gave up. How could I not when she looked that cute, pouting.

If only words could describe how much I loved her and I still love her. One day I wish I could tell her how much she always meant to me because all the moments we spent together were never enough for me. I went to sit on the chair near the study table, and looked at the place where the photo frame was kept earlier. I wanted to tell myself to hold back the tears. I felt like my body going numb slowly and my heart was shattering.

If only I could hear my heart shattering, it would make me realize that this is real and I’ve to live like this.

I opened one of the drawer, and saw a blue envelope; something inside me told me, don’t open it because it might break me to that point, I can never recover. But the other side wanted to open the envelop and face the truth. But what was the truth? I’ve already faced it and I was in denial, and I very well know nothing was going to work out if I stay like this.

I took a deep breath, trying to prepare myself from whatever was infront of me, this could be something heartbreaking or this could be something that would give me a reason to live like this and there was only one way to know; and that was to open the envelope

I opened the blue envelope and there was a letter, even before I could open it I felt like my eyes tearing up. I looked up so that I could stop my tears but if only that worked.

I opened the letter and it was from her. She wrote in her pretty handwriting and she addressed me,

“My one and only love,

Jun,

I always wanted to write letters for you with love and now that you’re reading my letter, I wanted to tell you, how much I love you. I loved you and I will always love you.

I don’t know how things will turn out, when you would be reading this, sometimes I feel like I shouldn’t write this to you every time before leaving for my work, but you know if I could tell you how much I loved in person maybe I wouldn’t be writing this letter but one part of me hopes you never get to read this letter because you know what it means now. For last four years, I’ve been doing this, writing letters before I leave and I burn them once I return because I am back; and if I am back I won’t need to write and tell you how much I love you instead I could love you more. That’s why I hope you never get to read this one as well but if you ever do, I really want you to know something.

You were worth my life. So, if I leave someday, never blame yourself, okay? You were the brightest moon of my life. I hope we will meet again but not very soon, later; until then can you live for me love? And be happy? because I can’t be happy if you will be sad. That’s why, please be happy for me Jun.

You gave me the best memories I could ever ask. Those memories always stay in my heart. I can never thank you enough for giving the best to me Jun, you’re the best thing to ever happen to me.

Wish there was any way to tell you how much I loved you. You were my world, my own happiness, which I always dreamt of. Thank you for loving me endlessly and I know, you will say you can’t live without me, just the way we tell eachother every day, but today I will request you something, please promise me, you will agree with me” tears were falling, making the letter wet and I was nodding as if I could hear her voice and she was infront of me, requesting me.

“Can you please live for me and be happy? let me go and be happy. Don’t hold onto me for too long, I’ll be watching you, love. Don’t hurt yourself and always remember, I love you so much Jun.

I am sorry to break the promise which I made on our wedding and sorry for leaving you alone. I love you Jun.

With love, Xia”

I felt like I was choking on my own tears and felt like I couldn’t breath anymore. This was more painful than I could ever imagine, this was hurting me mor than I could bear.

How could she request something like that to me, how could I ever let her go? She was my beginning and end, so how could she say that to me. the way my tears were falling, I wanted to cry until my tears dry down and I don’t fee anything anymore.

I felt so lonely without her, how am I supposed to spend a single day without her now, “Why would you break the promise you made me on our wedding to never leave me alone?” I was looking at her letter, how did she feel when she wrote this, “Xia, come here and tell me, how could you do this to me?” my voice broke again.

I couldn’t stop looking at the picture and the letter I was holding, everything reminded me of her. She was my other half.

“Please come back, Xia, I miss you” wish tears could bring her back right now. “Please Xia”

hi again, nihyun! my day's been okay — just starting my job search now. hard to believe it's time to start my career haha my next question for you is, how did you get into seventeen? and why is seungcheol your bias? - 🎁 anon

Omg 🥹🥹 that's great to hear! I am proud of you, and I hope you'll find a job you like, sending you supports from here!! And Seventeen, so it's a long story; so I found a carat friend in my dorm when I went to study for my undergrad. We were friends (we still are hehe) and I used to give her all the updates about svt because I was very active on twt, and slowly I knew I started being more than just a casual listener to svt. Then I saw homerun live and called her up talking how amazing they were and asked about scoups, well..... I asked how's that guy in turtle neck (if you remember that one yello outfit; HE LOOKED FINE AF), that's how it started I guess then finally on 25th December 2020 I started stanning them. Before that I remembered checking out seungcheol, when I got into kpop, because he was a character when I was reading a fanfic and then I happened to know Woozi and Vernon, after I watched don't wanna cry. I think that's how I got into seventeen.

And Seungcheol... how do I say, he's lovely. He is someone with whom I relate a lot, like hell lot. Everything about him fascinates me, he makes me feel better and makes me realize that's I'm not the only one suffering. After making him my bias, I realized how similar we are, our habits, our love language, how sulky we get when someone calls out our full name, our zodiac, almost everything is similar. He's my comfort. After watching Hit the road (his episode) I realized the things I feel because of anxiety (I had the same thought as him, I used to feel bad) wasn't only me, I could just feel him, from where he was coming from, that episode made me cry a lot, but weirdly gave me courage and gave me comfort, I can never thank him enough for that. He deserves the whole world. He puts me into peace always. I hope these things can sum up why he is my bias I guess 😭😭

I THINK I SOUND LIKE I AM DOWN BAD FOR HIM 😭😭😭 oh god, this became a very long storyyyyyy 😭😭😭

How's your story of seventeen and vernon?

- nihyun 🍒

And then I met you

One

Pairing: Jeonghan x fem reader × Seungcheol

Synopsis: Falling in love with bestfriend’s ex wasn’t something that Jeonghan planned.

Genre: fluff

Word count: 1.1K

Warnings: mention of pregnancy.

Author’s Note: I didn’t proof read yet 😭 hope you like this chapter, it’s fluff, and yes I doubt myself a lot with fluff 😭

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“Aisha”

“Cheol” she was smiling, after hearing his voice. She was more than happy to tell him something, that he would be more than happy.

“Want to go to the beach? I’ll pick you up in thirty minutes?”

“Now?” she could feel Cheol’s smile from the screen.

“Okay” she hung up and went to check what to wear, for beach. She found her white cherry print dress, she picked it up without any second thoughts. She changed into that dress and applied light make up. She let her hair down and looked at herself in the mirror.

She wanted to meet Seungcheol and it felt like heavens heard her and decided everything. She was more than happy today. She had to tell Seungcheol about everything, she just knew Seungcheol would be in cloud 9 but somewhere she was hoping for only positive reactions from Seungcheol.

Right after thirty minutes, Seungcheol called Aisha and she went downstairs. She saw Seungcheol leaning on his car and ran into his embrace. “Be careful love” he picked her up, Seungcheol was happy looking at her. Aisha in his embrace is the best feeling for him ever, he never wants to let go of her. He let her down carefully and looked at her beautiful face, “you’re literally glowing, are you that happy to see me?” Aisha nodded and kissed his cheeks.

“Let’s go or else we might never go to that beach” Aisha ran towards the passenger’s seat even before Seungcheol kiss her, “You’re so evil” and he got into his car

The whole ride to the beach, Aisha was wondering how to break this news to Seungcheol, and about his reaction. It was something she was wondering, the chances were fifty-fifty and the fact they have been in relationship for almost five years still makes her wonder. Last time they talked about this, Seungcheol was very positive about it, which was assuring for Aisha.

“what are you thinking so deeply?” Seungcheol asked and she glanced at him, his eyes were focused on the road. “nothing, just wondering how long will it take for us to reach”

He stopped the car at red signal and held her hand, “half an hour more love” she smiled at him, “are you tired?” he asked out of concern. She shook her head in denial.

Seungcheol was also nervous, he was just not showing it.

Seungcheol parked his car and Aisha almost ran towards the beach, the thing which goes unnoticed by Aisha was a big bouquet of roses in backseat, Seungcheol took out the flower bouquet and hid it at back. “Cheol!! Comeee” she literally yelled and he just smiled at her with love.

Seungcheol was just happy looking at her and all the nervousness he was feeling earlier vanished into thin layer, he was no more nervous, he just knew that it would work and they are going to be happy. Seungcheol walked towards her and the moment he was standing infront of her, Aisha noticed Seungcheol was happier.

“Cheol, you look so happy” she touched his face and smiled, it was like Aisha was lost in his eyes full of love, she just wanted to hold him tight and never let go of him.

“you’re so precious to me Cheol” and she smiled, everything felt like it slowed down in her surrounding and it was just them, she was looking at him and she felt at peace, her heartbeats belonged to him only. He was the reason of her smile and heartbeats, he knew it and smiled at her.

Aisha was caressing his cheeks when he suddenly held her hand, “Aisha” she was confused, he suddenly showed her the flower bouquet he was holding and gave it to her. Aisha was surprised, she didn’t expect this. “Seungcheol…” she was lost in words and him. Seungcheol took out the black velvet box from his pockets and Aisha was confused, she couldn’t believe what was happening or maybe she was expecting much more than it could be.

Seungcheol went on his knees and Aisha was surprised, she was unable to say anything to him. “Bringing you here was just an excuse to tell you something precious in your comfort place. I prepared myself so much for this, I was nervous but looking at you made me forget everything. It felt it’s just me and you. I want to keep you happy, I want to be the reason of your smile, I want you to start my day with you and end my night with you, I want to be yours and I want you to be mine. I want you to be by my side. I want a to start a new beginning with you, just with you for us. I want to add happiness in my life with you.” Aisha was feeling overwhelmed.

“Will you marry me?” Cheol took deep breath before speaking and then he smiled at Aisha, everything was hard for her to believe it just felt her whole world just bloomed. She couldn’t process those last four words, this was everything she could ever ask for, Seungcheol asking her officially. Aisha was tearing up slowly because of this feeling.

“Seungcheol…” she trailed off trying to take deep breaths before talking

“Tell me Aisha will you marry me and spend your life with me as my wife?” she nodded, letting the tears fall down, he slid the ring on her finger and she was about to wipe her tears but he pulled her into a big hug and kissed her cheeks.

“Seungcheol”

“Don’t cry, love” he wiped her tears and gave her a quick kiss. Aisha took a deep breath before gathering her thoughts to break this news which she was planning to tell Seungcheol, “Now, it’s my turn to tell you something.” She was in tears and was nervous before she looked at happy smiling Seungcheol, “Seungcheol, I found out today… morning” Seungcheol was waiting for her to complete it patiently. “I’m pregnant… I’m going to be a mom” Aisha looked at Seungcheol as soon as she completed the sentence. There was something in Seungcheol which Aisha couldn’t understand, “Oh my god, what AISHA????? YOU-YOU’RE PREGNANT?” Seungcheol hugged her tightly, “THIS IS THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE” he hugged her way too tight, “oh, I’m so sorry, I got carried away” he loosen his grip and looked at Aisha’s stomach, “I’m so happy” he lowered down and caressed her belly.

Aisha had tears in her eyes and she cried, Seungcheol got up and looked at her worried, “Don’t cry love” he hugged her again, “I was so worried about telling you about this”

“why were you even worried, love. I am the happiest person alive right now. Let’s get married as soon as possible. I need to tell others, I need to inform my family first.” He laughed, his laugh was enough to make Aisha the happiest.

“You mean so much to me Aisha.”

“You mean the world to me, Seungcheol. I love you so much.”  

And then I met you

[two]

Pairing: Jeonghan x fem reader × Seungcheol

Synopsis: Falling in love with bestfriend’s ex wasn’t something that Jeonghan planned.

Genre: angst

Word count: 1.7K

Warnings: mention of pregnancy, mention of cheating, doubtful coups

Author’s Note: angry coups :( well, let’s see what happens next, who expected that coups will get this pissed :( do let me know if you liked this or not, happy reading :) where are my angst enjoyer? 😭 or is it just me? And I didn't proof read yettttttt maybe I’ll do it soon

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Aisha walked into the convenient store near her apartment, still thinking about Seungcheol. She decided to tell her parents today about Seungcheol and they decided they would do a formal meeting for the families soon so that they can get married soon. Aisha being always the most excited one about weddings, she had half things decided with Seungcheol.

She was mindlessly walking and searching for the things she needed to take home, since Seungcheol is coming over. Aisha saw, Jeonghan and was about to call his name but she bumped into someone and she felt cold liquid spilling all over her white tee, “Shit”

“I’m so sorry” Aisha panicked looking at her tee, “Aisha, are you okay?” she looked at Jeonghan, “Jeong-Jeonghan”

“I’m so sorry” the girl apologized again and again to Aisha, but her coffee was already spilled over Aisha’s tee, “please be careful next time” Aisha managed to say but the panic on her face was visible clearly, how was she supposed to go because the coffee made everything transparent, she saw Jeonghan taking out his shirt, thankfully he was wearing a white undershirt.

“Take this” he gave his shirt to Aisha, and urged her to go change.

Aisha came after changing, she was holding her stained tee in her hand, “Are you okay?” Aisha nodded, “are you sure? You didn’t get hurt right?” she nodded at Jeonghan with a smile. “Thankyou so much Jeonghan” she smiled at him again, “Don’t worry about it” Jeonghan’s eyes noticed her neck and… how did you get burn marks… Aisha?” She was quick to look at him, eyes widening. She was embarrassed, how will she tell him, she was trying to style her hair after drying it and it was Seungcheol’s call which distracted her for a second and this happened. She looked down and said “curling iron… Jeonghan”

“You gotta be careful, Aisha. Don’t be this clumsy.” he smiled at her and she did the same after looking back at him.

