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I have a crush on self isolation don’t tell her tho

Frozen pizza is forever my #1 safe food. 🍕❤

I wish I could stop obsessively counting calories and just eat "intuitively", but the thought of not knowing the EXACT number of calories I'm consuming at all times TERRIFIES ME.

Remember to go a little easier on yourself. You'll never get to where you want to be if you keep pushing yourself beyond your limits. That's just a recipe for disastrous burnout. Trust me.

Story of my f*cking life!!!!!!

The worst part about being autistic is the way everyone assumes you just have the worst intentions possible with everything you say. I don't understand these rules, I'm not trying to be rude. I'm not trying to send any secret fucking convoluted ass code telling people around me I hate them. It fucking sucks that I can't hold down a job because people think I'm just an asshole. And I don't even know what the hell it was that made them think that half the time.

I say what I mean and I mean what I say but that's a nonsensical ridiculous concept to most people ever it seems.

There's chocolate cake in the fridge and I'm not at all tempted to eat it, even though I'm very hungry today. That's growth.

Can't wait until it's cold enough outside to retire my ice-cold energy drinks for the year and start drinking hot coffee all day again. ☕🥰 Not only is it super cozy, it's also a great appetite suppressant. 💙

I wish I could let myself have a guilt-free (hah!) cheat day every once in a while just to let off some steam and get some of my crazy junk food cravings out of my system. Rationally I know one day every 2 or 3 weeks won't make me fat. The problem is, as a past binge eater, I know how easily a cheat "day" can turn into a cheat week, or even a cheat month. It's all or nothing with me. 😖

Ugh, just thinking about it is making me want to go exercise (again). Why can't I just be normal??

mental illness makes me seem like such a deeply unserious person. no sorry i can’t do things or cope with stuff or get over it or move forward or self regulate. yes i’m a grown woman

I am SO ready for hot soup season. 🥣❄🥰

I'm so fatigued from working out every day. I know I should probably take a day or two off, but I don't wanna. 🥺 My early morning workout time is my happy place! 🥰 Plus I don't want to stall my progress.

I've challenged myself to do no body checks in October. It's so hard! 😩

I never grew up, and I know now that I never will.

I wish I was pretty and dainty enough to pull off the dark circles and bags under the eyes look. Instead of looking like a sickly little gothic waif, I just look old and haggard.