Ed Rambles - Tumblr Posts

This is gonna sound bad but being knee deep in an ED was a lot cheaper, recovery got my wallet struggling. I’m still going to try and not relapse into my old habits but DAMN THIS IS EXPENSIVE.

Omfg wtf is wrong with me and why is this so hard to do?! I just want to lose weight. I want to be skinny and tiny. I want to be disgusted my food and eating. I want to always say no to eating when people ask. I want to be so skinny that the next time I see my friends they worry about be and tell me how skinny I’ve gotten but I can’t do it no matter how much I want to. There’s something fucking wrong with me why can’t I just stop eating so fucking much and be normal.

i actually hate having broad shoulders but they’re broad in a skinny girl way but DAMN i wish if i could wear baby tees without it choking my shoulders like i look so good in most shit but ughhh BUT damn do i look intimidating when i wear tube tops

halter tops for life unfortunately

i’m really nervous bc i’m gonna be out of town for two days without access to a sc@le. it’s a family trip too so i’m gonna be eating more than usual. i haven’t felt this level of anxiety since the last time i got to a LW. maybe it’s bc i’ve been so good recently and i don’t wanna g@in but i’m like shitting myself idk how to stay calm. i’m shaking just thinking about it