Only Seungcheol and Jeonghan knew about her pregnancy, Aisha broke this news to him after she got proposed by Seungcheol; Jeonghan was very happy for them. Aisha became a very good friend of Jeonghan because of Seungcheol; Jeonghan was Seungcheol’s bestfriend.

Jeonghan came to take few essentials and he was happy to meet Aisha, being in the same locality it was quite normal for them to bump into eachother. “I’ll go first, I need to go back home fast” she smiled at Jeonghan, Jeonghan got the hint in her smile that Seungcheol might be coming over.

“Bye” Aisha waved at him holding her bag. The moment she walked out of the convenient store, she thought she was hallucinating because she saw Seungcheol leaning on his car.

He looked at the shirt, and it was something he didn’t expect to see, and that gave him the reply why Aisha was smelling like Jeonghan’s perfume. Aisha was smelling like Jeonghan all over, and the shirt was enough to tell that’s it’s Jeonghan’s smell.

She saw him walking towards her, he was smiling and she was confused. He came closer to her and hugged her tight, “Cheol” she felt raindrops on her, “See, it started, that’s why I told you wait for me at home.”

“But I wanted to come.” The moment he let go of Aisha, his face changed.

He looked at the shirt, and it was something he didn’t expect to see, and that gave him the reply why Aisha was smelling like Jeonghan’s perfume.

“why are you wearing this shirt?” Aisha was taken aback because of his sudden voice change, “Cheol, it’s raining we can talk about this inside”

“I asked why are you wearing this shirt.” He suddenly grabs her wrist, making his grip stronger.

“Aisha”

“Cheol let me go, you’re hurting me”

“This is Jeonghan’s shirt.” Seungcheol spoke even before she could speak, “I gifted this personally embroider shirt to him.”

“Now, tell him why are you wearing his shirt?”

“Cheol, listen to me, it’s nothing like whatever you are doubting, calm down please first.” Each word she was saying, with heavy breaths, raindrops were pouring harder.

“And what is the truth Aisha? You’re smelling like him, it’s his perfume all over you and you are wearing HIS SHIRT!” she flinched at his raised voice, she never encountered this Seungcheol, getting jealous was pretty normal between them but this was something she never expected.

His voice was enough to make anyone cry, Aisha was tearing up, she wanted to keep her calm, doesn’t matter how bad it was raining right now. “Cheol, you’re hurting me” she almost whispered back, in a thought he would let go of her wrist. But Seungcheol was getting angry each second he was looking at Aisha, all the thoughts which he left behind about Jeonghan and Aisha were coming to his mind. Both of them living in the same locality, sometimes hanging out alone and right now wearing his shirt and not picking up his calls at night was something he just can’t look away. He felt all the dots were joining.

Seungcheol looks at her once again, trying to calm himself down but the moment he noticed her neck, he lost all his temper he was holding, he held her shirt’s collar. “Aisha take it off right now”

“Seungcheol stop this” it didn’t seem to matter both of them that they were drenching in rain right now. “Aisha take this shirt off right now!” she flinched again and this time, she slapped him subconsciously

Panic took over her body, “Cheol.. I’m sorry, I’m I’m really sorry. I didn’t mean”

“Aisha you-” Jeonghan’s voice went unheard by Aisha because she saw Seungcheol raising his hand on her and Jeonghan was quick to hold his hand. Jeonghan pushes Seungcheol slightly.

“Seungcheol! Stop this, she’s pregnant.” Jeonghan couldn’t believe whatever he was witnessing infront of him.

“is that was you were insisting that I should be waiting for you at your home because you were with Jeonghan.” Aisha shook her head, crying.

“Tell me this is a lie? Aisha?” Aisha let out a whimper, and Jeonghan noticed Seungcheol’s grip on her wrist. He removed Seungcheol’s hand from her wrist, “Seungcheol, you’re hurting her”

“And you care about her more than me now?” Seungcheol’s anger was visible on his face, “Seungcheol”

“Care to explain why is she wearing your shirt?” he looked directly into his eyes, Aisha couldn’t say a thing because of shock, “I gave- he couldn’t even complete his sentence and he turned to look at Aisha, who was already crying.

“did you sleep with him?” she was shocked because, she never thought he would actually say that to her and questioned her loyalty, “you’ve lost your mind Seungcheol” Aisha argued back, because nothing like this happened. How could even Seungcheol not listen to her even once, and accuse her of cheating? How could he even say this without even thinking twice?

“did you sleep with my bestfriend behind my back?” she was about to argue back again and this time it was Jeonghan’s voice

“Choi Seungcheol!!”

“YOON JEONGHAN!” Jeonghan witnessed Seungcheol’s anger earlier but for countable number of times, but he never saw him this angry and specially on Aisha

“Shut up Seungcheol! And you claim you love her? Without even listening to her even once?” Aisha was feeling guilty because Jeonghan was caught up with everything. “How do you explain this?” Seungcheol pointed at her neck, clearly getting the wrong idea. Both Aisha and Jeonghan couldn’t believe Seungcheol’s words right now, it was hard to believe because the Seungcheol they knew was deeply in love with Aisha.

“Enough Seungcheol, enough. How could you even say this to me.” Aisha took a deep breath before speaking, she couldn’t stand the way he was accusing her of cheating behind his back. She wanted to clear everything right now.

“I should’ve known you Aisha. I should’ve known yesterday, the moment you said you were pregnant but never said I was the father of this child.” Seungcheol shouted at her, “Seungcheol? Are you serious right now? You’re the father of this child Choi Seungcheol.” He looked at him, “How can you even question me about this? Aisha wanted to scream at him, she didn’t care about the surroundings anymore, she didn’t care if Jeonghan witnessed everything, and Seungcheol was making it dirty, how could he even say this to her right now.

He held her hand, forcefully, “Seungcheol what are you doing?” Aisha was getting nervous, “Seungcheol” Jeonghan called out his name

“Don’t you dare to call out my name Jeonghan” Seungcheol, forcefully took out the ring which he slid into her finger yesterday. “Seungcheol, Seungcheol what are you doing”

“You always wanted Jeonghan” she couldn’t believe her ears, what was he saying. “Seungcheol” Aisha held his arms almost begging him to stop, he turned his back to her. “Seungcheol please stop, please. Listen to me once, love please”

Seungcheol was already walking back towards his car and pushed Aisha back. “Seungcheol” Jeonghan was quick to hold Aisha from falling, Aisha broke down there.

“Seungcheol you questioned our friendship first then you questioned Aisha’s loyalty, I understand why you never deserved her” these were the last words Seungcheol heard before he went inside the car.

His anger was turning into grief each second.

and then I met you

[three]

Pairing: Jeonghan x fem reader × Seungcheol

Genre: angst

Synopsis: Falling in love with bestfriend’s ex wasn’t something that Jeonghan planned.

Warnings: mention of pregnancy, mention of cheating, doubtful coups

Word count: 1.4K

Author’s Note: angry coups :( and not to mention how many times would Jeonghan come and take her home. And for a person like me, I randomly started writing this and here I am. I hope you like this piece of my writing and I don’t mess it up :( and, I was listening to Džanum while writing hehe, I love this song sm

Happy reading :)

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“Aisha”

“How did this happen Jeonghan?” Aisha was crying in his arms, Jeonghan always gave him the comfort of a bestfriend. “Let’s go home first, you can’t stay here like this.” Aisha shook her head. “You will get sick Aisha”

“How can he leave?” Aisha couldn’t stop crying, it felt like someone ripped her heart, everything went upside down in one second, Jeonghan’s shirt, his perfume, Seungcheol doubting, not even giving her a chance to speak up, Jeonghan witnessing everything, Seungcheol taking off her ring, everyone getting hurt.

“Aisha please, think about yourself, you’re pregnant, Aisha please”

“And he is the dad. HE JUST LEFT ME” Aisha’s screams were nothing compared to what she was feeling inside, Jeonghan couldn’t believe it felt like everything was a lie, how could his bestfriend even do that. All these years of friendship was gone because of a mere misunderstanding?

“Jeonghan how could he leave me right now.” Jeonghan held her carefully, he had a sympathetic look on his face, he himself couldn’t believe what happened.

Had Seungcheol always been this doubtful about him and Aisha, there was no answer to this question except for his actions showed today. He was doubtful of him and Aisha.

“Aisha let’s go home” she shook her head, “Aisha”

“Jeonghan, how can he not give me even a chance to explain” with each word she was breaking down inside and nothing could fix her right now except for one persona and he just left.

“We’ll talk to Seungcheol, let’s go home for now. Let him cool down, we will go visit him. I’ll try to talk to him” Jeonghan somehow managed to convince her and they went to her apartment. Jeonghan dropped her off first and he had to leave because of his office.

After changing her clothes to the dry ones, Aisha looked at herself in the mirror, she looked like a mess. She couldn’t think about anything else anymore, how could this happen.

She tried calling Seungcheol again, he wasn’t picking her calls. She was worried about him and Aisha finally decided to give him some time, she would go to meet him in evening. She just knew she had to clear out the whole misunderstanding, how could he even say that to her and doubt her with Jeonghan.

The whole day Aisha was worried and would cry anytime, she was so happy yesterday and today she’s living the worst day of her life. She never imagined things would turn this way. She didn’t even had any strength to call her bestfriend Jia, to tell her everything.

Aisha took a cab to Seungcheol’s place, she was scared about driving in this state, she was crying already the whole time and she wasn’t in the right state to drive right now. After paying the cab, Aisha got out of the cab, the moment she got out of the cab it started raining, Aisha regretted not bringing her umbrella.

She tried calling Seungcheol again but there was still no response from his side, “Seungcheol please open the door” she was banging on the door, because he won’t just open the door no matter how many times she rang the bell. “Seungcheol, I know you’re behind the door right now” Aisha teared up, “Aisha, give me a chance to explain please”

“Today morning coffee spilled over all my t-shirt and Jeonghan was there and he gave me his shirt. Nothing more happened. Seungcheol please open the door, please let me in. Please.” And there was no sign of Seungcheol opening the door. She was desperate under the rain, so that he could hear her voice and give her a chance. “Seungcheol please” she fells on her knees infront of his door, she didn’t care of how people saw her, she just knew, her love didn’t believe her anymore and that was the worst nightmare specially when she needed him the most.

How could he forget everything and choose to leave her alone in a time like this.

She spent two hours crying there, she was crying and calling out Seungcheol’s name but there was no use, she was wondering, how did a small jealousy go this far, she remembers Seungcheol used to joke once or twice about Aisha and Jeonghan being nice friends but this never went this far, because Aisha never had feelings for Jeonghan and same went for him.

“Seungcheol, please open once. Please listen to me once and then I promise I’ll leave. Please” her voice was just audible to herself at this point. “Seungcheol please.” Her hand started hurting because of the times she was banging the door, it felt like she didn’t had any strength anymore.

“Seungcheol”

“Aisha” she looked up because of the voice.

“Aisha get up” he helped her stand, Aisha couldn’t stand without his support.

“Jeonghan please tell him to open the door, he is not opening the door. Please tell him I came, his Aisha came” she started crying again, holding Jeonghan’s arms. “Please Jeonghan help me, help me this once, this is a request, please tell him his Aisha came. Please”

“Aisha you’re drenched in rain, you will get sick at this point.”

“I am not leaving, I need to talk to him, he is not picking up my calls, he is not letting me see him. I need to talk to him” she shouted, she was done with crying, she needed to see Seungcheol. “I already explained everything to him, he needs to see me and talk to me face to face.” Jeonghan was feeling so helpless, the fact he’s trying to contact Seungcheol ever since he left Aisha’s apartment after dropping her but he was not picking up and he finally called him when he was on his way back home. Jeonghan thought he finally gave him a chance to clear it up, rather the thing Seungcheol said left me in shock, ‘take your girl away from my place, it’s been almost three hours’ Jeonghan was driving and he stopped his car on signal, without thinking twice he made his way towards Seungcheol’s place.

He was worried about Seungcheol’s and Aisha’s relationship but somehow he was worried more about Aisha’s health, when she called him yesterday she told him, she was already a month pregnant when she found out, and he can’t leave Aisha behind like this, at least taking her side is the least he could do as her friend.

That’s when he saw, Aisha hitting the door, being on the ground crying.

“Aisha. Enough.”

“Jeonghan I will not leave.”

“You have to leave, did you even realize what’s the time right now? You’re going back home with me.” he had no option left rather than forcing her to take her home.

“I will not go back home. And what are you even doing here?” she looked at him.

“Seungcheol will not open the door and he called me, telling me to take you home.”

“If he can call you, then why isn’t he accepting my call and talking to me and did you tell him what happened today morning” Aisha was desperate to hear a yes from Jeonghan.

“he hung up after saying that, he didn’t even give me a chance to speak.” It wasn’t even a whole minute that she stopped crying yet, those words brought tears in her eyes, “why isn’t he listening to me Jeonghan?” Jeonghan held Aisha’s hands, “let’s go please, please Aisha”

“I will not go.” She shook her head, Jeonghan still holding both her hands, “where will I go? The place I called my home, the person whom I called home is not even giving me a chance to see his face.”

“you’re coming with me.” Jeonghan felt so apologetics towards her, he was helpless in the whole thing. One side it was his bestfriend who was not even ready to listen to him and another side is his friend who is slowly ruining because of his bestfriend.

After almost half an hour, he convinced Aisha about going home. She was walking, towards his car, and she was about to stumble but Jeonghan was quick to hold her. “Be careful Aisha” he let her inside, and went to the driver’s seat. He gave his coat to her, since she was fully wet and turned on the heater. “Aisha, I’m sorry” he just felt apologetic, somewhere.

