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How my face changed due to suffering to anorexia: during and after

Everyone talks about physical changes like weight loss, muscle loss, paleness, and hair loss, but the face changes often get ignored. This is all from my experience.

Eyebrows: we all know about hair loss, but my eyebrows used to also be very thin.

Eyes: it's hard to explain, but after a long time of not eating, they sunked in, my pupils got smaller. My eyebags were dark due to exhaustion.

Nose: due to face fat loss, it appeared bigger, but no big changes happened.

Lips: they used to appear much thinner. I tried searching up why, but I can't find any information about it.

Again, this is all from my experience and everyone is different. Recovery is the best thing I ever did. I feel much prettier, stronger and happier. I hope this post can inspire or educate someone.

Quick reminders!

- We all slip up. We all make mistakes. Don’t let these small mishaps define your future self.

- You are worthy. You are worthy of love and support. You deserve to be happy. Life is too short to limit yourself.

- If you’re considering recovering, DO IT. Escape this hell if you can. It’s not easy, but it is worth it. If you relapse, you can always try again.

I love all of you, and if you ever need me, message me. 💕

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holy shit i was in a bad place when i was active on this account, doing better now though. I even got a girlfriend and got clean!

Hey yall :) I just wanted some advice, please don’t read any further if you get triggered by mentions of ED or Weight or anything like that, love yall.

I’m really conflicted rn, I don’t know who to talk to about this bc I’m scared my friends or family will think I’m overreacting

It’s no big deal, but it rubbed me the wrong way

I was walking to school after grabbing some lunch with my friends and Bf, we were talking about what food to get after school bc we were doing extra work and most likely wouldn’t be able to get home for a proper dinner.

and I jokingly said “I can finish a McDonald’s cheeseburger in a few bites”

I was laughing and my friend were laughing along too, it was obvious I was exaggerating, but my boyfriend goes

“I can tell”

And I laughed it off at the time, I already wasn’t having a great day, he had been making a few other jabs at me throughout the day, so I elected to ignore it, we went back to school, I felt humiliated, so I just plugged in my headphones, picked at a bag of crisps and did some work on my laptop.

I didn’t know how to confront it earlier, but I was so upset, to the point that I was uncomfortable around him, I was making spelling mistakes on my course work, to which he made a few more jabs at me for.

I’ve had an ed for the past 4 years, im slightly chubby, I don’t know how to go about this without looking like I’m playing it up or making myself look like a victim.

I know this isn’t what I usually post, sorry.

i’ve learned that my “ugh bad food time to vomit” reflex and my “huh new food time to vomit” reflexes feel the same. so now i have to rethink whether new foods are bad because they’re bad or bad because they’re new. kind of exhausting but maybe i’ll learn to like something other than chicken nuggets

Hi!!!!!! This is a blog for my recovering ed thoughts <333 I hope that anyone who comes across it might enjoy! I love beautiful things and sweet people and I’m just trying to get better!

I don’t want to have an ed I really don’t it’s not fun it’s not cute I’m not myself but I also can’t imagine gaining weight again I would never want this for anyone else

I love my friends and I love my partner and I love my life why do I feel this way?? Life is about having fun and drinking wine and loving everything and everyone and seeing cathedrals everywhere why are all my thoughts about food and my weight and myself am I really that selfish?

I literally never cry but I am rn I think I needed this blog I have only had it for like an hour but now my thoughts can be buffeted between cute animals and gorgeous people and food that looks too good to be real I’m glad I can be alive knowing others have been through what I’m going through and they survived and so will I

I cannot be tender by hating how the world created me I cannot be sweet and gentle and nice if I don’t treat myself well, it doesn’t count!! I am doing my best and everyone will notice the sun kissing my cheeks and treating me so lovingly because I whisper sweet nothings to it all day thanking it for gracing me all of me!! Even if the all of me is bigger than society wants it to be!

People are not gentle with me but I can be gentle with myself I can I can I can!!!!

God damn!!!!

The world and all it shelters is so beautiful and I will say that meaning me included someday even if I have to take the knife from my throat to form the words

When I’m hungry I can’t think too hard about what to eat or else the rules start flooding in and I just end up eating banana chips in the break room because that’s safe enough, I have to move on instinct I will get better at this I will

My therapist made me get rid of my scale and I truly am at a loss for what to do at least I had an inanimate object controlling my mood now day to day I’m just picking and choosing when to like what I see

Not to be so annoying but oh my god I don’t know how to consume media without wishing I looked like someone else I constantly wonder how my partner is attracted to me because I’m not skinny like Sydney fucking Sweeney I can’t do it I feel like this should be funnier than it is lol

Sometimes I remember the fact that I’ve always kinda had an ed like as long as I can think back my eating was disordered at best and I felt so disgusting and wrong for not being able to hold myself back from eating, it’s mind blowing how impressionable you are as a kid

Many girls with eds—and I do align myself with girls in this way, I too wish to be petite and delicate—talk about being so thin you can see their bones, the sharpness protruding, the ache, and I differ in this way. I want to be unseen. I want my body to do magic tricks. I want it to disappear, bones and all, only to be pulled out of someone’s hat to an ever applauding crowd

I have been freaking out about my weight since my therapist made me give my roomie my scale but tonight I sneaked it over and used it really quick before they came home and I’m two pounds lighter than the last time I weighed myself I’m truly winning I’m also going feral

I want to be skinny so bad it’s like a never ending thought I can’t not be skinny I see no point of anything if I can’t be