He started driving but he could hear soft sobs, Jeonghan was getting frustrated because of Seungcheol’s behavior, now matter what how could he not give either of them a chance to speak and jump into conclusions. And avoiding to talk with them was making the matter even worse.

There was traffic because it was still office hours, he realized he couldn’t hear any soft sobs anymore and turned his head to glance at her. She was sleeping, she looked tired from her face.

and then I met you

[four]

Pairing: Jeonghan × fem reader × Seungcheol

Synopsis: Falling in love with bestfriend’s ex wasn’t something that Jeonghan planned.

Genre: angst, hurt/comfort

Word count: 2.7K

Warnings: mention of pregnancy.

Author’s Note: just wanted to tell you, I write for fun and it’s fictional so if anyone doesn’t like what I write, it’s totally fine <3 We can’t love everything we read or come across <3

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As week went by Aisha was trying to talk to Seungcheol, in that mean time Aisha informed her bestfriend Jia, she needed someone by her side but the worst timing was Jia had to leave after five days staying over with Aisha because of a business trip.

‘Aisha, you need to go for check-ups and take care of your health. I’ll be back soon probably in one-two weeks okay?’ that was the thing Jia told her and left.

Aisha did agree to that but only she knows what she was going through. She had to take care of her and the baby.

“Jeonghan… hi”

“Hi, how are you feeling?” Jeonghan’s soft voice made her feel better.

“umm, I am fine… I guess” she took a pause, “actually Jia left the day before yesterday… she stayed with me for like five days”

“Yes you told me. Are you feeling any better?” she nodded at his words as if he could see her and he was replying to her softly despite working on something important.

“She had to leave for a business trip, and I guess she will be back after few weeks, she is not sure yet, she’s going as the team leader. so” she trailed off, “I wanted to ask you something, and it’s totally fine if you can’t. I originally thought I would go with Jia but since she’s not here and I…”

“Where do you need to go?”

“I’ve doctor’s appointment tomorrow, in afternoon around 3pm” he looked at his iPad checking his schedule. “It’s totally fine if you-”

“Okay, I will pick you up around 2pm and send me the address”

“You will go with me?” Aisha was surprised, she didn’t expect Jeonghan to agree.

“Yes, let’s meet up tomorrow then.” Somewhere Aisha was thankful to Jeonghan and god.

“Thank you so much Jeonghan.”

“No worries and take care of yourself okay?”

“yes” Aisha tried to sound cheerful, “I’m hanging up then” and she hung up.

Aisha was looking at the clock, she had another dream about Seungcheol and she ended up crying throughout the day, wondering about him. She did trying calling him once again but there was still no response, it’s been more than a week but there was no sign of Seungcheol.

Aisha was trying to cope up with everything when Jia was beside her because she would keep her occupied but then once she left, she’s back to the empty space and her mind is all over Seungcheol, how much she wanted to talk to him and hear his voice.

She heard the doorbell ring, she got up from her sofa and went to open the door.

“Aisha” she looked at Jeonghan who was smiling, she was meeting Jeonghan after almost a week, he still texted her at times and Jeonghan was less worried about her when Jia was staying over.

“Jeonghan, hi”

“Ready to go?” she nodded at his words.

She locked her apartment and went down with Jeonghan. She looked tired in Jeonghan’s eyes, “how are you?” she was taken aback worried if she looked very tired or Jeonghan was just asking without any reasons.

“Me? I am good.” She tried to smile. He was lying to herself along with Jeonghan.

They got into his car, he played some soft music and started driving, “you had an off day today?” she asked suddenly, “no, I had work”

“Then how…” she trailed off

“I took half day” he replied to her looking at the road, “God, why would you do that Jeonghan? I told you it was okay, it was fine, I was okay with it.”

“I wasn’t fine, Aisha. It’s fine, I can do this much.” Aisha was feeling guilty somewhere, Jeonghan had to take half day because of her when it wasn’t even his work or responsibility. It should’ve been Seungcheol.

“By the way… Aisha” he paused, Jeonghan was searching for words to speak he wasn’t sure if she should be bringing this up or not because she haven’t asked Aisha about Seungcheol and how is she dealing with everything. He was trying his best to contact Seungcheol and explain everything but there was no response from his side, he was getting tired of Seungcheol’s stubborn behaviour.

“say it Jeonghan” he took a deep breath before saying the remaining words “are you sure, this is the address because it’s in Seungcheol’s locality.” He stopped the car at traffic and took a glance on her, she turned her head to look outside, trying not to tear up. “Yes. When I booked the appointment two weeks ago, I thought me and Seungcheol could go together then later spend the whole day in his house.” Her voice was very low but Jeonghan heard it and decided not to ask about it anymore. Jeonghan started driving again and Aisha wiped her tears, she thought Jeonghan wouldn’t notice but he did and he was feeling bad for her.

Soon he parked the car, outside the clinic. She was about to open the door but Jeonghan opened it for her. Aisha was feeling tired, but she tried her best to not show anything to Jeonghan and make him worried.

Soon, they went to the waiting area, after Aisha talked at the reception. She was getting anxious and was trying to shrug off all the thoughts. Jeonghan noticed she looked nervous, after all this was her first time. “When did Jia leave?” he randomly started talking about Jia so that he could distract her and it worked. Aisha looked happy while talking about Jia, she truly was happy to have Jia by her side.

She even told how Jia wanted to hangout with Jeonghan, and how she wanted to talk to Seungcheol directly, but at the mention of Seungcheol her voice died down, so Jeonghan switched to another topic. He was trying his best until her name was called.

Jeonghan accompanied her inside to the doctor’s chamber.

Everything was going smooth but the moment doctor wanted to just do a normal check up of Aisha, she looked worried. “Aisha tell me one thing, are you not taking care of yourself and taking meals timely?” Aisha’s silence gave them the reply, Jeonghan was worried about her.

“Aisha, look you need to take care of yourself.” The female doctor turned to look at him, “and you need to take care of her, pay attention to her meals timing, and give her fruit juices along with fruits.” Jeonghan nodded at her words, “you just can’t neglect her, she is already 7 weeks pregnant, okay?” Jeonghan nodded again, “I’ll take care of her”

They left after thanking the doctor, who wished Aisha luck. “You’ve been skipping meals, your pulse rate was also low today.” Jeonghan looked at her, Aisha was feeling guilty again, “I-I just”

“I am telling you again, you need to take care of yourself Aisha, please. You can’t do this to yourself.”

They were walking towards his car and Aisha felt dizzy, she was about to take one more step but she held Jeonghan’s arm with a very tight grip, “Aisha? Are you okay?”

“Jeonghan…” she trailed off, Jeonghan didn’t risk anything and picked her up in his arms, “Aisha, hold on”

He quickly opened the door for her and let her inside, carefully. He had water in his car, he opened the bottle for her, “drink this”. After Aisha drank the water, Jeonghan went to the driver’s seat. “Are you feeling any better?” she nodded, he turned on the AC, “why would you skip meals Aisha, why?” Jeonghan was trying his best to keep himself calm, he was getting worried about her each growing second, even doctor told her she’s weak and she needs to take care of herself. She need to eat and get fruit juices, she cannot skip meals at any cost.

“Even doctor told you Aisha, please”

“I cannot, Jeonghan understand. How can I eat peacefully and sleep peacefully thinking about this baby and Seungcheol.” He sighed at her words, she was broken and only Seungcheol could fix her. There was a reason Jeonghan texted Seungcheol saying he should come visit the doctor because Aisha is going to the doctor in his locality but he didn’t see Seungcheol.

The only thing went unnoticed by both of them was, the moment Jeonghan picked up Aisha in his arms, Seungcheol was there to witness everything. ‘I was right’ he said and left.

“Fine, let’s go home now.” The whole ride Aisha was absent minded and was silent. Jeonghan stopped parked his car and got down. Aisha was lost to even ask him why would he park the car.

Jeonghan came after buying few things, “take this” he gave the plastic bag to Aisha and she looked at her, “what is this?”

“open up” he said and started driving back to her apartment.

“drink the lichi juice for now, I’ll cook something once we go home.” He took a glance at her while driving, “You don’t have to do that”

“and let you starve?” she looked at him, in disbelief “end of conversation Aisha, finish that juice before we reach your apartment.” Jeonghan smiled looking at Aisha pouting.

That whole week, Jeonghan went back and forth while taking care of Aisha, he would randomly bring fruits for her after returning from his work. Sometimes, he would cook dinner for both or it would be Aisha, that week Jeonghan saw Aisha smiling. He knew she needed some care and that was supposed to be given by Seungcheol but he wasn’t here anymore, and Jia was out of city which made her lonely.

Jeonghan would leave once Aisha was ready for bed, and he would randomly come in evening, make her fruit juices for her, make her some snacks. This whole week Aisha saw Jeonghan cook more than her. He would take care of her. Aisha was feeling better but the lonely nights after Jeonghan would leave was the most painful, she would wake up middle of the night in tears at times because of Seungcheol.

It was finally weekend, Jeonghan informed her Friday night before leaving that he would come in afternoon and they can have lunch together and watch some movies or go hangout somewhere.

She wanted to make breakfast for herself but she wasn’t feeling well. She was feeling sick, probably because she cried a lot that early morning, unknowingly because of some nightmare, about Seungcheol never coming back. somewhere she knew that might get true but she was trying her best to prove it wrong. She didn’t stop trying to contact Seungcheol, at times she would just send him messages about how she misses him, how she misses his voice and want to see him once again. and with that, she had morning sickness today, which was more than enough to make her weak.

Aisha somehow made, toast and drank orange juice.

She heard a knock on the door, she looked at the time, it was 11 am; she didn’t realize how time passed by. She walked towards the door and saw Jeonghan standing from the peephole. She smiled a bit and opened the door. When she saw him, she wondered who would even take care of her to this extent and given that’s Jeonghan, he was doing more than anyone else. He was taking care of her, this is what friendship is.

“are you okay?” Jeonghan was concerned, she looked perfectly fine yesterday. She nodded, “I am fine, just feeling a little weak…” Jeonghan locked the door, they were walking toward the sofa, “did you eat this morning?” she nodded, he could see how tired she looked and her voice was barely audible, “enough sleep?” she nodded absentminded.

She was walking until she held her head and felt dizzy, Jeonghan was quick to hold her. “Aisha” he led her to sit on the sofa and brought her a glass of water.

“drink this” Jeonghan would lie if he said his heart didn’t stop beating for a second because he got so worried out. He always had a soft spot for Aisha till date, he saw her struggling alone, at times he’s just skeptical about leaving her alone at least now. The fact she was supposed to be in Seungcheol’s care but it’s been almost three weeks ever since that happened. She’s struggling alone, he closed his eyes and it felt like the whole thing flashed infront of him, how happy Aisha was when she told him about Seungcheol’s proposal and they were thinking to get married as soon as possible. She would've been so happy. he wanted to take care of her, his heart was hurting looking at her so helpless, he was the only close friend she had right now, and he had to take care of her or else no one knows what will happen next because there was still no sign of Seungcheol showing up.

“Aisha, I’m moving in with you” he held her shoulders, she was surprised.

“Jeonghan, you really don’t have to do this, I am fine. It was just I didn’t had enough sleep and had to deal with morning sickness. Or else I am fine.” Aisha didn’t want to burden him, he was already doing so much for her, trying his best to be with her when she needs care and comfort.

“Jeonghan… it’s okay.”

“I’m moving in, that’s it. You need care, you need someone who can take care of you, and if I stay here it would be easier atleast until Jia comes, once she comes I’ll leave if you want.”

“Wait here a bit, I’ll go bring my essentials and then I can cook lunch for us, I was wondering we could go out and eat but looking at you I don’t even think it’s the best idea to take you out.”

He didn’t give her a chance to speak, and left. Aisha sighed. She was tired with everything.

Her phone started ringing and saw Jia was trying to facetime her, “how are you doing Aisha?”

“I am okay, why is everyone asking me how am I doing” she almost broke down, infront of Jia,

“hey what’s wrong Aisha?” somewhere Aisha hated herself for still being stuck with Seungcheol, she wasn’t ready to let go of him, how could she even let go of him when his part was growing inside her

“I don’t know Jia, I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I just feel like sleeping and not wake up” Jia was feeling helpless, she told her she would come back and stay with her. “Aisha, wish I could give you a hug right now” there was a long silence, and she was just looking at Jia, atleast looking at her made her feel better, how much she wanted to be with Jia right now. “was everything a mistake? Was I not enough somewhere? Was I wrong?” she spoke in her low voice, Jia heard and shook her head, “girl you were the happiest when you were with Seungcheol, it wasn’t a mistake. I wish I could make him suffer right now for everything you went through for past three weeks and I am so glad Jeonghan is there by your side.”

“Aisha” she heard her name and then door close, she turned her head to see Jeonghan with his belongings, “were you for real saying that Yoon Jeonghan??” Aisha looked puzzled, “what did you think?” Jia saw everything, she was glad for everything Jeonghan did all these weeks, she was somehow hoping for something more somewhere but she knew this wasn’t possible somewhere because the question would be ‘why’ and another question would be their ‘happiness’.

“hey Jeonghan” both of them realized Jia was still on call, Aisha facepalmed herself in realization, “Jia’s on call”

“oh hey Jia, how’s work?”

“it’s killing me, wish I could apply for leave like Aisha right now” she joked “I need a break guys” she smiled, after talking a bit more, Jia hung up and it was just Jeonghan and Aisha. Aisha was still in disbelief because she didn’t even think Jeonghan would actually do that. ‘what are friends for’ that’s what he said to Aisha. Little did he knew he was getting more and more soft for Aisha each passing day.

“I’ve another bedroom, you can shift there” Aisha gave Jeonghan a look, “what?” he looked at her.

“Nothing Jeonghan, you’re impossible” she slightly hit his arm, after Jeonghan settled, Aisha insisted him to have delivery and they ended up having lunch delivered.

Aisha was happy whenever she was around Jeonghan, it felt like he was the only reason right now why she could smile a bit in this situation of her.

my love

Seungcheol one shot

Pairing: Choi Seungcheol x Female Reader

Genre: fluff

Word count: 2.5K

Warnings: no warning, since it's fluff

Author’s Note: So, the reader is desi, and meri jaan is an endearment word that means my love or my life, in Hindi. These two words sound so cute and beautiful. I imagined Seungcheol saying these two words and I almost malfunctioned lmao; hope you like this fluff, because it's his birthdayyyyyy.

happy Seungcheol dayyyy

happy reading :)

“Shua, it’s all done and now we just need to go pick this sulky baby. Jeonghan is with him, right?” I turned to look at Joshua who was checking the decorations. “Yes, you need to go.”

“I still wonder how the ac and the heater broke in Jeonghan’s apartment suddenly and that also today? God really planned something for these two today” Luna laughed all of a sudden at my words, “You are right, this trio is inseparable” She looked at Shua, and Shua just smiled.

“But thanks to them, we met each other right?” both me and Luna nodded at Tia’s words. I remember how Jeonghan was excited and nervous to break the news of him dating Luna, his co-worker. But by the time I started dating Seungcheol, Shua was already in a relationship with Tia.

“Tia saw more bromance than us” I looked at her, “enough talking about us, we need to check everything and it’s almost time, go get ready Nishi, you need to pick him up” I checked the cake one more time, I was really nervous with baking this cake, I can trust Luna in decorating the cake with cherries and icing because she bakes a lot and I love her baking.

“Go Nishi, you can’t be late” Luna came and gave me a hug, the bonding I formed over with her is something, makes me so happy here. Like having Seungcheol by my side is something I can never thank enough anyone for but having Luna as my bestfriend here, with whom I can share almost everything without feeling embarrassed, I just feel so happy. “Okay, okay” I saw Tia talking with Joshua, they looked happy. I smiled at them and went to change clothes, I brought. Sometimes, my clothes are in his closet and some of my essentials, because according to Seungcheol, why shouldn’t I leave my traces here when I’m already his, that doesn’t make sense but it makes sense to him. I walked towards the mirror after changing into the dress, I applied nude makeup and fixed my hair, I just kept it neutral and natural, he shouldn’t know that we are having any birthday party for him. it’s supposed to be a surprise party.

I walked down and saw three of them laughing at something, they turned to look at me. “oh woah, so domestic” I looked at Tia shyly, “please Tia”

“what? You look pretty.” I went to stand infront of her. Luna came and held my shoulders, “good luck with bringing him home and I just talked to Jeonghan, he said he is waiting for you because everything is settled up” I nodded.

“And don’t worry about anything else, we will manage everything. Just text in the group once you leave Jeonghan’s house.” I nodded at his words.

“Okay, so I kept cherries on the kitchen table and there’s frosti-

Luna didn’t let me complete, “go now” she pushed me towards the door. “and flower bouquets are right here so don’t worry about them as well, we will make this surprise, one of the best surprise Seungcheol ever got, okay” I nodded and smiled.

“I’m leaving then” I waved at them and went towards my car.

I started driving towards Jeonghan’s house. On the way, I was wondering what do I tell him? just tell him that I was passing by or just tell him I came because I missed him? how do I tell him without ruining, I need Jeonghan’s help. I need to tell him, I was up for some work and just returning and was on the way to buy something, making an excuse is driving me crazy, really.

I was trying to calm myself down, I called up Jeonghan, without second thought. he picked up in the first ring , “what excuse do I use? To bring you both home together?”

“I can tell him I want a sleepover at his house?”

“Yoon Jeonghan, god.”

“I know I am”

“You and your god complex, anyways you need to handle that. I will reach in few minutes. Once you see my car just come down and he can come after you”

“Okay” and he hung up.

After almost fifteen minutes, I pulled infront of Jeonghan’s apartment. I looked at the clock it showed me 11:20 pm. I sighed in relief. I dialed Seungcheol’s number.

“Don’t you want to go home or what? Or just stay with Jeonghan whole day.”

“Where are you?”

“wait for you, come out please” I sounded so normal,

“What are you doing here?” and here he goes with asking me, “and that also after 11pm” right this is kind of my first time picking him up at late night, it’s usually him but it’s fine to exchange roles for a day. “I’m just doing what you do. You didn’t take your car, you texted me this morning when we talked. So I thought I could give you a ride on the way back home.”

“Coming my love” I hung up the moment he said that word, god, my heart can never stop doing summersault whenever he calls me my love. This word have such an huge impact on me, he will never know it; he can never understand how insane my heart gets when he calls me ‘my love’

“So are you ready?” I almost got an heartattack the moment Jeonghan shut the door, “Jeonghan?!”

“what?”

“You scared me”

“Sorry Nishi, I didn’t mean to. I wanted to get inside the car before him.”

“Still, gosh”

“what did you tell him?” he asked me, “I told him I came to pick me up, since I am on my way to home.”

“Good, he was being lowkey sulky today since he thinks we are not celebrating his birthday”

“That’s something……..” I trailed off, “nice” and smiled at him. we high-fived each other and just laughed at eachother, Seungcheol was taking a bit of time, more like he was locking the door and everything, according to Jeonghan, he just gave him this work because he wanted to talk to me before Seungcheol gets in the car. I told him others prepared everything.

“But did your heater and ac got fixed?” I asked him, “yes, Seungcheol was complaining about it when he entered my house, like the cold air hit him like what” he started laughing about it.

I saw the door open, “Hey”

“Hi” and he sat and closed the door, “you came before me” Jeonghan just showed his smiled.

“How are you? I didn’t see you for days and who knew I would be picking you up while being on the way home”

“Awww, meri jaan” I abruptly stopped everything, I thought I was hearing things, ‘meri jaan?’ Seungcheol would never. I eyes widen in surprise, I felt like screaming, “He said meri jaan” I looked at Jeonghan and then Seungcheol back and forth, my mind couldn’t process anything, “Seungcheol!!!” I called out his name because I couldn’t hold back anymore, “he said meri jaan” Jeonghan repeated again, I couldn't believe my ears,

“what?”

“he said meri Jaan” this was Jeonghan repeating for the third time, and I was trying to get my shit together, he just can’t trigger me off with one word and wrap me around his fingers like this.

“What did you say?” I looked at him

“meri jaan” his eyes oh jesus christ, his tiny voice would make me lose my mind.

“meri jaan?” I repeated myself he nodded, “yes meri jaan” he should know these two hindi words can make anyone lose their mind and specially mine because yes, that’s my language and how am I supposed to deal with it. It’s his birthday in half an hour or something and he is making me lose my mind.

“Where would you learn that from?” Jeonghan asked Seungcheol, leaving my dumbfold,

“Where would you learnt that from??” I was in shock

“what do you mean, she calls me everytime?”

“No, I never called you meri jaan before” I just called him once, “It was just once!!” I felt so exposed, “She loves these words” I wanted to hide somewhere, he was exposing me infront of Jeonghan .

“But-But” I wanted to defend myself, he should know that him calling me, ‘meri jaan’ is something very, my mind just blank for a moment when he gave me a quick kiss all of a sudden. “You two, please let’s go home” I heard Jeonghan, this would count as his favorite act, because he never kissed me infornt of his friends till now. I was way too flustered to even start the engine, “Nishi, we need to go back home” I nodded, “Ye-yes”

I started driving towards his home, I checked the time, it was 11:28pm I took a deep breath before driving and I didn’t forget to text Joshua about it. I wanted to change the topic, “Jeonghan are you staying overnight with him today as well?”

“yes, I like his house” we burst out laughing, I was being very conscious the whole time, I was driving because the way he was stealing glances at me wasn’t helping me to concentrate, “were you at work?” I nodded, “I had overtime today” and the truth is I took a half day at work for him.

I stopped the car at the traffic, I looked at him once, he was talking to Jeonghan, the way he looks like my daylight, he lights up everything around me, he just made everything so better for me.

Seungcheol entering my life was the most life changing thing that happened to me. I never knew I could fall in love again like this and so beautifully with a person who would be my constant like this. His smiles are the reason I smile now, his words always find ways to me, to make me feel better when I am having a bad day. He just knows how I find home in him.

I started driving again and I made it by 11:50pm, we still have 10 minutes, before I let him inside.

“It’s late meri jaan” I turned my head to look at him, how can he say those words casually? “Seungcheol” I looked at him, I can’t explain how it alters my brain chemistry, I love it when he calls me meri jaan, I might get addicted at this point, and he is just…. Being adorable with that, “meri jaan” here he goes again….

“It’s late, are you sure you will drive back home right now? Why don’t you stay overnight?”

“Seungcheol, she can go back home, she can drive.” Jeonghan replied instead of me, I almost apologized Seungcheol for lying, how can he be so adorable. “Jeonghan, I can’t let her drive way back home at almost midnight, it’s not safe” he genuinely looked concerned which I felt he was; he was always this concerned for me about everything, for him my safety and comfort came first, never have I ever been treated like this.

“It’s okay cheol, I can manage” I just knew Jeonghan was trying to hold back his words and laugh.

“Or do you want me to drive you back? you already worked overtime today. I can drop you off”

“And then what about you? Who will drop you off?”

“I can stay with you” he smiled and gave me a quick peck.

“Seungcheol, enough let’s go inside” If Jeonghan didn’t speak I would've been lost in him, how can a human being be like this, “oh reminds me I need water, can I get some water then I’ll leave” he pouted, “sure, why not. Let’s go” I looked at the time, it was 11:58pm; didn’t know time flew that fast, we just barely exchanged words.

I parked my car and walked with him, he held my hands and I just smiled at him. I love the way we are, we just need to hold our hands to understand eachother.

Jeonghan stopped right before, “open the door Seungcheol rather than smiling at your girlfriend”

“Yoon Jeonghan you’re so annoying, you won’t even let me look at my Nishi, oof” The moment he opened the door, the clock struck at twelve.

“SURPRISE~” Joshua’s voiced echoed, I felt even his neighbors could hear Joshua’s voice

Seungcheol stopped where he was, “Happy birthday” me and Jeonghan said in unison.

“Let’s go inside” I held his hand, he looked so happy.

Luna switched on the lights, and Jeonghan gave her a hug.

“Guys, I didn’t expect… like thankyou so much”

“You deserve it all” Jeonghan said and gave him a hug, Joshua joined soon after that. Tia came to stand beside me, “they look so happy together” I nodded.

“OKAY YOU NEED TO CUT THE CAKE SEUNGCHEOL, NISHI BAKED IT” I looked at Luna, she ran to bring the cake.

The cake was fully decorated and it looked so cute, I loved the way Luna decorated it.

I lit up the candles, “time to make a wish” he closed his eyes and blew the candles.

“happy birthday Seungcheol”

Everyone looked so happy and the moment I saw him smiling at everyone, it felt like my life flashed right Infront of me, after he cut the cake and everyone ate it, although they urged me to the first one to eat, he fed others and he looked so happy.

I can never get tired of his smile, they heal me. everyone was talking and gave him gifts, that’s when I remembered, I kept his gift on his bedroom. I held his hand and took him to his bedroom, everyone else was teasing but I didn’t care. They just want to have fun.

“Nishi…” I dragged him inside his room. “Wait here” he looked at me, “this is my room” I nodded, “yes I know, so wait for a second” I went to the table, and brought the flowers and the gift.

Only the night-light was on, I walked towards him, “Happy birthday my everything” I gave him a quick peck and gave him the bouquet first, “thankyou meri jaan”

“Cheol” I pouted, “what?”

“I might get addicted to your ‘meri jaan’, do you know how harmful is it for me?”

“I might learn all the words for you now, meri jaan. Your language is beautiful” I shook my head, I can’t with this boyfriend of mine.

“here’s your birthday gift” I brought him a watch, he opened and looked happy, “thankyou so much”

“this is beautiful” he smiled at me, he suddenly held my waist and pulled me closer, “thankyou so much for everything” if I could I would just drown in his eyes, I put my arms around his neck, “meri jaan”

“See you called me, meri jaan”

“Because you are, you’re meri jaan” I kissed him after telling him, I just love him so much, I loved him more than I ever could.

“I love you.” I smiled at his words, “I love you too, Happy birthday my love” and then he kissed me.

and then I met you

[five]

Pairing: Jeonghan × fem reader × Seungcheol

Synopsis: Falling in love with bestfriend’s ex wasn’t something that Jeonghan planned.

Genre: angst, hurt/comfort

Word count: 2.2K

Warnings: mention of pregnancy.

Author’s Note: I just posted birthday fluff and then thought why not updating this as well ~

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Days passed by, Jia came back after two weeks and insisted to spend her weekends with her. Even if Jia wanted to stay with Aisha, she couldn’t because of her work she felt guilty but at the same time she was happy because of Jeonghan, he was still staying over with her. He was taking care of her and he takes her out occasionally and he even accompanies her to the doctor’s appointments. The only thing which was in Aisha’s regret was Seungcheol.

She was marking days, in her journal, today it completed her 13th week of pregnancy and she was excited but somewhere still wanted seungcheol back, it was almost a month ever since Jeonghan started staying with her.

“Do you need anything?” she shook her head, watching some random vidoes, she didn’t forget to check her dms of Seungcheol, how she sent him messages three days ago, asking how he is doing and she misses him. Suddenly she receives a message from Jia, saying she will be crashing tonight. She was happy and heard the doorbell ring, she wondered did Jeonghan come so quickly.

She went to open the door, without even checking in the peephole. “You are- her words stopped midway, her steps halted.

“Aisha” her mom and dad were standing infront of her, she remembers telling them she would get married to her boyfriend soon, and will arrange a formal meeting soon but after that, she never updated them about anything. Her mom came to hug her but Aisha was scared her mom will get to know about her pregnancy since she didn’t tell her mom.

“Aisha” she felt something in her words as soon as she let go of her. They entered the room, after her parents settled down in the living room, Aisha mom’s looked at her, “I think we need to talk” and she could guess what was coming. “Mom wait, let me give you a glass of water”

She gave them glasses of water and looked at them, she did miss them, but she couldn’t just bring herself to tell them what was going on in her life, she wasn’t sure how would they react, “why didn’t you tell me, that you were coming?”

“Aisha we need to talk” her mom was firm with her words, she didn’t even let her dad say a thing and got up from the sofa and dragged Aisha to her room.

“Aisha” she looked at her daughter, emotions couldn’t describe what was she feeling, “is this a joke?”

“Mom”

“when are you getting married? Call your damn boyfriend first.”

“Mom”

“I realized the moment you hugged me, how many months already Aisha?!” her mom raised her voice, “I need to go and talk to your dad” Aisha held her mom’s hand, “Mom, please listen to me” she was tearing up

Her mom went out of the room and spotted Aisha’s dad, Aisha came out of her room, “your daughter-

“Aisha why is the door-” Jeonghan’s words were cut off the moment he spotted her parents, and Aisha was tearing up. He was blank for a second, he couldn’t understand what was happening. He couldn’t even speak a single word nor Aisha, “so you’re her boyfriend.”

“Mom” Aisha tries to stop her mom, “what’s going on?” it was Aisha’s dad who spoke, “Aisha, you’re living with your boyfriend?” she shook her head in denial.

“Aisha is pregnant.” Aisha’s mom looked like she would lose her temper anytime, “and here you are living with him, when are you two getting married? Or do you want to spend your whole life like this?”

“Mom, it’s not like that”

It was total chaos, “You need to get married, I am not letting you do this. You can’t have a baby while being unmarried.” She turned her head to look at Jeonghan, “You got her pregnant and you need to take responsibility, when are you getting married to her? I need the answer” Aisha was about to say, it’s not him but Jeonghan was quick to hold her hand and shut her off, she looked desperate but he had a very calm expression. “Shut up Aisha, you’re not a kid, you’re a grown-up” her mom’s words weren’t helping her as well.

Jeonghan’s mind wasn’t in the right state but he also didn’t want Aisha to tell them about Seungcheol because if she did, we don’t know what will happen next, things might get dirty. Aisha never mentioned Seungcheol’s name and they don’t know Jeonghan’s name.

“Soon.” That one word was enough to panic Aisha, she thought he would deny everything and leave her alone in a time like this but never in this whole world, she expected him to reply to her parents who were demanding for married.

“Jeonghan!” she didn’t even try to listen to her parents and dragged Jeonghan to her room.

“Jeonghan” she held his arms, “why would you do that” Her legs gave up and she was on the floor with Jeonghan, “why would you do that?” she was shaking Jeonghan’s arms and started crying.

“then what would've happened? You tell them about Seungcheol and things get messy, you stress, you cry, you try to contact him again, you fall sick?” she was looking at him, this whole month while staying with Aisha, and he understood why Seungcheol fell for her in the first place, his soft corner was always there for her but all the interactions that were cute for Jeonghan were telling him something else. He deeply cared for her and the fact he didn’t regret saying ‘soon’ to her parents. In fast few weeks Aisha’s presence made him realize he can never leave her alone in this situation not after she was getting better slowly.

“You can’t do that Jeonghan, you can’t”

“Then what are you thinking to do? Never tell your parents about the dad and be a single mom? Go and ask Seungcheol to take care of you? Did you realize it’s been more than a month Aisha??” he took a deep breath before looking at her, she was crying again, she was hurt, she never wanted things to turn like this, at this point she regrets telling her parents about having a boyfriend and wanting to marry him.

“You know it’s hard, and it’s going to be harder. Marry me.”

“I can’t marry you Jeonghan, understand that” Aisha was arguing with him

“And I ain’t letting you do this alone, either go to that Seungcheol and get this shit inside his head that he needs to marry you and take your responsibility or let me just take care of you like this. You’re one of my closest friends, whom I consider really precious and I can’t let you go through this alone at any cost.”

“I can’t ruin your life Jeonghan. You’ve a life”

“And so do you Aisha” he took a deep breath and wiped her tears, “who said you’re ruining my life? I would be happy to if I get to see your baby” her tears were making his fingers wet, “Aisha… don’t cry. I’m here.”

“Why would he not believe me and not even ask about me even once?”

“Aisha…” he let out a sigh, it was hard for him to believe this about his own bestfriend, “Let’s get married, we will go choose the rings and then talk to our parents in the next two days and if possible we can keep the wedding date next week. It might get hard for you in the upcoming days, it’s been more than three months, and it’s been more than a month for Seungcheol… let him go”

“How can I let him go when I never ended things with him, it hurts so much Jeonghan, it hurts.” He pulled her into a hug. “let out and cry for now, I am here” he was caressing her back slowly.

Jeonghan went to choose rings for their wedding after Aisha’s parents left, Jia saved everything that night, she didn’t say anything about Seungcheol but when her parents asked about Jeonghan to Jia, she agreed to everything. Somewhere Jia wanted Jeonghan to be with Aisha because that’s what she felt. That night Jeonghan went back to his apartment, which felt lonely because Aisha wasn’t there to talk with him after dinner, she wasn’t there in their bickering.

‘Aisha, if Jeonghan said that, give him a chance and talk to Seungcheol one last time’

Jia just left for her work and her parents left after staying overnight, she heard the door bell ring, it cannot be Jeonghan, that’s what she thought because she got familiar with his office timings, all this time. She looked through the peep hole and her heart dropped on the floor. She couldn’t understand what was happening, did Seungcheol finally come to visit her?

Did he finally decide to talk to her? Did he finally believe her?

After all this?

She opened it with the brightest smile and her tears, she was about to hug him but he stopped her.

“Seungcheol?” she looked puzzled and he entered without even saying a single word. Aisha just closed the door. Aisha couldn’t describe what she felt when she saw Seungcheol, she was happy, hurt, feeling comforted and she was sure this would be the chance to tell him everything and he will understand everything.

“I thought to give you a chance”

“Chance?” Aisha was taken aback, no hug, no greeting no asking, ‘how are you love’ and he jumped to chance. She was doubting everything, after giving her silence treatment when it wasn’t even her fault, he suddenly comes to visit her but he is talking about a chance? 

“What chance?” she was unsure what should she ask next, because it felt like the person she was looking at right now, didn’t feel like the Seungcheol she knew before, it felt like he changed, or was he always like that?

“Leave Jeonghan’s baby with him and come to me” She couldn’t believe what he said just now, “tell me you’re kidding me right now Seungcheol??”

“Do I look like?” his voice was stern, he felt so sure about everything. “This baby is ours and you’re the father. Do you know how I have been spending my days? Did you even know how hard it is, specially like this?” Aisha was waiting for a confrontation with Seungcheol, holding back, she was done yesterday when she broke down in Jeonghan’s arms. She couldn’t hold it anymore, she had to get up and tell him everything she’s had been thinking till now. “Do you know how tired I was to deal with the nightmares almost everyday, everything felt so dark, and I wanted you by my side. I wanted to hear your voice. I wanted to tell you, that I’m tired and I don’t know what am I going to do?!” she raised her voice, it was the first time Aisha raised her voice. “Seungcheol-

“Go and tell this to someone who cares. I don’t care about you and this baby who isn’t mine, I was barely giving you a chance.” His words felt like inch by inch, a dragger pierced through her chest, “You know what Seungcheol? I was wrong the entire time, I was wrong, this whole time I thought I will meet with you and tell you everything so it will clear up the misunderstanding. But looks like you’re not even ready to believe the truth. Fine then, watch me walk on the aisle and get married to someone else, because I cannot let my baby suffer because of you. ” she caressed her tummy with all the love. “I am getting married soon,” Seungcheol was surprised, “If you ever cared about me even a bit then you would understand how I feel right now” Aisha was telling herself not to cry, with each word she was letting out.

“how do you know I never cared about you, we were about to get married and you destroyed everything AISHA, YOU DID. YOU RUINED EVERYTHING.” He was blaming her for everything again, this was her limit, either she tells him to leave right now or else everything would get messier, which she didn’t want to, all these days, she tried so hard to be okay, to get better but his blame have the power to turn everything upside down. “SEUNGCHEOL LEAVE” she raised her voice, and was surprised because Seungcheol never saw her raising her voice at him, he wasn’t ready to leave, he still believed that Aisha was the one who ruined everything. “LEAVE RIGHT NOW”

“you have no right over this baby, and remember it wasn’t me who ruined everything, it was YOU” she said and pushed him towards the door, “LEAVE. I SAID.” She shut the door on his face and broke down on the floor.

She didn’t expect her encounter with Seungcheol would be this bad, never she expected he would actually say those words to her. She didn’t cry anymore, everything felt so hollow, everything felt so empty as if there’s nothing left anymore.

She didn’t realize the time, until she heard the doorbell ring, she opened the door and looked at Jeonghan. Jeonghan saw her face and got worried, about thinking what possibly would've gone wrong. Aisha was tearing up, looking at him, he took a look at her and hugged her.

Aisha didn’t speak a single word, it was just Jeonghan’s hug that was calming her down. “I’m here. it’s fine” he knew she needed time and he never pushed Aisha to her limits for anything. He was hugging her until her breathing went to normal.

“It’s over.”

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[Jeonghan] : and then I met you

and then I met you

[six]

Pairing: Jeonghan × fem reader × Seungcheol

Synopsis: Falling in love with bestfriend’s ex wasn’t something that Jeonghan planned

Genre: hurt/comfort

Warning: mention of pregnancy and anxiety

Word count: 1.4K

Author’s Note: Finally my exams are over and I can write, thankyou to whoever kept waiting and reading this. Sending you lots of love

happy reading~

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Aisha was trying to remove Seungcheol’s memories which were hurting her, never did she think that she would be hurting because of him, that he would hurt her.

Aisha looked at the mirror, a little nervous. She heard a knock on her door, “Are you done?” Aisha turned to look at him, “Yes, I am done and ready”

Jeonghan walked towards her and held her shoulder, “Are you nervous?” Aisha nodded, “don’t worry, and you look pretty” getting compliments and appreciation from Jeonghan was getting normal

“Come to think of it, I never really met your family, not even your sister.” Aisha looked at him and smiled, “But now you’re meeting”

“Are they really okay with me?” he nodded, “They are, trust me, they will love you. You’re lovely” he didn’t lie, she looked pretty in his eyes, he adored her a lot. When Jeonghan broke the news of his marriage, to his family, first they were surprised because no one expected this out of the blue. He tried his best to convince them about being together with Aisha, because when it comes to Yoon Jeonghan, he can convince everyone.

Jeonghan told them about Aisha being pregnant because he wanted this to be clear with his family, he didn’t mention anything about Seungcheol when they asked about him, he replied to them vaguely.

“It’s going to be okay.” Jeonghan wanted her to feel less anxious, knowing that her anxiety can take a toll on her.

Soon, they left.

They reached Jeonghan’s house, he was holding Aisha’s hand because she was nervous and he knew she needed his support without even asking. It was Jeonghan’s idea to call Aisha’s parents over to his house and finalize everything about their marriage. Meeting parents and then deciding everything was a need. Considering the fact, Jeonghan’s parents were happy. Aisha already informed everything and sent her the address, and her parents arrived before them. They were waiting for Jeonghan and Aisha.

Jeonghan rang the bell, “It’s going to be okay” he whispered and resisted giving a quick kiss on Aisha’s forehead, she felt safe with him. Soon, Jeonghan’s sister opened the door.

“Jeonghan!!” Ari, his sister practically jumped on him and hugged him tight; he was taken aback and left Aisha’s hand for a second and hugged his sister back. Looking at them, Aisha felt happy; Aisha was the only daughter, and that’s why she always adored sibling relationships. “I missed you” Aisha smiled at his sister when she got down.

“Hi” she looked at Aisha and was about to hug her tight, but Jeonghan stopped her resulting in her pouting, “Only you can hug your girlfriend or what?”

“It’s not like that, you can hug her but don’t squeeze the air out of her, it’d been three months” Ari nodded at Jeonghan’s words. She gave a hug carefully to Aisha and Aisha hugged back, she felt warm and welcomed.

“Do you plan to keep us here and not let us enter my house?” Jeonghan gave her a look and earned a slight hit on his elbow. Aisha smiled at them. “Let’s go, everyone’s waiting for you both” Ari, led the way, Jeonghan held Aisha’s hand and she looked at him in surprise. Jeonghan smiled at him assuring everything’s going to be fine. Jeonghan’s smile would be the new way of assuring Aisha about everything.

They saw, their parents smiling and laughing, it looked like they were enjoying the company. Both of them bowed to eachother, and Jeonghan went to hug his mom. “Finally you’re back after so many days”

“Blame my company mom” she kissed his cheeks. Aisha was standing beside Jeonghan, Jeonghan’s mom looked at Aisha and gave her a hug, she caressed her cheeks “You are so pretty”

“Thank you” Aisha didn’t feel like an outsider, she felt warm and loved. “Take a seat, and we can talk”

Both nodded and took a seat, Ari went to sit beside her mom. “So, Jeonghan and Aisha… how long have you two been dating or being together?” Aisha, tried to calm her down, she met Jeonghan almost four years ago, after she started dating Seungcheol five years ago, before she could reply Jeonghan did. “a little more than four years ago. I knew her because of our mutual friend and I knew her, but I officially met her four years ago and got together” the whole time Jeonghan was speaking, he was holding her hand, he didn’t care if anyone saw them holding hands or anything, Aisha was the only thought in his mind right now.

“I didn’t know my son was dating such a pretty girl”

“Mom!”

“what? Am I wrong? I should’ve been the first to know about her, she looks so pretty” Jeonghan was about to say but was cut off by his dad, “Jeonghan, I trust you a lot and I know whatever decision you take, you always take the right decision for yourself. And I hope you made all the decisions after thinking about everything. And I respect all your decisions.” He took a pause and then again continued “That’s what I was talking with Aisha’s parents, about everything, why didn’t you tell us? We are your parents. Dating was optional but the moment Aisha got pregnant, you could’ve told us, we are your parents, and the same goes for Aisha. Aisha, this is the happiest news ever, you are going to be a mother, imagine the happiness your mom and dad would feel” Aisha was feeling guilty, the grip of Jeonghan’s hand on her got tighter, and she was trying not to react. “I was the one who stopped Aisha from telling you all because I hadn’t decided the rings and everything yet, Aisha did tell her parents about me but then I got a little busy with work and then they happened to come visit Aisha. But here we are now discussing everything with you all”

“When were you planning to tell us exactly?” The fact Jeonghan was trying his best to convince and cover up everything, he needed to speak up for Aisha because he could feel, she was starting to feel pressurizing and guilt was getting her.

“The next day” he took a pause, “the day Aisha’s parents visited us, just the day after that”

“Perfect then” Aisha’s mom spoke, and everyone looked at her. “Because we already talked about that day, because it felt like Aisha wasn’t ready to share this news with us”

“Mom, it wasn’t like that,” Aisha had to support whatever Jeonghan was saying, “as Jeonghan said, we were planning for the next day.”

“But tell me one thing” It was Aisha’s dad, someone whom she respected a lot and loved a lot. “doesn’t matter how much both you grow, you will be kids for us because you’re our kids. So, tell me one thing, are you happy? I’m asking both of you. Are you ready for the hardships you’re going to face? marriage is a sacred bond. Marriage is a pure bond which ties two people with love, marriage brings two souls closer with love, even if you don’t love eachother, you’ll fall in love, that kind of bond it is.” Everything Aisha’s father was saying, Aisha was trying to hold back her tears, each word was making her realize, which step she was going to take and she was tying Jeonghan with herself in this pure bond, probably without love but for Jeonghan Aisha’s father words were which were making him realize a lot of things.

“We are happy together” It was unexpected but both said in unison and Jeonghan’s hands were still holding Aisha’s hands.

Jeonghan was calm and composed, but Aisha, looked at Jeonghan. She wanted to talk to him, ask him so many things, wanted to ask him, ‘what are we doing here right now Jeonghan?’ everyone looked so happy.

“That’s great. I’m happy that you are happy” Everyone smiled at them as if their smile was enough to give the blessings to them. “Looks like we need to hurry up and prepare for the wedding soon” Ari walked towards her brother and teased him.

“Sure, we were thinking if we could get married next week because Aisha would be entering her fourth month of pregnancy.”

“Jeonghan-

Aisha never talked about her pregnancy openly till now and she was taken aback.

“There’s nothing to be embarrassed by Aisha, we should know as well, why would it be only your soon-to-be husband?” Jeonghan’s mother smiled at her.

“So, next week it is” Ari hugged her brother.

“I’m excited to have a sister-in-law” Ari hugged Aisha and she hugged back.

“this is my birthday gift?”

Bang Chan one shot

Pairing: Bang Chan × Female reader

Genre: Fluff

Warnings: no warnings it’s just fluff

word count: 1.2K

Author’s Note: This was a very random idea for his birthday, and I wrote this in a rushed way, hope you still find it cute >< Happy Chan day 💗💗 love him so much and this is not proofread- still I hope you enjoy <3

Happy Reading :)

I was wondering, how to waste time till midnight, since our dinner was over and we were already on the way to his car. “It’s getting late Ava” I saw it was almost 11 pm.

“I will drive, tonight” he gave me a look, “What?”

“Why suddenly?”

“I just want to, no arguments Chan”

“Okay, okay” he nodded and laughed at me.

“Let’s get in” he got inside the car and so did I. I had this whole thing planned, it would barely take twenty minutes for me to reach my home, it’s not that far. I looked at my watch, I had almost forty-five minutes in total.

I started driving, Chan played some music “I am craving for ice cream Chan,” my eyes were still focused on the road, “but you said no when I asked if we should order there?”

“Having ice creams outside is fun”

“As you say Ava” I smiled at his defeat. Maybe he was busy with all the song recordings and work, I get it but I wanted to surprise him for his birthday. I wonder if he remembers if tonight, well practically tomorrow is his birthday.

Soon, I parked the car and went out to buy ice cream. Chan was smiling, “you look happy”

“Yes, because I am with you.” I turned to look at him, “This is why I tell you, we should go out often and you shouldn’t overwork always. I know work is important but at times you should take some days off and enjoy everything around you” he got closer and pinched my cheeks “yes ma’am” he always took me in surprise.

While pinching my cheeks, his face was very close to my face. Every time, he comes this close to me, the proximity kills me. Makes me wonder, how is this guy the most adorable guy I found in my life and we are dating; it’s been probably four months but I just want to kiss all over him whenever he is this close to me but I am just shy to even take a step.

Soon, we reached the ice cream stall and took our favorite flavors and since I wanted to use up all the time, I was eating slowly.

“So, how was your day?” he asked me, “It was good but dinner and now an unplanned ice cream date made it better.” He smiled at me. “that’s sweet”

“I know I am” I laughed it off and he was staring at me, “what happened?”

“You’re so pretty Ava” he smiled at me and the urge to kiss him was something I was resisting.

After finishing our ice creams, I went to drive again, I looked at the time, and I still had a lot of time. I had an idea, to drive away to another place. I was praying for him to not notice, so I kept him busy with conversations. “Ava”

“Yes?”

“Where are we going?”

“To my home? remember you told me it’s getting late and I don’t think you will like it if your girlfriend takes a cab home from your place?” I kept my eyes on the road and tried to steal a glance at his face, “Yes, but this is not the way to your home”

“And who do you think knows better?”

“Yes, but” I took a turn which was the way to my office, “Ava, are you sure?”

I stopped the car and looked at him, “Oh shit, this is the way to my office, guess we need to go back”

“Ava, how could you?” he looked at me in disbelief, “It’s night time Chan, it happens.”

“Gosh, next time I am driving you back home, you messy girl” he laughed and I started driving again.

And according to me, it took twenty minutes for us to reach. I pulled into my driveway, “we reached, see.”

“yeah.” He looked at me, I could say he didn’t want to let me go. There was something, between us, I could always read him like a book, I could tell when he wanted to be with me or he didn’t want to let me go, I could tell if he was holding back the urge to play with me or tease me.

“Come with me.” he looked confused, “I need to show you something, then you can go back home” he looked skeptical, “Come on, Chan. Let’s go.”

I pull him out of the car, successfully. I hold his hand and he follows me; I missed holding his hands.

I unlock the door of my house and switch on the lights first. I pull him and make him sit on the kitchen aisle, he looks at me. I was waiting for the clock to strike at 12 am. I went towards the fridge, “what are you searching for Ava?” I was about to take out the cake, I baked for him and felt his arms around my waist. “Chan?”

“Yes?” he rested his head on my shoulder, I took out the cake carefully, “A cake?” he lifted his face but his arms didn’t leave my waist, “Yes” I kept the cake on the kitchen aisle and took out the candles.

After lighting them up, I heard the clock. “Happy birthday Chan” he looked surprised, “you remembered?”

“How could I forget?” I smiled at him, he possibly didn’t think I would forget his birthday. “Now, make a wish and blow out the candles, I made this for you” he nodded, he closed his eyes and wished for something, he looked at me and smiled; the moment he opened his eyes. I gestured for him to blow out the candles and he did. “Happy Birthday love” he looked surprised because this was the first time I called him ‘love’ rather than ‘Chan’

“Thank you so much, my love” he smiled at me, I was about to say something but then he leaned in close, his breath was hitting my face, I was waiting for him to give him but he kissed my cheeks. “thankyou so much for this”

Once he pulled back, he looked at me, “Now where’s my gift? Baby?” I was wondering how to do, every time I think about kissing him, I just don’t get the courage. I took a deep breath, “Close your eyes, and I will give you your birthday gift.” He smiled at me and closed his eyes.

“Okay” he said and waited for me, I was preparing myself. I took a deep breath and leaned closer and just kissed him. Once I kissed him, I was about to pull back but his hand went to hold my neck and he pulled me closer. And kissed me better than I did “this is my birthday gift?” he asked me in between kisses and smiled.

“Yes” I said and kissed him again, his other hand was on my waist, “Then I want every day as my birthday if I get to kiss you as my birthday gift”

I pulled back and looked at him, “You need to eat this cake and go home” I stepped back, and he suddenly pulled me closer, “are you sure you want to let me go, after our first kiss” I was about to answer him but he kissed me again.

Tum se hi

“Jeonghan one shot”

Pairing: Yoon Jeonghan x female reader

Genre: fluff [desi setting]

Warnings: no warnings

Word count: 1.1 K

Author’s Note: I am back with another husband Jeonghan imagine, this was actually quite impulsive, and I wrote this at 1 am. I have no idea if this whole imagine made sense or not, but i hope you enjoy reading this small fluff. And i was writing while reading this song, somewhere I felt like this described how much Jeonghan loved her. AND IT’S NOT PROOFREAD

happy reading :)

I walked out of the bathroom and saw, Noor getting ready, more like wearing the red saree. Somewhere I was lost, inside her when she was fixing her saree, and her hair was done with a pretty bun, with her curtains bangs out and making her look so beautiful, as if I was smitten by her beauty. She was literally glowing.

The way her fingers were trying to fix her saree slowly; it reminded me of the day I first saw her in a saree, and she wore a red saree at that time as well. It wasn’t at our wedding, but it was at peheli rasoi. Considering we saw each other in marriage, and the look on her face, made me realize that there was some missing part in my life that I was searching for and I found it right infront of me. The way she looked at me through the flower curtain before signing and saying ‘qubool hai’ three times, was the first time I heard her voice and my heart told me how I would be hearing it for the rest of my life, how I would be waking up to this voice and ending my day with it.

I was still when she moved her hands to fix her pallu, I was still lost in her. She was trying to pin her pallu, but it wasn’t working. I walked towards her, when she looked so focused in her saree.

I held the pallu and she looked at me through the mirror, she looked taken aback, her eyes told me she didn’t expect me to be here. She was about to say something, “let me” and she nodded.

Once her pallu was pinned and she looked at the mirror, my heart almost skipped beat when our fingers touched, she was looking so breathtaking. How does she pull off to look this pretty every time. “and ho gaya yeh” (and it’s done)

“thank you”

“aapke liye kuch bhi” (anything for you) and the smile when she is flustered on her face was something that meant a lot to me. I saw her move her hands to pick up the chain, but I was fast to pick it up. How could I let her do everything when she looked so fine and pretty but mine?

I held her shoulder, and she looked so flustered when I put the chain around her neck, I could say she couldn’t say a single thing because she was very flustered. This was probably the first time I was helping her to get ready, it’s always her who gets ready even before I can admire her in the morning and sometimes I am so thankful for some events or festivals when I see her getting ready in the morning wearing saree or kurti-patiyala or sharara. I love the way she takes my breath away.

“aaj kya ho gaya, you’re helping me today?” (what happened to you today, you're helping me?) she smiled at me, I won’t lie when I say she looks the prettiest when she smiles.

“chain pehena raha hun aapko” I took a pause and told her what my heart wanted to say “Aur itni sundar jo lag rahi hain, thore hi aapko sab karne de sakta hun. Mujhe bhi thori aapki khubsurati ko niharne ka mauka den” she was flustered again. I picked her earrings which were on the dressing table, I helped her with them. Earrings just added lives to my life. If only words could help me describe how much she looked like mine.

I saw the kamarband and picked it up, she was surprised, “Yeh aap kya- I cut her off pulling her waist and then putting the kamarband around her waist. I was too focused on her.

Once I was done, it reminded me how she loved wearing payal and I would definitely want her to wear payal today, afterall she looked so beautiful and I could take my eyes off her “Stay here and give me a second” she nodded. I went to open the wardrobe where I kept the new payal I bought for her. I was waiting for the right time and I won’t get a better time than this.

I went to her and showed her the payal, she almost gasped, “Aapke liye laya tha” (bought this for you)

“Thank you” and her smile was worthless, even millions of diamonds wouldn’t be able to buy her smile, probably because her smile was worth my life.

I bent down and gestured her to keep her foot on my thigh, so that I could put the payal on her. Jab bhi woh payal pehen k chalti thi, mujhe lagta tha meri zindagi chal rahi hai aur mai apni zindagi k samne jhukne k liye bhi taiyaar hun

Once she gave me her feet and I put the payal around her, I got up and looked at her. Admiration was the first thing I could do and it felt surreal that she was mine. Then came love, and she was the perfect definition of love. It felt like my life got meaning ever since she came into my life, her presence was the reason why I was standing here and falling in love with her every second.

I was looking at her eyes and it felt like I was lost in her eyes, her eyes were telling me something with love, we don’t need words to confess or tell that we are falling in love, actions speak louder than words. “aapko payal pasand toh ai na?” she nodded and smiled, “thank you so much” I took a step closer to her and tugged her hair strands and couldn’t resist myself from saying “kitni sundar lag rahi hain aap” She looked at me and gave me a smile.

Oh my gosh. One look at her right now and I realized how much I love her, can she even tell how much I already love her?

God forbid me from falling this hard for her.

I gave her my smile subconsciously while I had her thoughts about how I fell in love with her the moment I saw her behind the flower curtains during our nikah. And how everything she does makes me fall in love with her over again

And in a blink I felt her lips on mine briefly. She ran away even before I could react, my fingers went to touch my lips where she kissed me; I was just standing there processing that she just kissed me like that and ran away even before I could kiss her back.

I ran out of the room, in the hope I would catch her before she could go downstairs, I noticed she was near the staircase and pulled her by her arm, “Where are you running away?” I leaned towards her and kissed her before she could say a single word. I pulled her closer by her waist, she couldn’t just steal my first kiss like that.

Once I let her go, I looked at her, she was way too flustered to speak a single word, so I decided to speak up “I know itni sundar hoke jaa rahi hain, par meri hi hoke wapas aana, meri jaan” and I kissed her once again.

Nothing could describe how much I love her.

His betrayal

Seungcheol one shot

Pairing: Choi Seungcheol × Fem reader

Genre: Angst

Warnings: Gun, breaking of glass, mention of betrayal, please let me know if I missed any warnings

Word count: 1.2K

Author’s Note: This was in draft and I don’t remember since when, but this was also impulsive. Hope you like this, mafia Seungcheol.

LIKE IMAGINE HIM SO HOT IN MAFIA AAHHHH

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Taglist (networks) : @kflixnet @caratwritersclub

I just had one aim right now and that was to kill him right now, with the gun he gave me which had my initials engraved. I wanted answers, I couldn’t care less about anything right now. I ignored everything and went to his office.

I slammed the door open, and he didn’t even look surprised, as if he was waiting for me to come; he still had that heartless cold face. “What are you doing here?” I ignored his question and held the gun tight. I pointed the gun at him, “WHY WOULD YOU LIE TO ME?”

“I told you to leave and never come back ever again.” I couldn’t take his words anymore, the way he hurt me a few hours ago, I was ready to leave in grief but then the moment everything became clear, his intentions, his dirty tricks, and the way he used me just to gain power and take down my family. I couldn’t care less how much I was broken right now but I needed answers and I wanted to end everything. I’m not going to take his orders anymore, the girl who was ready to take orders from him and leave was long gone.

“WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME CHOI SEUNGCHEOL?” I never raised my voice at him.

“Put that gun down.” His orders weren’t going to work for me anymore.

“Tell me or else I’ll shoot you right now.” I wanted my tears to stop, but they weren’t. I wasn’t in my fucking right mind. How am I supposed to stay sane when he was my first for everything and he betrayed me just like that? How many times I told myself that I shouldn’t have trusted his words but I was the fool, who fell in love with him and trusted him with my everything.

“I’m telling you again, put that gun down.” His dominating voice was scaring me, making my body go through chills but I couldn’t back off. He could make me feel intimidated but not right now, I can’t let him make me feel that.

“Answer me or else I’ll shoot you!” I needed answers from him, why would he do this?

“Was none of these true?” tears threatening to fall again; I aimed at his window and pulled the trigger with all the force. The moment I heard the glasses break, I felt at peace.

“JESUS CHRIST, AZALEA PUT THAT GUN DOWN.”

“Not until you tell me everything, I will kill you and everyone today” I didn’t lie when I said that. I had my mind set, on shooting him first and not caring about any consequences, because I very well knew what his best friend would do to me if I hurt Seungcheol. Was everything a game to him? Was I a game to him?

As soon as I said, I heard footsteps approaching, “Are you okay?” I didn’t have to turn around to feel guns pointing at me and Jeonghan standing there as the head. One order from him and I’m done. “Don’t you dare to shoot. Leave, I’ve got her.”

The footsteps started disappearing and my grip got tighter around the gun; he was trying to take a step toward me, “Don’t take a step, or else I will shoot you Seungcheol. I’m not even scared of anything anymore. Not after you made a damn game out of me.”

“Azalea, calm down. Slowly, calm down.” No matter how much his voice tried to calm me down, but I wouldn’t; the rage flowing inside drove me insane. Everything turned upside down in a second.

The moment I found out his plotting, making me fall in love with him, manipulating me into telling him everything about my family and what is my dad up to, and he was going to destroy my whole family, take over the whole familia, and make our family go bankrupt, I’m not letting him hurt me and my family. I can’t see my mom and my sister crying because of this one asshole I fell in love with.

“It’s simple, tell me or else I kill you and kill myself right after that” I took a deep breath, “because you made a fool out of me” I closed my eyes to stop the tears remembering how I witnessed his conversation with my dad and then I felt a sudden force on my hands and the gun fell but before I could hold it, he caught the gun and twisted my hand. “I always told you never to be distracted when you set your mind on killing someone.” That’s when I knew I messed up. He pushed me towards a wall, still holding one of my hands, my back touching the cold wall of his office. He lifted my face using the gun, I was holding before; I wanted the tears to stop but the moment I felt him so close to me, it reminded me of the moments we spent together till today and everything turned out to be a lie, so that he could use me against my own family later.

He forced me to look at him, “Look at me”

“why would you do that!” I screamed in his face, I was hurt, I wasn’t okay, he had to know how much I hated myself for believing him and his lies, he had to know how much I regretted loving him and I wanted to hate him right now but the love I had for him could never compare. I didn’t want to break down infront of him but nothing was helping me out, not even the fully loaded gun forcing me to look at him. “I did this to save you princess” his voice was low; it was enough for me to listen.

“Shut up Choi Seungcheol. Shut the fuck up” my voice was the only thing I could hear right now, “WHY WOULD YOU MAKE ME FALL IN LOVE”

“Sweetheart, I told you not to fall in love with the demon” and he loosened the grip of his hand on my wrist, I wanted to hit him push him but I felt like I had no energy left after I was battling with myself

“Why would you do this Seungcheol….” I started hitting him with all the force I had “Why would you do this to me Cheol?!” he lowered his gun, and it fell on the floor. I broke down in his arms, gripping his shirt, where I was hitting him earlier. His arms wrapped around me, “It started as a lie but I thought I could let you go so that we could pretend none of this happened but this feels impossible. This was the only way to push you away, this world is not for you. There was a reason you were kept away from all of this princess.” My sobs were getting louder, I needed to cry and let it out.

“I started loving you so bad that it hurts so much why would you do this to me Seungcheol why” he was caressing my hair, “I love you Azalea”

“Why would you do this, why?! You know I can’t live without you and I won’t let you live today” I grabbed the gun before he had the chance. I pointed it towards his heart, “Shoot me. If you think I’m still lying.” I wasn’t going to believe him anymore.

“Stop it Seungcheol, I’m not believing you anymore, you lied to me, and you broke me to the extent that I can never trust anyone anymore.”

“Remember I love you and will love you but what you did to me was unforgivable.” And I pulled the trigger.

and then I met you

[seven]

Pairing: Jeonghan × fem reader × Seungcheol

Synopsis: Falling in love with bestfriend’s ex wasn’t something that Jeonghan planned

Genre: hurt/comfort

Warning: mention of baby bump

Word count: 1.5K

Author’s Note: Finally got the motivation to write, I was having writer's block but here I am. Also I didn’t do proofread yet ><

Happy reading :)

Taglist: @scarlet789 @jjeongddol @shinetogether17

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Aisha was getting closer to Ari, especially after meeting with the parents, Ari wanted Aisha’s contacts, and according to her she got a sister.

Aisha had to choose her wedding dress and after Ari got to know, she insisted on joining, since Jeonghan can’t see her in the wedding dress before the wedding. Ari and Aisha were starting to enjoy each other’s company. There was something about Ari, she liked a lot; the way she made her feel, the whole sister love. At times, Aisha would get overwhelmed but then she would realize she would be getting more of it since Ari would be her sister-in-law.

Since the wedding dates were getting closer, both the families were getting busy, with everything. Jeonghan would tell Aisha to take care of herself more; since Aisha was staying with her family till the wedding.

Aisha was already used to this side of Jeonghan but Jeonghan was realizing slowly that it wasn’t just a friend’s care and it was scaring him. At times he would simply call Aisha because he would be missing her voice and would ask her to take care of herself because that was the only excuse he could give for now. As the wedding date was getting closer, Jeonghan was battling if he should invite Seungcheol or not, somewhere Jeonghan still considered him as his friend but he wasn’t sure if it was the same from Seungcheol’s side or not. The way things went downhill and now calling him on the wedding was more like he was confirming Seungcheol’s doubt into truth or he wanted to show Seungcheol that he could take could better care of Aisha than him. All these assumptions were messing up Jeonghan, somewhere he wanted Seungcheol back as his bestfriend but what hurt him the most was the doubt and the way he assumed that something like this could actually happen between him and Aisha

Out of respect for their years of friendship and courtesy, Jeonghan did send him the wedding invitation but with a letter as a last try to fix things, somewhere he had a hope, maybe he would show up at the wedding and fix everything. Jeonghan wrote to him clearly, ‘This is the one last time I am ever asking you anything, please come to the wedding and listen to Aisha one last time or if you ever thought me as your friend then you’ll give me a chance to speak and you will know that this is all a misunderstanding and how hard it is for Aisha. Please Seungcheol, just one last time. Because somewhere I know that she still loves you.’

Although he didn’t tell Aisha at first; he told her after sorting out his messy thoughts. One thing Jeonghan didn’t tell her was about the letter. And Aisha was okay with the wedding invitation because somewhere Aisha also wanted Seungcheol to show that she was getting married to Jeonghan and she was done explaining everything to him.

*****

“Aisha, are you ready?” Aisha was nervous, she looked at the mirror and then at her mom. “I am” She smiled at her mom and then looked down at her belly. The small baby bump which she could feel, was making her overwhelmed; her mom came and kissed her forehead, “I am sorry for the way I behaved that day infront of you and Jeonghan, if I knew then I wouldn’t have-

“Mom, you’re my mother. You’ve all the right to be mad about this.” Somewhere Aisha was guilty because none of this was planned and the way Jeonghan’s words affected everything and led to the wedding. Somewhere she was thankful to Jeonghan but it was beyond her understanding why was Jeonghan doing all this, and how did they end up like this.

“Aisha…” her mom was tearing up and looking at her, Aisha was trying to hold back her tears. She was getting married, her life is going to change, and the baby is going to have a dad. Aisha was overwhelmed with everything and the way she planned everything with Seungcheol was replaced by Jeonghan, now she is going to be Jeonghan’s wife and Jeonghan is going to be the baby’s dad.

She knew Jeonghan could be the best dad but somewhere all the feelings for Seungcheol which she burnt weeks ago were coming back as a betrayal. “Aisha don’t cry” and she realized her tears were already falling.

Aisha’s dad entered and saw the mother-daughter moment; he smiled at them and walked towards Aisha and hugged her carefully. “You will be an amazing wife and a great mother, I just know it my baby” her dad wiped her tears and kissed her forehead. “Don’t ruin your makeup and it’s almost time to go” Aisha nodded.

“I can’t believe my girl is a grown up already and getting married.” He pinched her cheeks and Aisha smiled. “Let’s go now?” her dad extended his arm and Aisha nodded.

“Please don’t let me fall” Aisha almost whispered, “how can I even my pretty daughter” he gave his happiest smile to her, and the moment the door opened, Aisha walked down the aisle with her dad. She was trying to keep a smile while walking, and on the other hand, Jeonghan had his eyes set on her. The way her dress looked so pretty on her, for him she wasn’t looking less than a Disney princess. The way she was walking gracefully towards him holding the bouquet, he was lost in her; he wanted to tell him that this was wrong but then he wanted today to be his cheat day and think about her and the wedding.

Jeonghan was so lost in Aisha that he couldn’t even see anyone else other than her, walking and holding the bouquet, the moment she came closer, he was tearing up because of how beautiful she looked and how he couldn’t believe any of this.

He had a little hope that Seungcheol would show up before the wedding and fix everything but there he was, standing in the front and witnessing their wedding which simply meant he wasn’t even ready to give anyone one last chance and stuck to his own point, about the whole misunderstanding.

The moment he stepped down the stage and went to take her hand from her dad, they had a short eye contact, before giving Aisha’s hand, her dad spoke “Take care of her, I am trusting you since Aisha loves you and choose you. Don’t let her cry or hurt her, if you ever feel that you’re going to hurt her, return my daughter back to me”

“I will take care of her and never let her cry. I promise” and Aisha was holding back her tears, and the moment her dad gave her hand to Jeonghan, he tightened the grip. Somewhere the word ‘love’ felt so foreign to both of them, because they knew what happened and what was coming for them.

He led her to the center and he looked at her, he could see her trying hard not to cry. He was still holding her hand and drawing circles, when they were facing each other during vows, it was his way of telling her not to cry and stress and that he was here for her.

Somewhere Aisha’s eyes found Seungcheol, she was looking at him. The pain, the love she felt for him was replacing with an unknown emotion, but the betrayal feeling was still there and it was telling her, that she deserved better. Better than Seungcheol.

Because of what Seungcheol did, she could never forgive him; for ruining everything.

After Jeonghan and Aisha’s vows, Jeonghan just heard one sentence which was enough to turn everything upside down.

“You may kiss the bride” kiss? He knew what was coming but he didn’t think it was going to be this nerve-wreaking. He was hesitating, he was okay with hugs and all the skinship that happened between him and Aisha but the kiss was out of the question. But he had to, and he needed the consent before he kissed her. Without her consent, he won’t even make a single move.

He leaned towards Aisha, and he could almost hear his own heartbeat; “Can I kiss you?” Aisha was taken aback because she didn’t even imagine Jeonghan asking for her consent for the kiss. Aisha’s eyes went to that one person who was looking at them with his undivided attention, she had one thing on her mind and that was to tell that one person that she was okay, she was better with Jeonghan now without any regrets because she deserved better.

“Kiss me. Kiss me hard Jeonghan, he needs to see what he came to see”

“I asked you for permission of the kiss not to kiss you as his payback for what he did Aisha” There was a shift in his voice, which Aisha didn’t expect. Jeonghan didn’t want to kiss her as a payback or as a show for Seungcheol, he was genuine when he asked, and saying no wasn’t that hard. Soon, Jeonghan cupped Aisha’s face and put his finger on her lips, so that when he kisses her; he would kiss his finger and not her but it would look like he kissed her.

Once he leaned in to kiss, the crowd cheered but Aisha was confused, and Jeonghan had his eyes closed. He wanted Aisha to understand that he wouldn’t do anything that she wanted as a payback to Seungcheol.

Once he pulled back with a smile, the whole crowd cheered again and the father announced, “And I announce them as husband and wife”

In the name of Love

“Xu Minghao one shot”

Pairing: Xu Minghao x female reader

Genre: Angst

Warnings: mcd (major character death), mentions of suicide, drowning, ocean, choking, jumping off a rooftop

Word count: 2.9K

Author’s Note: I DO NOT SUPPORT or ENCOURAGE suicide or any self harm in any way. And if you are uncomfortable in any of these tags, please don’t read.

Happy reading :)

It was the few days before summer came in full blow. The nights were still cold but the afternoons were warm, leading people to come out of their houses and play with the warm sand.

It was nearing spring, but my heart felt stuck in eternal winter.

I looked at the pink and white card on my desk, taunting me with its content.

The reason for the numbness I was willing into my heart.

“I want us to have a green and beige-themed wedding, it’d look so pretty. Right, Minghao?”

Just when I had thought that my heart was unfeeling and my eyes had cried all its tears out, the ache in my chest as the memories flooded through my brain, I realized maybe I would never be able to let her go.

Maybe it was my destiny to live the unrequited love while the love of my life went and got married to the one man I had considered my best friend.

Mingyu and Abhi.

The two people I had trusted the most, didn’t only go behind my back but also are going to start their new lives together as a wedded couple while I am left behind to pick up the thorns of their roses.

“Come on Minghao, are you really jealous of your best friend? He’s the one who I have thought of as a brother since we met. You are the one I have always loved”

Lies.

It was all pretty lies that somehow he had believed because he was blinded by love and now, here he is.

Minghao is alone in this room while the entire town is at their wedding.

It grows hotter and hotter as Minghao’s brain is filled with the moments of their betrayal.

Going to Mingyu’s home and finding Abhi there, cooking for him.

Seeing them hanging out at the club through their Instagram stories.

Their parents always being super close with each other and have dinners on a regular basis.

Minghao knows he should have known. He should have realized the truth when it was right in front of him but he was too blinded by love and too trusting.

He had loved Abhi and trusted Mingyu and in return, he received lies and betrayal.

The sadness was gone, what remained now was the anger.

How dare they play him like that?

How dare they lie to him for 4 years?

This was it.

Minghao wanted answers.

Why did Abhi not tell him she had fallen for his best friend? Why the act?

Minghao rushed to his car.

He had decided not to go to their wedding but he needed some kind of answer or else he was afraid he was going to go crazy.

Minghao hurries to the basement of the building and drives out in a rush.

The wedding location is 2 hours away and the wedding is in 3 hours.

He is sure he can get some answers before the marriage takes place.

“We should get the gardenias for our wedding. It's really pretty.”

“Minghao we should name our child based on stars. Two cuties born from love and adoration.”

“Minghao, I love you”

“Yes! A hundred thousand times Yes. I will marry you”

“I have to get married to Mingyu”

Tears threatened to fall as he recalled all the moments he had spent with Abhi.

It was still painful. It was still confusing.

To him, Abhi was the one.

He still cannot imagine a life without her so why? Why did she leave him?

Why was she marrying someone else when she knew Minghao wouldn’t be able to live without her?

‘Why did you do that Abhi? Was my love not enough?’

The place where the wedding was supposed to take place was pretty just as he had thought it to be.

But it was all wrong.

Instead of beige and green, it was white and lavender.

Instead of gardenias, there were orchids.

Instead of Minghao and Abhi, it was Mingyu and Abhi.

The pain bloomed once again as he saw photos of his ex-best friend and girlfriend, smiling at each other, excited to start their new lives.

“Minghao?” He sees the person in front of him. It was Ira, Abhi’s elder sister. “What are you doing here?” 

“I was invited?”

Ira visibly pales “I know. I just thought you wouldn’t actually attend the wedding.”

Minghao bursts out laughing. “And why is that? It is after all the wedding ceremony of two people who are so perfectly made for each other. Both are so pro in betraying others.”

Minghao knows it’s not Ira’s fault but he’s too angry to speak nicely to anyone.

“It's now what you think it is. Abhi-” 

“Leave it. I don’t want to hear any excuses.”

Minghao walks away from Ira. He knows he is being disrespectful, but he really doesn’t want to hear any excuses from others.

What he wants are answers, directly from Abhi. 

Thankfully Minghao doesn't encounter anyone else on the way to the dressing room and barges straight into the “For Bride” hall.

He notices the perfume the first thing he opens the door. It’s hers.

Nostalgia hits him as he realizes how much he missed her scent.

But also, how it reminds him of her betrayal.

The smell that used to make him feel calm, now only ignites embers of betrayal and broken promises.

Then he sees her, sitting in front of the mirror.

She’s just as stunning as he had imagined her to be in all of his fantasies and Minghao momentarily forgets why he was there.

The white dress, the veil, the diamond glowing against her skin. She looked like the prettiest girl in the world.

“Minghao?” Her voice broke my stupor, bringing back all the bad memories of her betrayal and the reason why I was here.

“Are you really here?”For some reason, Minghao sees her face transform from pale sadness to hopefulness. He knows he shouldn't care but his instincts force him to go near her, comfort her and not say a word that might hurt her.

He ignores the pang in his chest.

“Why are you so surprised? Weren’t you the one who sent me the invite?” The hope in her eyes dulls.

“Did you even open it? The invite?”

Minghao feels the anger coming back. He steps closer to her. “And why would I do that? So that you can laugh about how you made a fool of me and my love for you? No Abhi, I did not open the invite because I was not interested in it at all.”

Minghao sees as tears fall out of her eyes but he’s too far gone to care at the moment.

“Did you really think I was here to bless your marriage and congratulate the people who betrayed me? Or did you think I was here to get fooled by you two once again?”

“Minghao, you have to listen to me.”

“NO! YOU WILL LISTEN TO ME MRS ABHIRA MINGYU KIM.” I knew it was bad, I knew I was out of control, but I had lost all my semblance of control since the day I woke up and heard news about these two. And it was not directly from them. Not only was I betrayed, but I wasn’t even important enough to know the truth. But I refused to be disrespected anymore.

“So tell me, Abhi, since when have you been going behind my back and hooking up with my so-called best friend? Since when the two of you have been laughing at my loyalty?”

“Minghao please calm down and listen to me. Please.”

“The only thing I want to listen to is the reason you had to do this. Why didn’t you just tell me you liked him? Did you think I wouldn’t have understood you falling for him while being with me? Or did cheating on me give you some sick kind of pleasure?”

“Minghao please you are hurting me” He saw the scrunch on Abhi’s face and then looked down to see the grip he had on her arm. He immediately let go, the distraction somewhat dissipating his anger.

“Not more than how you hurt me.”

Minghao turned as he realized it was not worth it anymore. If she really wanted to be married to Mingyu, he’d give her that. 

It was his last gift to her, his first and only love.

“Get married to Mingyu, Abhi. But don’t ever show your face to me. This is my last consideration to both of you”

Minghao walked out of the hall, ignoring the cries of Abhi who wanted him to listen to her.

But really, nothing remained to be said or heard.

Minghao straight away went to get his car, ignoring everything that was happening around him, and before he knew it, he was on the road, hitting 70 miles per hour.

His phone kept blaring but he ignored it all until his eyes were burning from the impact of the air and tears.

45 missed calls from Mingyu.

33 missed calls from Ira.

1 missed call from Abhi.

Minghao got hit by dread.

For some reason, an ominous feeling hit him, and he knew it in his heart. Something bad has happened.

Very bad.

His phone blares again and this time it's not Mingyu or Ira or Abhi.

It's Charles, his secretary.

Minghao feels his heart stop beating.

Something very bad has happened.

Very very bad.

He answers the call.

“Charles..?”

Minghao is unable to talk.

“Mr Minghao where have you been? Mr Mingyu has been wanting to reach out to you for the past hour.”

“Tell him he doesn’t have anything he can say that will mend our relationship. He is a betrayer and I will never forgive him or Abhi-”

“Miss Abhira passed away.”

The world goes pin drop silence as Minghao feels his eardrums ring. No way did he hear it right.

“WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?”

“Miss Abhira Ranawat took her own life. She jumped from the rooftop of her wedding venue and was pronounced dead while being transferred to the hospital due to a rupture of all internal organs.”

Minghao couldn’t concentrate on what Charles was saying anymore.

He couldn’t concentrate on where he was going.

Abhi…. 

Dead.

No.

Dead..?

No way.

It can…

It ain’t…

It’s not true.

No. Abhi cannot be dead.

She cannot die.

She’s not dead.

He doesn’t believe it.

HE CAN'T BELIEVE IT.

HE REFUSES TO BELIEVE IT.

The air feels thick and impossible to intake as Minghao dials Ira’s number.

The phone rings for 3 dials before he hears Ira’s voice.

“YOU BASTARD. WHAT? WHAT DID YOU EVER SAY TO MY BABY SISTER THAT MADE HER DO THIS? I WILL NEVER FORIVE YOU. I SWEAR I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU.”

Before he can reply, Minghao hears another voice.

“Minghao…”

Minghao feels dread fill his heart which twists the organ.

“Tell me it’s not true.”

The voice that comes out is way too calm for how he is feeling.

But he hopes, he wishes, he prays to all Gods above for Mingyu to ascertain that it’s not true.

That Abhi is still….

That she is still living and her heart is still beating.

He will do anything, forgive her, give her anything and everything she wants, as long as what he heard was not true.

“Her last wish was for you to read the letter.”

And just like that, Minghao’s entire world collapses.

No.

“You are lying…”

“I so wish I was…You don’t even realize how much”

Minghao doesn’t even cut the call. It just falls out of his hand as they lose all strength.

She’s dead.

Abhi is dead.

Minghao remembers all the bad things he told her… All the blame…

He remembers her tears and curses himself.

Why?

WHY?

Why did he have to do that?

Why did he treat her like that?

If she wanted to marry Mingyu, he should have just let her.

Why did he have to go and ruin her like that?

At least she would have been alive.

At least his world wouldn’t have ended.

WHY

WHY DID SHE TAKE HIS WORDS SO SERIOUSLY?

“I thought you read the letter…That’s why you are here..”

Minghao opens the wedding cursed invitation and a white paper falls out of it.

His tears make it difficult to read the words inked but by the time he completes reading it, his tears stop.

Instead, his world blackens.

The sun? It’s not there.

The people laughing? They are taunts in his ears which can hear everything clearly.

His heart stops but he is still breathing.

He shouldn’t.

He cannot.

He must not breathe, not when he is the reason Abhi is not breathing anymore.

He deserves to be punished.

More importantly, he refuses to live in a world where Abhi doesn’t exist.

Minghao is in auto mode as his legs walk towards the vast ocean that is in front of him.

He should have just let her get married to Mingyu.

Minghao knew he never deserved Abhi…He should have just stayed in the hotel.

He should have read the letter.

He should have listened when she was trying to explain.

Why was he so prideful?

Why was he so stupid?

Why did he let a girl like Abhi was the form of sunshine take, such a drastic step?

Why did Abhi just not slap him instead when he was blaming her?

The cold water broke his stupor and his body’s defense mechanism was forcing him to get out but he pushed through it.

He was a killer.

A murderer who forced the death of his own love. 

He needs to be punished.

The first taste of the ice-cold salty ocean water awakened his brain but his heart had long since shut down.

He needs to bear the pain.

His hands and legs start kicking as water enters his lungs, burning his windpipe and begging him to swim out.

He should not live.

A few seconds later he feels his body going numb from the lack of oxygen and his brain is dark. But at the end of darkness, he sees light. It’s small but definite.

The coldness is no longer there.

Instead, he feels warm.

The light dissipates the darkness and warmth covers him.

“Minghao please don’t do this.”

The voice tells him as he feels himself floating in the air instead of water.

“I have to. I need to.”

“Minghao please…”

“No Abhi. I cannot live in a world where you don’t exist. Don’t tell me to do the impossible.”

“But I did that so you can live peacefully…”

“I am sorry you felt like that. That is why I need to be punished.”

“NO”

“I will meet you soon Abhi. After I atone for my sins, I will meet you and I will give you all the happiness you deserve. Just be happy till then.”

“Minghao please, stop.”

“I have made up my mind.”

“Let’s meet in another life”

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“Not everyone can like you, you’ll have a person that you’ll hate and there would be someone who will hate you for no reason, if that’s the case, it’s not something you can change. Accept it and live confidently” ~ Choi Seungcheol

I am more of an angst writer than of a fluff

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